Excellence, in my humble opinion, is overrated some times,
Critiquing society while being a part of it is a little hypocritical,
Life is often suffocating, making us feel worthless,
Like we have achieved nothing in our lives,
But it takes so much courage and strength to be oneself every day,
Let the stray voices bring you down not be heard
And remember you are who you were born to be,
You didn't have to be able to fly to be my Superman

Riding the crest of a wave of happiness,
I imagine it as a wave for I expect to crash,
It's not been so fun being me some times,
Surrounded by people but alone in my head,
Either soaring the skies or fighting the urge to give up,
Never sure whom to let in for they may leave some day,
Or may be I might make a mistake and drive them away,
In one of the rare moments of certainty you came in,
Certainty that I want to put my trust in you,
To hold your hand as if it we always belonged,
I've been waiting for a long, long time for us to happen,
An anchor in the chaos of my thoughts.

And then when the thought of losing you presents itself,
Despite it being nothing to worry about,
I still worry because I want you,
May be I might need you too,
Fearing falling to pieces if something were to happen to keep us apart,
I'm not sure what I'd do, would I go mad?
In silences I find myself thinking about you,
Missing you, my thoughts asking you to stay,
All these feelings they rise up to my chest,
But they never take words,
Afraid I might be asking too much,
Afraid this wave might crash.

After every time spent together,
We part to go about our lives,
As you walk towards that door
I hope you'll look back
And hear my eyes say:
STAY.

I can now accept
There are things I cannot do,
It puts into perspective what I can do,
And it guides me to my future
Where I can be happy.

Chasing you up the hill,
Panting to a halt on our knees,
Soon lying on the grass
Even when we could see below
Our world, you lay and saw to the skies,
Like every time you lead me,
I'll follow you till I can't,
When I stop I'll remember you,
On a rainy day when I seek the sun,
I'll forget to worry over small things,
I'll remember you when I walk alone in cold nights,
I'll remember your smile that makes me warm,
I'll remember you so when you're lost I can remind you,
You are alright.

You are the sun to my earth, my first prize.

I'm like Snape. Always

Building a future,
One where I fit,
Not that things were bad,
I guess I slipped.
Gave in to the un-doer,
With a vision of freedom,
With an open sky to fly,
Bound to the ground without wings,
I never quite forget you amidst the chaos.
Those memories are ours,
Not just yours or mine,  
I still look up hoping to find you,
Someday you’ll take me away.

I believed there could be love,
I believed in your existence,
Even when I didn’t know you,
I smiled with you,
Despite knowing I couldn’t be the cause,
I cried for you,
When I found you were never to be mine,
I frowned at your fears,
Trying to keep mine at bay,
I knew I loved you and wished it was enough,
Enough to exist in bliss of ignorance of your choice about me,
But that was all before I dared to reach out for you,
Only to realize it was all a dream,
I was a fool in another world.

My best friend,
She’s flying to a foreign country,
I’m happy that she’s going to see a place
A place I've always wanted to be.
The day of goodbye went by well,  
The moment I got a chance to sit back I realized,
How alone I already feel.
I had told her before she left I’d fallen for her,
I knew that is not how she wanted it to be.
My love’s flying to a foreign country,
I don’t know when her I will see,
In a moment of despair I told her I’ll miss her a lot,
That I love her, I wish I hadn't,
For her lack reaction to that was foreign to me.

Sometimes, I hear
What occurs is for the best,
Then, could someone
Tell me how,
That when I fall in love
I fall and hit the ground?
Could someone tell me why,
The one I love,
I can never call mine?
Why every time I reach out,
I get burnt?
What is there for me,
But the scars?
Why do I see her through the glass,
Unable to reach out,
To the other side,
First distance wore me out,
Then time separated,
Last she told me not to love her,
Could I ever explain,
Once written
The words wouldn’t erase,
As my love always slipping away,
I see in despair
And wonder in pain,
How is it for the good,
When every time I fall in love,
I fall and hit the ground?

The dust that settles in your heart, my empty home.

I can never be free as a bird,
The need for living would lead my flight.

I can never be free as a cloud,
The wind would lead me in the direction it flows.

I can never be free as a human,
Bound by the ethics, responsibilities, rules, laws.

