The delicacy of the situation,
At its epitome,
Could not but vexate me.

The vague and cloudy memories,
Set aside all the tragedy,
You came back like a lightning bolt struck.

Vandalizing everything to a degree,
Discrete were we,
And our lives in peace.

But then,
You came along,
Dragging misery.

My eyes were shut before,
Now I see the true you,
I thank God I had fled away.

Perhaps it is fate that brought you here,
But now I will not accept you anyways,
Because now I believe I'm destined for greatness.

I hear voices in my head
So real, as if someone's calling out my name
They are so loud and so clear
That at times when i want to shut away from the world
They petrify me and i fail to procure peace
When i lay down, wanting to sleep
My head explodes like a volcano
And once again, someone's voice erupts-
Calling out my name
It makes me feel so different and strange
I can't begin to explain how irritating it is at times
That i feel the urge to shoot myself
I want it to end
But for some reason they keep getting louder and louder when i try to resist them
I hesitate to carry on my day for this very reason
And let these voices flood in and slowly take me with them, piece by piece- till the day I'm gone!

I've been asked why you don't say yes,
And I say because he who shall love me the most shall be the one !!!

A sedation that leaves only thirst for more
a desire unsaid of love and wreck
a mixture of two odds
sinful, yet irresistible

A bond of two
sensationally and physically tied
strengthened by a charismatic bond
so involved, so intimate

A journey to depths
in a state of euphoria
existing in a place like utopia
where there's only passion for more and more

A craving for you to come close
a relentless yearn of not letting go
such little time but such long distances
leaving behind everything and going faraway

A feeling of emptiness on the skin
tears involuntarily stream down touching the corners of the lips
'tis the last time in a long time that we meet
'twas the departing of the lips that silently whispered, 'Until next time'!

Serene voice,
Enthralling personalities,
Qualities one can seek in such audacious men,
Fervent and keen.

Melancholy though can shatter all hope,
Feeling vain,
At times of catastrophe,
All heroic fades in remorse and devastation.

The enraging war,
Has brutally slaughtered millions,
Injured as well,
One can't visualize things that easy.

There's no peace after war,
Blood and human flesh all around,
White coffins and teary eyes,
Death is just a call from God.

The real test is the after life,
Where no one can neither lie nor judge,
Oh please God stop these enemies from slaying our families,
Please let there be tranquility.

Pulled into a dark catastrophe,
Thinking as a child that how beautiful is this world,
And now growing up to see terrorism so common,

Suicide bombers run in our land,
Hide in places where no one can find them,
They **** and slaughter, heartless and more often,

Poignant is the pain scarred in people's hearts,
Already losing people close to you is so hurtful-
That it had to be for these brutes and their plans, that take away more people closer to you,

Barbarity and atrocity runs in their veins-
As they scatter the world with explosive belts,
And holding MP5's and AK-47's like they're nothing but toys,

Blood seems to accumulate the emotions in their hearts,
Which is why their souls are disturbed and cold,
Terrorizing innocent spirits and shedding blood here and there,

Liars and deceits sit on the rulers seat,
Silently signing up for their plans,
And claiming money for each death,

Countries fighting among-st each other,
Especially innocents being targeted as terrorists,
Thanks to our superiors we're nothing but worthless libel's,

Humanity has lost its charm,
The once depth and affection for kids and women,
Leaves behind only raging war, which is on its way.

The angry waves,
Gushing high and low tides, consistent,
The rising of every wave,
Taking away everything near its bay.
The immovable bodies being wiped away,
The roaring water,
Though sparkly,
Such a beautiful sight,
But deathly and dangerous.

With darkness everywhere,
And blanket of clouds,
Rain pours down slowly,
Seemingly destructing, rather enhancing the weather,
Droplets of water rest on petals,
Washing soil and settling the weather.

You conversing
with others
Or eyeing on me
through your references
is not what bothers me,

You not talking to me
you arguing with me
or even ignoring me
due to reasons
is not what bothers me

You not opening up to me
because of your insecurities
or hiding a secret
because you can't tell me
is not what bothers me

But if you hold me
responsible for all our feuds
or find ways to guilt me
in covering up your flaws
In easy words, what bothers me is that you lied to me.

When I'm hurt,
I cry,

When I'm happy,
I fly,

When I'm lonely,
I hide,

When I'm helpless,
I despise,

When I'm angry,
I hate,

All these emotions,
Build up a humans way of life,

Some may cry, some may whine,
Some try suicide, some make up lies,

Some console, some feel,
Some love, some deceive,

People differ in many aspects,
Through pain I led my life,

But theres not one day that I say,
I'm lucky to have had such pain,

I'm lucky to go through rejection,
I'm lucky to see people and feel them,

This taught me so much,
And helped me mature myself.

