And my mind sometimes wanders
Other thoughts storm in, and I get lost
I'm fine and I don't need you the most
And I got over you and paid the cost
But when the fog disappears
It is sunny and my mind clears
There you are there I find you
The sole inhabitant of this wonderland
Like you are a Queen, and you rule the land
I lay you down in a coffin
But I could never bury you
And so, you linger in my mind
And my heart of hearts too
And when nothing else is there
There I find you.

My love for you is the roses
Forever blossoming
Kept in an icy crystal
That refuses shattering
My love for you is the sky
Forever widening
Where only the free birds fly
And no bad is happening

So easy and flowing like everlasting seas.
It's comfortable, sweet and calm
It's a strong yet delicate arm.
I'm the boat, the wind and the free bird
Riding the breeze and waves.
I'm in a tranquil state. Arm behind the head.
I'm dozing off while the cloud carries me.
I know no fear. You are the sun.
I bathe in you, while you gently hold me.
I reach for you, and I find all that I ever wanted.
So, I'll keep surfing on your waves.
Hoping that the sun will never leave me.

Your love may be true
but its not enough
you don’t burn with it
and I deserve the fires.

And once you step on the moon
How could you ever settle for mere stars?
Once you learn a secret language
How could you ever unlearn it back?
How can you forget your vocabulary?
How can you leave souls?
I can burn all the photos and clothes
But what fire could burn words?

Hands brushing , lips inviting
Eyes shining , smile welcoming
Finger tips almost kissing
Thighs almost linking
Such urge... such hold such gravity.
I want to orbit around you forever.
Can a cold planet not burn with being so close to a sun?
Can the sun ever love such darkness?
Can the night light up a day?
Will we shine together?
Or does the darkness have another say?
Is it truly my night or did they cover me in it?
Can I shine like you do? Can I light you?
Can you feel a warmth? Or are the winds cold?
I'll light up souls, I'll make fires that I cannot produce

Saw an old "friend" today
It's been a few years...
I think we fought in the past
maybe he hit me and I hit back
I can't remember the cause of the fight
a short chat about where we at
And what we might
Different paths and different lives
What an agony it is to grow
Are the memories real or were they just a show?
What about the time, the laughs and cries?
What is this familiarity in seeing someone from the past?
Why did we talk like best friends?
My heart aches for a time past
Of being young full of friendships and talks
Do they exist somewhere other than my mind?
Does he remember all that I have in my heart?
Such an agony to grow, to forget and remember
I gave him a big tip
And said to memories; I surrender.

I want you to have weekends me.
messy, unbrushed hair, a sleeping mask, and hair-tie perhaps
stained old T-shirts, big, comfortable, and nice.
covered in cat hair, no glasses, unrecognizable.
weekends me. I want you to have that me, maybe the real me.
free,
I want to show you that me.

To you... To you who calmed the storm
To you who knew where I'm from
To you who erases Darkness and lights the sun
To you who wields the sword for me.
I'd die for you, reborn, and die again gratefully.
I send my love, my care, my light. May it always keep you happy, safe and Bright... To you... who lights the sun.

My sister gave birth today,
A beautiful little girl,
She said she named her after my grandmother
and it took me a moment to talk
For you and my grandmother share the name
And she may have had it first
I may have known her longer,
But for me that name will always mean you
And others may share the same name too
But they are mere holders of it
And it only belongs to you
That name never meant my her
It always meant you.
And now that you and I are no more
This name will haunt me for evermore

Stranded in an empty desert
alone, no shelter or home
nowhere to hide, nowhere to run
along you came, a cloud heavy with rain.
and rain you did.
hopeful, I received your drops
but what was supposed to be salvation
turned to storm
cold and wet I lost a home.
you shaded me but clouds are not meant to stay
so we lost the way
you shower me with rain and then storm
blocking the sun
and In the end you realize
that no matter how much you love the rain,
in the end you always crave the Sun.

I showed you my secret garden
But you invited all
The gates I sealed for eons
For you opened, but now no more
It was never meant for more than two
For people always ruin and demolish all
And what's secret is sacred
It's treason to tell another soul
It was meant just for us two
And no more
And I know I didn't create it
Nor was it truly mine
But it was where I belonged
And now I search for a new garden
For me alone

Your pearly whites blind me
Your smile could light this whole town
A gentle, inviting smile
Your eyes too, shine
I can barely hold myself from kissing you
From wanting to touch that cheek
From holding you and getting closer
Is it ok if I get closer?
Can I do what I want to do?
Will you welcome me in that warm embrace?
I jump and fall to you.
Hoping I'll be caught.
In your warm nets.

Hard to approach, people are afraid
Courage is not found within him too
I swear it’s true
it’s hard it really is
I want to but something me stops
I hope you understand that its not my fault
And that nothing is wrong
but it’s ok
I'll find the right people or the courage
somewhere, sometime, someday...
I don't blame you nor do I blame me
for it is who we are.
And so shall we be.

Bring me that “perfect” woman
The full, the perfect, the all
The one that fulfills fantasies,
The gate where men fall
who makes dreams come true
who makes gold out of blue
I'll still go, bolt, run home... to you.