a dull ache
I know what this is
this is hunger
hunger is good, in my mind
hunger means you are closer to pretty
closer to thin
but you will never be pretty
because no matter how many
pounds you lose
how many hours you go without eating
how many bones I can see
it will never be enough
never
I will still look in the mirror
and see nothing but ugly
nothing but fat
I still see nothing
I am nothing

I was planning for this to be
A cheesy catastrophe of emotions
But I refuse to use cheesy metaphors
To describe our love
Because it’s so true and real
And it makes me feel things
I have never felt
And didn’t seem possible
Until it happened

And yes, I’m aware
That was cheesy af
But I don’t care
Because you are my person
My darling
My one love, if you believe in that
My dearest friend
and cheesy metaphors, try as they may
Do not even come close, to describing the way I feel
About you