I shovel down memory lane
trying to assemble pieces
scarce loops lumped together
untied chains and strings of God knows what
it is what perplexes my heart
a ray of light shadows on what seems like my life
all that I ever had, falling apart
could it be a test
or my hopelessness?

What is it about you that's so captivating?
What is it about the way you smile that leaves me breathless?
What is it about your touch that makes me numb?

It could be the way you talk, the way you play with your words that touches my soul,
It could be the way you beam that attractive smile or laugh, when I talk ludicrous,
It could be the magnetism in your touch that leaves me marked all over,

What is it about your eyes that sinks me into their depth?
What is it about that laugh that gives me goosebumps?
What is it about the way you brush your hands through your hair that excites me?

It could be the sparkle in the way you look at me that makes me fall more in love with you,
It could be that when you laugh at my idiocy I know that you notice me and listen to what I say,
The reason could be that this happens in my presence, whenever you look at me you brush your hands through your hair.

Sorrow of demise,
Happiness but pride,
Money and rights,
Racism and sexism,
Oppression through rage,
Conflicts over beliefs and critism,
Discrimination and ****** through words,

As we all know,
Actions speak louder than words,
I absolutely agree with this,
What is life without peace?
What is life without feeling others pain?
What is life in any form?
Life needs to be defined well,
Living your life to its best and not caring about the rest,
This is not life,

Helping the poor,
Wiping away tears of the pained,
Loving and consoling,
Putting an end to quarrels,
And easing people in trouble,
Not living life in superiority,
Not being atrocious to others,
This is all pointless,
One day we all leave,
Others who shall grieve will only grieve for a while,
Then they forget and move on with their lives,
We all have separate graves, separate deeds and separate accusations,
Only God will see and we shall not astray from his path.

The currenty vibes that move along my skin,
With every touch I feel faint,
Your caress and love so charismatic,
It drives me crazy,
Thinking whether you're a Virgo or Pisces,

Your smile so breathtaking,
And eyes so mesmerizing,
I wonder what to do when you're near,
Your overly protective nature though aggravating,
Allures me,

Maybe I have a concussion,
The reason why I yearn for your attention,
The very reason I flinch when you touch,
Is this what love is ?
Or is it merely an attraction.

What do I want?
To endeavor,
Dignity,
Attitude,
Money,
Style.
No?
Then what do I want?
Looks,
A lover,
A house,
Children.
Wait.
No !
I want,
Decency,
Appreciation,
Inner beauty,
A heart,
And to be
Determined.

Vexed from the beginning,
Perplexed from the start,
What is it about us that's keeping the two of us apart?

I may have erred once long ago,
I myself am in guilt and shed tears in woe,
But then again, I still don't get what's keeping the two of us apart?

Maybe we're not made for each other,
Maybe we're too distant to ever fall for one another,
No, its actually you who's keeping the two of us apart,

It's you who pushes me away,
It has always been you, the egoistic and contemptuous one,
And I alone stand to keep this relationship between us united.

He is so caught up in his life
that he forgot that I existed
in his life beside him
bearing his angry character day and night,

I have compromised so much
that I'm sure I could pile them up in a tower
gaze on top and still see no hope
as you blocked me away,

Sharing your feelings with other
not telling me how you feel
and in return expecting me to understand
please explain how that can be,

Is this distance
that now exists between us
not as hard for you
as it is for me?

I know that I loved you
and that you never really loved me
faking your promises
and lying to my face,

Behind my back you cheat
for a year it took you to get me
now that i said yes
Is this ignorance what i get?

This worlds needs to change,
It needs revolutionized minds and sanes,

Politicians corrupt and misuse resources,
Voices of people interrupted and ignored,

What has this world come to?
Where have all these Mavericks and Dissidents run off to?

How is it that one preaches them?
Maybe a few of these can help reshape, remold and restructure the world.

Into the woods,
On foot,
I came across so many obstacles,
But with that one friend,
I feel so blessed.
Talking about marriage and romance,
Danielle Steele and Judith Mcnaught,
Make the conversation all the more strong.
The runny sand and our ***** pants,
They seem to have no weight,
Monkeys on barks,
Elephants parading towards the lake,
It all seems so natural,
The sound of the river and my yummy waffle.
My trip to the wilderness was as crazy as this poem seems,
No idea, no plot,
I know its a flop !

Hot chocolate and marshmallows,
The warmth of the blanket,
The sizzling kisses,
Socks and mittens,
Two bodies tangled together,
Heavenly touching and caressing,
Assimilating their thoughts through every stroke,
Loving each other severely.

Obligations-
Have used up all my time,
Caught up in hasty work,
Lessening my resting hour,
Taking away precious time.

