You say you don't want me in your head
But how can I do that when I'm always in your bed

I'm afraid of the dark
And you're afraid of love
Together you'll hold me at night
And I'll remind you why you have nothing to fear
Because I have enough love
And you have enough light

I am an incredibly jealous person
I am not proud of this
It feeds off of my anxiety
And consumes me from the inside out
My insecurities are reflected back at me
Fear of not being enough
Worried you will leave because of who I am
I can't make you stay
I won't beg
I will just try and give you one million reasons
Why I am worth it
So don't joke about that girl in your class
Or that actress you love
It's ridiculous
But it hurts me more than you will ever know
I never think of anyone but you
Do me a courtesy and at least
Pretend you only have eyes for me

They say you are in charge of your happiness
No one can change the way you feel
But I say you are making me happier than I have ever been
The days are longer and more lovely
The rain feels like renewal
The wind is at my back pushing me forward
The sun lifts my spirits to Heaven
I can't help but smile whenever you're near me
We are finally together and I am finally whole
You made me happy
I was lost and confused
But your love led me out of the darkness and into the light
I don't know how long we will have
But if it up to me
Let's start with forever

I am so angry with myself for loving you
My hands are shaking and my entire body feels heavy
It's transformed into an unbearable physical pain
You torture me every time you joke about us being together
It hurts more than breaking my leg
I wish that I could rip these feelings out of my heart
But it's impossible
How could my body want you so bad
It is a constant throbbing in my brain and uneven beats in my chest
I am at a loss for words, I cannot describe this
I'm trying but it sounds like I am talking about death
I've thought about it, death
It would be easier than waking up and feeling empty
I wouldn't have to wake up at all
I am a small speck floating in the waves of a hurricane
I'm just waiting for the storm to subside
You have no idea the war that is waging inside my head
Wanting to kiss you whenever you come home
My lips are magnetized to yours and it takes every bit of strength I have to stop myself
I am totally exhausted and frustrated
And I'm not sure how long I can go on
I want to rip myself apart
You are killing me and keeping me alive at the same time
If you are going to hold my hand don't let go
If you are going to kiss me, next time do it sober
If you are going to love me, don't do it just as a friend
Because I need you
I need you I need you I need you
Or I will die

Don't sleep on me
I may be small in a wide world of people
But my heart is big and my intentions are good
Don't sleep on me
I may look timid and blush when I'm in public
But I am a force to be reckoned with and I am strong
Don't sleep on me
I may seem innocent and naive
But I can bring a passion into your life you thought would never be
Don't sleep on me
I may stutter and trip on my words
But I can speak volumes and write eloquently about your eyes
Don't sleep on me
I may tear up during sad films
But I will blind anyone who tries to hurt you
Don't sleep on me
I may kiss your forehead softly in public
But I will make sure the neighbors know my name
Don't sleep on me
I may seem quiet and forgettable at first
But we will share moments you will dream about in 50 years
Don't sleep on me
I may beg you to stay when you try to go in the morning
But I will not lose sleep over you

The most painful bit
Is going through my day as if nothing is
Wrong
You know me better than anyone
And it hurts that I am keeping this
Secret
Watching you do dishes
Or fold laundry and I fall more in
Love
You're my greatest friend
And my most intense
Pain
I am tragically in awe
Every single time you
Laugh
And you have no idea
That my mind replays every
Kiss
When you've most likely
Forgotten each and every
Touch
So I will not profess
My undying affection for
You
Not until I am sure
That you will feel the
Same