Six long months I've lived without
Your smile, your touch, your kiss.
It gets easier, they say
Yet you I'll always miss.
Is it because you're my first love?
First kiss, first smile, first touch?
Or is it because you're just someone
I'll always love so much?

You were my world, my heart, my soul,
My everything; my passion.
But I was just your love affair,
Your temporary distraction.
You say that what you felt was real
You say that it was true,
But it would be impossible to love
As much as I loved you.

Although that I am happy now,
My days they feel complete,
I cannot help but think of you;
My daily thoughts are not discreet.
I wonder what you're doing now,
If your happiness is real.
I wonder if you miss me at all
And the way I made you feel.

We had our good times, lots of bad,
We both know that is true.
But we were feeling good before
I suddenly lost you.
Of all the things I said and did,
My one biggest regret
Was pushing you away by starting
Fights, and making you upset.

Although it was my fault I said I'd change
And begged for one more chance,
But you discarded me and would not
Let us have our final dance.
Though I will always care for you
I need to let you go.
Holding onto memories kills me,
But I am stronger than you know.

We sat there listening to each other breathing.
The others in our company merely shadows and scenery:
My eyes were fixed on you.
Careless laughter and playful words were thrown between us.
Our friendship blossomed and our feelings grew. Unspoken.

We lay there listening to each other breathing.
Soft and quiet as our friends all slept around us, in a daze of alcohol,
While we lie sober and content talking of our lives and our dreams.
And that night, when I fell asleep wrapped safely in your arms,
I knew that just your friendship would not fulfil me. I wanted more.

We sat there listening to each other breathing.
Tense and nervous as the credits blurred on the TV screen,
Giving me the signal to pull you close and kiss you back for the first time.
My nerves dissolved as your lips enclosed me in safety
And you asked me if I would be yours.

We sat there listening to each other breathing.
Slow and steady as I looked into your blue eyes and saw my happiness
Dancing across your pupils and mirrored on your lips.
Your goofy, crooked smile and silly laugh confirmed what I already knew,
And together we voiced our feelings and dreamt of our future.

We lay there listening to each other breathing.
Soft and gentle until our lips met for the hundredth time,
Then deeper and heavier as your love consumed me.
And I let you in; let you take my innocence,
Let you take my fragile heart.

We sat there listening to each other breathing.
Sharp and short between our hysterical laughter,
Rolling on the floor like children in pure ecstasy,
Drugged from the presence of one other
And laughing at the joys of being alive and in love.

We lay there listening to each other breathing.
The long breaths and secret smiles I knew too well.
You stopped my breath with kisses and we spent all day in bed.
Your touch was my poison and your skin my drug,
Words were seldom needed as we shared our love in motion.

We stood there listening to each other breathing.
Loud and violent between the shouting and the silence.
My frequent spells of anger and your lack of concern
Pushed us further apart. But I could not bear to lose you
So we quietly forgave and spoke softly of our love.

We sat there listening to each other breathing.
Calm and even as we enjoyed a quiet Thursday night.
Comfort and routine surrounded us
And embraced us with a familiar hug.
Snuggled on the sofa we were peaceful.

You sat there listening to me breathing.
Jagged and heavy between my sobs.
All the while you were silent,
A predator watching the slow death of their prey
While I tried to find the strength to breathe at all.

I sit here listening to my breathing.
The echoes of your smile and the shadows of your voice in my mind.
But my reality is silent
And my breaths are pained and solitary,
While you continue breathing all the notes of life.