Cold winter night,
You and I,
Chest to chest
Eye to eye
I lean closer and you smile
Over your shoulder and to your ear,
I whisper,
"I love you in languages I don't know
In words that mean nothing, really
But mean everything to me
In this duality, this love I sow
In names I give that I cannot explain
Except they are cute and they are just for you
I love you in bits and pieces to bits and pieces
Every atom in you that makes you, you
In poems I write and poems I don't
In every breath I take
Always."

The devil sings like an angel,
Doesn't scream at all
And that is where the trick is
Wrapped in his charm, nothing beyond we see
Choking us softly
Slowly,
Lovingly

Why was it kept away, my love
This shirt, with love you sew,
So thick was that veil, my love,
This love i did not know,

Lost in the forest of greed I was,
That is where my sickness grew,
So bright were the colors of vain, my love
That is where your death bloomed

You've been through so much, so much alone,
I was not there, I know
A little bit of you is all that I have
This shirt, with love you sew

Still pictures of my dreams that now make no sense to me, filled the space in between me and the rest,
If I was there when you needed me, would fate be the same?

"I will return someday"
The promise I made
But 'someday' never came,
Buried deep in my memories,
She lost herself trying to find me,
16 winters did she wait
But 'someday' never came

So love today,
The lesson learnt late,
Don't let life teach you that,
Life doesn't know the easy way,
Don't let fate break your heart

She's gone too far, too far I know
She is never coming home
That shirt draped over my cold soul,
This life I wait alone

-Atript Abhinav

Empty your soul,
Let go of everything,
This city glows when the cold wind blows,
And this river does not stop flowing,
Bellowing misery, I see lunatics demanding Gods to take them back to childhood or to prosperity
The bliss of not knowing what life is
We just want to be happy
Breaking the silence - the altars scream
"There's nothing behind us, no gates we see,
Before us there's you and only you we believe"
So lift your knees off the ground, let your feet kiss the earth beneath you
Stand still,
Let us mourn for the flowers we murdered for our love to bloom
This world is beyond the reach of your senses
So am I
I love that you don't get me, that is my disease
Streaming down my eyes, my memories
Swimming in the pool of your conscience,
I die
- Atript Abhinav

How do I tell you what you mean to me?
A flower that bloomed in the terrain land,
The only beauty I see and you are that
So small it is but so tall it stands,
The only life I see and you are that
Every winter I look at the morning dew shining on the dying leaves,
Only hope there is and you are that
When you come close to me,
When you touch me,
When our eyes meet
And when the words you speak fly into my ears,
My heart jumps with joy like a bee in an orchard,
So less it can take but everything it wants and I become that
- Atript Abhinav

Underneath the bridge,
The day before her freedom,
She spoke to life and god,
Put an end to this- she begged
She never had friends

This story is not new
You have seen it in movies and in the books that shaped you
She stood in front of the mirror and cried,
On the day her mother died,
Because that's when she realized,
The beauty only seen through her mother's eyes

She was alone

Invisible to the eyes not made for the soul,
Ugly to the eyes only made for the skin,
She lived!

Discipline
Speak when you are spoken to
Listen until your elders stop talking
Do not step in
Let your elders intervene
Maybe live until they want you dead
You think that's *******??
I think that's as **** as the first four lines
So, ***** it and ***** them
I say speak so that you can be heard
Speak up because they will not stop
Speak because they're not right and you're not wrong
Speak because you know things which they do not
Speak because the world has moved on and they have not
Speak up because they are growing old and you are growing up
Speak because the problem is not with the system- the problem is the system
Shepherds don't walk with the herd
So speak because shepherds lead
History has it
Every successful person refused to be ordinary
You'll get ostracized-blackballed at the beginning but take it all in
Let them be
Speak because they don't matter
You start where they end
Prove it to them

I am gonna smile like I never did,
Scream to the world that I am happy,
After so long and somehow
Love came to me
I am gonna live like I never did,
Love you like there is no tomorrow,
I will hold your hand and you smile with me,
Tonight, I will walk you home
We'll write a song together,
And sing it on the way,
And when you are not around,
I will sing it for my loneliness