I feel like i have failed in life
Was once so content
Now not even fine
I used to stand upright
Was steady and focused
But now all that might shattered into bits
My soul withering gradually from my body
I have yet to rise
But things have led me to my own demise
Destructed from within
I smile to show others I'm alright
From within however I'm dead and empty
I have failed not only myself
But also the people around me
Now only left with hopelessness and self despise.

Deceased and at stake is my love,
That once hope fades bits of my heart,
I feel invisible,
The cold and chills that I bear,
Angels illuminate the sky,
Lighten my path,
And fly me away with the wind
To motherland,
Where everywhere there is peace,
Under supervision of God you sleep,
Protected from all corners,
Though to me you're more than peace,
So I stay here just for you to seek me,
Many have said leave,
But I deny because I can't,
No memories,
Just voices stuck in my head,
They haunt me in my dreams,
Alone I sweep away from the crowd,
And cry,
Thinking why oh why have I such a bad fate,
Maybe its just not meant to be,
Dear its you who I think is meant for me,
But in real you're really not that into me.

And I found peace
in your prayers
And I find solace
when bowing and crying in front of you,

Every tear that I shed
all my regrets
all my sorrows
they all decayed the moment I called on to you,

The poignancy in my heart
the impossibilities
and the hurdles I faced
all I ever did was cry in front of you,

I felt like I sinned a lot
I was grieving
the pain I carried was so immense
And all I said was 'Ya Rahman, Ya Raheem' all that I had on my mind was no more.

At 6'o clock,
The clock strucks hard after completing its tick tock,
I pick up the remote,
Surfing the TV,
My eyes fixated,
My surroundings seem to fade,
And my head absorbed.
Suddenly the phone rings,
On answering the phone I faint,
I'm going to a marriage,
Where my crush is going to host.

You are the best thing that ever happened to me,
Everytime you come close to me,
Leaving no space between us,
Lovingly you drop your gaze on me,
Oh you take my soul away,
W**hatever you're doing I think its working !

The sound of the windchimes,
I find so divine,
It feels like you're mine,
Every morning I wake up,
I breathe the words you speak,
Feel your pulse and the blood seep,
It makes my heart skip a beat,
I feel like holding on to you forever,
And never letting go !

My heart feels astray
as the storm comes and takes my body away,
my soul responds to this pain,
Of your absence,
And that you fled away,

My balance,
weak and poignant,
Needs a lot of repair,
To bear the hurt that you gave,
Withering me internally,

Not even a glue,
Or a surgery can help me stabilize,
Its just you,
And your touch,
That can save me.

Joyous and blissful I feel in your arms,
Your enriching words,
And your breath taking self,
Envelope me in their warmth,
Letting not others hurt me,
Protecting me as you're my guardian,
My angel sent from heaven,
In your company I reminisce our good times together,

Soft gaze,
Caressing touch,
The goosebumps down my nape,
Make me shiver in response,

My trembling lips,
My palms sweating,
Conscious I am of your presence,
As you take my breath away,

Your fingers interlacing with mine,
Dancing is my mind,
With every stroke,
And your heart touching I love you's,

Your anger,
Your possessiveness,
It gets on my nerves,
But allures me wholly,

That smile,
Brightens up my day,
Your funny conversation and the way you hold my hand,
Lighten up my mood.

You light up my night,
Your presence enchants me baby,
You're my sweet heart.

You shattered my heart,
Broke it like a colliding star,

Afar this galaxy as I see a shooting star,
My eyes and my heart teary as well as scarred, feel vexation grow every passing hour,

Your ignorance kills me from the inside,
My pain and anger, it just doesn't matter at all,

For you I'm just another toy,
Use me, tell me you love me and then leave me,

This I know you will later on do,
Break me into a dozen pieces and make me feel worthless.

Raging beastly within,
Scoundrel you are,
Silly I was,

Then came the days you paved away,
Leaving me drenched in tears,
Poignant and pained,

After the last three to four years,
I stood up strong on my feet,
Audacious and not at all weak,

You now sit alone,
Regretting and reminiscing,
Indeed,

You want me back now,
But how should I put it and say,
That now I'm happy and I don't care,

Now you lock yourself up,
Die inside a millionth time like I did,
Hit your head on things and say,' I'm sorry',

But knowing the pain you afflicted me with,
I won't give way,
Or you a chance to stay.

An awfully long period that we spent apart
wasn't as easy as it seems
but how easy is it for others
to say their side of goodbyes

I love you irrevocably
from the beginning till now
your presence, your everything
its lightens up my day

there's something about you
that keeps me from losing you
could probably be a restless soul
or could be the time we have had together wrapped in each others arms

once hesitant to fall in love
now it feels like eternity with you
though distant yet you reside in my heart
as I drift deep into my thoughts all that my lips ever speak about is you, you and you!