I was walking down
The gravel of the school,
Suddenly I felt,
Like a shadow was behind me,
Staring, looking, waiting.


I hoped it was him.
I wanted it to be him.
I wanted to believe it was him.
I hoped and prayed it was him.
Even if there was a chance it wasn’t.


I wanted it to be so badly.
I wanted to take back my words.
Tell him that I loved him,
That age didn’t matter.

 
Tell him that,
He didn’t have to be with her,
That I was there,
For him.

 
Tell him we could change the world,
Break the rules,
Make a difference.
Tell him that it was me he wanted,
And I knew.

 
Tell him that I could finally,
Have the happy ever after,
That I always wanted.
That nothing could stop us.
 

I wanted him to know,
That we can have,
Everything we wanted,
That life wasn’t something to hate.
 

I wanted to tell him,
That I would die happy,
If took my hand,
And held onto it,
Until it was my end.

 
I wanted him to know,
That I loved him,
And I wanted to know,
If he felt the same.


I wanted,
My life to take a turn,
Be what it should be,
Be what I wished.


I wanted,
To wrap my arms around him,
And hold on,
Till death did us apart.

 
I wanted him to know,
That we can.
I kept praying,
Not letting the negative in,
Keeping my hopes up,
Then I turned around.

 
There was no one.

You only realize,
That you miss someone,
When they've left you,
Forever.

I was forced,
And I hated that place.
But I forgot there were good,
People like you.


I regret not thinking straight,
Because now I miss you,
I miss you smiling,
Cracking a joke all the time.

You sure didn't have the cleanest mind,
But that made you all the more funny,
Your humour,
And constant laughter.

I never hated you,
How would I?
You were so sweet,
So nice.

You got along with everyone,
Hid your feelings to the ones you hated.
But you changed ways behind their backs,
Making all of us laugh.

You're the one person I miss the most,
The one person I wish back.
The one person I want here with me,
The one that I need to make me smile.

I don't love you,
But I need you,
I need some happiness,
To turn this frown the right side.

I wish I could turn back time,
So I can treasure those moments with you.
I don't want to regret,
For being the worst friend.

You did laugh,
At the things you shouldn't,
But I forgive,
And I forget.

I dream of seeing you,
So many times,
I just want to say goodbye,
one last time.

But we're parting further,
So I can never see you again.
Connections fail,
To make me contented.

So, keep this poem,
so you can remember,
you changed my life,
and you'll stay in me forever.

Goodbye’s can be harsh,
With me, it always is,
A farewell to a piece of my life,
A piece of my heart

In the end, I’m left alone,
I never see it coming,
Just like when I met you,
I never knew you were worth it,

Friends or no friends,
We weren’t always,
But in my mind,
We were, always

My feelings were hurt, yes,
But at least you were with me,
Now I see into the future,
With us, there is no destiny,

We don’t feel the same way,
Pains me, it does,
But who can blame you,
For not feeling what I wish?

I can’t force love,
But like friends, I can’t
Stop doing what I do,
Saying what I say,

So maybe it’s best,
Before you part,
We stop being friends,
And I’ll be left with a broken heart,

People say,
“Live life with no regrets”
That’s why we should move on,
So I won’t be hurt again,

I hate doing this,
But it’s for the best,
I love you more than anything,
More than a friend,

Goodbye to another loved one,
Even if I know what it feels like,
I’m inexperienced when it comes ,
My heart breaking to pieces

Ignore my raging tears and please, Please do as I say:

Just clear your head,
Forget we ever met,
And let me be lonely,
Again.

Some find happiness easy to find,
Some find it hard.
I’m one of those people,
Who really don’t know.

 
But my days of sunshine,
Are gone for good.
I stare at the photo of us,
And can’t believe we were.
 

Why is it,
That when I’m happy,
Someone of something,
Decides to ruin it all?

 
I slowly eat my chocolate,
Letting the sweetness,
 Swallow my pain.
 

I throw the frame,
 To the ground.
Hearing the crash,
I pull myself together.


I take another bite of my chocolate,
As memories rush into my mind,
Of you and me loving each other,
As a tear slips down my eye.

 
I can’t keep it together,
My chocolate tastes sour,
What happened to us?
What happened to you?
 

My tears rush like a waterfall,
Creating a river around me,
My chocolate can’t do its job anymore,
It is no more sweet.


I drop the chocolate,
Hoping it would stop,
The taste,
The pain.
 

I still miss you,
So much, it hurts.
But you never gave me the love, 
Like the one the chocolate gave me.

I trace fingers down my arm,
Imagining yours,
Inked.
 

I close my eyes,
Think back to us,
Memories.


Your tattooed arm,
My favorite beanie,
Gone.

 
Your smile,
Your hug,
Missing.
 

Am I supposed to leave you?
Am I supposed to forget?
Even though it was you,
Do you still miss me?
Questions.
 

I know it’s your dream,
Since you were a kid.
But now that you’ve met me,
Do you see me beside you in it?
Dreams.
 

I’m not used to this,
I can’t do it.
I lean down my pillow,
And I still smell your scent
Empty.
 

Why can’t you come home?
I need you now,
I’ve never felt this way before,
Please, help me.
Pleads.
 

I don’t like being alone,
 I miss my heart beating,
At your smile.
When it flutters,
At your touch.
Addicted.


Like a drug.
You aren’t good for me.
Who am I kidding?
I need you so bad.
Drugged.
 

I want your kiss,
Your skin upon mine,
Your lips against mine,
Your soothing words melting mine.
Wishes.
 

Your tattoos,
Meaningless.
Yet so many reasons,
For every single one.
Trance.
 

A tear falls.
My heart against yours,
Racing each other,
But staying close.
Metaphors.
 

Love was once a mistake.
And I never trusted again.
Then I met you,
And you turned my world around.
Happiness.
 

Maybe I’m dreaming,
I close my eyes.
I’ll wake up with you in my bed,
And forget everything.
Disappointment.
 

These are real tears,
You’ll never be able to see,
That I hate to admit it,
But I think I love you.
Light bulb.

 
And I realize.
You kisses make me wanna fly.
Those nights with you made me feel special.
That’s all you wanted.
Recognize.

 
I held on to the man of my life,
But let go.
Now I’ll never be able to see you again,
Because I didn’t get it.
Understood.


These tears keep flowing,
Now I get it.
I held my walls for too high,
Too long.
Corrected.

 
Can you hear me?
I want you to know,
This poem is for you,
My aesthetic pleasure.
Literature.


It’s you that I want.
I’m sorry for not believing.
I know you are the one.
My one and only.
Romantic.

 
Take these tears,
To show the world,
Take my blood,
And let me write:
True Love.

It can’t hurt you,
But only make you fonder,
It silences the silence,
With beauty.

Makes you feel,
As if you’re in outer space.
No one can find you,
No one can hurt you.

Peace,
Makes you calm,
The only sound you hear,
Is the music making its way to your heart.

It’s a mist,
Only in the color your desire,
It moves around,
Slowly wrapping itself around your soul.

It’s emotional,
Can speak to you,
But the words soothe you,
Telling you to fly.

Music is made,
Sung,
And heard,
It’s what keeps us alive.
It’s what gives us life.

Get lost in the sweet, amazing feeling that I call music.  
                                                              ~d(-_-)b~