You hurt me like you get paid to do so,
Like its the only thing you are good at, and you don't want to let go,
But hurt me more,
Because by now I know,
That its the only way to keep you with me
I am the moth that found love in the grip of fire,
Burning slowly
In you
Even if its for the shortest period of time,
I will be that extra spark in your light
When you are tired and dying,
When your beauty is flickering and fading,
When you are sad and lonely
And when you learn what love means,
I know you will remember me,
The lunatic who loved you endlessly
For this love will not die with my body
It will stay
In everything that makes you feel special in every way,
In the poems you could not throw away, because you knew they could not have been written for anyone else,
In the spaces that did not demand you to change
In everything that makes you, you
I will be there

Why was it kept away, my love
This shirt, with love you sew,
So thick was that veil, my love,
This love i did not know,

Lost in the forest of greed I was,
That is where my sickness grew,
So bright were the colors of vain, my love
That is where your death bloomed

You've been through so much, so much alone,
I was not there, I know
A little bit of you is all that I have
This shirt, with love you sew

Still pictures of my dreams that now make no sense to me, filled the space in between me and the rest,
If I was there when you needed me, would fate me the same?

"I will return someday"
The promise I made
But 'someday' never came,
Buried deep in my memories,
She lost herself trying to find me,
16 winters did she wait
But 'someday' never came

So love today,
The lesson learned late,
Don't let life teach you that,
Life doesn't know the easy way,
Don't let fate break your heart

She's gone too far, too far I know
She is never coming home
That shirt draped over my cold soul,
This life I wait alone

You are my poetry,
Sometimes you are easy to understand,
Sometimes you are hard,
And sometimes you are beyond my reach,
But you are so beautiful,
That I don't want to give up on you
Sometimes the things that you say,
Fly over my head,
Leaving me dazed and confused,
But I love you
Sometimes you are what you say you are,
And sometimes you take it too far,
There are things I like about you,
And things I don't,
But they make you, You
So, I want both
You are all the great poets fused into one body,
One perfect poetry

Poetry exists because we are different,
If you and I were the same,
Why would you need me?
And why would I need poetry?
You'd see what I see,
Think what I think,
Feel what I feel,
And I am very sure you would not need to know what runs inside me
Embrace the difference,
For that is why we exist

Dear friend,
Just added your sister on facebook,
Breaking the brothers' code,
I know
'Your sister is mine too'
That's how we rolled,
And I am sorry
In my dreams I see her standing in front of me,
Watching me,
Her eyes hit mine like green and yellow autumn leaves hit the ground below,
Softly and slowly like they know there's no way up once they go down so they're gonna give this flight a little time,
I am in love with the way she looks at me,
Let us bend the rules this time,
Just asked her out, I hope you don't mind,
I know how awkward this is,
But you know her more than you know me,
I will do nothing wrong,just trust me,
Trust us and nothing shall  change,
Brothers for life, we will remain
My love may never equal your love for her,
For your love comes from the blood,
But I will try,
Every day of my life,
She will always be yours first,
But I promise,
She will always be,
The one and only
For me...

I want you to remember,
That cold December
Her daunting scream
And your tired God,
The floor was wet
Blood, sweat and tears
Helpless beside her
A friend who loved

Forever remember
That cold December
When humanity surrendered
Before their greed
Sickness had struck
They said, **** was her fault
My faith died when women agreed

Never forget her
And that cold December,
The anthem they sang,
Weak women stay home

The city of men,
Delhi was freezing,
The vigil that failed to chase away the darkness within

Befriend those walls,
Few lunatics preached,
Battered, she faded in the mist of despair

O beloved,
There is a world above these walls,
Seek that now

There is no religion,
No borders,
Nothing that divides us,
No limits forced onto us,
Nothing that reduces us in anyway,
There is a world beyond these lines,
Seek that now,
And meet me there.

In my dreams I see us dying,
Smiling as life fades slowly,
Happy, like innocent children who just know that the strict teacher won't come to school again
They mourn because they must,
Hiding their joy in the black veil of silence but, unlike them, we smile
Like tired eyes staring at the drowning sun
This life has been harsh

There is a world where we walk free,
Seek that now,
And meet me there

When I am alone, I speak to God,
He said that he is upset with all the preachers of faith,
For he gave us love and nothing else
I closed my eyes and I saw him standing in front of me,
Sad and sorry,
Tired and weary,
Sick of this mess and sick of himself
Searching for words to apologize
For the tears that my pen cried

The alley below leads to eternity,
Seek that now
And meet me there.

