Panic has set in
Shelves at most stores are bare
People are social distancing
Everyone is living in fear
Isolation has become real
Extra precautions are in order
Quarantine is thought to be normal at this point

Fear
Panic
Sadness
Anger
Frustration
Has impacted the world, yes the world

As much as this is a scary thing to think about
Let’s flip this and try to be positive

Spending time with your families
Your children
Your friends you live near

You get to do things around the house or close by that you’ve been meaning to do

Catch up or binge watching television shows or movies

Playing board games you haven’t played in years

Looking through old “home movies” or pictures from vacations or gatherings

Teaching our children new things


As much as this is a HUGE impact on our world, in the year 2020, we have a way to still be connected socially to everyone.
FaceTime, Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, and so much more.

Try and stay positive during this time of uncertainty and we will ALL get through this TOGETHER!

I pray for everyone near and far to be protected and to stay well....

Hello?

Is anyone there?

Is anyone seeing my work?


Have I disappeared?

I feel in a rut that no one can find me!

Hello?

Right now
I don’t know
What to feel
What to think
How to act
Should I be scared?
Should I heed precaution ?
Should I stay home?


This is how most of the world is feeling right now
Taking it day by day
Heeding warnings and using precautions in hope that this virus will vanish soon and the world can go back to normalcy again...

Keeping
You
Myself
Family
Friends
And the
World
In my thoughts and prayers...

The world is experiencing

FEAR

PANIC

CHOAS

UNEASINESS

PANDEMONIUM

AND

SCARINESS

Just as if we were getting a freak blizzard that will dampen our economy but yet this is worldwide

Don’t let fear hold you back...
Let “fear” drive you more
Allowing yourself to remain safe yet still live during this pandemic happening to us...

Have you ever felt like you just disappeared
Lost
Forgotten
Like a faded picture through the years
Only holding on to memories yet holding back the tears
Screaming and crying but no one can hear
A daily struggle tackling your fears
Alone....

In this moment
Live in the moment
For all other moments
Are just mere memories

I get lost in the music

I get lost with you

I get lost in my dreams

I get lost through dance


Sometimes being “lost” doesn’t mean your really lost, it means your escaping from something to detoxify yourself with something that you love

To dance upon water is to live as free as a floating angel in the sky

You came to me in my dream
It feels like forever it seems
It’s been many years since your gone
But to me, in my dream, your we’re drawn
Drawn to life, hugged me tight
Sure made my heart jump with delight

I write....

Real


Unedited


Raw


On the spot

Writings...


Guess it works for me?

Little particles slipping through my fingertips
Only clinching and holding on to the ones that are close to my heart....

What

Am

I?

Empty minds
Shallow hearts
Rattling brains
Fallen apart

The
Ocean
Waters
Are
Very
Rarely
Ever
Calm
Yet
Seem
To
Be
Full filing
At
The
Same
Time

Throwing rocks, more like boulders
As if I’m a target, aiming for the bullseye, straight at my heart
Keep trying, I will not go down, I will keep dodging them, I will not hit the ground
Obstacles are just a way of life
You can always overcome them, and learn from them, with determination and strife...

To think and fear the worst of things is already letting yourself go into a dark place....

.....to just live and take in the moments, be grateful for what you have, everything else will take its course and lead you to where your meant to be....

If your getting burned
Step away from the flame
You don’t need to be that close to negativity

Rain droplets form on my window pane
Forming constellations like the stars in the night sky
Creating a beautiful picture that only I can see
Easing my mind while the storm passes by....

A hurricane
More like a tornado
Through my brain
Flinging up ideas
Swirling them around
Slamming them hard
Into the ground
Tossing and turning
Moving fast
My ideas slipping away
As my words fly past
Trying to catch them
Forming a destructive
Yet beautiful scene
In the end
Here’s to my beautiful nightmares
Turning into a magical but oh so dark dream

What if your imagination is running so wild that you can’t tame your thoughts, lock them up and put ink to the paper....

Holding onto that missing piece wishing you could place it down to complete the puzzle but not wanting to accept the finished ending...

Time makes memories
And
Memories heal time






Timeless memories
Are a way of life..

Trying to figure out life is like finishing a thousand piece puzzle... there is always a missing piece...

