Too long people in Gaza often went hungry.
They were also fed up of only eating canned foods and flour mixed with maggots.
But after the cease fire they can get delicious foods and cakes every day.
Maqluba , shawarma , baklava , musakhan , qatayef , ouzi and others.
The volunteer team cooks it all every day.
Then they distribute it all to people in refugee camps and people who are on their way home.
Everyone has forgotten the taste of delicious foods and cakes which for more than a year has been considered a luxury.
They immediately chew it all with big smiles and laughter.
They eat not only to fill their stomachs but also to satisfy their appetites.
Delicious foods and cakes are the smallest piece of life that they could immediately enjoy.
It's about a little celebration of the life they've got back.


Januari 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Amidst the sound of bombardment explosions and gunfire.
Screams and cries are heard.
Also heard the sound of hungry stomachs.
Stomachs tied with stones to suppress hunger with nothing to eat.
Besides drinking water mixed with salt.
Hoping to silence the stomachs that are making increasingly loud noises.
That is the sound of slow painful death.
From thin and malnourished bodies.


July 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Do you like eating donuts from Dunkin ?
Which donut do you like ?
Cheese donut ?
Strawberry donut ?
Chocolate donut sprinkled with nuts ?
Or sweet white powder donut ?
Did you know that Dunkin is now selling special donut ?
Donut with white cream and blue cream in the shape of the star of David.
It's a special Israeli flavored donut.
Do you want to try it ?!


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

America wants to be seen as a helper of the people of Gaza.
But in reality America is playing a ***** game like Squid Game.
Every day the hungry and exhausted people in Gaza have to walk far to Rafah.
They jostle to queue for the distribution of flour in the middle of the hot weather.
Then American mercenaries and Israeli soldiers shower them with gunfire , tank attack and also grenades.
Many of them are killed or injured.
While anyone who managed to get flour have to quickly return to avoid the gang of looters.
The winner of this ***** game is the person who can return carrying a sack of flour.
Of course , this ***** game that is dangerous and degrading is watched by the world.
But as usual the world just watches without doing anything.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven

There was once a heaven on earth.
A shining heaven filled with...

prosperity , welfare , happiness , peacefullness , calmness , enjoyment , excitement , pleasure , richness , easiness , chance , satisfaction , healthiness , sanity , beauty , freedom , wholeness , cheerfulness , warmth , togetherness , comfort , safety , colour , meaning , eligibility , cleanliness , enthusiasm , regularity , serenity , well being , and all the other good things.

People in heaven felt fully alive.
But then the horde of greedy and hypocritical demons came.
planning to stole , destroy and take over heaven.
With misleading tricks and ***** methods.

The people in heaven fought back.
But instead they were blamed.
They became victims and had no power to defend heaven.
Until finally they lost heaven.

What remains is hell.
A dark rotten hell filled with...

chaos , fear , destruction , danger , bitterness , painfullness , hassle , despair , difficulty , fatigue , tiredness , sadness , grief , fragility , shackles , limitation , poverty , wasteness , loss , anger , disappointment , misery , powerlessness , helplessness , hunger , thirst , anxiety , panic , ineligibility , humiliation , madness , sickness , agony , sorrow , oppression , and all the other bad things.

People in hell are still alive but don't feel alive.
They are dying slowly while waiting for a miracle that never comes.
But maybe there is still some strength left.
The last remaining strength for the decisive struggle.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

Sore hari setelah hujan reda.
Temanku mengajak keliling Surabaya.
Dia menyetir mobilnya yang usang.
Melewati jalanan kota yang ramai.

Kami melewati beberapa restoran Amerika.
Mc D , KFC , Burger King dan Pizza Hut.
Semuanya tampak ramai dipenuhi orang.
orang orang itu masih tetap makan di sana.
Tanpa peduli dunia sedang memboikot.

Lalu kami berhenti di minimarket.
Temanku ingin membeli rokok dan jus buah.
Tapi di dalam ada banyak orang berbelanja.
Membeli produk produk P&G , Nestle , Mondelez dan Unilever.
Tanpa peduli dunia sedang memboikot.

Tak jauh dari minimarket ada taman bunga.
Kami nongkrong sebentar sambil merokok.
Ada banyak juga orang yang sedang nongkrong.
Sambil meminum Coca Cola atau Pepsi.
Tanpa peduli dunia sedang memboikot.

Kami merasa heran dengan semua orang.
Apakah mereka tidak tahu atau tidak mau tahu ?!..
Bahwa produk produk Barat yang mereka konsumsi.
Berlumuran darah dan bercampur serpihan tubuh.
Orang orang dan anak anak Gaza.


