The rain was cold upon my skin
Warm air makes it hard to breath
Gentle wind blowing through the trees
Birds chirping flying past me
Bees are buzzing, grass is getting watered
Being surrounded by nature, oh but what’s better
To dance in the rain, soaking it all in
No matter how wet I get, I call that a win

I love you
Your amazing
Your strong
Your talented
Your beautiful
Your worthy
Your awesome
Your gifted
Your humble
Your you
You got this

(Talking to my reflection in the mirror, telling myself “you’re worth it girl”)

Don’t be afraid to risk it all
Don’t be afraid if you may fall
Just breath and count to 10  
Deep breath in...
Deep breath out...
1,2,3
4,5,6
7,8,9
10
Repeat again...
Don’t be afraid to risk it all
Don’t be afraid if you may fall
You’ll never know what your capable of
If you don’t take the risk and just jump

Heartbeat
No heartbeat
A week or 39
Something has been created
Yet so many committed a crime
I have my views and agree to disagree
I feel whatever is best for you, that’s how it should be
Some have taken it for granted and have done it multiple times
Here I am, wanted one, but I’m left behind
Ban this
Ban that
Why aren’t we banning things that are a matter of fact
Regardless if it’s a lost for no reason at all, or you said yes to end it all
It’s still a life that was created in the act
Once you make the decision you can never go back
I may have just opened a can of worms
But I stand by my own words
I feel for those, like myself, who can carry a child
But for those who have done it over and over, it gives me sorrow
I respect everyone’s decision for whatever they choose, but feel for those who have no chance but to lose...

Just a small town country boy
Trying to beat defeat
As a castaway on one of the biggest shows
Living out his survivor dream
The struggles, the pain, the endurance, the fun
Building alliances until the work is done
Outwit, outlast, outplay
Until the sole survivor, you will become, taking the title and forever remain, a castaway...

Just because you can’t always see the sun and the moon up in the sky
Doesn’t mean it’s not there,  because so am I
I may not be physical anymore but believe me I’m here more then you know
Just because you can’t see me
Just because you can’t hear me
Just because you can’t hug me
Doesn’t mean I can’t see, hear or hug you
Look for the signs I send from Heaven
You’ll know it’s me
I am sending them directly to you
I’m always listening and watching over you
Never forget that and always remember
“I love you”

Today’s challenge....

Say something nice to someone, anyone...
    No hate
         Just love
              Make a difference
                              In the world....
Make a change
     Breakaway from the mold of society
             Be the cause to brighten up someone’s day
          To all of you reading this....
You are all beautiful and smart
You are all unique with art
Following your heart
Be who you want to be
Our time here in the physical world
Should be spent being loved and happy

The story of us can be just mean
Sparks fly causing a scene
The last time of being 22
Teardrops falling on my guitar
As we sing about Tim McGraw
It’s that time to shake it off
Staring into blank space
Bad blood between us
Showing our style and our wildest dreams
We are never ever ever getting back together
We’re not out of the woods
I don’t wanna live forever
Finding New Romantics
Oh look what you made me do
Are you ready for it, the end game
I am as delicate as a passenger train
Babe, let’s go back to be 15
Where it was just me and our song
Singing our love story of I’m only me when I’m with you
Holding the picture to burn of your beautiful eyes
Wanting change is crazier then a pure white horse
You belong with me sharing the best day
Fearless, back to December
You and me= mine
As the sparks fly...
Are you ready for it?

Sometimes not saying anything at all
Has just as big an impact then pouring your heart out and leaving it all on a blank page to be seen...

When you think you have it bad
Someone has it worse

When you think you have no money
Someone has nowhere to live

When you think your hungry
Someone else is starving

When you think your unhappy
Someone is hurting more

When you think your struggling
Someone else is struggling more

When you think you have it bad
Think of all the others who are
Fighting for their life
Losing someone
Dying
Poor
Sad
Unhappy
Struggling
Nowhere to live
Single parent
Hungry
Thirsty
Diagnosed with a disease
Taking their own life....

You may think you are in the worst place ever, but always think
“Someone has it worse”  
Pray for yourself, but also pray for others that need it more sometimes.

Rain
Rain
Has been falling
D
O
W
N
For what feels like an eternity now
Softly falling
Hitting the ground
Rain
Rain
Continues to fall
D
O
W
N
Colder temperatures
Not feeling like spring
Please let the sun shine
Bringing warmth within
Unleash the fairies to spread their magic
Drying up the waters
Breaking out the flip flops
Trips to the beach
Oh, can you imagine
Ice cream sundaes
Sand between our toes
Longer nights
Longer days
Summer where are you
This weather is making me blue
Grey skies and rain will clear up
But for now
I’ll take a jump
Into the deep waters
Of the pothole puddles
Dreaming of the ocean waters
Wishing for summer...

