You look at your body

It's bend over the toilet

you throw your fat away

You feel beautiful in hunger

And you do it again and again

Until you're the one who drops

I'm 16 but I can't control what I think,
And what I think slowly sinks me in.
I fantasize about making love.
I fantasize about both of us.
Kissing
Loving
Slowly breathing love.
And when it became reality
I couldn't stop what I have done.

I have this fear ,
So I'm constantly crying.
When someone asks, I'm always lying.
There are some things that can't be understood, so I pretend that they're all good.
People know I'm lying but they keep on smiling.
They don't understand the things that I'm hiding.
But can no one see the problems I face?
When ever I ask them: they say that they will fix them whatever it takes.
I smile and look at them straight in the face
I say: "thank you" and walk back to my fears
Knowing these problem won't ever fade.
No matter what it takes.

And no matter what it breaks.

So sick of playing,
this game we call "life".
Tired of everything,
so I run to hide.

Sometimes I need to drown
But I try to stay float.
What kind of world is this?
I seem very lost

They're not proud of me,
Telling me what I've done.
If only they knew
What they had become.

The media too,
It's not really real.
Changing your thoughts
And how you really feel.

They say to love yourself
no matter what.
But then they show you make up
And tell you how.

Well listen to me
When I tell you that:
You should be proud of who you are!
No matter what!

My emotions are deep,
And there are lots of lies,
Once I'll look happy,
The next time it's cries.
People steal love ,
And people steal minds,
But I'm a different girl,
Who won't even try.
I'm the type of girl
Who will make u feel better,
But when time will come
I'll try to leave for ever,
I'm super suicidal,
I guess it's one of my sides
But behind the bright moon
There is a shadow that hides.