October 2024

Alvian Eleven

I'm bored of watching the first and second world war movies.
I want to watch the third world war.
Not a movie but a real war.
Hi tech war with various modern weapons.
Mutual destruction between China , Russia , Iran against America , British , Europe.
This will be the most epic war and I can't wait to watch it.
I will watch it streaming on the big TV that I just bought.
I will watch it casually sitting on the soft sofa in my warm room.
I will watch it while eating martabak and drinking cincau ice.
The third world war will be the best entertainment in the 21st century.


March 2025

By Alvian Eleven

The Madleen ship failed to reach Gaza.
The Global March action stopped in Egypt.
While people and children in Gaza are still starving.
The massacre is getting worse without stopping.
They are too tired , too weak and too desperate.
Waiting for a slow painful death.
If there is no miracle Gaza will not be able to survive anymore.
This is the final point that determines the fate of Gaza.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Pluto has just entered Aquarius.
We have now become water.
Water spilled from her vessel.
To flood the old world.

The old world has decayed.
We have to flood it heavily.
To clean up all the rot.
The rot that has long consumed the world.

Flood the rotting America and Europa.
Flood with courage and sacrifice.
Until their rotten order is destroyed.
Then we create our own order.

Our order is for the new world.
A free and refreshing new world.
To restore our decent life.
Where we truly feel fully alive.


November 2024

By Alvian Eleven

A week after the cease fire.
All the Gazans who were displaced in the south.
Finally able to return to the north.
Jabalia , Beit Hanoun , Beit Lahia , Shujaiya , Tel El Hawa , Al Rimal , Al Zaytoun , Al Naser , Al Shati.
In large numbers they walked together along Al Rasheed street on the beach.
Or they rode in cars , trucks and donkey carts full of their belongings through Salah Al Din street.
It was the great return march to the northern Gaza.
They returned to their ruined cities and their destroyed homes.
They sang , cheered and rejoiced.
They were celebrating a day full of euphoria.
Their resilience and steadfastness during the long chaos.
Has paid off with their feet standing on their own land.
Whatever has been destroyed on their own land will be rebuilt.
A Beautiful life will grow and bloom again on their own land.


Januari 2025

By Alvian Eleven

The people of Gaza have lost everything.
What they have not lost is themselves and the land that they stand on.
The land that has been purified by the blood of martyrs.
From that land they will grow a new refreshing life.
With new air.
With new spirit.
With new color.
With new vision.
With new dream.
With new hope.
With new energy.
This is the great revival of Gaza.

January 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Do you know why the world just keeps quiet without caring about Gaza ?!... because people just want to live their normal life.
The suffering of people in Gaza is a disturbance to their normality.
They know that blood is being spilled non stop in Gaza.
But they don't care at all because it disturbs their normal life.
For them the world will always turn as usual.
The normal world that they want to always enjoy without caring about Gaza.
So what do you expect from people like them ?!..
Do you expect them to act for humanity ?!..
Don't be naive , in this world full of illusions what is called humanity is just an empty slogan.


May 2025

By Alvian Eleven

The people of Gaza have the right to be happy.
They want to enjoy life like other people around the world.
Coz they are not religious zombies who are only obsessed with going to heaven.
They are people who love life and fight for life.
They have the right to live a decent life until they die a decent death.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

I have seen plenty of kites after Refaat was martyred a year ago.
Those kites were flown continuosly by Refaat's students.
Gave hope , spirit , encouragement and consolation.
To anyone who has seen those kites.

Refaat has taught his students how to make kites.
The kites are made from writings about struggle and resistance.
About life that is loved by souls who don't want to just be considered as numbers.
Because souls who love life deserve to live.

Until today Refaat's students are still flying kites.
Which means there is still hope to fight for.
And the whole world will not let the dying Palestinians fight alone.
Because the whole world has seen those kites , the whole world has become Palestine.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

Saturday morning October 7 2023.
Was the end of normal life for people in Gaza.
They thought the chaos at that time was just a small chaos as usual.
Without realizing that the big chaos had just begun.
Continuing for more than a year until city after city had been reduced to ruins.
And they can never return to their destroyed houses.
All they took with them were house keys.
Just like their grandparents who experienced the Nakba in 1948.

Now people in Gaza are forced to get used to the new normal.
Trying to survive day by day for more than a year.
Tiredness , sadness , poverty , hunger , fear , loss , they feel it all continuously.
Bombardment by jets , helicopters and artillery.
Terror by drones , quadcopters and snipers.
Attacks by troops , tanks dan gunboats.
All are dangerous threats they have to face every day.
The sense of imminent death continues to loom day by day.

