My question to the world is
Have you ever been lost?
Or felt like no meaning?
Empty and cold
Like a drug addict fiending
Drop everything
Just to pick up nothing
Put up a strong front
When you knew you were bluffing
Now you're hollowed out
Like a turkey no stuffing
And the universe is on you
With weight so crushing
You're walking in slow motion
And everyone is rushing
You're falling behind
So you open your mind
Only to find
That it has been confined
Now I'm left in the dust
To sit here and rust
Hitchhike with this sign
That says "Sanity or Bust"

Shhhhhhhhh
Do you hear that?
I think I've heard that song before
Can you play it once more just to be sure
'Cause under all this water
Everything sounds strange
So can you stay in your lane
I'm not down with the pain
I don't need to know your name
Or your status in the game
I feel like we came for the same thing
So quench my thirst and cure my hunger
You get on top after I go under
Then the rain and thunder
Sound like an infinite number
And as you start to sing
They continue to bring
Ceaseless diseases that break me to pieces
So I'm begging Jesus please just release us
The singing has been ringing
And already started stinging
Can you take it back to the beginning
When it all seemed more fitting
This sound is dampening what's left
**** near making me deaf
So show me the next step
Because I still can't hear anything yet

So many times in my life
I’ve gone down the wrong path
Leaving nothing in my wake
But a brutal blood bath
I seemed to be misdirected
Until God and I connected
With us being conjoined
He gave me the insight
To see that when I thought to be right
Actually all along
I couldn’t be more wrong
He handed this power to me
Only to take it away
Then give it back another day
He kept doing this
Just for fun and just for play
Sometimes when I needed him
He wasn’t there
When I looked for him in my soul
I found it was bare
He did help me at times
But these times are rare
It looks like he helps some
More than others
And that isn’t fair
Is it that he can’t help us all?
Or that he just doesn’t care?
Whatever it is
When I needed him most
He left me alone
When I needed him close
He left me to roam
Now I’m lost
And I don’t know which way is home

I sit here thinking
This heart of mine
It just keeps sinking
Why heart? Why do you sink?
Why girl? Why must you wink?
Why do you have to love so hard
And why must mine
Be chained and bared
Locked in this cage
With no where to go
Locked in this daze
Where my mind cant grow
And its hard to stay above you
With a fading scream
My heart says to love you
But with confused cries
My mind says otherwise
So I’m still sitting in the mist
Trying to make sense of all this
My body cold in this chair
I feel a touch on my wrist
And on my cheek
A soft warm kiss
Then suddenly
I start to reminisce
Of the love and the bliss
I slowly life up my head
To see your beautiful face
And all the feelings I dread
Gone without a trace
But you didn’t hear what I said
You gave me no space
In a while well be back in this place
But deep down inside I thinks its okay
As long as we live to fight another day
As long as I make it to the morning
Just to hear you say
I love you sweetheart
So lets try again I want to restart
And hopefully we can make it
Through the next rough part

I lay gentle kiss of bliss
Upon her lips
My neck is blessed by her breath
Bodies are caressed as her *******
Are pressed against my chest
A bond beyond any words
Or explanation any feeling or sensation
But sadly the translation
Is lost in lust and tossed to the dust
Now the sun is coming up
Which is the que for my escape
But instead I just wait for you to awake
Because to see your face
In the morning day break
Is a more beautiful sight
Then any sunrise could make
Too bad it's fake...
There's a snake in the grass
Under that mask so I won't even ask
For you to be taking it off
I don't want to see
What your evil side is capable of
So back up your battered car
While I patch up my battle scars
Cause only these scattered stars
Know what the things that matter are
So I guess it's a plus you see
That you're only in love with me
While your lost in lust like me

Can you hear me?
Of course you cant...

You're too busy...
trying to breathe life into my screaming lungs.

But your twisting silver tongue
can never undo the damage that's been done.

Build your sickeningly silky and slick
web of words and hypocritcal contradictions.

Keep scratching the scabs if they keep itching,
but keep in mind they will start bleeding.

Dance my puppet dance,
because it make my princess laugh.

