I've spent so long drowning inside of myself.
And now...
Anytime you appear at my side it's like electricity coursing through my veins.

in the green grasses growing on the shore
of the little river trickling through
I sat and thought of her and tomorrow
how crystal clear and  pure it all seemed
how she smiled and looked at me
from the side when no one else was looking
looked up at the  branches of trees and
how they weaved and looked at the embroidery
of all the weeds and thorny bushes entangled  and vines
a web of things I had  not seen or looked at clear
glanced again in the water how crystal clear I thought again
and how just below  is everything a fish or an old hook
stuck in some branch I can't see from here.
And thought as I drew my bare feet up under me
I have to go swimming , then.

Acceptance is important
Accepting things will never change
Accepting the jealousy he feels for mum
Accepting this will never going away
Accepting he transfers the disappointment that he feels about himself onto to me

Accepting he listens to the witch and when He does
Sees me in a different way
Hears me in a different way
Misunderstands

Accepting he is unable to
Standstill
Alone

Accepting he will never stand up for his Children
He has already lost one to the witch

Accepting he needs to belong
To her
So he must agree
With her

Accepting you allow her to be so vile
To you
To every one

Accepting if the pain is explained
You fire
Like a spit fire
Rage, anger
Disappointment
Like darts to the heart

Accepting you allow her
To be your master

I am hungry.
Hungry for affection,
Hungry for attention,
Hungry for love behind the mind's comprehension.
I thirst for accomplishment and pride,but I'm in drought,
Like California.
I am sleepless,restless,its always on my mind. I can't stop being hungry,
I'll starve until I die.
They think my life is easy,WRONG!I am hungry,hungry to be understood.
I will probably die among the starving,die of my hunger.

If you want to stop the hurt
Build me fire so that I can burn
Place it by your wide gulf
Protect me from the wind's cold
Talk to me some more
In this warm, warm shore
Let me hear your melodies
Your company is my remedy

I want a love that I can scream at the top of my lungs and still feel like no body heard me type love
I want a love that drowns me from the inside out type love
I want a love that consumes me
one that takes all my breath away in a way that makes me feel like a boulder is laying upon my chest type love
one that sweeps me away and makes me get lost in the thought of you type love
a love so great that the thought of anything else couldn't possibly amount to it type love
a type of love that I can wake up to and never get sick of because seeing you in the morning is one of the most beautiful and most refreshing things I've ever seen type love
I want that kind of love that makes my stomach feel like it's been flipped inside out and shaken upside down type love
I want a type of love that will never make me get sick of hearing those three little words that roll so perfectly off your tongue type love
an I love you type love
TV

Over and over I want to beg.
I want to scream out.
Touch me...
Use me please.
Let me submit to you.
I crave your ownership.
So dance with me, my lover,
Lead me around and around.
I'll follow you anywhere.
To the edge of the world,
Just one step behind you.
I'm floating in an ocean
Of want and desire.
I'm desperate for your touch...
The burning need..
I can't escape it.
But I don't want to.
No need to run now.
I just want more....
Please more Sir.