I can never be free in my mind,
My experiences and opinions and agendas running my life

I can never be free in my imagination,
Desires of how things should be,
The things I want, would weigh me down.

In these words I am never free,
For the limit of my freedom lies in my free will,
It is whatever I want it to be.
Now I am Free.

I know you don’t want me to go,
I’m afraid too you know,
It feels like I am leaving you alone,
Don’t weep after me,
You make me cry too,
If it helps to know,
I’m not afraid of dying,
Just afraid of losing you,
I can’t shake off that feeling of regret,
One where I wish to give you more time,
May be, just one more day,
One more life,
So we can do all the things we promised ourselves,
To be together, so I can say I all I ever wanted,
You know I can never leave you when you need me,
Call out to me so I can stay,
All the things that hurt now don’t mean a thing,
But it’s just the nature of things,
Never wonder what is on the other side,
It is irrelevant without you,
I hope you won’t feel the same about life,
When I’m there missing you,
I will still be with you,
Right here in memory,
I will still fly with the birds,
When they feed off the earth that once made me,
It’s not the same, I know,
I’ll wait for you to come join me,
Hold my hand till then,
When I fly I’ll take you with me.
Goodbye my love, please don’t forget me,
Forever together we will exist in death,
When I am stranded alone I know,
You will come rescue me.

Like many others there was a child,
From a well of infinite dreams with others he picked some,
In the wake of unbound imagination,
He was a champion of his world,
He saw the skies as his playground,
His nascent mind held no limitations.
Growing older he was taught of the world,
Of what he could do, what man could not,
He learnt of gravity, how it made things fall,
The weight of the knowledge bore him down,
Plucking him from the skies, rooting him to the ground.
With a few broken hearts, failures to be someone,
Stranded in his reality, he looked to the clouds,
Questioning his learning, he began to unlearn,
Becoming from man to child again,
Gaining new perspective on his notions,
Gravity he saw, was not to hold him down,
But to hold the universe together,
Something he could overcome.
Reaching the skies he built his house,
Teasing the heavens, yet rising from the ground,
A monument to remembering who he is,
To never again be someone else.

Like paper in wind my thoughts float around,
So easily I get lost in my head,
Yet you come bring me back to the ground,
Within your arms I shall always be found.

Lacking intent like a rock lying,
On a beach getting weathered to sand,
Slowly witnessing my own demise.

My half of the world was in darkness when your’s was in light,
A straight mass of land separated us,
The Earth understood and bent under me to where you reside.
So many people here, only one I needed,
Only you I wanted, your memory I got,
And the knowledge of half a planet’s distance,
Because that’s how far you are.

Heart-Beat
Heart-Breaks
Heart-Beat
Heart-Aches
Heart-Beat
Heart-Craves
Heart-Beat
Heart-Stops
Heart-Beat
Heart-Again.

She smiled to him,
He held her hand,
The day was ending,
Watching it end,
They lay in the sand.
Their eyes played hide and seek,
The moment being immortalized,
In their hearts and minds.

She looks at them,
They smile back,
She protects their world,
She lives to protect them.
Her children, her life,
She a mother, a wife,
While the cookies she made,
Hide and seek the children played,
Her perfect world,
Their childhood never pass.

Let’s play hide and seek tonight,
For the night is young and the stars are bright,
The world holds the outer pains,
But let them seek,
For together from the world we hide.

You know how at the horizon the sky and sea seem to meet?
All but an illusion, like us,
For you are the sky,
I am the sea,
The closer we get to us,
The farther we are out of reach,
We never meet.

One day you're the birthday child,  
You just wait,
Wait for a while,
While I'm dying.
Growing old is okay,
But I can't live this way,
I fear losing you along the way,
It is imminent, this parting,
So won't you smile,
For today we're alive,
When I go, I will miss you,
Will it count, When I'm not around?
Will you ask me to stay,
Or take me with you,
To the other side?
I seek no eternal judge,
I just seek some nice tea,
Thinking about how you like your coffee,
Laying together and staring at the night sky,
I will wonder how we found eachother,
Right there I could live forever,
Always hoping for immortality with you,
While I'm dying.

I can't breathe,
It's crushing me,
The burden of expectations and disappointments,
I can't breathe,
There's still a long way to go till this misery ends.