Among this aftermath,
her smile is all that I have

All my life
I have hidden my emotions
And my struggle and strife
All my love and devotion
Until I found you
And told me you loved me
I called you my boo
And you called me your baby
And I thought maybe
This can be the one
The one to save me
Take me from the pain
That I have felt for so long
Bleach the stain
And end this song
But in the end
When all the smoke cleared
You lied to me
And I was wrong
Inside it hurts
And its hurt for so long
That I go to bed wishing
And dream that I dont wake up
Just to face another day
That hurts but wont **** me
Where you see me and say
I love you baby...

I never asked much
Just for you to love me
I never expect much
Just for you to trust me
So that we last for years
Through blood, sweat and tears
Even apart
Our heart will guide
Our love to each other
That we hold inside
We will be forever together
And stay strong
Through all the bad weather
So that we turn out better than ever
And look back not a single time, never
So if you just trust me
And if you just love me
We will be the way we should
While I redeem my eternal bliss
And sit and reminisce
On my thoughts of this
Me standing here
With a rose and a kiss
Waiting for you
To appear in the mist

How was I supposed to know
That things would end like this
How was I supposed to know
That you would do something like this
That I would feel a pain like this
Every time you don't speak
My heart becomes weak
I no longer see the love in your eyes
The love I now despise
And hate with so much passion
The emotions erupt within
My mind, body, and soul
That rocks my very spirit
That chisals at my heart
Until you can no longer see it
But I need you as mine
So I hurt no more
So that I really am fine
And I really am ok
So I no longer have to lie
So I can live and not die
I can only dream that dream
I know it won't happen
But I'll tappin' and tappin'
On true love's door
Until I break it down
And demand you by name
With a roaring flame
Of love and nothing less
But I'm too late
You have found you "soul mate"
I guess this is fate
The way its supposed to be
So much I love you
I guess you don't love me
If I could change my ignorence
Alter my stupidity
I would make me see
The way you look at him
The way you used to look at me
No more you stare
Now you just glare
I thought the love we had
Was special and rare
But, again, I was wrong
Now I'm stuck singing
This sad, sad song
With this non-stop ringing
And this constant stinging
Shreding my very being
But I keep you from seeing
My pain and my tourment
My heart thats broken and bent
Pieces are shattered
Beaten and battered
Standing with this girl flirting
Then I see you and him
And for a second all is dim
With the residue of love
But as you pass
So does the thought
And when it and you are gone
I'm back to talking and walking
Just sitting and bullshitting
You have this new guy
And I have my new girl
But I still ask why
Why you still sigh
And reminisce of us
And our secrets in the mist
I also wish we could go back there
So it will be just you and me
So I can whisper softly to you
I love you , baby....
And you can whisper back to me
I love you too....
Love's rendezvous

I have told you everything
Never have I spoke a lie
Now I watch as my truths
Make it all go awry
Everything I worked for
Whithers to die
The pedals of this flower
Now crisp with death
Crumble in my fist
As I draw a last breath
Your lies were the drought
That ate it alive
My love was the water
As it tried to survive
The ground around us
Now cracked and dried
I attempted to MAKE you love me
I should have never tried
Along with those feelings for you
That I hold inside
Love's Rose has whithered
And now it has died

The truth pulled over my eyes
Spewing from your mouth
She told me nothing but lies
And I did nothing but believe them
I lay on my back
Her head on my chest
Looking up at the ceiling
I thought my heart ache was your doing
But I never saw reality
All I saw were her lying truths
Lying in my bed
While she kisses my forehead
I lay motionless and dead
My love starving with no water, no bread
I need to fill this empty hole
The hole that you stole
The part of me you took away
When you turned your back the dredful day
You walked to him and I heard you say
I love you to him and not to me
And just like me
He is blind, he does not see
The same thing I failed to realize
Until it was too late
Just like me he took your bait
Walking straight into heart break
He doesn't heed my warning
Because his heart you're warming
Like a snow covered horizen
Being touched by soft rays of morning
Lying in my bed
While she kisses my forehead
And says she loves me
I heisitate to answer, I'm thinking
Half of you and half of nothing
And my blank stare tells her everything

This is no show
we can go slow
cuz I don't know
how to throw snow.
Everything is always on fire,
with crackling, roaring flames
burning shames, names, bridges
and everything the same...

So far beyond an open book
just pages on the floor,
you can go ahead and look
if you know what you're searching for,
but there's a fine line between flowing and bleeding,
an even finer one between knowing and believing
and **** near none at all between showing and deceiving.