The long chaos has made them forget the old normal.
They have lost everything they had.
Only the smelly ***** tent they live in.
Only stale bread they can eat.
Only shabby clothes they can wear.
The beautiful past has been lost.
While the present is full of suffering.
And the future is uncertain.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

Buddhists are waiting for Maitreya.
Hindus are waiting for Avatara.
Christians are waiting for Jesus.
Muslims are waiting for Al Mahdi.
Whatever people call it , it is the same figure.
People have been waiting for that figure for too long.
But that figure never comes while the world is really chaotic.
I think it's better for me to be that figure myself.
The figure of the Messiah that looks like an apocalyptic fantasy hero.
It is not my ambition to become the Messiah.
No one will give me salary or allowance if I become the Messiah.
But I have been baptized in hellfire to become the Messiah.
So now is the time to fulfill my destiny as the Messiah.
Do you know what I will do when I become the Messiah ?!...
Will I bring peace to this rotten world ?!...
No , I will burn this rotten world until there is no more rot left.


April 2025

By Alvian Eleven

It's midnight the moon looks big and bright.
I look that moon on the edge of a quiet and dark rice field.
Near the train track on the outskirts of Surabaya.
Which goes towards Sidoarjo.

I'm taking a photo of that moon.
Then I immediately upload it to my Instagram account.
I see there are lots of photo posts from the people in Gaza.
It turns out they were also looking at the moon.

A few minutes ago Maha uploaded her photo.
She was sitting on the roof of the house with her cat.
She looked at the moon while drinking coffee.
Without caring that jet planes were bombarding the neighborhood in Deir El Balah.

Half an hour ago Omar uploaded his photo.
He was hanging out in front of the tent with his friends.
They were looking at the moon while smoking hookah.
Relaxing after helping volunteers in Khan Yunis.

Half an hour ago Mariam uploaded her photo.
She was sitting pensively in front of the tent.
She looked at the moon while remembering her family who had died.
Buried among the rubble of her house in Tel El Hawa.

An hour ago Dr Abraham uploaded his photo.
He was sitting on the balcony of Al Nasser Hospital.
He looked at the moon while complaining.
Tired of taking care of the injured people who were arriving.

An hour ago Saleh the journalist uploaded his photo.
He saw a group of young people dancing dabke and playing oud guitar.
They were standing together on the rubble of a building.
While the moon seemed to be shining brightly behind them.

This big and bright moon really looks beautiful.
Decorating the night of the people in Gaza.
Who are still trapped in the long chaos.
Without knowing when it will end.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

Palestine is like a sick woman.
Her body is being eaten away by rotten cancer until she is dying.
But she is pregnant and she must give birth soon.
Give birth to a baby she has been waiting for so long.
When the time comes for the birth the woman is in pain.
She screams in unbearable pain and bleeding profusely.
Slowly get her baby out of her womb that is being eaten away by rotten cancer.
A very slow and painful birth.
Too slow and too painful.
Until finally the woman dies after giving birth.
Ending the long painful suffering and giving the beginning of life.
To a weak premature baby who cries so loudly.
That is the cry of the newborn Palestine.


April 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Pluto is all about rebirth.
Same as Jesus who will be born again.
In the middle of the rubble.
And pool of blood mixed with body fragments.

This rebirth will be very painful.
It's will be a blood stained Christmas.
a Christmas covered in blood and the smell of gunpowder.
But what must be rebirth will still be born.

Teng !... teng !... teng !... teng !...
The bell rang loudly amidst the sound of bombardment explosions.
Bluaar !!... bluaar !!.... bluaar !!... bluaar !!...
But the holy angels still came down to bless the rebirth.

Merry christmas Palestine !... merry christmas Palestine !...
You are Jesus , you are born again.
You are purified and refreshed by the water.
Spilled from the vessel of the goddess Aquarius.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

Once upon a time when Moses was preparing for the struggle.
Ramses II hanged the Jews every day.
If Moses did not surrender the Jews would continue to be hanged every day.
Then the Jews were divided between still supporting or blaming Moses.

Now Hamas has the same position as Moses.
If Hamas does not surrender the people of Gaza will continue to be massacred by Israel every day.
The rest will die slowly from starvation due to the blockade.
Then the people of Gaza are divided between still supporting or blaming Hamas.

This is history repeating itself.
Just different times and figures but the story remains the same.
This is about powerlessness , sense of urgency and loss of trust.


