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Bella-Lee Dec 2019
Told me you want me,
But you let me go.
Told me you need me,
But you don't let it show.
Bella-Lee Aug 2019
I need you to know...
You are amazing,
You are smart.
You are caring,
You are worth it.
You are adorable.
And no...
You aren't useless.
You aren't horrible,
You aren't worthless.
I love you...
And yes...
Even when you're sad too.
You are my everything now,
I need you to know...
I never want you to feel down.
Bella-Lee Jan 2020
If you were on the moon,
To the moon I would go to.
I love you to the moon,
Which I would fly for my boo.
And if we don't get back,
Atleast I'm stuck with you.
My world amongst the stars,
Perfectly breathless too.
Toy
Bella-Lee Nov 2019
Toy
Treat me like I'm a b**ch,
Ill treat you like my toy.
Ill chew you up and spit you out,
You'll wish you were a boy.
Cause just like Pinocchio,
Your long nosed due to lies.
But like that wooden doll,
You're nothing but my toys.
Bella-Lee May 2022
How do you know you have found your twin flame?
Is it random and unknowing,
Or is it something thats always existed?
For,
Oh how the first time I heard his voice,
My heart felt like the serenity - in the crashing waves amongst themselves.
And how when I first saw his eyes,
My eyes wished to fixate upon him - at every waking chance they had open.
How when he holds me and touches me,
My soul dances within me - feeling the flame of his igniting mine.
How do I know if he is my twin flame?
For Im not sure of the existance of one or even the origin of its name.
It certainly feels like it could be <3
Bella-Lee Jan 2020
The stars,
Don't shine as bright as your eyes.
The moon,
May sway the rise and lowering of tides.
The earth,
Will continue to orbit around our dying sun.
But I will,
Keep loving you till this universe is done.
Bella-Lee Nov 2019
I'm not lonely again,
I made some friends.
I have a boyfriend,
But I'm not sure if this will end.
Not my relationships,
But the feeling of happiness.
Cause I'm way happier than before,
I don't want to be any less
Bella-Lee Feb 2020
My life is unpredictable,
Its not something easily read.
It's like words scribbled on a page,
And songs stuck inside your head.

It entices me,
Hooks me in like a punch line.
And when everything going good,
It kicks in and everything is not fine.

Words stuck in my head,
Mummbled about.
Stuck on this page,
And constantly scribbling out.

Ideas,
Words,
Lover,
Colour.

Only to redraw the picture,
To then destroy it again.
So much effort wasted,
Just to find a friend.

We find things in life but still,
My life is random as ****.
These thing we find we lose again,
I think I'm just out of luck.
Bella-Lee Dec 2019
After 124 poems,
Maybe 3 words
Are more powerful
Than infinity
Bella-Lee Mar 2020
Maybe I'd be worth something,
If I was just an *** and not a face
On phone screen.
Maybe that's the one way to be ever seen,
To put your body and avoid the brains
On someones screen.
Bella-Lee May 2022
why is it that when i start to write poetry about someone... it always goes south...
Bella-Lee Mar 2022
He told me he loved me,
Then he left me.
Now I HAVE TO WONDER IF I AM EVER LOVEABLE AGAIN!
He said he would never leave me,
Now I HAVE TO WONDER WHO IS GOING TO STAY IN MY LIFE.
NOW IM STUCK WITH ALL THE FEELINGS OF
EMPTINESS....
                       LONELINESS.....
                                               ABANDOMENT.......