It's more about what you're taking than what you're leaving,
what you're hearing than what you're seeing.
Peering through that looking glass
I can tell you can't see past
all the cracks, that's why you ask
where I got this mask.

I made it myself; do you like it?
I can see it on your face you don't love it at all...
If you don't want to dance you can stand against the wall
and if you don't want to fall,
you can lay down and crawl.
Just keep moving through the crowd then,
but you can't stop my sound from pounding
your thoughts just as it stops;
I trace your face.

And with nothing left to ask from you
I have one last task for you.
I made a mask for you
it's petite and small
but can cover it all,
so put it on my love.
Welcome to my Masquerade Ball

For so, so, very long...
You have loved me...
And I have loved you...
When I think all is wrong...
And all is blue...
Then I see you...
And all is well...
And I am strong...
Now you know...
And now you can tell...
How much I love you...
Now I can let it show...
And now my burden is lifted...
And my heart has shifted...
Now I feel no hatred...
But only love...
I still don't like her...
But now I can stand her...
And It's still you and not her...
But atleast you now know...
The size of the love I hold...
The love untold...
The love begining to unfold...
And unwrap between us...
As she sits in a fuss...
And I give you a kiss...
Then I crack a devious grin...
While I think of this...
Dream of us together again...

Though covered in cigarette burns
And love stains this mattress is the only thing
That I can hollow out enough
To harbor all my shameful secrets
And instant regrets
As well as my dishonorable disgraces
Along with the faces
Of people from places
That I wish not to forget
But to never have known
If you sever the bones
That the muscles cling to
It all has to fall apart
Before it can scar
But as we all know now
Fallen angels don't fall very far
That must be why I seek sanctuary
Upon these rooftops
And ponder over these few thoughts
Like how hard you fought
And all the emotion that it brought
But now nameless and faceless
I am engulfed by the crowd
Trying to scream loud enough to be found
But my voice is drown in the sound
Of their laughs at the clown
So I kick off the shoes
And throw off the nose
Rip off the wig
And tear off the clothes
Like come and get it girl
I'm yours for the taking
But only if you can break me
And lately no one can do that safely
So hug me, kiss me, love me then miss me
But these whispers that I hear
And the sweet nothings in my ear
Better be sincere because I fear
That your name already became
Just another stain on my mattress
From another bad actress.

I was loving my trip down memory lane, until it became painful. I have such a new sane brain, but the same stained halo.

That’s the risk when I reminisce of the Mist, while the whole world's bliss slips through my fingertips. Still, I missed the point.

With no comprehension, flipped a coin, and I filled my vision with fiction. Like an addiction to friction, everything had to be rough including the way that I loved.

I’m not saying I live with regret, I'm just trying to learn from my missteps. As I’m walking this tight rope I’m holding no high hopes.

I'm keeping my mind open and focused only to notice, I’m still on the ground. They're crowding around demanding my crown.

And I can only scream one thing,
I AM THE RULER I AM THE KING

You walked away...
Even though I asked you to stay...
I just want to be friends...
Thats what you told me...
As our love ends...
And now I see...
Reality and the truth...
You never loved me...
And it was just a spoof...
Off the real thing...
Like a glass one...
To a real diamond ring...
And my heart did sting...
But now not so much...
Now that I realize...
I hurt because of your touch...
But now that its gone...
I feel so much better...
Now that its gone...
I feel like I'm so much more...
And our love will never soar...
Because it was never there...
This all comes to mind...
While I peirce you with my cold blank stare...
Thanks to you I will never find...
My missing piece to my heart...
And I hate this part...
As you walk out and say goodbye...
I sit and I cry...
But not over you, God not you!
I know I'm still alone...
That is the reason and that is why...
I sit here and so hard I try...
Not to break down and cry...
As I sit here with no one but Me, Myself, and I.....