Spending sleepless nights,
Listening to b-sides,
Thinking of you as I play that song,
Hoping you'd see with you is where I belong,
You that I never had except in my head,
Seeing me my friends say,
"He's at a party he never went to,
He never knew what her love is like,
He makes it all up in dreams,
He doesn't have to leave there",
I tell them I know what I'm doing,
That some day you will come to me.
Or some day I will get over you.
Some day, all of this will happen again,
And I will always stay by your side.

If only, I could be with you,
If only, I could say things unsaid,
If only, time would halt in your presence,
If only, I had to never let you go,
If only, I knew you’ll always come back to me,
If only, I could hold your hand,
If only, I could tell you how much I love you,
If only, I knew our future,
If only, I could admire you day and night,
If only, I could keep you smiling,
If only, this wait would end,
If only, this would not have its own sweet pain,
If only.

I wanted to write about my bed,
Of how I wanted to sleep in it always,
All inspired I fell asleep instead.

I.

The colours drain out,
What stayed behind was black and white
Nothing in between, the two extremes,
Purity of white, darkness of black,
The two pure shades.
Of all the things I saw in their vision,
Nothing perfectly seemed right in place.
I forgot that nothing here was so extreme,
No one or thing was a whole of black or white,
That the world is but a shade of grey.

II.

Those people brought in a sense of belonging to me,
And in them I see colour again,
The reds of love and hate,
The blues of peace and sadness,
The greens of pleasantness and riches,
The yellows of brightness and smiles.
The white and the black influenced now my perception of it,
With the pleasant mixes of the colours themselves,
And under the blue sky and the brown earth,
I see the world as an ever evolving piece of art.

Today I looked up at the sun,
I smiled as if watching it for the first time,
I pointed at a crow and abused it.

Lost on a journey without a destination,
One that was a search but not an adventure,
You are gone and I know not where to be,
Here we leave our incomplete story

Pieces of my self scattered across the floor,
From a fear induced by an inability to live,
Gathering all my strength to wake up another day,
Hoping a nightmare doesn't ******* away,
Anxiety is a cruel curse I am blessed with,
Forever grateful to those who pick up my pieces,
Put me back together like it was nothing,
The rabbit hole of madness chases to consume everything.

Look in the mirror,
That face is looking back at me,
Sure that face is what others see,
But inside is it someone else at times?
I’m left feeling like a spectator in my mind,
Feeling the world as it occurs around, disconnected,
Feeling who people refer to as is someone else, not me,
Feeling like a different person every few periods,
The habit controlling my body,
The conscious wondering what this foreign place could be,
Uncomfortable in my own skin,
I am left staring through the eyes of the person I’m supposed to be,
Meeting people, shaking hands,
Reacting as they might expect from who I am,
The person staring back at me from the mirror, is that me?
Alas I debate and conclude on who the person running this body could be.

I see you some times,
You go about your every day,
We're strangers, that's all there is,
Yet for my amusement, you could say,
I live in the illusion I understand people,
I try to read you, in your actions,
In your manners, in the way you dress,
Some where I am also being judgmental,
Which is wrong, but I won't tell you,
So with this bad habit I,
See you go about your every day,
Think of how you might be,
Who you might be,
Someone's daughter or son,
A sibling, a friend,
This whole life of yours I do not know of,
And I dream of what it might be,
You become a fantasy,
You, my stranger never really noticed me,
May be I am losing my sanity.

So strange that the most obvious emotions elude us,
Leaving us looking for answers outside.

Cold like a blue breeze,
This lonesome waits to feel,
To feel the warmth of your sun,
Whose light could brighten the dark,
Chasing it away from the farthest reaches inside,
And burn once again the flame that is lost,
A fire of creation to birth wonders

Thank you for holding my hand, else I'd get lost.

We came together,
To rebuild from the pieces,
Left after the storm.

Staring at the halo of passing lights,
Painting the walls I stare as I lay in bed,
It is not sleeplessness that keeps me awake,
It is the lack of your presence,
Like a child carefree in a mother's embrace,
Like a lover's comforting arms after a tiring day,
I thought tonight may be it would be nice,
To fall asleep with your arms around me,
So if I ever woke up in the middle of the night,
I could look up to find you beside me,
Lean in a little closer so you won't go,
Drift in to sleep without a thought for tomorrow.