Angel's wrath upon the albatross
Like the pheonix kiss that burned my whole
I closed my eyes to the blinding lights
Truth will only lead to sleepless nights
A ride on the pegasus under the moonless sky
I jumped down half way and let her fly
I should paint my hands with her life
And, ink my mind with her lies
Alive in my memories
Loveless heart only beats
Went through pages of the book that she gifted me
No part of it talks about broken heart
My eyes rested on something I should not have seen
Why should love rest on the saddest part?
Should I shoot myself to **** the YOU in me?
Would love drain out with the blood I bleed?

Everytime I close my eyes,
The picture of you comes to my mind,
Floating in the air,
From everywhere,
Everything around me reminds me of you,
And I lose myself in the memories of you..
The park-bench still fits us perfectly,
And this world has taken 7000 turns, changing everything but me
The stubbles in my face make me look a little older,
I have grown a little taller,
Lost my hair, gained some weight,
And I am losing a little bit of myself everyday but, I am still the same old person you loved back then
Every breath that I take, takes me a little closer to you,
Nothing is certain here, I do not know if you're a million breaths away or two
My friends want me to move on,
To take a step forward every day,
Arms wrapped around my shoulders,
Sometimes, a soft grip-  a silent assurance of their presence,
A sweet promise to always be there
And that is just what you did
This love is more than those three words that sick men these days use to capture beauty
And this body is more than blood, muscles and bones,
Death was not powerful enough to **** your soul
You are everywhere, in every thing
With me
We are still strong enough to melt stones

Like a butterfly,
I fly
In this garden of ****** and pearls,
Dancing in the wind,
With the wind,
Drifting back and forth,
Up and down
I swirl and twirl,
My world whirls and I fall down dizzy
Gliding softly,
Slowly
Giving this flight a little time,
Living every second,
Before I die
And finally, I become a flower
Beautiful and still

To live is to die everyday,
I am in a fight against myself,
To win is to lose everything,
Turn around to not breathe the air I breathe
Take a look into my eyes
And look through
Camouflage in the lies,
And never come true,
My ship crashed into an iceberg when I was at my best
Buried in the shallowest of the ocean- a perfect beginning laid to rest

I am in love with the way she looks at me,
her eyes hit mine like green and yellow autumn leaves hit the ground below,
softly and slowly
like the know there's no way up once they go down so they're gonna give this flight a little time

My mother is home alone
?And I am with my friends getting ******
?I keep looking over my shoulders,
There's nothing weighing me down
Combed winter wind with my fingers
?The sun is more tempting now
I can feel something in my head
?It's like a thorn bushed into my brain
?My name echoed around my ears
?It has been years
?Sad voices ***** my high
?I am not mine
Your trust was murdered long ago
I've been to the corners you should never know
I'm coming home so don't you move
I swear to change, I swear on you
You be my guide and I'll follow?
Take me home
The sun just drowned and it's getting cold
The night is young and I can feel your gloom
?I'll be home by the brightest of the moon
?It's the start of something beautiful
?I'm coming home

Angels saunter down the aisle
They break your heart and **** your mind
It's in the distance where hope dies
You lean against the wall counting days and cursing life
You think its fate and everything's your fault
You maybe right and may be not
But you won't find the middle ground
And it's not just gravity pulling you down
You are in chains and there is no escape
You try to break free but fall again
You look at the world and look through
Your knees kiss the floor as you break down in two
Like love bisected you and seized everything that was good in you
Let it rain
Put your grief on display
And get out of your shell
Because SOMETIMES not hiding your weaknesses is being brave

Sad woman, don't wave goodbye
The other-side is a lie
Sadness ends on death's lullaby
It's true that there is no pain afterlife
But you don't die alone
With you dies the person I'm friends with
So call me
Let my love embrace your whole
Your mother will sneak in your room, wrap her face with your bed-sheet and cry
Maybe she'll dig her face in your pillows and beg god to bring you back to life
That will go on for days
Your father; the strongest, will break down to pieces and never get back to his feet again
So scoot around the city and see
Thousands fancy the life that you're living
Death is not the only end to pain,
Love for life is
So fall in love with yourself
You're a friend,
My best friend
A daughter, a sister and the list goes on
Close your eyes to not see but you cannot get cold enough to not feel
You cannot die alone when you're so many
Pink Floyd and Led Zeppelin
The Doors and Queen
Dream Theatre's Dance of Eternity
And my wide jaws upon seeing DARKTHRONE in your playlist
Peanut butter and burned brown breads
Your evil smile when we laid the kitchen rat to rest
Kiss on the dance floor and how we avoided each other for days
How I laughed at everything that you wore and your bedroom's paint flakes
My first bottle of Malibu
Our first high and the succubus inside you
Gift me a lobotomy before you leave
Or erase everything from my memories
I will never be happy without you
Memories won't die with you

