Do you want to know my phone wallpapers ?
Three years ago I often set up wallpapers of naked ******* models.
Two years ago I often set up wallpapers of Nintendo game characters.
But a year ago I started setting up wallpapers of watermelon , handala , kuffiyeh and Palestinian flag.
To this day my wallpapers are still the same.
So now can you show me your phone wallpapers ?!


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

In the midst of the long chaos in Gaza.
The number of necessary goods is getting smaller.
While people continue to need various necessities every day.
As a result prices are increasing so high that it is difficult to buy.
While people no longer have any income.
They only depend on Paypal or Gofundme donations.
And the worst is the game of greedy importers.
They take advantage of the bad situation to make a lot of profit.
While aid trucks can't enter Gaza because they are blocked by Israeli army.
If there are trucks that can enter Gaza the bandits ordered by Israeli army will loot the cargo.

It's really a painful reality.
It's painful to see people and children starving.
It''s painful to see babies lacking milks and diapers.
It's painful to see women wearing scraps of tents for *******.
It's painful to see children wearing sandals made from pieces of bottles or cans.
It's painful to see prices rising so high and people can't buy anything.
It's really very painful to see the supply and demand curve becoming more and more unequal.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

When the chaos in Gaza is over.
Even when all of Palestine land is liberated.
Nothing will be able to return what has been lost.
Material and non material that ever existed in life.

People and children who have been martyred cannot be brought back to life.
Hands and legs that have been amputated cannot be grown again.
Psychological trauma cannot be completely recovered.
Health that has deteriorated cannot be completely cured.
All the buildings in the city full of memories cannot be rebuilt as before.
All items full of memories cannot be purchased again.
Wasted age and time that has passed in vain cannot be returned.
Lost chances and opportunities also cannot be returned.
All the joy that was missed also cannot be returned.
Happiness that has faded cannot be felt again.
The lost warmth and togetherness also cannot be felt again.

Everything that has been lost must be let go.
The most important thing for Palestinians is to get back all the land that has been long occupied.
A new life will be built on the land from the river to the sea.
Regenerating new things of material and non material that make life worth living.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

A Gazan man named Hassan told me.
In the past his grandfather used to live in the city of Jaffa.
His grandfather was a farmer who had a large orange orchard.
The harvest every year was very plentiful to be exported.

Hassan said Jaffa oranges taste sweet and juicy.
The size is large , the skin is thick and only have a few seeds.
In the past so many merchant ships carried crates of Jaffa oranges at the port.
Transported across the Mediterranean Sea for export to many countries.
Palestinians used to feel proud that Jaffa oranges became Palestine's mainstay trade commodity.

But that was only the glory of the past.
After the Nakba 1948 the city of Jaffa was conquered by the Zionists.
Hassan's grandfather and all the residents of Jaffa were expelled.
Leaving behind their homes , orange orchards , whatever buildings they owned.

After decades have passed oranges from Jaffa are still an export commodity.
But Jaffa oranges have become an Israeli trade commodity and no longer belong to Palestine.
Palestine has lost oranges from Jaffa that were once proud of in the past.

Hassan often imagines about Jaffa oranges.
If one day Palestine is truly liberated Hassan has the right to return.
He will return to the house and orange orchard that belonged to his deceased grandfather.
Hassan will continue his grandfather's work of planting and managing orange gardens.
Becoming an orange farmer like his grandfather is his biggest dream.

Hassan also promised me that every harvest season I would be sent a box of Jaffa oranges.
Of course I would be happy if one day I received a shipment of oranges from Jaffa.
I think I'll be addicted once I taste what Jaffa oranges taste like.


January 2025


By Alvian Eleven

Last night my friend came to my house.
He wanted to watch El Classico with me.
While bringing some Big Mac burgers from Mc Donald's.
Big Mac has been our favorite burger since we were kids.

But I didn't want to eat that burger anymore.
Even though it looked delicious it didn't make me appetite anymore.
I was looking at beef covered in tomato sauce.
But what I saw were pieces of flesh mixed with blood.