Just imagine



Imagination is timeless


Time is precious


Precious is life


Life is beautiful


Beautiful is you


You are your own imagination


Just imagine

To the woman who wiped away my tears
Told me to be brave, face my fears
The woman who molded me to who I am today
We celebrate you on this Mother’s Day
No matter how old I get in life
I will always need you...
A simple
Phone call
Hug
Smile
Kiss
Having you as my mother is pure bliss
To the woman who taught me love
I can’t thank you enough for all you’ve done
No words can describe how I feel about you at all
But one thing I know, you have always been there to answer my call
You have filled my heart with joy
Here’s to many, many more!
Happy Mother’s Day Momma
I love you always and forever and to the moon and back...

Is the end really the end or the end of a new beginning, beginning with someone else end to begin anew

Can you love,
Can you miss
Someone you
Never met
Carried
Birth
Met....

I do....

A single sentence is whisper as the butterfly soars by...
...I love you and miss you my daughter...
As, now,  I start to cry

Standing outside just before dusk
Looking into an open area of nothing
My eyes seem blurry but an image appeared
It was a distorted picture of a little girl spinning in the air
She was dancing in the rain but yet it wasn’t raining at all
What was this sight that I just saw
She only stayed for a minute or two
What is the meaning of this and why did I see it
Though distorted yet so obvious too

My eyes well up
A single tear forms
For all the babies who
Were never conceived
Who were never even born
For all those couples who dreamed
To be parents, just like my husband and me
Will never experience the happiness and joy
Having a little baby girl or boy
A single tear forms for all those around
Who have constantly tried and failed beating themselves to the ground
It just wasn’t in the cards for you in this life
Believe me, I feel your pain, it just *****, I’m not going to lie

I created love
In my heart
You ripped it out
Threw it on the ground
Stomp on it
Splatter my blood
Said I wasn’t good enough
We’re done

Abuse...

We all have secrets
We all have skeletons
We all have things we don’t want to admit
We all make mistakes
We all make promises
We all make break promises
We all are human
Humans have
Secrets
Skeletons
Humans make
Mistakes
Promises
Humans learns from them
Grow from them
Live from them
We are all
H
U
M
A
N

If you only knew about this wicked roller coaster ride that happens inside of my head always going at full speed....

Oh wait, you do....

If you read any of my poetry....

Walk me down the river
But stay in the shallow end
I don’t want to be on the edge
I’m not yet ready to dive right in

Let’s skip pebbles, making the water ripple
Just be cautious to not slip, you may be crippled
Hold my hand, don’t ever let go
I feel safe with you, this I know

Walk me down the river
But stay in the shallow end
I don’t want to be on the edge
I’m not yet ready to dive right in

I say I’m brave, I say I’m strong
But my real feelings I’ll put into this song
I’m always scared, I’m always shy
But I’m able to get through it with you by my side


Walk me down the river
But stay in the shallow end
I don’t want to be on the edge
I’m not yet ready to dive right in

Stay with me, just take a deep breath
I think I’m ready to dive in
Let’s conquer this together, let’s start our quest
You and me together we will do our best

Walk me down the river...

Sometimes the lessons are learned
When your put into the fire and about to get burned
You make it out alive
But the scars will remain
Never forgetting all that pain

Blank canvas
Splattered paint
Swirling colors collide
Emerging a masterpiece
Only you can see
Or those lucky
Enough to see
It will take you
Completely
By surprise
Creating
Art

My
Words
Fall out
Of my brain
Onto a blank
Page filling up
The spaces and
Lines to create a
Raw and unedited
Masterpiece that is
Trying to escape my
Head, becoming  
Transparent by
The words
That fall
Out of
My
Brain

Press me up against the wall...
Do with me as you please....
Cover my mouth....
Pull my hair...
I won’t bite, don’t be scared

The moonlight cascades atop of the taller trees
Sending moonbeams softly gliding down the branches to the silky leaves
Casting shadows upon the ground
That’s how you know the moon is smiling down

Another year
Another tear
Mother’s Day
I can’t say
I am
I am not
Never will
Be a mother
Childless
That’s all
I’ve got
Another year
Another tear
I will shed

Green leaves sprout from the branches
Creating shade out of the hot places
Growing tall
Growing old
Giving comfort
Protecting us
Until the last leaf gently falls

When the whole world goes dark
You’ll be my
L
I
G
H
T
That will make my heart shine
B
R
I
G
H
T

Being the inspiration
For those who lost their communication
Connection is key
Giving symbols and signs to me
Being the interpreter for all of those who can’t speak anymore
Being their voices, guiding us, just like they used to before
It doesn’t get any easier, you just cry a little less everyday
But because of you, we hear from our loved ones, in so many different ways
You have a gift
An amazingly beautiful gift
To shed some light in times of darkness
Creating awareness
Opening our hearts
Allowing us to connect with those that are worlds apart...

