I just realized
How much has changed
In the month
I’ve been away

How much I’ve changed
As well as everyone else
And honestly, I’ve never been better

My head no longer swarmed
Of thoughts of death
Instead, I’m looking forward to what lies  ahead
The meds have kicked in
The therapy is working
The time of reflection
Has changed my inner workings

I’m better, so much better
Now that I have space to think
Time to spend with myself
Free of my endless worries

I’m now saying
Some words I thought I’d never say
I’m okay, maybe even good
And I like things that way

One of my favorite times of day
The world lays silent and still
I need not hear or wonder
about the thoughts besieging
myself or another.
I can laze sleepily in the silence
Enjoying the remnants of dreams
still somewhat within reach of my minds eye.
The onslaught of doubt and worry
still quiet giving me a moment maybe two before reality sets in and the noise inside won’t overwhelm me with questions I can’t or won’t answer.

starry nights
bring me back
to the place I was
where I'm not anymore
a fresh beginning
cut from old ties
ready to begin
my new life

watching my breath
in the cool august nights
sitting by a campfire
a lone soul
in a big world
I'm free

This Is Me