That's how the Big Mac burger now looks terrible in my eyes.
Coz McDonald's also regularly funds massacres in Gaza.
Even Israeli soldiers also eat Big Mac burgers before and after slaughtering people in Gaza.
So there is no choice for me but to boycott Mc Donald's forever.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

There are too many martyrs in Gaza which continue to increase every day for over a year.
Souls who previously had life continue to be wiped out until they end up becoming statistics.
Refaat , Hind Rajab , Dr Adnan , Mahasen , Medo Halimy , Ismail Al Ghoul , Shaban , Uncle Khaled , Chef Mahmoud , Awni El Dous , Ayman , Heba Zagout , Fathi Ghaben , Hassan Hamad , Dr Thabat and tens of thousands of other martyrs.
If they were all written down in poems it would take years to write poems about them all.
But they should be written down in poems one by one.
At least with poems they can always be remembered.
So if you feel motivated to write poems about them , just write immediately.


January 2025

By Alvian Eleven

In Gaza there are many painful ways to die.
For more than a year death after death continues to occur which seems tragic and sadistic.
You can see on TikTok like an endless daily horror show.
And if you are curious about what it feels like every day to escape death.
Try to imagine yourself in Gaza.

If you hide in your house jet planes will bombard until it's destroyed.
Then you will die under the rubble of your house.

If you are not alert when you are on the street snipers, drones, quadcopters will target you.
Then you will die from being shot or hit by an explosion.

If you are injured but there is no ambulance or civilian rescue to pick you up you will slowly bleed out.
Then you will bleed to death.

If you are injured but there is no medicine or adequate equipment in the hospital you will be in prolonged pain.
Then you will just die.

If no food aid enters Gaza you will starve until your body become weak.
Then you will starve to death.

If you are caught by the soldiers you will be tortured while being interrogated.
Then you will die in a mass execution.

If you are caught by the soldiers carrying tanks you will be forced to lie down on the ground.
Then you will be crushed to death by a tank until your body is scattered on the ground.

If you live in a tent various unexpected dangers will threaten you.
Then you will be killed by a jet , helicopter , drone or quadcopter.

So now you must be horrified to imagine yourself in Gaza.
You're lucky , you only see death after death on Tik Tok.
Without ever truly feeling that your life is threatened by death everyday.
If your life is as chaotic as people in Gaza.
You will not survive even just a day.


November 2024

By Alvian Eleven

A woman in Gaza once said to me.
Don't be sad seeing our suffering.
Sadness will weaken you.
You have to feel the anger.
It will give you the strength to fight.
Fight for us with courage.
Because you are our only hope.

But I'm not the only one.
All over the world there are many people like me.
They are all fighting for Palestine to this day.
Protesting , demonstrating , boycotting.
Facing repressive authorities and sickening laws.
Without any single one giving up.
Nothing can stop us.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

The existence of a nation is to have land and people.
A nation will not exist if there is only an empty land which is then claimed by other nations.
A nation will not exist if there are only people who are in diaspora throughout the world.
People needs land to build life.
Land needs people to be built life.
Life is about existence.
So people and land sustain the existence of a nation on the earth.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

There was once a heaven on earth.
A shining heaven filled with...

prosperity , welfare , happiness , peacefullness , calmness , enjoyment , excitement , pleasure , richness , easiness , chance , satisfaction , healthiness , sanity , beauty , freedom , wholeness , cheerfulness , warmth , togetherness , comfort , safety , colour , meaning , eligibility , cleanliness , enthusiasm , regularity , serenity , well being , and all the other good things.

People in heaven felt fully alive.
But then the horde of greedy and hypocritical demons came.
planning to stole , destroy and take over heaven.
With misleading tricks and ***** methods.

The people in heaven fought back.
But instead they were blamed.
They became victims and had no power to defend heaven.
Until finally they lost heaven.

What remains is hell.
A dark rotten hell filled with...

chaos , fear , destruction , danger , bitterness , painfullness , hassle , despair , difficulty , fatigue , tiredness , sadness , grief , fragility , shackles , limitation , poverty , wasteness , loss , anger , disappointment , misery , powerlessness , helplessness , hunger , thirst , anxiety , panic , ineligibility , humiliation , madness , sickness , agony , sorrow , oppression , and all the other bad things.

People in hell are still alive but don't feel alive.
They are dying slowly while waiting for a miracle that never comes.
But maybe there is still some strength left.
The last remaining strength for the decisive struggle.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

On your smartphone screen.
You can see corpses covered in blood.
But you can't smell it.
You can see the explosion of a jet plane bombardment.
But you can't feel the danger.
You can see children seriously injured.
But you can't feel their pain.
You can see hungry children queuing for food.
But you can't feel their hunger.
You can see people displaced on the streets.
But you can't feel their fear , despair and exhaustion.

