Today I'm struggling
My head is spinning
My eyes are leaking
******* HORMONES
******* FRUCKING FOOKING FUCKITY ****
I want to **** myself
I want to smash things up and swear and stomp and cry and and and and and I WANT TO ******* GO HOME
**** THESE SYNTHETIC HORMONES
I'm done with this
So
done
Let me go
Nothing is working
Nobody gives a **** anyway
Get a new person to do my ****** job
Get someone who knows what they're doing
Get someone who isn't ******* FULL OF SYNTHETIC HORMONES
****
>_<

Happiness is snugging on the couch
Watching Netflix
Full of good food and icecream
With a warm cat purring on your lap
...
Sadness is all of this but knowing
One wrong move could end this happiness forever

I'm so angry
I feel like I'm going to to spew everywhere
Spew all my guts out
Spew all my swears and anger and frustration
And mainly
Spew out my fear of losing control.

I was lonely
I didn't care
about anything
life or death
whatever
what's the point
expending effort
when life *****
whatever.

I walked
head down
into traffic
part of me
thought they'd stop
but
they didnt.

I'm still lonely.