Lies and deceat
Are spawned by your fear
But take a seat
And listen here
You keep it all descreat
With an 'I love you dear'
But you fail to see
That I hold u near
And I'll always be
Sitting right here
I love you too much
To let you go
It gives me a rush
Just to let you know
When I tell you how I feel
For a minute all is slow
And I can see everything
Even the wind blow
I sit at the water's edge
And watch the creek flow
The sun's gentle rays
Whisper secrets of love
The birds sing songs
Of an angel from above
And the soft green grass
Echoes what is sung by the dove
I sit staring
At the water so blue
Then smile at the image
The reflection of you
We are together in paradise
To start evrything anew
Because you ment what you said
When you said I love you too

Mourn for the lost
Have scorn for the cost
It was too much to ask
And it happened too fast

Run from desire
Seek shelter in the fire
Run to the end of it
And witness the oblivion

Unveil your darkness
Harvest the heartless
Cower from your shadows
Never drift from the shallows

Cautious and wary
Fore the unkown is scary
Courage will be needed
If demons are to be defeated

You want to SEE I'll show you
Come with me I'll hold you
This wind can take us where ever
So lets not worry about the weather.

As I walked through the wind
Tears soaked into my cheeks
Thinking of things we could have been
And could have lasted longer than a few weeks
As my cheeks stay dry
And I no longer cry
Because now I know why
Why I had to die
So that my soul could fly
And be freed from this torture called "life"
Now on hatred I feed
And I thrive on struggle and strife
So as I lie dead
And you are confused and mad
Off your hatred I am fed
When the razor ripped my skin
I already knew I would live again
In death I see the truth
Loving you was a sin
My body rests under earth and rocks
My soul sits in hell and talks
And chats with the devil
Told him to curse your soul
And the very earth on which it walks
So now your life is in ruin
And it's a living hell
And when you're released from your shell
And rescued from your cell
My spirit will rise
Just to haunt your "life"
And torture your very being
To make you envy me
And make you wish you were me
Wish you could be
Just like me
Exactly like me
Make you beg and plead
"Please! Please just **** me!"
But I let you live
I want to torture you
As you tortured me
I'll let living eat away at you soul
Make you pray for death
Then we both get what we want
As I take in my breath

You thought you could do it again...
But you thought wrong...
'Cause this is now and that was then...
And I guess I'm not strong...
'Cause I see the game you trying to play...
And I see that scam you trying to run...
And I let you do it all day every day...
But she gives me the strength to say I'm done...
So it's no longer "her"...
And its no longer "you"...
I have a new girl...
Taking my world for a whole new twirl...
Now things are better...
Since me and her are together...
And since I cast you aside...
I can see the truth you desperatly tryed to hide...
In the crevasses and holes you call a heart...
Deep down inside...
You tryed to shield me...
And protect me from her...
You tryed to help me...
When life was a blur...
But now I see clear...
And now I see all...
While I hold her near...
And I stand tall...
And hold her at my side...
As I change the tide...
While she melts my cold heart...
And chisels the incasing stone...
And I smile while it tears you apart...
'Cause I have this new girl...
And your still alone...........

You're pulling on me so hard
But only pushing me away;
Seeking answers to questions
I didn't want you to ask

-Not so fast-
That's the darkest part of my past
I keep people like you
From tackling the task
Of removing this mask
Because if you did
You'd jump back and gasp

This face is contorted and sort of;
My punishment for running ****,
So you deserve none of it.

Your words are so lovely
But you know nothing of me,
Not of the things I have done
Like grabbing a hold of the sun
Stuffing it into my gun
And letting it blaze
Just to feel the warmth on my face
I'm not just a maze-

I am the most elaborate of labyrinths

And you just dropped your self in the middle
The devil plays a fiddle
But I play with riddles

What do you have to choose
When there's nothing left to lose?
Do you still play by the rules,
Or do you call it a ruse?

You're blasting those speakers
But I see your broken fuse
I'm standing here confused
Like white noise and static?...


Is that it?


Words are words
And through the curves and turns
They can't speak like we want them to,
I seek not to run from you
I'm just busy fighting my own writing
Because everything I'm hiding
Is riding, on me now
I have questions of my own
But I don't see how
You think the answers are so blatant
And you're patiently waitin'
For everything to be taken,
By my hands;

Little do you know
They are both quite full
With these burdens that I hold,
I'm not saying you should go
Just warning you to roll
With every punch that I throw
-Otherwise-
They will take you off your feet
And break you in the street
Eventually
Make you into me...

And that's the last thing
I ever want to see.

