did I really give up on this??

We often panic alone and in silence
Never do we try and quit the violence
We dress up and that is not enough to hide it
Everyone is fooled because they can't see inside us

I know you have a new love
However, I wish you the best
If you didn't find happiness in me
Maybe someone else will give it to you
As the flower, with so much love you gave me,
withered
I am leaving today I know how to lose
But it hurts so much
If you saw how it hurts to lose your love
I don't know if I can love again
Because I gave you all the love I could give

The feelings she put you on
You owe her one
Her love is powerful her love is strong
She wants you and loves you
She keeps you warm
She loves you and tells you that you're important

Struggling with the source
Struggling where the next turn will be
Only to realize that I control that decision

I want to keep writing because I do not want to lose this
Every now and then I feel it slipping
I can't control the way things go
I can control my decisions
I can control what mood I am in
Forever I will be at peace
No longer aggrumentative

Do what you must and your friends will adjust
And if they don't they aren't your friends and you should probably get away from them