I'm a *******
?Agony is ecstasy so wound me
?Cut every part of me that failed to please
?Watch my hands swimming on those cuts like your fingers sliding through your hair
?Feed me more for I'm a zombie feeding on myself?
Savor every moment because I won't stand tall to go down again
?Crack me wide open to find no part of me crying in pain
?Knife your name all over me and peel like an artist disowning her sickest masterpiece
?One doesn't bleed love and nothing you did could **** the you inside me?
It was love that got me ready to bleed for your delight

Love was when I refused to fight

Bisect my heart in two

I die in love with you

Drink your fill like a vampire before you hand me to the pyre

Love was when I surrendered to please your desire

I don't know what I'm doing,
I don't know what this is,
I don't want to think of the twists and bends,
I don't want to know where this river ends,
I just know that its beautiful
And there's nothing as true as what I feel for you

Waking up to your messages,
Text you if you have not and wait for your text,
Smile when the thing called 'pop notification' pops with your name,
A quick look into your part of the world-Text you back and  you text back again,
Keeping each other updated about each other but not knowing why
Keep talking about the lines but letting nothing divide
I don't know what this could be,
Time flies so I choose not to think about it,
I want to let it be and live with it-drape myself with it and just live

Funny how we talk for hours and there's always something new to talk about,
Funny how we agreed on not thinking about tomorrow and live now,
Funny how we make inane requests and bring up crazy topics to make sure the music does not stop,
Funny how we have given so much but could not have enough,
Funny how we use 'we' like we are one soul trapped inside two bodies,
Like you and me is one unit
Funny how I still think of you as some faceless entity

You are like the missing piece of the puzzle,
The light at the end of the tunnel,
You are the answer to why i have so much and still nothing,
You complete me
I don't want to think about it and beyond,
I just want this to go on and on
Maybe forever
Or at least until we go back to where we belong
As dust or as ashes
Maybe even after but until then, i want us to remain

Sometimes I feel like being naive is a bliss
Sometimes I feel like there are so many things that I'm missing
I try to make myself believe that I want this
But the fact remains, there are so many things that I cannot see
So many feelings that I cannot feel
So much hatred and so much greed
Evil forces never succeeded in corrupting me
But look what my goodness has done to me
Jaded, frustrated , depressed
Will I ever be the same?
Why do we always realize our mistakes when its too late??
Will I ever be able to redeem myself?
the man i see in the mirror lives in the lies
Ragged, exhausted- so many questions in his eyes
The distance mundane
A state of despair
Wish I could paint my walls with all the colors in this world and live confined
Wish I could borrow some light from that big ball of fire up there and take it to the corners where the Sun never shined

In the end you'll question your beliefs
In the end you'll realize that your faith in god was actually the fear of hell
Everything you did - you did in vain
It was not god behind the rain
I'll be all ears when you walk back into your life
I'll forgive you before you apologize
I'll hit you with all the good you failed to see
But before i begin, I'll walk you to the corners where the sun never reached
The crowd ready to stone the woman accused of adultery
The pyre set for the woman accused of sorcery
Devils inside schizophrenics
A rabbi unclothing a girl to check if she's a ******
Nuns and monks thinking of a world behind silver lines
How many of you have noticed that its golden sometimes??
Babas and Gurus telling tales of their encounter with god
Pastors making up stories to blind the herd
Glue sniffers in every street of this country
Billions spent on religious groups and nothing for the hungry
Its funny how I got blackballed when I said that the way we cremate is wrong
And that's religion polluting this world
European Islamists are not even worth talking about
Sadly we live in the world where Robert Mugabe walks proud
Believe me when i say there's no god for those 6 million non-Zanus
The world has moved on so lets not be talking about Tutsis and Hutus
How many of you have read about the latest genocide?
Buddhists beheading Muslims and children left to die
Need I write more????

