does it ever hurt knowing the exact moment you lost hope?
does it ever hurt knowing the exact moment you stopped trying?

there are times i realized even the things i loved doing just doesn't matter.

like it was too dull.

does it ever hurt knowing the exact moment you started losing hope?
does it ever hurt knowing the exact moment you stopped believing in yourself?

in the end, everything hurts.

it hurts remembering happy and sad moments. it hurts living and sometimes, i just down care about anything anymore.

i remember the first time i heard the first time i heard 'best friends forever'.

i remember being alone and isolated in school. they said how they'll always be by my side.

after years of confessing secrets and laughter, she turned to me coldly and told that she had a new best friend and to leave her alone.

i remember being alone and isolated again. and again.

and again.

and eventually i didn't say 'best friends forever'. just 'best friends'.

people who smile the brightest cry the hardest
that is society's problem
the people you see might not be genuine
sometimes just put on a smile
and just tell lies

smile , society tells you
lies, lies, lies
put on a smile, don't cry
be silent

to smile is a thing people say is easy
smiling genuinely is the problem
can society move on?
instead of picking on the weak?

alas, society shall stay the same
a mistake, a lie
after all,
isn't it better when everyone smiles?