Desire is the fire that burns
Through my entire attire,
Forcing my naked soul into this brightly lit
But deceivingly sick world-
That this angel, this girl
Is the queen of;
She is everything we can only dream of
Yet she stands in front of me,
Of all the people,
The most broken and most evil
She stand in front of

-ME-

And I can't figure out if life is over
Or if I am just sleeping,
Because last time I checked
I only see her while I'm dreaming,
And when it's this pitch black
I feel like I'm screaming-


But there's nothing but silence
...
And while it tears me apart
This is the only way
I can reach out from the dark
Because my mind can not find
The words held in my heart
That's why this was written in blood
From the start.
..........
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.......
......
.....
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..
.

You gave me pain
And you gave me hurt
Now my heart slain
Lying beneath the dirt
So I'm sick of your pain
And I'm sick of your hurt
Because I love this one
And I love you none

Now its the end of your lies
And the end of your betrayal
As I say my goodbyes
And end this horrible tale
No more will my heart fail
Because I love this one
And I love you none

I'm no longer hurt
And no longer in pain
Now you are just a stain
Smeared on my shirt
Now you feel the pain
And now you feel the hurt
Because I love this one
And I love you none

Whenever I hugged her...
I pictured it was you...
Whenever I kissed her...
I pretended it was you...
Whenever I told her I loved her...
I was talking to you...
Whenever I looked at her...
I saw only you...
I said she was beautiful...
But I was talking about you...
And when she walked away...
I still saw you...
And in the pain she gave me...
I still felt you...
Yet still in the anger I have...
I feel her...
I cant feel you...
Because I love you...
And I dont love her...
I told her I did...
But I guess I lied...
She told me she did...
But I guesss she lied...
And inside I died...
Not because she lied...
But because im alone...
So very, very alone...
With this heart of stone...
And the tears fall...
As I talk to her on the phone...
And reminisce...
Of the bliss...
With me and this...
You, the woman I love...
So when you hear me say i love you...
Always remember forever...
The one I love is Not Her But You..........

I have this disorder
Well, it's more of a sort of complex
I'm better yet broken no- destroyed
Closer to empty no- a void
Whatever it is, I can feel it's coldness
It's what the oldest thing I hold is;
It's what best story I've ever told is;
Its what the weight of this load is;
It's what the fork in my road is
Decaying, snoozing, heavy and confusing
But don't mind me if this sounds outrageous
I promise I'm far from contagious
So can you tell me what your name is?
And then just cause wondering,
Could you write your number right under it?
I tell you these things, show you my snakes
While I stand at my flood gates
And hope that your lust makes
The trusts break because I cant stand
How long this rust takes
Now it's your turn to learn
How much time of mine you can burn.

The sensation of temptation
Is simplistic in its existance
Yet she breaks through my darkness
Like a midnight sunrise
To my surprise she lies
Infront of my eyes with no disguise
Born from the skies
To halt my demise
To erase my certainty
Of a lonesome eternity
Still I feel urges of urgency
A soulful emergency
Rescue me my angel
From this emotion strangle
Spirit is mangled
And dangled in mockery in front of me
Years of not love but lust have left me crushed
I need to be flushed and rid
Of these memories of disease
Oh my angel please
Cease the seas of deceased
And increase our peace
To bring fertility to my tranquility

If I know you lie
And I know you hurt me
Then why oh, why
Do I look at him with so much envy
When I see you hugging him
Why do I let it get to me
Why did I let you hurt me
Just as you continue to do so
I ask questions I'll never know
And neither will you
When you kiss him
It hurts me
Just the same when he kisses you
This much you knew
But you don't care
And I despise that
But I still love you
But hate you equally
I glare at you hatefully
Yet I stare at you lovingly
And still wish
To give a soft kiss
And whisper in the mist
But as I stand outside
Peering upon and inside
I see someone invading my space
Deep down I knew you would replace
My true love with his lying face
I stand out side looking in
See you and him stand
Together again
Hand in hand
I stare at your face
Drip a crystal blue tear
And vanish without a trace

Standing in this room
With the leaking ceiling
While the rain pours down
Drops shattering on the roof
And sneaking through the cracks
Being caught by these pots and pans
As my heart unfolds
Singing a song unsung
Telling a story untold
Unspoken whispers at my lips
Screaming secrets at the tip of my tongue
Mind cowering in the corner
Scared of life
Afraid to die
Can't escape from this pain
Immune to happiness
Numbed by hurt
Broken by love
Fed by hate
This is my life story
As long as you stand next to me
Holding my hand