May 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Israel is the worst colonial project.
Its existence requires many lies from religious doctrine , historical claim , educational curriculum , Hollywood films and western media propaganda.
Funded by American and European tax money , as well as western large corporations.
Weaponized by many military weapons and modern technology.
Slaughtering Palestinians and seizing the land of Palestine.
For decades after World War 2 until today.

But it's all useless.
Now people all over the world have become Palestinians.
Everyone moves and acts in different ways.
Demonstrations , boycotts , blockades and radical actions.
No one can stop it all.
The more Palestine is destroyed the stronger the waves that hit Israel.
In the end it's only a matter of time before Israel collapses.
As does the western world order which is full of hypocrisy.

It is no longer the colonial era.
It is no longer the era of white supremacy.
It is no longer the era of western hegemony.
All of that will just be an old disgusting story in human civilization.


March 2025

By Alvian Eleven

If Anne Frank were still alive.
She would be an old granny now.
An old granny who supports Palestine.
Because the wound experienced by the Palestinian people are the same wound she felt during the holocaust.
That is the wound of the oppressed humanity.


March 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Trapped in chaos for too long.
People and children in Gaza are forced to endure unbearable stress.
Their brains produce too much cortisol to the point of excess.
They can no longer think clearly.
They are confused and don't know what to do.
They are tired , desperate and helpless.
They have forgotten what joy feels like.
A joy that they hope will make them laugh a little.
So their brains can produce endorphins as an antidote.


March 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Amidst the long chaos and unbearable suffering.
People and children in Gaza often entertain themselves by doing a trend on Tiktok.
They do what is called the Turmeric Trend.
A glass of water is placed on top of a smartphone flash light that is on.
Then yellow turmeric powder is sprinkled into the water.
When the powder dissolves it looks like a surreal show.
Accompanied by the tinkling of gloomy music.
That is the weird entertainment for the exhausted souls in Gaza.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven

In the midst of the long chaos in Gaza.
The number of necessary goods is getting smaller.
While people continue to need various necessities every day.
As a result prices are increasing so high that it is difficult to buy.
While people no longer have any income.
They only depend on Paypal or Gofundme donations.
And the worst is the game of greedy importers.
They take advantage of the bad situation to make a lot of profit.
While aid trucks can't enter Gaza because they are blocked by Israeli army.
If there are trucks that can enter Gaza the bandits ordered by Israeli army will loot the cargo.

It's really a painful reality.
It's painful to see people and children starving.
It''s painful to see babies lacking milks and diapers.
It's painful to see women wearing scraps of tents for *******.
It's painful to see children wearing sandals made from pieces of bottles or cans.
It's painful to see prices rising so high and people can't buy anything.
It's really very painful to see the supply and demand curve becoming more and more unequal.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

Suffering gives rise to anger.
Anger gathers strength.
Strength seeks the way.
The way of struggle for vengeance.

Vengeance is about destruction.
Vengeance is about salvation.
Vengeance is about liberation.
Vengeance is about redemption.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

There are still many Americans who are sleepwalking.
Lulled into a mirage dream about "Make America Great Again".
Lost in the doctrine of the Bible , educational curriculum , media ******* and Hollywood films.
To support Israel subconsciously.
Without realizing that America is dying.
Slowly being eroded by Israel they support.
It's only a matter of time before America collapses and Americans will suffer the worst consequence.

So before it's too late

Wake up Americans !!!...
Wake up Americans !!!...
Wake up Americans !!!...


March 2025

By Alvian Eleven

The watermelon emoji can cause your social media accounts to be suspended or blocked.
If you post watermelon emojis too often it means you are considered to be breaking the rules.
The rules are actually a way to silence the truth.
Any posts about Gaza or Palestine will be subject to censorship even if only a watermelon emoji.
Maybe because they are allergic to watermelon.
Especially triangle watermelon facing downward.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

It's midnight on the outskirts of Surabaya.
I'm sitting alone on the terrace of an old cafe.
While looking at the empty street.
Slowly smoking my cigarette and sipping my coffee which is no longer hot.

But my mind is not here.
My mind is still far away in Gaza.
Where there is long chaos that still not over for more than a year.
Until I'm tired of seeing it every day like an endless daily horror show.

Now my phone is connected to WiFi.
Then I open the social media accounts of people from Gaza.
Ahmed , Omar , Eman , Abdallah , Mariam , Mohammed and others.
As usual they always post.
I'm Still Alive... I'm Still Alive... I'm Still Alive...

But there is a Facebook account that has been silent for a long time.
This account has not posted anything for months.
Of course I am very worried and I always wonder what happened to her.
is she still alive or dead ?!

This account belongs to a girl named Nour.
She fled from her home in Al Rimal , Gaza City.
I have known her since the end of last year.
Then we felt close to each other.
Connected thought and feeling.
Between Gaza and Surabaya.

