And I asked you what is love?
          Is what I feel, the thing I wish it is?
But when love is just,

Let downs                   and
Oppression
Verified            with over bearing
Expectations

                                   How can I say this is love?
          When love has only been torment?
And so I ask you, what is love?

The first time my world stopped,
Was the first time I saw you.
Moments only last so long,
And soon you'll be gone too.

I'll live hours while the world's stopped,
For this moment not to be taken away.
And before we end up six feet under,
I will live like I'm going to die each day.

If you were on the moon,
To the moon I would go to.
I love you to the moon,
Which I would fly for my boo.
And if we don't get back,
Atleast I'm stuck with you.
My world amongst the stars,
Perfectly breathless too.

Is there such thing as,
Too much...
Too much love??

It's been a while since I felt right again,
But it's kinda nice I think I'm going to stay.

He knows my scars,
My battle wounds with myself.
He understands their story,
My broken body fixed by his self.

They say they know me,
When they only know what they want to see.

If God does exist,
Tell me why his hands and touch was nailed into my skin,
Like dirt trapped under a finger nail.
Where you'd scrub and scrub to wash it out,
But it just won't come out.
No no no no, stop stop stop stop,
No plea for a young girl would ever be heard let alone cause for any thing to stop.
If God exists,
Tell me why some times I relive this day over and over,
Wondering if he did this to other girls other than me?
Some times this was the main cause of my suffering and depression,
If anyone knew, I wouldn't be accepted.
So my words became violent knives I used but did not attack anyone with,
No I didn't attack anyone but myself.
Was this all I was worth? Some sexualized tool?
If younger boys could take advantage of me,
Who is to save me from the greater evil of the world?
If God does exist, tell me why he allows ****** assault.
Tell me why he allows for this monster to be engraved in my skin,
Where I can't love without feeling hurt or anxiety?
Cause sometimes I think...
What's the point in living?

Poems if sung,
Have the potential to be lyrics.
You if being yourself,
Have the potential to be loved.
Melodies are melodies,
Doesn't matter what a few people think...
One person out there will love it,
And will love your melody written in your stories.

My heart is like a voice inside my head,
My soul is guided and lost among the dead.
Yet I think I'm alive,
But I breathe like I only just died.

You see im broken,
In my words unspoken.
My world is crashing and burning,
More imperfections I'm only just learning.
I'm still together in a figure,
Just waiting for my mind to mature.

There is truth, lies and the in between,
Because somehow there is always some truth in the lies.
Somehow I feel there's lies behind the truth too though,
And yes I know it gives me too, those butterflies.
In between all those lies and truths,
Either way they hurt.
And each pile upon eachother like a Janga game,
Pulling out one by one avoid that feeling of anxiousness, the burning heat.
In between is the truth and lies themselves,
Without one there is never the other.
With one there is always the other like a toxic relationship,
The in between it's always been there and it'll always be here.
And if you read in between the lines,
You'll see it.

He loves me,
I love him.
Together forever,
Sink or swim.

When we kiss,
He smiles and looks at me with adoration.
Oh and his lips?
I don't know what they taste like.
Of course I've kissed them,
I just pay attention to the softness.
And yes I let him,
Kiss me.
Yes he promised me forever,
I'll love him for ever and ever,
But Idk if he meant it...
I could have said yes, no or maybe,
But we're only sixteen.
I want to marry him,
Maybe it's all a dream.

After 124 poems,
Maybe 3 words
Are more powerful
Than infinity

Told me you want me,
But you let me go.
Told me you need me,
But you don't let it show.

Can we kiss forever,
Just you and me?
I don't care,
If we need to breathe.
Every time I'm around you,
I lose my breath.
So why do we need to breathe,
When I have no breath to spare.
Can we kiss forever,
While we still don't need to breathe?

In your own tears,
Swimming with a frown.
Becareful not to drown,
Swim you're heart out.

It's not fat shaming,
If you just say working out will help?
It's not distrusting,
If you just say you don't know them enough?
Even if you call them out,
You're the one put to shame.

I love you
Under a lovely night sky
We made love
And stars shinned more

Star light,
Star bright.
The first star I see tonight.
I wish I may,
I wish I might.
Have the wish I wish tonight.

I love you
I want you
Don't leave me
I'll never leave
Are you here
Are you okay
I am fine
I am done
Promises mean nothing
I hate you
I do too

Tell me we are okay,
when we're falling apart.
Don't ask if I'm okay,
If it's clear I have a broken heart.

Treat me like I'm a b**ch,
Ill treat you like my toy.
Ill chew you up and spit you out,
You'll wish you were a boy.
Cause just like Pinocchio,
Your long nosed due to lies.
But like that wooden doll,
You're nothing but my toys.

There are little people in my head and I can't help it if I meltdown,
Their voices are triumph and I feel like I'm dead i know I'm not the one running this town.
I wish I was in control,
But I'm not and now you know.
I need something to make me feel whole,
Maybe I can stop crying then...

I want to feel whole,
In a world that's empty and hollow.
I want to feel at home,
In the loving arms of someone.
I want to write words,
In a world where nothing is already written.
I want to mean something,
Not just to the person I'm loving.
No...
I want to be something,
In a world were everyone is not no one.

Good girls and bad guys,
Make up perfect lies.
No one knows what's true,
Their trust in now through.

We stare to the lights and sky,
Hoping our light won't die.
Yet again we are let down by hope,
Yeah life's this slippery *****.
I'm pretty sure we all leave one day,
But in memories and thoughts we will stay...

Shirts off in a sports field,
Our bodies we feel.
And we both left our kisses,
In purple marks called hickies.
Your body is just as warm,
Laying on top of each other on the lawn.
Exchanging vows of our own,
I love you, I'll never leave you alone.