And hand in hand we danced together,
I pulled her closer and YOU smiled,
I kissed you through her

She sleeps beneath the spot where I am standing
This casket is my palanquin,
Decorate it with roses plucked from my garden and thorns from her orchard
Lay me on this red velvet I bought from the market of love and take me to her,
On the shoulders of my friends and kin I had abandoned long ago,
Or in the hearse painted red for the union of our souls

Only in dreams does my beloved come to me,
Lovelorn I wait on my bed decked with roses
Dear earth, take a quick turn
Unite me and my beloved under the black veil of darkness
Or take me to the alley below where the light will never reach
With arms wide open my beloved is waiting for me

How do you not burn in the sunlight?
Are you immune or are you of another kind?
Do you walk the earth with 13 in your mind?
Is that flesh actually a veil hiding the demon inside?
Do you want to deflower virgins and leave them like a sheared sheep?
Does the stench of carcass give you ecstasy?
Do you walk through walls when no-one's around?
Do you vile and walk proud?
Can you get into my brain through my eyes?
Do you camouflage like a chameleon and make us swallow your lies?
Would you bleed if I ***** a needle into your skin?
Or will you drain out everything you had ****** in?
Are you on a seesaw ride with angels like the sun and the moon?
Can you breathe in the vacuum??
Would you come to me when I'm lonely and eat me alive??
WOULD YOU DIE IF I STAB YOUR HEART  WITH A WOODEN KNIFE?????
Would you beg for mercy and cry in pain??
Would YOU promise to NEVER hurt ME again?

Melancholy of the barrens
Gloom of the drowning winter sun
Shades of grey over the horizons
Dirge under the moonbeam
Can you hear me?

So dead and cold inside
So much hatred in your eyes
Can you feel me?

Angel face but a torchid soul
Flesh veiling a heart of stone
Do you breathe lies and are you high?
Did you smile when my hope died?
Do you remember me?

I see vendors in the aisles, selling dreams and lullabies.
I'll buy some for myself
In the palace of exile,
With you bushed into my mind
I will aestivate

Why do we celebrate our birthdays?
Do we not know the ultimate?
Do we not know that life does not increase with age?
Are we not aware of the end?
Friends...family... love,
Everything ends in separation
Maybe we want to celebrate their presence
And maybe they want to celebrate our existence
Maybe we want to live until we die
Life does not betray
Time just takes our breath away
Are you who you wanted to be?
Do you remember the beginning?
Are you who you were a day ago?
Did you grow up or grow old?

When my shadow travels east to fade,
The sun weeps farewell
I wave until it vanishes
And embrace the remains  
Shade over hills and dales
The green greys
I give my ears to the final music
The moon rises and stars glitter
There's so much coming back to me
I watch the clouds wither
I close my eyes and dive into the melody
And I levitate from my reality

I'm *** positive
So text me sympathies
Lie to me
Tell me nothing has changed and nothing will
Tell me we're friends and we'll remain
Make me stand in front of a mirror to see if i can face myself
Act like you care
Veil yourself and blame the air
Look down on me
Fake a wow for my worn out shoes
But look into my eyes before you leave
They speak volumes
I'm just not crying
Maybe i wont wake up in the morning- maybe i will
Bash my family like i feed on their blood
Maybe it was just my fault- maybe not
Maybe i have never made love
Maybe i have never done drugs
Maybe it was my latest tattoo that reads " I miss you mom"
Maybe it was the tetanus shot i had last month
Admit that you don't care
Act ill to not eat what i share
You're just another educated

Eyes on The Horizon - Atript Abhinav
Walk the earth,
Like an artist auctioning his masterpiece for charity
Like an independent woman marking her existence in the society
Like a man of integrity boasting about everything he has achieved
Like morning dew shining on a barren field
Like a mother watching her children standing up on their feet
Like a rooster who believes that the sunlight depends on him
Like the son of a man who never traded his soul for money
Like a father of the soldier who died for his country
Like a bird on its flight across the sea
Like an athlete flaunting his trophy
Like an atheist who proved to the world that gods don't exist
Like a writer who changed the world with his beliefs
Like an actor who earned his popularity
Like a musician upon realizing that his music will echo till eternity
Like a Pashtun girl who broke the silence and refused to be a victim
Like a warrior who chose to lose than quit

Have you ever loved someone so much that you almost got sick?
Like you'll choke on your heart if you don't throw up a little bit??
You put your fingers into your throat,
Your index and your middle trying to force it all out but it does not work
You push your fingers a little deeper but love only grows
You want it to stop
You cry
But love does not stream down your eyes,
You slit your wrists,
A little relief,
But it's not enough
You want more,
You think of gods,
Beg for amnesia,
You want to erase her from your memories,
You want to bleed love,
Watch her sliding down your skin
You curse your heart,
***** and *******,
You want to get rid of it,
You want to tear your chest wide open, cut your heart out and squeeze love out of it..
SILENCE!!
Have you loved someone so much that you hated yourself??

