It is 4 in the morning again
And I'm still up drinking coffee
Thinking it's fine to hold my own hand
Not feeling alone, but so lonely.
What happened to this life of mine ?
Before you walked out the door
I used to be so happy all the time
And now I just can't laugh no more.

But I'm fine, yes I'm fine you know,
I've just been sad for a little while,
It's hard to think that just a year ago,
I was with the person who made me smile.
"A year ago, we were in love"
said your beloved Woody Allen
How come I ever made you think of
Leaving me by myself again.

And how come I'm still in love with you,
After all the time that's gone by
After all that I've been through
You still manage to make my cry.
It's all my fault, I know that well
I just can't stand blaming myself for everything
I'm laying inside my little shell
Of hate and insecurity.

If you were here, we'd just finish this cup of coffee
Then I would drag you into my bed
You'd stay there, on top of me
You'd kiss my nose, my cheek, my forehead
We would make out, we would make love,
Which is probably one of the things I miss the most
I'd open the window, we'd watch the stars above,
You see... That's all I lost.

But I don't really care anymore about the past
'Cause now I'm focusing on the future
First loves are the only ones that last,
I'm working on us being together.

Because the love I feel for you is all I have left..

She just turned 18
She doesn't know what she's doing
with her life.
Her parents are always on her back,
Always stressing her out,
Got to make her mind up.
She doesn't know what she wants
Her universe isn't balanced
at all.

For now she's lost in a sea of sensations,
Refuses to look at the future in the eyes
Believes tomorrow will bring a clear answer,
but it never does.
Poor girl just turned 18
and she thinks her life is already over.

She's lost her heart, she's lost her mind,
What can she even do now ?
Trying so hard to find a place within
She keeps fighting every day
But life doesn't give her the chance she needs.
She's lost as you can see,
What can she do, what can she do ?

School's almost over, take a decision now
What is she going to do ?
She's still under so much pressure
Poor little girl can't handle of that,
She just wants to go far away
And never, ever come back.

But she's still just a little girl,
She has to wait for a while.
Then she can leave, in a few months' time
And start a brand new life...
She just turned 18,
But she feels she's already lived her whole life.

She's still hoping to go, one day
Where nobody can ever find her again.

so now i'm stuck with my loneliness again and there's nothing left for me to do
just laying here listening to the rain 'cause i have nobody to talk to.

These secrets I keep,
Are hidden behind an invisible thread
That I've woven around me

This thread,
Tightly securing
All that I hold deep

The world may creep up on me,
Cast out shadows
That ordinarily...would cause a girl to scream

But, I'm not afraid of the dark
I'm not afraid of much of anything
Other than, letting him see the real me

My *****, gritty insides
The scars that never healed

The decomposing lies
The dust that flickers past my eyes
The ghosts that haunt my mind

It's dark, it's morbid
Maybe too frightening for anyone to see

For once,
I want to rip the thread to shreds
Let the darkness seep out of me,
Like blood in the morgue

I want to bury my fear,
In a deep grave

Lock it up in a tomb,
Bar the doors so I can't look back

I want to show him who I am
Through unfiltered means
Without fear,
Of what could be.

I'll stand by you
Through hell storm
And through Heaven's Gates
Let you know
I love you
And hold you close
As long you allow me
And let me rest easy
Knowing my heart has a safe place

I'm just one more thing
Hanging over your head
But I'm the one falling
From a tiny thread
Liar liar liar
Give it a rest
Someday you'll see
That I am best
You say you're broken
But I'm the one hurting
You whisper the words
That are so reassuring
I've given you all of me
There's nothing left to show
You win I surrender
And I'm afraid I must go
This battle was fought
Long hard and strong
But you're right, I'm defeated
Which one of us was wrong?

The transformation yields to no one;
Sugar cube swallowing
to stop the fury and fire dancing.
In your black and white blizzard,
there is a frenzy.

The gray is for all us hollow,
burnt and pricked, suffering the Consequence
and stepping on the broken glass.

You made a home beneath my skin.
I was swollen, but not for long.
I lived within the sun,
the skin, and the soul, It is just now
I found that I've been inside
of a tornado the entire time.

I say, my saving grace,
**** me in and spit me out once more,
Asphyxiate and resuscitate.

The next, you may be unending, on fire.
The flowers may grow again in your footsteps.
You grow and the world follows.

You put the trail through this forbidden wood.
I find myself pacing through its evergreen, ever-lost.

Your wind whips and the blades of grass
cackle beneath the sun, your rays
lash and burn and sting.

I still don't feel a thing.