The only sound I hear are my tears hitting the blank page of paper

The perfect storm:
Two hearts collide as one
I guess I was the absolute lucky one
Finding my heart
My partner in crime
I see fireworks every time
You look
Touch
Glacé
Kiss
Hug
Me
The feeling is real
The feeling of you and me
Wishing and dreaming
Hoping and praying
Together for always
Living and loving
Our life with one another
Being wild and free
Forever and ever

I don’t care what you say
It doesn’t matter anyway
All the lies and ******* tales
Don’t come crying now, your the one that failed
We tried to help
We tried to support
I don’t give a ****
All you cared about was dope
You just up and left
No warning or goodbyes
You’ve come face to face with your own demise
How do you feel knowing you messed up  your life
You had the world in your hands
Yet getting high was your motive, like a twisted weave of lies
You come crawling back wanting sympathy and support
It’s not going to happen, I’m done trying to help you cope
Good for you, your sober 22 days
That’s only because you’ve been locked away
I hope you prove me wrong but I don’t see that fit
I’ve been put through the wringer with your crazy ****
I want to change, I want to get better
So you have said over and over
Let’s see how you do when your out in the real world again
Don’t come looking for redemption from me
It won’t happen ever again

Being vulnerable
    Can
       Feel
         Like
Overdosing on
         Drugs

Let me be
I’ll come around
When I’m good and ready
But not yet... not drowning
My heart will scream
Yet not make a sound
Let me be
When I’m good and ready
I’ll come back around

They saying goes:
“You wear your heart on your sleeve”
Well I wear two hearts on my sleeve...
One for you and one for me

Our world is turning dark and grey
But you can be the one to pave the way
Shine your light proud and bright
Stand up tall in your own spotlight
It only takes one to shed some joy...
Be the light in someone else’s darkness
Like a flash of light from a photographers lens
You may surprise yourself in all you do
Shine your light, show them it’s YOU

A small little bug
So tiny and green
Getting very furry
Growing big as can be
Encased up into a small cocoon
Taking a much need break
Until it’s time to break through
When the time is right
He will spread his wings
Blinking his eyes as he flies away
Flying with the wind, not against it
Showing off his colors after he’s well rested
Whimsical and fun he will show you the way
Finally free after a long nights stay
Ready for fun, ready to play...

It’s a beautiful ending to my day
When I gaze up to the sky
Seeing that star shining bright
Knowing your telling me
Everything’s going to be alright

Green grass fills the ground
Little purple flowers sprout for color around
Giving new life to nature
Finding some happiness through our world of color

The questions isn’t “who are you or where are you”
But perhaps the answer is:
“ I am me, this is where I’m meant to be”
Stay Humble
Stay Strong
Stay You
Don’t Stray Away
From who you are
God made you this way (for a reason)

Suspended from a window sill
as dreams go floating by
Please catch the one my heart does fill
this wondrous nighttime sky

And hold it till the sun does rise
as morning comes to be
Dreamcatcher there before my eyes
release my dream to me

Take me to a place where I belong
Captivating my heart like a love song

Feathers blowing ever so slightly within the gentle breeze
Come sing to me as you enter my dreams
Revealing my true identity, ever so softly

Come to me, don’t fly by
Fill my heart with joy
As I lay down to sleep
I pray for you, as I hope you pray for me

Suspended from a window sill
as dreams go floating by
Please catch the one my heart does fill
this wondrous nighttime sky

And hold it till the sun does rise
as morning comes to be
Dreamcatcher there before my eyes
release my dream to me

Don’t get tangled up in the mess
Like a boat caught through a storm
Undoing the knots as my dreams start to crest
Lost at sea this weary morn

Send a signal on echoing beams
Far across this dawning view
That will tell me all of these dreams
In the end will all come true

When sweet morning dawns
giving dreamcatcher sight,
the bad dreams flee
unable to survive in light

Dream catchers are the magic trick to capturing your nightmares or so they say
Caught like flies in a spindly web, guiding you to the morning when you've lost your way
Hope it's gone for good
Not to return in the coming nights
Setting them free, never to return to that fight

They never say how to empty them or release the dreams, so I make a mosaic or poem out of it to set them free

Dream catchers attempt to make you feel better to sleep
Don’t hesitate to worry if you try and peek
No matter how long
No matter how short
Your beautiful nightmare
Will get trapped and restored
Waking up slightly confused
But yet wanting more

Let the cobwebs do its job
For when you fall asleep at night
Your dreams will be caught, and not lost

How many hero's/heroines
sacrificed and left too die
all the pain and suffering
who and what can qualify?

Stumbling over the distractions ahead
Craving for more, salivating to be fed
Improper desire for lust and love
Just as free as a flying white dove

We'll move past the bodies
abdications, cedes, and waives
saving, craving, all sensations
just trying to be
brave

But for not to be seen
Covered in red
From the human remains
The lost
The hero’s
The blood
Of the dead

Things that were
and were not
said

Still hearing the silent screams
The nightmares, the sweats
The constant reminder
The flashbacks


No way to forget, it seems
the scars the blood, and everything
like cracks and the unsealed seams
reality of, Avenger teams

I guess no one wants to collaborate with me

Crying rainbow tears for all those babies who never took their first breath or open their eyes to this world

The fear of not knowing is sometimes worse then the fear of knowing...
Tensions rise, boiling hot, when’s the breaking point about to pop....
Count it down
3
2
1
Erupt....