Stop speaking in tongues!
Tell me true.
When you choked out that "I Love You"
did you mean a single syllable?
did you have to drag that from the depths of your heart
or just to jump-start
this ridiculous doubt i have.

I'm sorry. But not ******* forgiving you

i can't read your smile anymore.

I want to hold you
Whisper in your ears
That 'It'll be ok'.

I want to hold you
Whisper in your ears
That 'you're amazing'.

I want to hold you
Whisper in your ears
'Please don't give up'.

But

If Chinese Whispers
Have taught me anything
All the things I whisper
Will change upon
Entering your eardrums,
Soon 'it'll be ok', will be
'it'll never be ok',
'You're amazing' turns to
'you're nothing', and
'please don't give up',
turns to 'just give up',
But know that no matter
What you hear,
I will always be whispering
Into your ears
'I'm here for you'
and I'll always hold you.

Note to the reader: I give any reader permission to give this to their mother. Your mother deserves better than Hallmark. Although you should write your own, I understand not all have the ability. No need to ask or tell me you used this. Thank you for reading this piece I wrote for my mother.

To You


This isn't for you because this pales in comparison
For all the things you do for me, it is embarassing
Yet you endure me every sun and moon
Despite all the people in this world that thinks I'm a loon
But I don't want this to be about me
This is for all things you do, selflessly, for free
You don't deserve what the world has dealt you
Gold and jewels wouldn't be enough for all that you do
Maybe one day you won't have so many burdens
Or will be properly compensated
I can't promise either of those things
All I have are these words of gratitude
Thank you
I wish I could convey this sentiment better
I love you more than I could ever explain in this letter
Happy Mother's Day, even though you deserve a year or later

I stared at the lucent beam of the stars,
time seeped of all value, frozen like-
a deer caught in the headlights of cars,
though eternity passed, my eyes affixed-
on those specks of limitless lights afar.

O' Stars, your name escaped with empty air,
each breath an assault by those who see-
but could never look to understand the lure,
like the heavenly aroma of honey to a bee-
that nestles in the comfort of a hidden hive
under the bumbled branches of a tree.

I fumbled a glance to the celestial bodies-
discovered the smile you left me last night
debossed across my memory of warmth-
escaped from the only visible light
that shared the same blackened canvas
between all that settled as wrong and right.

I closed my eyelids, reopened them like-
A glass window slid to remove the fog
that overlaid the transparent crystal
and with first sight my eyes as cogs
projected enchantment geared into orbs
accompanied by crickets and howling dogs.

Craters, comets, cosmic creations cast-
a vivid image of an established universe
coated in beauty with ink that's colourfast,
and as eternity drone on, the light emitted-
forever remains seen pivoted within the past.

I told you I'll write you a poem
Just so that my words could show them
How wonderful you truly are
But my words could never capture all that you are.
You are nice, but nice seems like an understatement
And dictionary couldn't show what beautiful meant
Because the dictionary defines beautiful as
'pleasing the senses or mind aesthetically',
And some might claim it is all genetically
But your beauty is not just aesthetics,
It's in your personality, in your heart and soul,
And with aesthetics it makes you more than whole.

The dictionary never gets the words
Kind , beautiful, smart, talented, amazing, wonderful
and heartwarming correct because there isn't
a photo of you that appears under each one of those words
So I'm flabbergasted that I have to invent my own word
You are 'Wondamazing'. Wonderfully Amazing.
You are 'Adorose'. Adorable rose.
You are 'candy kind'. Which as its name suggests, sweet and kind.
I wish I could capture what it is that makes you so special
But I guess when it comes to someone like you
Making up words is not a fun thing, but I just have to.
Stay strong, stay wonderful.

Though surrounded by intoxicated
personalities
Hurting and dragging you down
Somehow
You rose to be a pure soul
Who knows
What it is like to put family
Ahead of themselves.
You deserve the world
And I'm hoping one day
Someone can give you the world,
Maybe one without any inebriating possibilities.

Why wait for someday?
Why not make it today?
You can wait for time to pass by
With each second
A different grain of sand
Passing by an hourglass
That captures nothing
But the hours left in our lives.
Wait not for those who cause
Heartache and sadness
But
Let the grains of sand
Cascade to the bottom
Of an hourglass
And the arms of a clock
tick on
As you wait for love.