To
Be
An
Open
Book
Only
Means
Your
Cover
Is
Hardback
And
Tough
To
Read...

My love is poisonous
One kiss with me
Your under my spell and disease
Proceed with caution

Fully understanding and fully knowing make a world of difference then just understanding and knowing or accepting

The sky is light blue with white and grey swirling clouds peeking through
The wind is blowing
The chill is in the air
Traffic is flowing without a care
Children are laughing as they walk to school
Ready to learn, not being a fool
It’s just another day or is it?
Ready to tackle this great day
Be happy your alive, healthy and happy isn’t that enough to say?
Say your alive and well
Healthy and happy goes a long way
Don’t harbor on yesterday
Don’t think about tomorrow
Just live for TODAY!

Some things are better left unsaid
But what do I do with these words inside my head

“ What were you thinking?
“Your kidding me right?”
“It was a stupid move”
“ Why all the lying?”
“ Am I suppose to care?”
“ It’s *******”
“ I don’t even care”
“ It was dumb”
“ I have no pity”
“ Should I really be happy?”
“ Do you what you want”
“ All eyes always have to be on you”
“ Whatever “
“  It’s cool”
“ Do what you want”


I could go on and on but
Some things are better left unsaid....

Just because I don’t have ashes on my head
Doesn’t mean I don’t celebrate Lent
I do not go to church at all
Yet I pray everyday
We all have different ways
Of showing our
Faith

When you walk into a place that your ever so comfortable at but yet so uncomfortable you can cut the tension with a knife leaving you feel unwanted...

Your conscience is your compass of the imagination inside your head

The candle goes out again
Relighting then flame
Burning brighter then before
Even if it’s just a Dream

Mascara tears run down my face
Making a mask to hide the pain
My hands cupped as I catch the drops
Overflowing onto my lap
No single tear is ever the same
Swirling patterns, my tears will make
Thick, dark and watery rain
Mascara tears, I cry, painting an emotional scene
Covered in darkness but will soon see the light
When I’m able to wipe away my fright
Maybe it’s not sadness
Maybe it’s just me
Being able to live and set myself free
Mascara tears run down my face
Soon I’ll be able to remove the mask
Showing off my beautiful face

A cold, dark room
Turns bright as the sun rising
Upon you entering in

I may look lost and no clue of what I’m doing....

.....but if you were only in my head and could see my dreams brewing....

A playground swing set
Setting you free as can be
Reverting you back to your childhood
Wild, innocent and free

Today I say a little prayer
Cross my fingers
Dreams are in the air
Here’s the the next step
Making a dream become reality
To put into your favorite quote
“Anything is Possible....Even Miracles”

Your eyes are like the oceans waves
Crystal blue yet so full of life

The storm clouds roll in
The rain begins again
The storm is coming
But be not afraid of the storm
Because after the storm
A change is brewing
Allowing for the light to shine bright
Letting the vibrant colors of the rainbow be near in sight

It’s all about perspective and perception and finding inspiration through darkness

Slip on stockings
(Nothing underneath)

A **** lace bra
(Covered by a red long shirt)

Put on some glasses
(Role play at its finest)

Climb on top of him
(Driving him wild)

Turning me on
(Getting so wet)

Rip in my stocking
(Getting closer yet)

An out of body experience
(That was totally not me)

Oh but baby it was
( ******* **** and hot as can be)

****.....
Role play....

Pick a card
Giving us some guidance
Let the cards fall where they may
Letting us know
All will be ok

If you need me
I’ll be there
If you don’t
I’ll

F
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A
W
A
Y

To drink the poisonous drink is to remain in the toxic environment

Try to be the red, vibrant rose among the field of white roses...


Being different is beautiful

How
Can
You
Control
Something
That
Is
Out
Of
Your
Control....

Ju­st Breath...

If you hide in the background....


....you will always be seen in the spotlight...

Finding myself through the pile of memories that are stuffed away in a box on a shelf in my closet

Valentines Day....


Worked 14 hours....

Ate pizza....

Going to bed...

Goodnight

February 14....

Valentines Day.....

365 days a year to say
“I Love You” in any way...

Why wait for this one “Special Day?”

When you can show love and appreciation throughout  the year
Making every moment

(Valentines Day)

Always look at the positive things that may have occurred or that will occur....