I have this secret
That I think is best to confess
To lift this burden off my chest
I'm hoping this broken token
I'm holding will open
Door number four
Because one, two, and three
Just aren't enough for me
Now you can call me greedy
But believe me sweetie
You're more then enough to feed me
So don't decieve me
Just plain SEE me
Cause these days in time
I feel deaf, dumb and blind
So I hide this mind of mine
Behind every rhyme
And write every line
Like you're never going to read it
On the sole fact that I need it
So when you finally meet it
Treat it like you've never seen it
Just the first of the only
Two things I can give you
So if both your hands are empty
You need only to simply tempt me
In your palms I'll place them both gently
And grant you entry
Past that which defends me

The things I would love to tell you
Can't seem to escape my lips
And it gets so intense
That it never ends
Until I make it make sense
And put it into these pens
Then let the ink leak
It will speak what I need to
'Cause I would give anything to see through
Whats deep in your mind
So I might find which side mine can reside
Truth be told I don't really have the time
Or let alone the patience
To waste away in these places
Of nothing but empty spaces
I'll tighten up my laces
'Cause I feel like if I win these races
It erases one of your two faces
And if that doesn't make this pain tasteless
I have no idea as what the case is
My sleeves have no aces
'Cause the basics are the basis
So let's make this the greatest
Just like you I'm broken in two
Beaten and bruised and feel slightly used
No one else does
Why should we play by the rules
Should we pay up our dues
Until one of us lose
Are you sure you want to choose
You look rather confused
As to who's clues are a ruse
Let me just ask my muse for some news
But if I take her and save her
Sooner or later I'm sure I will hate her
If I'm already the pen
Then you must be the paper
'Cause I get such a rush
When our fingertips touch

Your voice so bitter sweet
Hurls me into painful reality
Everytime you speak
You don't see
The things you say eat me alive
They rip me apart and **** me inside
They beat and abuse
This weather worn hide
I looked at you seperate
Something you unique
There was something about you
Something mistique
Your love had me spinning
It pinned me down
With sintrifical force
I was stuck to the ground
Overwelmed by sorrow
As I rise with a frown
I make my way to the door
No longer stunned by your love
My feet flat on the floor
I wish we could have worked this out
And made everything good
Now I'm walking out
Like I said I would
On our Paradise
The door I now close
It was all a waste of time I suppose
As nightfall settles down
All is froze
Frost bites the trees, flowers
And the tip of your nose
My footprints echo in your mind
Like a stomp
Our crystal clear creek
Now a bubbling swamp
That's haunted by the sounds
Of the frog
Our once was Paradise
Covered in a solid white fog
You must have put forth a tremendous effort
To turn a place like this
Into the horrid, dreadful mist
Our Paradise's destruction is done
You broke my heart
Because you thought I had none
But I do have a heart
Just a chipped and cracked one
You thought that I feel no emotion
But I do and they flow
Like a storm plauged ocean
It's just anger is the only one I put into motion
You just never bothered to look deep inside
And try to find the feelings I hide
As you contimplate on the damage of your dents
You look down and see tear drops
Next to my footprints
All stops
And everything makes sense
You drop tears next to mine
And step into my footprints
Then dark turns to dim
As you begin to follow them

Your 'love' sickens me
But it has trapped me
In my own mind
And I beg it to set me free
So I might see the sun
So I might find the one
The one I might call my own
So I will no longer be alone
The one who will love me more
Than all the ones before
But I will never find
This beautiful girl of mine
'Cause I'm trapped in my own mind
Stuck in this hell hole
Because my heart you stole
But now I'm stealing it back
Even though I'm shackled to this rack
And chained up in this cell
While you make my life a living hell
'Till she comes to save me
And release this love within me
Because its her and only her
That keeps my life a stir
And then I awaken
A deep breath I take in
I'm stilled shackled and chained
My heart still scared and maimed
Someone's coming through the door
It's a girl but I can't tell much more
And I relax my fists
Because I know who it is

You have the right to love
and be loved as well.
The right to, not just break but, shatter from your shell.
Run free, run proud
sing to me and sing it loud.
Slacks and dresses spinning and twirling,
backs and arms bending and curling.
Dance like the puppets do
not seeing the strings touching you.

please puppet master loosen your grip
please god let his hand slip

Listen to me love theres no need
for the begging and the pleeding,
theres no reason for the weeping and the bleeding.
Never stray from whats true in your heart
and like a soft candle light,
it will guide you through the dark.

