You came at a really strange time
My feelings were slipping
My everything was confused
I couldn't do anything
There you were
Staring at me
As I walked by
A cold mean stare
Preying on me
You looked hungry
You looked at me as if I was your next meal
Then you attacked
But I fought back so hard
I knew your game so I let you charge
I stayed focused the whole time
Understood every detail and didn't have hopes to make you mine
We got so far into it and then we crashed because you knew that what we had could never last
We tried to block each other it didn't work
I tried to call
You moved
You think that I don't know but I do
What will I do with you ?

I love you to the moon and back let's stay up at the moon in fact
We'll make a little room, we'll shack
He'll try to make a move, my man
But we will get there soon my friend
He tends to keep his eyes on me though we have the whole galaxy
Makes me feel so special even though we've got more to see
He wants to be with me
To share his life with me

I wish that I could get rich off writing poetry and ****
I know that wishing is no better than actually doing it
I understand the ways of the world
If I dare interrupt then it'd cast a spell
One I can undo
Only if I am good to you
Only if I share my pain
In order to do no more than gain

Your words they slip right out of my hand
Your lips they kiss but it's so sad
You don't want me
No longer need me
When we're together it's like you don't believe me
How can I trust someone who won't trust me
How could I breathe when the answers are so hard to see

When is the last time you wrote something?
Was it when you felt good?
Was it when everything seemed great?
Was it when you had a lot of food on your plate?
Or none at all?
What sparks your writer's bone?

It's needed it's not a choice
Speak up let them hear your voice
Show your children that there is a way out
Show them on your own don't let them suddenly find out
Be honest from the start
Be open when it comes to that heart
Remember they need you
Don't forget about the time when you were a kid
Wanting everything and being able to get it
Give it to them
Give your all to them

I get so ******* mad at you but when I'm lying down next to you it feels better than being alone and cold and when you hold me and look at me with bright eyes I feel hopeful and I forget the bad

The world suddenly went quiet
In all the best ways
You showed me that love was never there
I learned that the feelings I had with you were opressed for over 10 years
Now I've come back with great vingence and you hate this version of me
You can't stand that I have a voice
You can't accept that I love myself now and how smart I am now
You and everything you're made of just settled in me and I can't unsee it. You were never good
I only believed it

I always seem to hate the things I love at some point
I don't get it
I wish you were here with me
No kidding
I ended up hating you
But you didn't
I saw you changing and it hurt me I was depressed
And you deserted me
You left me all cold and worried
You never loved me you were just *****

You are young you are sweet but you need to learn a few more things
You're still growing up I think and that's fine just don't involve me

When the brain no longer hums, you have won
When the tears no longer swell, you have won
When the flesh no longer bounds you to Earth, you have won
Your soul speaks so kindly
It is beautiful
You knew that the physical could not hold you down
You are so much more than flesh and bones
You are here, you are home

I want to say that I love you
It's so dumb to
I've loved too many people
How do I know if it's right with you?

All that I have left are these flashing sad memories
I think of you at your best and then you start to think of me
We were cool and we had it good until you started to leave
Then everything turned to **** baby how could this be
I need to live and start my life I need your help I need my guy
But you went and left you have gone away
I need you the most and you're not here to stay
What can I say what can I do when all I want is to be with you

Hey Moses
I didn’t really know you
After we all got separated from each other, we all changed drastically
It is not your fault
I wish you had someone
We all had at least someone
I’m sorry for the way your life went
I’m sorry we couldn’t be there for you
You did the best you could
And I’m proud of you because you tried for so long!
You could have called me any time I would have answered
We were always there for you, brother
If you knew me, you’d know you can call even if you were angry with me
I would have answered
You are welcomed in my life
You are welcome here
I wish I could have known you
But the old you, the baby you was the only you I knew
We grew up and let the world take us and now there only lies a few
Moses, what are we going to do?