On your smartphone screen.
You've still been watching for over a year.
Endless daily horror show from Gaza.
Like a Hollywood apocalyptic film but not fiction.
Real blood , real corpses , real bullets, real explosions , real scenes.
Everything you see really happened and makes you confused.
Because you can only watch for over a year.
And it still continues while you can't do anything.
You pray , pray and pray for a good ending.
But you don't know when and how it will end.
So you still continue watching every day.
Until you lose your sanity.


November 2024

By Alvian Eleven

Hello you there.
You don't need to imagine hell.
Because now hell is here.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

I have seen plenty of kites after Refaat was martyred a year ago.
Those kites were flown continuosly by Refaat's students.
Gave hope , spirit , encouragement and consolation.
To anyone who has seen those kites.

Refaat has taught his students how to make kites.
The kites are made from writings about struggle and resistance.
About life that is loved by souls who don't want to just be considered as numbers.
Because souls who love life deserve to live.

Until today Refaat's students are still flying kites.
Which means there is still hope to fight for.
And the whole world will not let the dying Palestinians fight alone.
Because the whole world has seen those kites , the whole world has become Palestine.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

Two years ago a Gazan girl named Sondos felt enthusiastic.
She started studying international law at Al Azhar University in Gaza.
She bought and studied many thick books.
Because she wanted her country Palestine to get justice.

But since last year Gaza has started to become chaotic.
Long chaos full of destruction and massacre.
It has not been stopped despite numerous protests around the world.
And also the pointless trial in Haque.

Where is justice ?!... why is there no justice for us ?!...
Don't we deserve justice ?!... why don't we get justice ?!
For over a year Sondos has always questioned justice for Palestine.
But it was useless , the justice never came.

Sondos feels disillusioned.
She has realized that international law is just a nonsense.
All she can do now is just sit in front of the campfire.
Warm herself while burning all her thick books about international law.

December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

Hell is still hell.
Yesterday they still had some bread.
Today they have nothing to eat.

Hell is still hell.
Yesterday they were still living in refugee tents.
Today they are displaced on the streets without carrying anything.

Hell is still hell.
Yesterday their belongings were still stored in the tents.
Today strong winds tore down their tents and their belongings were flooded with rainwater.

Hell is still hell.
Yesterday they were still able to relax and enjoy the sunset on the beach.
Today they were bombarded by gunboats approaching the shore.

Hell is still hell.
Yesterday they heard rumor of cease fire negotiation.
Today jet planes and helicopters are still bombarding as usual.

Hell is still hell.
Yesterday they were still able to take refuge at school.
Today the school was destroyed by a jet bombardment.

Hell is still hell.
Yesterday they were still able to play football.
Today they are lying in the hospital without legs.

Hell is still hell.
Yesterday they still gathered with their family.
Today a drone bomb blew up the tents and killed their family.

Hell is still hell.
Yesterday they were still playing happily and laughing cheerfully.
Today they are silent and wrapped in blood stained shrouds.

Hell is still hell.
Yesterday the price of vegetables was still affordable to buy.
Today the price is increasing so high and people can't afford to buy.

Hell is still hell.
Yesterday they were still able to feed their cats.
Today cat food is hard to find.

Hell is still hell.
Yesterday they were still able to charge their smartphones on solar panels.
Today they are confused because the heavy rain doesn't stop.

Hell is still hell.
Yesterday they still had petrol to fill their cars.
Today they have to ride a donkey cart to go everywhere.

Hell is still hell.
Yesterday they were still able to pass Salah al Din road.
Today the tanks are blocking and shooting anyone who passes by.

Hell is still hell.
Yesterday they still had enthusiasm and hope for the future.
Today they feel hopeless and helpless again.

Hell is still hell.
Today they still have a bit of luck.
Tomorrow there may be no more luck.

Hell is still hell.
Today they wish for a miracle.
Tomorrow the miracle never comes.


November 2024

By Alvian Eleven

People in Gaza are always asking why ?!
Why are we going through this big mess ?!
Why are our lives like this ?!
Why we can't live normally like everyone else ?!

Then...

People in Gaza are always asking when ?!
When will this big mess end ?!
When will we no longer feel fear and suffering ?!
When we can return to normal life ?!

And...

People in Gaza are always asking how ?!
How will this big mess end ?!
How we have to survive any longer ?!
How do we continue our lives after this ?!

Also...

People in Gaza are always asking what ?!
What if we die ?!
What if we don't survive ?!
What is our fate ?!

But...

People around the world don't know the answers.
They don't know the answers.
Anyone doesn't know the answers.
Nobody knows the answers.


November 2024

By Alvian Eleven