Now I've spoke with your master
it's not such a disaster,
he told me with no laughter,
"No one will ever out last her."

But the grey sky above has killed my sense of love
and with so much to talk about
but nothing left to say,
I bit my tongue
and just walked away.

If the good die young
Then I’ll die old
My stress is so high strung
And my heart is so cold
The sad song I sing
Has nothing on the pain I bring
Lively on the outside
But on the inside
Its genocide
Everything is dead
Sent to permanent bed
People walking around
But they have no heads
The land is vast, empty and depleted
My heart is everything but completed
The disease I have is so rare
One hand shake
It’s all down hill from there
Your life I'll break
My sorrow is everything but fake
Everyday my broken heart is at stake
My emotions flow
Like a placid lake
With water so deep
No one understands
So to my self I keep
When I fall
No one lends helping hands
Everyone just stands
In a circle around
As I lay helpless on the ground
They don’t care
They all just stare
My heart is empty
Nothing is there
My soul matches
It too is bare
Blessed with this curse
Man life isn't fair
I’ll die first
This disease is too rare
To claim anymore lives than my own
This is all set in stone
As I sit on that hill weeping alone

I just wanted you to see...
I never tried to hide it...
The hatred I held within me...
And now you throwing a fit...
I knew this would happen...
As soon as you found out my secret...
The not so secretive hatred...
Within my heart and mind I held it...
And now you know and you have found out...
And you despize me...
And now you know what my poetry is about...
And I'm glad you see...
Me for me...
And my hate for you...
If only you knew...
How large it is...
It has engulfed my mind and my spirit...
And now all I have is this...
This love, a wonderous love...
But love not for you...
Oh God not you...
Love just for her...
You never knew...
But now you know...
Because I never tried to hide...
My hatred for you...
Now that you know...
YOU hurt inside...
And I love your ignorence...
But the truth is...
Yor ignorence is bliss...
And Its that bliss...
That I will miss...
As I stand with her...
Laughing in the mist...

Life is but only
Just an illusion of death
So cold and lonely
As I draw my last breath
On my death bed
Reminiscing memories
Of things I said
Beautiful thoughts
Flowing through my head
Thinking of all
The right I have wronged
For the simplicity of death
Oh how I have longed
The complications of life
Made it hard to live
The lack of receptions
Made it hard to give
The way life passed me by
Kept me solitary
Even as I lay ready to die
Death mocks me
And keeps me alive
I struggle and squirm
And try not to survive
He refuses to deal
A fatal blow
He wants me to feel
The pain of death row
Now I see
The punishment
Bestowed upon me
With the end so near
All is clear
Suddenly I don’t want to die
But inevitable death
Passes me by

These complex contemplations
Working their way
Through the intricate labrynith
Of where my mind does stay
The things that have been said
Are what I've been trying to say
Even in the deepest depths of my conscience
I could never fathom
Why I stuck around
And stayed through
All the things
That you did do
Why I constantly sacrifice
Me to you
I asked this question
Even though I knew
The answer is
Becasue I love you
It is this reason
For the change of season
And that I fight to believe in
The hope you have no more secrets
Within your sleeve
And it is for that reason
That I can not leave
And for the same reason
I refuse to conceive
The thought or idea
That you could sit
And lie to me
Telling me of
How we should be
But I wish
That I could see
The answer to the question
Do you love me???????????

Through all his days
And through all his years
He caused so much pain
And forced so many tears
So no one sheds them for him
Not even his peers
And no one stands with him
As he faces his fears
What was once his mark on the world
Rubs off and smears
He stands alone
In these unknown frontiers
He tells her he loves her
And he knows she hears
But instead of relieving him
She lets him lay on the spears
While he’s crushed by the burden
Of these planetary spheres
With the flame of love
His flesh just sears
While holding up the world
His skin adheres
For all his deeds
His karma arrears
Him and his mind
Love’s racketeers
Him and his mind
The game’s pioneers
His heart and his mind
Now mutineers
As they betray him
He looks up and sneers
She ends his punishment
Because she interferes
She says I love you too
And everything clears
From his shoulders
The world disappears
Scars are left
As souvenirs
They’re reminders
In case who he was
Suddenly reappears