Who is in the song you sing?
Who gives words to your feelings?
Who is the he of your poetry?
What is it that you seek?
Look around,
Describe what you see,
Look inside yourself,
Look at me
Come closer,
look into my eyes.
Stare until the tiny dust particles that travel with the sunlight, stop glittering
Stare until you see yourself in me
Place your ear against my chest,
Hear my heart beating in the rhythm of your name
Never will I ask you to be there for me,
Never will I not be there when you're in need,
We'll find a park bench that fits us perfectly,
We'll write our own story and let the world be
Nothing will I expect from you
Nothing will i ask you to do
My love is like monsoon
Absorb every drop to grow
I'll live waiting for the summer,
love will come back to me
Maybe I am he
Complete me

She kissed life goodbye,
Life left smiling,
There was so much sadness in her eyes,
But life was happy,
Maybe life never liked her,
Maybe life loves death more than us,
She and we are just a road leading life to death,
DIE FOR LIFE
Let life go
Do you love life enough to let death take it away?
Would you smile on your deathbed?
Twists and turns,
round and round,
Trying to bend this river,
up and down
Trying everything possible to keep two lovers apart,
But love doesn't know walls,
Love doesn't know distance,
Life will make you suffer,
So breathe it all out,
She and we never lived,
For those who lived never died.

Forget what you don't know,
Forget what you do,
Forget what you were before,
Forget yourself too,
Forget what you're trying to remember,
You're wasting your time moving back and forth and in circles
Close the doors behind you and walk straight,
Crack wide open your world to get rid of things you don't need
Your body is more than a veil for your blood,muscles and bones
Feed your soul
Wave goodbye to the drowning sun,
Embrace the chill of the tired dusk,
Pick out words from the silence of the moon,
We are made of stars,
Sleep through darkness
The world will take a smooth turn and the sun will shine just for you
Breathe in the beauty
Take it all in, breathe it all out
Hold it just to know how important it is to let go
We are immortals
the buried rises up as plants or remains as dust
Ashes travel forever as energy, as life
death is just a transition and end is the only thing impossible
There is no heaven or hell and afterlife
Present is the paradise and we don't die
Know that in a million years, we will become diamonds

When my shadow travels east to fade,
The sun weeps farewell
I wave until it vanishes
And embrace the remains  
Shade over hills and dales
The green greys
I give my ears to the final music
The moon rises and stars glitter
There's so much coming back to me
I watch the clouds wither
I close my eyes and dive into the melody
And I levitate from my reality

She came on wheels,
her eyes pricked into my mind and stuck to remain
a beautiful splinter of pain

Sometimes I feel old,
So old that I treat the people of my age like babies,
Like they would get on a broom stick and fly to foreign lands,
over the hills and across the sea,
Over the mountains draped in snow,
Over the autumn fields green and yellow
Through the forest where my childhood stood still
Scared and lonely
I look at my fingers and the pen lying dead on my diary
Dear world, do you know that I exist?
I am trying to bridge the distance with poetry
And fill the scars with dreams
Dear sun, please stay
A little longer i beg

Take me with you,
Through the classroom windows from where i flew,
In the garden where memories grew,
To the childhood where all the wounds were new
Over the horizons which I once knew,
To the mountains which I once drew,
Crack wide open my world in two,
Take me with you,
Take me anywhere,
Closer to you or away from myself
Take a box full of spray paints and spray paint over the walls confining me,
Paint a star, the sun and the moon and you,
Paint a rainbow,
Paint me red, green and yellow
Paint the sky, blue and grey
Paint the clouds, infinite and immaculate
Paint a tree, alive and withered
And a seesaw just to keep reminding me that we cannot rise together
**** me in the friend zone

Her hair was as long as her tongue,
Maybe a little longer
Her tongue was not normal,
I think it still is not
Her tongue was so long that everytime we kissed I'd push her away after seconds thinking her tongue might get stuck in my throat or below and I'd die,
I'd push her away, breathe in and breathe out, take a long breath and then pull her back to kiss her one last time
I kissed her like i have kissed her hundreds of times but never learned so i kissed her like it was my first,
She kissed me like she knew her father was watching us but she was not bothered,
She kissed me like she would die if she did not,
A sick salsa of our tongues,
Like two snakes making love
Like two ***** lesbians trying to **** each other,
Her tongue felt like mine so i wanted the world to witness our kiss just to make myself believe that I was not kissing myself and that she was real
She once kissed me so passionately that I bit her tongue just to make her stop and asked her if my heart was as sweet as she said it was
She looked at me and said nothing, like the catholic guy who flinched when i asked him the possibility of Jesus being a ******* and god being a ******
She kissed me deep