If I could explain to someone,
They'd fall in love with you as I am,
I find you so irresistible I
Want to kiss you and say,
I don't tell the world about you,
For they'd fall in love with you as I am.

As sure as the earth beneath our feet the sun rises,
Let it come, let it bring another day full of unknowns,
Like every other you've spent becoming you,
Growing and making decisions, being bent and broken.  
But have I told you lately how much you mean to me?
So full of love and life, beautiful inside and out.
We all had our storms and days of summer,
Your face, your eyes, all the big things and the little that are yours,
All your pieces you carry along on this terrifying journey,
Inspires me to be so much better than I am,
I know you don't know how strong you are,
And that makes you so much better for it.
Stsy kind, for it makes the world a little better,
Be brave so I may look up to always find you,
Keep creating wonderful things for the world is as much to give as it is to receive,
Because this is what I see when I see you

I'm thinking of you, do you think of me too?

Emerging from the tomorrow of yesterday,
In my world I reside today,
In life’s jungle I find my way,

Though sometimes the river is too wide,
To be the victor I stride,
Sometimes breaking the rules, sometimes I abide,

This is my world, it is my mess,
For I am the only King,
King of my Wilderness.

Turning over sleepless in bed,
Looking at the watch as it strikes 3,
Too late to sleep, too early to be awake,
What else is there to do?
So I get up to make coffee,
Put on some music.

It must be the wee hours,
Or that lonely car passing by,
An idle thought of you hooked me on,
Sitting by the window,
Watching the skies for dawn break,
And suddenly I miss you,
Morning coffee is always better with two,

I know I'm silly,
For every song that plays,
Every croon of adoring I hear,
Feels like all the love songs
Are about you.

They speak of beautiful eyes,
Like yours I get lost in,
Smiles to melt the heart,
Watching you like nothing else exists,
The sun exists to praise you,
And I to forever be yours,
These late night songs about you,
They're all true.

Don't look, don't look for it I tell myself,
Let it come to you the world says,
In places alone I wish for her,
You wish for him,
When will we find each other?
Please let me fall in love again...
They don't make fun of broken hearts,
Everyone's got one,
You'll get a smile that says,
"I've been there too,
You too will soon know better than to be a fool",
I know we haven't met,
May be we might,
Till then i am bargaining within,
Inside I quietly say, I hope,
Let me fall in love again,
In the late hours when I wish for someone,
I will wish for you,
I will whisper your name,
May be you will hear me,
Together we can feel the same,
Let us fall in love again.

In my home,
I see out the window,
There's a world out there,
Sunshine and alive,
But my bed is here.
Let me sleep,
Leave me alone

Are you ready?
Ready for an adventure,
The adventure you always wished,
We can go anywhere you want,
Lying right outside your door,
A decision away,
Past a slight fear of the unknown,
Give me your hand,
Hold on tight,
I am about to open the door

The opening eyes of the infant flickered from here to there,
Taking in the world as it passed by,
The sapling grew into a tree in the blink of an eye,
People came and people went,
Memories of their ghosts with some others stayed behind,
The infant faintly recalled what the reflection he saw in the mirror looked like,
It saw the mirrors change with its reflection,
The people behind him grew older like it,
He began to forget things that had been,
But ghosts of his doings and things occurred haunting his mind,
And as came near the end of time,
It reflected upon who it had become.

Standing in the shadows,
Waiting for your chance,
Life will pass you by.

Like occasionally mine does,
As I lay waiting to wake beside you.

You are growing,
But you are not a novice anymore.

I made a special place for you in my world

Many of us begin to feel lost,
There comes a moment in our lives,
When we look in the mirror and try,
Try to understand who it is that is staring back at us,
Who it is that stares back from the reflection,
Question everything about our lives,
Are we who we thought we are?
Asking, "who are we?"
The hunt starts to find our place in the world,
To find ourselves.
To each there is our own truth,
I found mine and I know you will too,
The key is to not over think things,
Because sometimes the best explanation is that which is right in front of us,
Believe, that the pieces will fall into place,
Every failure, every heartbreak, every death, all things you wanted and did not get,
They're all meaningless, and they all mean something,
For they defined you, they made you who you are today,
Life just happens, and we can all but go along,
And you my dear friend, will find what you're looking for.