I really don't understand this. I'm so confused why I have this. I feel like I did something to deserve it but what could be so bad that I deserve this? This is nothing; it's empty, hollow, and bare. I'm sad always, every day, every moment. Depression is horrible and I feel awful for those who have it. Everyone involved. I hate that I can't help anyone, not even myself. When you feel like this, feel like I do. Death is inviting. Like it's an end to the pain I'm always feeling. But I don't think I could do it. I'm scared of the people it would hurt; Scared of everything. I'm so sorry for everything I do. I'm only negative to everyone. I don't help. I make stuff worse, for everyone. I wish they wouldn't pretend they need me. Nothing helps, cutting doesn't even realllllyy help.. I still do it. I mean I have too yknow. I mean depression *****, and anxiety and eating disorders **** too. Mental illnesses pile up and I'm stuck and trapped in the dark alone. People say they can help. They can't.