His smile is so fake and I think that it's okay because nobody notices anyway
But I do and I wish that I can fix I wish that I could help but honestly I am more worried about myself because I am important but so is he he is important he is worried about his family and I'm stuck here in the heat standing and laughing and wondering why I let myself slip away and there is nothing I can do in this case there is nothing I can say to change the way that things are going I am alone but I am soaring in the minds of the lonley because I am there too it may not seem like it but I am and it's not okay to smile away and neglect the pain

Letters to the moon
She won't send them back
Letters to the moon

Trust me
When I say that you need to stop caring about what they think
You need to stop caring about what they think
Sometimes it is impossible to let go
But that is the only way
Happiness is always open just like a super Walmart
Learn to understand your own brain and your own heart
Let people in at your own risk
Teach people the way you are and show them that if they choose to leave then they will miss you tomorrow
Because they will
When you are so secure in yourself they will

Got into writing and I can not stop doing it
How to undo all of this foolishness??
I'm taking my time
To write
To think

Out of touch with reality
How to snap back?
I don't know how you see
Everything is haunting me
Not only the past but what lies ahead of me
It is not bright it is dark it is sticky

She thinks it's funny that I rhyme
I think it's sad that she wastes time
It could all be better for the both of us
But what was said will never be undone

Art is the only thing with no boundaries yet you refuse to create you keep this hold on your throat and you let it decide what it does with you.
You could easily choose not to but this is where we are now
I hate to leave you in the dust but this is where we are now
You mean nothing to me and you have meant nothing for the longest time
You have created a horrible life for yourself and you continually blame it on other people and that is not their fault this is your responsibility and you should take care of it
This is what you have to show for what you have worked hard for and I hope it is worth it I hope you find love and peace and happiness and most importantly wealth even though i don't mean financial wealth but I do mean wealth and health and happiness.

Backflips on my mind
The summer is gone I'm off my grind
What have I done these past 6 months besides complain and whine
There was nothing I did to help the kid there was nothing I did to become stronger
I just stayed sober until the year was over and started to actually feel this boulder
I've been carrying it on my back I've been feeling so insane I've been making moves and spending time trying to control everything

did I really give up on this??

I still have to recover
I still have to wait
I still have to witness you go through that pain
I can easily block you but the pictures keep popping up
I never knew I followed so many people who are hitting that rock
You brought so much hurt and it hurts to blame you but it's the reality no one can change you and if the woman who is meant to be with you was standing there in front of your face, you'd probably turn her down all because of her race and you'd choose the next one because she seems like she is more fun she has no ID no sense of well being she doesn't give a **** about anything but you still care you want to be with her then go
go if you dare

Get inspired by the music
Get inspired and then lose it
Go crazy
Yeah baby
January weather is finally over
It's getting hot
It's now or never
Make a move

We're both scared
Nothing is original no more
All we do is fear
No one is for real no more

Honestly not giving a ****
Always singing or dancing
Always laughing
Struggling and asking for help
No one lent a hand
I am sorry that this was your reality
You deserved so much
You went through too much much for this to be the end
I am hoping to reunite with you
I am hoping to reunite with you

Do I love you ?
Do I want to spend the rest of my days with you?
Do you love me?
Is *** all that you want from me?

Daddy issues is really a thing
I only feel great when I'm the one celebrating

I have all day
God has given me the best kind of life
I am going to chase my dream
I am chasing my dream
I will do what I can to get where I want
To get where I need

Being away from you was probably the worst feeling in the world
I never realized that the term homesick can also apply to people
I am homesick for you
I miss you
This time there is no meeting up
This time there is nothing
I will not be able to see you again
I will not be able to see you again
This pains me deeply

This absent feeling
Just warmed up by the sun
Hungry in the back seat
Just like everyone
She's driving towards home so we think that we are done
Only to pull into the parking lot of another one
The long drives to pick up used items
The starving stomachs and the attitudes
The constant reminder that you better not be rude
The feeling you get when you finally get some food
A bean and cheese burrito
It'll have to do

Has it really been five days?
I can always check
I just want to sit and act like I can't

evolve or stay the same
I didn't get the chance to do the things I loved because the spirit of depression was so strong
I prayed it away and was able to live another day
When I found out about my powers I shared them with others
They were confused
I now know to keep them to myself and let the world unfold in front of me
Taking apart the sky
Piece by piece
Not ever understanding poetry
I guess I could educate myself
Figure out how they dress
How they talk
What they listen to
I will be less like me and be more like you because I deserve to live a long happy life
No matter what I tell the others I too have a dream
I will feed that dream no matter what it takes
I will do what brings a smile to my sons face

I am starting to see that you have nothing to do with me
That I should just up and walk away
For whatever reason it may be
But it is a gut wrenching feeling
For whatever reason
I have to leave you in the dust and not tell you anything
I have to get back on my grind
It takes one step at a time
The things you are saying without even saying it
The places you go and you aren't even paying