When you get like this
My fore front thinking
Goes from confident and content
To curious and contemplative

When you scream like this
My voice, tone and speech pattern
Go from soft and subtle
To sharp and strong

When you corner me like this
My animal instincts
Go from dormant and dusty
To dominant and destructive

When you're broken like this
My mortal heart
Goes from ruined and rotting
To revived and realizing

Most believe love to be
A stone plate
Their efforts forever
Etched in the slate
But the truth is
Love is more like sand
You pick up a pile
Just to have it run through your hand
You struggle to force it
And keep it there
But as the wind blows
It falls apart in the air
You look down at your hands
And notice they're bare
You scoop up more handfuls
Only to watch them
Break into shambles
You try to hit it
And pack it to the floor
But everytime you smack it
It just breaks apart more
Love is not the boulder or pebble
It can not be measured
To any level
So be careful when you answer the door
When Love does knock
Its not always there
Unlike the rock
It's not limestone, quartz, or granit
It doesn't last forever
So never take it for granted

All that surrounds us
Is lies and betrayal
The wounds have been dealt
And they are fatal
They hurt so badly
I think death is certain
All of this on top of
My pain within
There’s nothing I can do
To keep her out of your ear
There’s nothing I can do
To keep her out of here
She’s trying to invade this
Our special place, The Mist
To shatter our endless bliss
And split us apart
Then steal you place in my heart
I tried to tell you
But you didn’t believe me
I tried to warn you
But you didn’t heed me
Now you sitting
With you head spinning
Engulfed in confusion
And you don’t know
What to think
You don’t know who to believe
I told you this would happen
Nothing but lies come out
When her mouth starts flappin
Let her come at us
As hard has she can
She can’t faze us
As long as I stand
Right here holding your hand
If you only believe what is right
And not what she will say
And we make it through the night
There’s always a brighter day
Sun shinning as we rise from the rubble
And I look at you and say
We made it baby
Now it’s just you and me
The way it should be
Then I give you a kiss
And we disappear
Into The Mist
But who is this
It’s her standing there
Determined with clutched fists

When I was lost
You came to find me
When I was falling
You stood behind me
But I fell so many times before
I though I was the forgotten one
Or just the one you ignore
So I never looked to the sky
And kept my feet on the floor
Wondering when I'm going to die
Becuase I couldn't take any more
Then you took the only thing that made me rich
And you left me poor
My heart couldn't take it
It fell apart and tore
But then you brought her into my life
And all the sudden it meant so much more
When I thought to be caught in the Devil's stare
When I thought no longer did you care
When you took my everything
And left my heart bare
You showed up in the nick of time
And entertwinded her life with mine
So once again my life is fine
Now I know you forgive me
For my life of sin
Becuase you gave me a reason
To live once again

As we sit together
And she sits next to us
Envy burning through her eyes
Like a million fire flies
A burning, crackling, roaring flame
Fed by her shame
All because she wanted to play this game
And she wanted it to be the same
But she forgot one thing
Her game is lame
And now she is mad
Because now I'm not mad
'Cause I have you
And she and I are done
'Cause I found the one
Now this heart of stone
Is no longer alone
Because now I have you
And you have me
And the world will leave us be
'Cause your love will set me free
Releasing my shackles and chains
Taking me outside of this cell
To where it never rain
Escaping my spirit from this hell
Although these scars still stay
And they will never go away
But your love keeps my anger at bay
And your kiss lets me live another day
So here, forever, I will stay.

I can't tell you what it is,
but I know it exists.
It sounds like the winds- feels like a kiss,
smells perfectly sweet- tastes like it too.
And if I could see it,
I bet it would look just like you.

Music turned up louder than our ears can even hear.
Slurping and gulping down elixers of courage.
Brave as we want to be dancing furiously,
but more so fearlessly.
The one you came to hear is me,
anything else is heresy.

Zombies can rock but never make you come alive.
So I press my scepter to my lips
and scream to my fist
"Make 'em move like THIS!"

...And just like that all minds are lost...
...Priceless or worthless whatever the cost...

You are not the last of us,
just one of the blastphemous.