i never loved you,
the biggest lie i could say,
i can say how you’re smile means nothing,
or how the time we spent was just a distraction for life,
but i’d be lying,
maybe i should have never answered that call at 4 in the morning,
i shouldn’t have laughed at all your jokes like an idiot,
i should have never gave you my heart and trust,
“i should” but i would never take any of that back,
call me whenever i say,
walk in an out my life... it’s okay,
but i have always loved you

oh.. those sweet lies you told,
never bothered me,
dear i love you so,
you’re sweet smile,
or protection you offered,
made me feel at home,
tell me lies,
it’s okay beat me down,
oh dear i love you so,
darling don’t leave... i am far too weak,
the night looks so dull,
as for i feel,
far, far from home,
you were the moon and everything else,
don’t leave.. me now,
say “i love you”,
tell me this lie,
and i will believe you,
why am i not the one you love,
maybe i am ugly,
did i not protect you’re broken soul,
what’s wrong with me,
that i cannot be loved