I know this feeling
This feeling is not a friend
It will chew you up and spit you out again
Leaving a hard heart
Throbbing veins and head
You can not lay comfortably in bed
You must be up and outdoors
Nothing is more important than your chores
You fear the future you fear the past
Danger lies ahead if this feeling lasts

Hey,
I'm okay. I am able to rest now. It's so dark in here but I love it. I am able to finally be who I want without judgment
Everyone is so kind and loving
I have a huge yard where I can play football "touchdown"
A big big house it's my father's house
Don't worry bink I am always here with you  I love you forever don't be scared
Tell Ariah I said I love her and tell Ambrosia and Azarae I'll be with them soon.

I'll explain it from his perspective because from mine it seems to be less hectic
He had his days where there were soft blues and greys
He had it made where he could have anything he'd ever wanted
He loved so much it tore him up
He became evil and mean
It's his fault they fought and fought until he was feeling haunted
He turned to drugs and loved them much
Forgetting those who loved him
He turned to drugs because they were the only ones to keep him feeling important
From his perspective I'm cool calm and collected
That made him insane he couldn't believe how calm I was and he became vain

Trying to eat normally
That is what the girl in my medical class said
She also said that she was going to quit
She didn't
She didn't quit
She is still here
So is the other girl who said she was going back home
You look dumb
It shouldn't matter to you bu you look dumb
It matters to me because women should be free
Women should do as they say
Women should not stray away
From responsibility
And when times are grey

I won't ever let you treat me this was again
I can never even claim you as a friend
Ever
You have made a mistake and I told you this isn't easy to fake
Everything that you do makes me think
Maybe I am not the crazy one
Maybe you drove me crazy for fun
It's something you think about on a daily
Something you do to shame me

Quit staring at me is how I feel
Look the other way
I honestly keep seeing you look my way and when I look up you look away
I do not know if it's envy
I do not know if it is jealousy
I do not know if you are scared of me
All I know is I want to breathe
I can not do that normally
As long as you keep staring at me
Let me be

Bless the world with your beauty
The world will bless you with it's love
The world will take care of you
The world will help you
You must help the world

If my life is meant to write poems and songs then let it be
I can't be wrong
I love to do many things that excite me
I love to do things that are bad
I love to do great things and
I only want what I never had
peace and love are for me
Poems and songs set me free
From all the bad things that they all left for me

There is a fire that dances in my chest
Holding on to my heart it knows you best
Everything I do is for you and for my son
I want to see us win
It feels like we won
You are always with me no matter what
I get up and I fight for you and for my baby
I get up and repeat this on a daily
You are the sweetest and you are the coolest I wish that things could have been different with you and your world
I introduced you to mine and you adored it but decided it otherwise
I remember thinking I wasn't good enough to save you but that wasn't the case
The poison was just so deep in your veins that you couldn't help but let it stay because the moment you tried to release it, you got sicker and weaker
Your world depended on it and I had to stay away but that is the game of life we can choose to leave or to stay

I think of the words the wise ones have told me
I think of the feeling that they gave to me
I think of the success
One day I'll be successful

I felt protected next to you
I felt like you understood
I felt like you were always there to help
When no one else would
I can not believe that you are gone
It hurts today
Tomorrow
Yesterday

I wasn't there and you withered away
I wish that I could have understood how much you needed me
Before it was too late
It would be nice to see you again and hold your hands and sit on your lap
It would be nice just to see you smile
It would be nice to see you dance again
Like you did when we were kids
You always kept a smile on your face through the toughest times
You always brought joy to the people around you.
I love you, Sister,

He's fake
He wants this
He walks around pretending that this doesn't matter
Pretending that he can do better

you guys ever think about the things you did and think "what the ***" what the *** what the *** I can not believe that I have done that
Anyways all of the things I have done are now in the past and it is now up to me to make a better life and all of that for sure I have so much to look forward to but at the same time it is so scary and it is so strange to even think about the past
The past is a dark place but I have so much to get done right now we will talk later okay?

you couldn't walk with me but I can see that you walk with her
I hope that she can teach you something I hope that you can learn
How to treat a woman and how not to burn
the people who loved you before
the people who have given more
than what they give themselves and what they give their families
I hope she gives you the strength to do better you'd think
that you would know by now but it is over
there are times where i think you are changed but it is over