Why did he promise me?
Why didnt he do what he said?
Why am I not good enough for the simple things?
Why?
Why cant he feel these things?
Bella-Lee Sep 2022
im sorry your life couldnt turn out like a fairytale. that instead of being loved and cared for, you were neglected and abused. im sorry that love wasnt what you wanted. im sorry that you read through poetry every night to try and make sense of this world. but i do wish you the best. i wish you happiness and peace. may poetry be your solitude.
Bella-Lee Sep 2019
So tell me why I feel so alone
In a world full of 8 billion people,
And why music is the only thing
That rests my soul
Bella-Lee May 2020
I wrote love songs for hours,
On and on with out an end.
I really thought that you were,
My best friend... but you weren't.
I'd like to tell you everything,
That you did to make me hurt.
But doubt you'd ever listen,
Or take in a single word
And fix your miskates,
But you wouldn't care anyway...
Bella-Lee Oct 2020
I wish i could look up at the skys,
And just see the stars.
Instead of devils eyes,
Looking back at me.
Bella-Lee Dec 2019
My heart is like a voice inside my head,
My soul is guided and lost among the dead.
Yet I think I'm alive,
But I breathe like I only just died.
Bella-Lee May 2022
If I fall for him...
I hope that everytime I feel his touch on my skin,
That it has the same passion and feeling as though the first time.
Bella-Lee Aug 2019
I hate how some of my poems,
Get read less than others.
Even when my over all pain,
And suffering smothers.
It seems the most real,
Poems I write my feeling covers.
Bella-Lee Feb 2020
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In this feature,
Stressing,
Freedom,
Working,
Death.
Are taken,
Up a level.
Wish to install,
Adulthood?

No...
Bella-Lee Feb 2020
Words we write are paper thin,
Can rip, fray and wither away.

Words we say cannot always win,
The battles we all undergo.

Words like knives that cut like sin,
Won't hurt as much as a bullet through skin.

Words explain feeling and thoughts in,
Ways our bodies cannot comprehend.
Bella-Lee Sep 2019
You ****** up my sadness,
And happiness seemed to go with it.
Now I'm alot less,
Than I was without you.





But now you're gone,
And I still feel lost.
Bella-Lee Jul 2020
Such a light name and personality,
With a dark and violent past.
We see what we want to see,
The broken is what comes last.

All we see and express is violence,
Yet happy in our broken world.
We're just like the colour violet,
Mistaken for purple as just another word.
Bella-Lee Feb 2020
10 hours and still no text,
But I'll wait for you.
7 days and I still can't see you,
But I'll wait for you.
I'm ready for forever,
But still I'll wait for you.

I will wait for you,
In rain or shine.
I will wait for you,
To say that you're mine.
Bella-Lee Oct 2020
Trailing down shopping lists,
Flicking through the shelves.
I want to be seen by them,
But I dont want to be an item.
Boys like me, are attracted to me... and as much as I want it... why do I just feel like an item
Bella-Lee Apr 2022
I want to be touched,
I want you hands on my skin to erase every persons that placed their hands upon my skin,
Rubbing me up and down until the smudges that were left by those who did me wrong are taken off my canvase.
I want to be touched,
I want to be touched by your love and warmth and to be engolfed in the flames of passion,
Melting the ice and coldness from my flesh that froze over from neglect and feeling cold alone in the wilderness of life.
I want to be touched,
I want not only that but to be held in your arms and to feel safe, to feel at home,
Protecting me from those who hurt me or held me down from my goals and my ambitions and from being myself.
I want to be touched,
I want to be felt,
I want to be heard,
I want to be loved.
Bella-Lee Nov 2019
Amidst the flowers they all lay,
Amongst a sky loomed in grey.
Soil seeps and weeps the liquid,
Seamed in bodies and tears vivid.
Meadows are violent graveyards now,
Misting the death defying vow.
War causes misery and terror,
Wallowing of sorrow for the horror.
Yet we live in what's called peace,
Yet we live in a world on least.
Do we live in death,
Does death define life's worth?
A.A.S.S.M.M.W.W.Y.Y.D.D
Are all of surviving society meant to meet, where the world yearns you to due death?
Bella-Lee Apr 2022
"Are you drinking water?"
No...
I'm drowning in it.
Bella-Lee Jun 2020
What am I to you?
But a,
horrible daughter.
I can't see through,
My tears right now.

What am I to you?
But a,
Nasty sister.
However all my secrets,
Are spilled by you.