'Move on'
Two words
But yeah, move on
He has left you
She is gone
Maybe your dream of waking up next to her remained a dream,
The truth hurts but maybe it was never meant to be,
Now when he spreads his arms wide open, the silent call is for someone else
But know that if love ended then love was never there
So move on
Breathe
Know that the split could not stop your heart from beating
You are trying to hold on to something that never existed
And no matter how hard it is to believe, nothing else has changed
So let go
For what you really have will remain yours
The one who is gone has left the space enough for someone else to fit in
So breathe, live!!
It may take weeks, months maybe years but keep walking
That someone else is on the way, waiting

We all went back to sleep to finish a dream,
To be something,
To hold what we always touched and missed,
To exist
We see ourselves in the movies
We are heroes wanting to fly back in time to make things right,
To stop Nazis,
To turn off the radio and unite Hutus and Tutsis,
To show Kount the diabolic sign above his Christ,
We want to tell Bathory that pictures don't age
To tell Elizabeth that she will destroy herself in rage
We want to sacrifice ourselves for history to make this world smile
We love and hate Solomon at the same time
We want Jihad to go back to America
We are Ches screaming to the world that arms and ammunition factories need wars
We are Mohammads trying to restore the peace
And we all want the World Bank to set us free
How are we different?

This is for a friend whose Facebook status on the day after the sickest **** case in Delhi 2012 was,
"thank god I'm ugly,
No boy wants to be seen with me,
Men look through me,
I'm invisible,
There's nothing appealing about my body but I'm happy,
I'm not beautiful so thank you god for the freedom you have bestowed upon me,
I WALK FREE"
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Her father: my daughter is the prettiest
Her brother: there's no-one prettier than my princess
Me: its not about the face my friend, animals don't know the difference, we live in the world where even goats and pigs serve as *** slaves + sperms don't seek paradise
She: read between the lines

This is for the high school hotties and plastic beauties who are miles away from the reality,
This is for the teenage wankers and middle aged ****** whose definition of beauty is ****
This is for the poets who use pulchritudinous for a woman's body and immaculate for her skin
This is for the ad agencies who try to convince us that being not fair is being ugly
This is for the authors of bed time stories where ugly characters don't get a kiss from the prince charming
This is for the walking x-ray machines who don't know my friend but know what the size of her ******* is


This is for Facebook cuties and instagram ducklings tormenting my friend with their selfies
This is for the movie industries that keep telling my friend that she'll remain a sidekick
This is for the daily soaps selling stories of moms who do not exist
This is for the celebrities,
Lost in the labyrinth of self obsession
Who cannot face themselves without their masks on
They will never find their way out of it

This is for the bullies who never spared her a peaceful stroll
This is for the organizers of the beauty pageant never held for the soul

My friend was lost in the immense chasm of despair
Scars on her wrists screamed how much she hated herself
Bloodshot eyes sang tales of her sleepless nights
But, she gave birth to her new self everytime she failed to die
Like, three failed suicide attempts made her fall in love with herself
These days, she holds her breath for seconds just to make herself believe that her life is not worthless

This is for the world holding onto fleeting beauty and letting go of everything worth grasping
MY Friend Is Beautiful
Her beauty does not give pleasure to your senses
Nothing pulchritudinous and not immaculate
Its something intangible, something only visible to a good soul- something that will never fade- something real
My friend is beautiful

I looked into her eyes and Bhaktapur stood still,
Speak up said the voice from the inside,
'hold it right there'- said my mind
Words came to my throat and my tongue froze
I needed to throw it all out
"coward"- the word echoed around my ears, daunting the already dumbstruck I,
"I love you"- the words finally broke the gates of silence but she had moved on
Treading aimlessly on the streets, switching lanes and running in circles again

I asked the sun to cast his light,
Only then will she open her eyes,
Cocooned in her blanket sleeps my butterfly

The sun said," I do not want to burn the dream off her eyes,
Let her wake up first and only then will I rise"