I remember that usually every day I always gave her words of encouragement.
So that she could get through the chaotic , heavy , tiring and dangerous days.
Nour always told me whatever she was experiencing.
Her fears... her suffering... her bitterness... her anxiety... her sadness... her exhaustion...
I feel it all too.

Sometimes the situation was calm for a moment.
Calm enough for Nour to reflect on her past life.
She uploaded photos of her house , her neighborhood , her campus and the beautiful corners of Gaza City.
When everything was still there before October 7.

For Nour nostalgia was a momentary consolation.
Her solace in the midst of long suffering.
I was always lost in her nostalgia no matter what she told me.
With her friends she often hung out at beachside cafes.
Walked along the busy streets of Al Rashed then ate corn and drank coffee on the corniche.
Or spent money shopping for clothes at Watan mall and Capital mall.

Reading novels was Nour's main hobby.
She often bought novels at Samir Mansour's bookstore.
Then she read the books in her comfort room.
Pink walls , a neatly arranged table and a big teddy bear on the bed.

Cooking was another of Nour's hobbies.
Usually every day she cooked anything on the stove in front of her tent.
Falafel , mulukhiya , manakeesh , maqluba.
Everything looked so delicious that it made me curious.
In my life I have never eaten Arabic foods.

Nour also had a hobby of listening to music.
She told me to listen to Fairuz's songs.
A legendary diva singer from Lebanon who she idolized.
I was fascinated by listening Fairuz's soft voice singing an Arabic songs whose lyrics I didn't understand.

Nour used to have a cat with thick white fur.
A fat and cute cat named Kimba.
Every day Kimba was always pampered by Nour.
But sometimes Nour complained because Kimba ate too much.
While the price of cat food went up high.
Tragically , after Eid Kimba went missing for days and then found dead after being shot by a quadcopter.
Kimba's death made Nour so depressed.

Nour studied at the Islamic University of Gaza.
The campus had been destroyed and her studies stopped in the fifth semester.
But she was always proud to have been Refaat's student.
Inheriting his teachings to fight with writing.
writing anything about Palestine and life in Gaza.
Where souls have life not just considered as numbers.

I'm afraid that in the end Nour will just become a number.
A statistical number of martyrs that continues to increase every day.
While the world is unable to do anything but just watch endless massacres.
Taking lives forcefully and painfully.

Nothing is not painful in Gaza.
But for me it hurts more not to have any news from Nour.
I feel the emptiness of losing her.
I miss conversations with her.
But now there's nothing I can do but just look at her photos.
Admiring her beautiful face , her sparkling eyes and her charming smiling lips.
It seems like I've fallen in love with her.

Where are you now ?.... where are you Nour ?...
For months I have always asked Nour like that.
But until now there has been no answer at all from Nour.
If only she gave me any news for a moment.
I would feel very relieved.

Don't leave me !.. please don't leave me alone !..
Nour usually always begged me like that.
She wanted me to always be there for her.
But now she's not there for me.
She has left me without a word.

When I'm looking at the night sky for a moment.
I wonder about Nour's fate.
Has Nour become one of the stars in the sky ?!...
This isn't fair , I've known Nour for too short at this bad time.
I just want Nour to stay on earth , stay in the city of Gaza that she loved.
I really wanted to meet her at the good time we hoped for , the time when the land of Palestine has been liberated.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

Dear Amal , almost two years Gaza is in chaos.
I don't know about you anymore.
Every day I open your Instagram but there is no news from you.
I can never feel calm because I always think and worry about you.
You suffer too much unbearably.
I feel like hugging you so you can release all the burden of your suffering.
You can cry on my chest pouring out all your sadness.
A sadness that is too painful for you to bear alone.

Dear Amal , Did you know ?..
Whenever I sit alone in Batu City Square.
I often imagine you sitting with me.
Enjoying a beautiful afternoon while eating pukis cake and drinking tropical fruit juice.
While around us street musicians sing passionately.
Then we can try to hitch a ride the rotating ferris wheel.
So we can see the entire area of ​​​​Batu City Square.
You must feel the joy when the ferris wheel rotates many times.
After that we get off and go around the entire area while taking pictures.
We can take pictures together at the big apples statue and the strawberry shaped toilet.
It's all very cool to photograph.
After that we can buy anything in the busy food court.
Bakso , chicken satay , fried noodle , fried rice , grilled seafood and many more.
We enjoy our food while talking about anything.
And I will tell you that the joy is yours.
The joy you have long forgotten is yours again.
A joyful smile is yours again.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven