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Oct 2016 · 179
Power In a Name
Astra Zenneth Oct 2016
I shall name myself. Yes, I, the little daydreamer, with no power to call her own, will invoke the power of a name. Born as a Lion. Monstrous as a lion. lost as a beast is in a cruel world. No longer will I be a daydreamer. Now I am a lost lion cub. I have named myself Curious lion.
To be true.
I am little. As am I feeble. No pride to call my own. But I am a beautiful creature with an attractive mane. Giving off a faint glow of pride and ambition. Wishing to grow to a fierce and prideful lion with no shame for being so. A cowardly lion will one day gain her courage.
Capitalization and not is intentional
Oct 2016 · 96
In My Dreams
Astra Zenneth Oct 2016
I'm as pretty as a bird,
and as tall as a tree,
if that’s what i want.
And you can't tie me down,
because I'll always leave.

Im as fast as a hummingbird,
and rugged as a stray,
if that’s what I please.
You can clip my wings,
I'll still fly away.
I wish, I wish, I wish.

roughy draft
Oct 2016 · 113
Why So Cruel?
Astra Zenneth Oct 2016
I said that I love you
Surely that's enough
I'm nothing but nice
And still you're so rough

I'm trying to change
It's all just for you
Still you hate me
Why so cruel?

I try so hard
I just want to please you
Still you hurt me
I wish you knew

I'm so blind
I guess I'm a fool
I've fallen so hard
**Why so cruel?
Why do i love you Why do i love you Why do i love you Why do i love you Why do i love you Why do i love you Why do i love you Why do i love you Why do i love you Why do i love you
Oct 2016 · 116
Why Do I Love You?
Astra Zenneth Oct 2016
Wish you were nothing
wish i was dead
I can’t wait
to live again

can’t help me right now
I just need to spend
another moment
alone in my head

Wish you would love me
Wish you’d forget
That i am nothing
Leave me instead

Please don’t waste it
your precious time
Im not worth the suffering
Not yours or mine
a ****** first draft.
Oct 2016 · 284
Somewhere in the Middle
Astra Zenneth Oct 2016
No, no, no. Don't cry little daydreamer. The night is too dangerous for that. You'll attract the deep fears. You know what happens when they come. They burn down your perfect little daydream.
            A little daydream for a little daydreamer.
   You know what they'll do then. They'll burn you with lies and sadness.
           You know what attracts them. It's the lights. So bright. Welcoming the fears when you're weak.
         Don't you dare turn off those lights.
   You know what happens then. The nightmares come. You know what they do too. They devour real you. They leave weak little daydreamer. They leave you
          Oh no, we can't have that,
   Don't be a little daydreamer. The night is too dangerous for that.
I didn't originally have titles for any of these so i'll probably change them over time. If you have a suggestion, please, go ahead and tell me.
Oct 2016 · 208
A Start of Something
Astra Zenneth Oct 2016
Close your eyes back up, little daydreamer. Don't let them see your dull, mixed eyes. Go back to fairy tails and lost worlds. Go back to your lies. You're not ready for this one.
     Everything is real here. They have expectations. You can't meet those. So, go back to sleep.
    There are real problems here too. You can't solve those. So, go back to the clouds.
     This is a real world. You can't handle that. So, go back.
    
    Close those dull unready eyes. Count the sheep, like a good little daydreamer. And imagine yourself a less scary world.
    Oh little daydreamer, you aren't ready.
Oct 2016 · 144
Reasons
Astra Zenneth Oct 2016
I try to leave this trap you've caught me in
I know it's all in my head
but still your teeth sink in

You blame me for the **** you've put me through
I thought about my pain
It all leads back to you

You think it's my fault if I hold your words true
Then why do you always tell me
things I already knew

If all you do is reject and insult
How else am I to react
I see now this is the only result

I can only hurt from things that you've done
It never ends, I must end it
I hope you've had fun
It's over!
Oct 2016 · 182
Dead To Me
Astra Zenneth Oct 2016
I can't love you anymore
You've waited too long
I want to get over this
Released from the throng

You kept saying false words
and kept the truth to yourself
I won't ask you more questions
No longer I'll delve

I hope you'll forget
As I already have
I don't wish you pain
As you've made me sad

It's simply too late
I refuse to wait longer
If I keep waiting
My distress will grow stronger

If love will not come
As you said it would
I will forget
Just like I should

*you are dead to me
Sep 2016 · 183
A Murder Case
Astra Zenneth Sep 2016
Im looking for new things to do
Maybe i'm looking for you
I'm looking forward to the sin
I'm ready, let the demons in
You don't know what's coming soon
Open up and let me in
I'll climb inside and cover up
You have been the holy dream
I will never let you leave
**YOU ARE NEVER LEAVING ME
A bar. A stranger  approaches. They ****** you. You fall into the illusion. You don't know what awaits. They take you to their home. It's a barren apartment. Nothing personal anywhere. Strange,  but not too strange. You are too distracted by the buzz of your bodies touching anyways. Suddenly a cloth is placed against your mouth. You start to feel tired.  Next thing you know, you awaken tied to the bed. They hover over you still whispering sweet nothing into your ear. You scream in pain. They tore it off with their teeth. Blood pools beside your head. You dip in and out of consciousness. They laugh. "whats wrong baby." You plead for help. you scream and scream. They growl and stuff a cloth in you mouth. A knife is dragged down you stomach. It slices deeper and deeper.  Till it pierces.
           It doesn't take long for you to bleed out.
Sep 2016 · 408
Made Up Words
Astra Zenneth Sep 2016
You plant all day in your made up garden
You bury me in all the dirt
And then you refuse to give me a pardon

I never said a word you think
Please remove the mound from me
If I'm not removed I think I'll sink

I choke on crap you threw about
You shovel more dirt into my mouth
Stop this pointless grudge you lout

How dare you turn your back on me
I will get lost in this stupid ocean
I'm starting to drown in your dirt sea

I did not say the thing you said
And by the time you forgive me
I will be several years dead

Stop shoving dirt into my throat
I can take  it but you won't
I'll give it back and you might choke

So stop this pointless tiff
I won't tolerate anymore
Put an end to your stupid ****
I have a friend who tends to put words in other's mouths and then proceed to became very angry with you for something they made up. I feel like each part is fine on it's own but doesn't flow all together.
Sep 2016 · 684
I Thought We Were Friends
Astra Zenneth Sep 2016
If I were to tell you a secret
Would you keep it
Or would you seep it

I don't get the attraction
Or how you get the satisfaction
Breaking promises like fractions

I shared my thoughts as an act of trust
Spouting my secrets as if you must
If no one talked to you I'd think it just

How could you betray a loyal friend
Even then my words you bend
More and More your lies descend

So much for an honest companion.
I don't really have part in any rumors but i thought this described the experience well.
Sep 2016 · 418
Winter Is Coming
Astra Zenneth Sep 2016
Frost clouds the mirror
and clouds my thoughts

I want to touch it
but i guess I ought not

For my heart is too fragile
I'm afraid I might break

I just want to know
how much cold i can take
I absolutely love the cold.
Sep 2016 · 153
Sweet Nothings
Astra Zenneth Sep 2016
Twist a knife
soft and deep
I taste the blood
you make it sweet

Hurt me first
kiss me later
I'd rather bleed
than feel my lover

There is nothing
blood is better
Watch me gushing
pain is sweeter

Beat me blue
and i'll tell you a secret
All i want is the pain you give me
take the love, you can keep it

— The End —