What am I to you?
But a,
Disappointment.
Where am I supposed to go,
If out of this house I am sent?
Bella-Lee Feb 2020
What if I never get over,
Your touch?
Or your smile,
And your laugh?

What if I never get over,
My happiness?
Feeling whole,
And complete with you?

What if I never get over,
You?

You?
No, I will never get over you.

I love you till my hearts content,
I will love you till we reach our end.
And to death do us part,
Be extended till forever we will stay!
Happy Valentine's Day people!! Being the first year no prank has been pulled on me and I finally have a proper Valentine!!! Ohhh I love my boyfriend
Bella-Lee Jan 2020
And I asked you what is love?
          Is what I feel, the thing I wish it is?
But when love is just,

Let downs                   and
Oppression
Verified            with over bearing
Expectations

                                   How can I say this is love?
          When love has only been torment?
And so I ask you, what is love?
Bella-Lee Sep 2020
Why can't we love,
Whom or who we love?
Without fear of abandonment,
Or resentment.
Why can't my mother trust?
I just want to figure it out myself.
I know what's best,
For me and I just want MY love.
Bella-Lee Dec 2019
Why do you love me?
Because you are perfect
How tho? And all the reasons he listed them,
you are beautiful
smart
funny
a lil weird
**** af
I'd never been happier in my life til,
And you are the love of my life
Just as that list made it's conclusion,
I know from now on I will love him for all my life.
Bella-Lee Aug 2019
They just do sometimes.
Whether its not telling me whats wrong,
to just acting so stupid.
The constant feeling of hate,
Then saying that they love me.
Or just in general...
Why? I Don't know...

Sometimes peoples words hums,
A nice little song.
And paints something vivid,
Shows me life's fate.
So people don't you see,
Being not confused is a struggle...
But it helps my words flow...
Let's see how far this goes with one tag
Bella-Lee Sep 2020
Life will get better,
Oh they tell me over and over again.
When will life get better?
But my life has only just begun.
You will get better,
But when will all I feel be something but pain.
When will I get better?
I don't feel the same, as happy as I was young.
Bella-Lee Dec 2019
I'm in wonderland,
Everything's so sweet.
Until the wicked queen,
I shall meet.
And I'll tumble again down,
The never ending rabbit hole.
Oh, If love is this wonderland,
You're nothing but a fool.
Bella-Lee May 2020
Sometimes I feel
my words go amiss
my thoughts are real
the soul they do kiss

my words say sorry
for the emotions they admit
i don't want you to worry
the fire they lit...
wont consume me
Bella-Lee Jul 2021
Tens of thousands of words,
Yet never enough to describe what you mean to me.
Bella-Lee Mar 2020
Ever get that feeling,
That you're not good enough?
Or maybe,
That you are worthless...
Easily replaceable?

Yeah same,
I feel it in a place I'm supposed to call home.
Bella-Lee Feb 2020
Words unwritten,
Are words unsaid.
As they leap off the page,
Towards you.
When words are there written,
They are what you make of it.
Emotions and stories,
Morals that help ease the soul.
So make what you will,
Make off with my writing I have not said.
Bella-Lee Sep 2019
I'm sixteen,
Im a teenage poet.
I don't have any words to say,
But the words I wrote.
Cause from out of mouth they fray,
The meaning of words as we know it.
The things written,
Are things that stay.
And the rest?
The things we say,
Will just wither away.
Bella-Lee Jun 2020
What is wrong with you?
Why can't you seem to understand this?
How many times do i have to go through, this?
Is there something wrong with you?
I know you aren't stupid, but are you?

What is wrong with you?

'I don't know...
I can't think like this...
What is wrong with me?'
Bella-Lee Jun 2020
I never longed so much,
For someone's touch.
Until I met you,
And feel in love with you.

In the darkest times,
You are with me.
No matter what may arise,
You are always with me.
Bella-Lee May 2020
You are a unicorn,
In a world full of horses.
A ripple in the ocean,
Guiding the crashing waves.
You are beautiful,
And serene.
Another star burning,
In the night sky.
Don't let go,
Of the hope you hold onto.

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