Oh Habibti.
Before I planned to marry you.
I had already married Palestine.
I had married Palestine with my deepest soul.
Then I got to know you and realized something.
That you are the human form of Palestine.
Palestine in the form of a beautiful woman.
That's you wearing thobe.
That's you cooking maqluba.
That's you dancing dabke.
That's you pounding olives.
That's you showing resilience.
That's you teaching life.
That's you who made me fall in love.
Oh Habibti.


March 2025

By Alvian Eleven

In Gaza there are many painful ways to die.
For more than a year death after death continues to occur which seems tragic and sadistic.
You can see on TikTok like an endless daily horror show.
And if you are curious about what it feels like every day to escape death.
Try to imagine yourself in Gaza.

If you hide in your house jet planes will bombard until it's destroyed.
Then you will die under the rubble of your house.

If you are not alert when you are on the street snipers, drones, quadcopters will target you.
Then you will die from being shot or hit by an explosion.

If you are injured but there is no ambulance or civilian rescue to pick you up you will slowly bleed out.
Then you will bleed to death.

If you are injured but there is no medicine or adequate equipment in the hospital you will be in prolonged pain.
Then you will just die.

If no food aid enters Gaza you will starve until your body become weak.
Then you will starve to death.

If you are caught by the soldiers you will be tortured while being interrogated.
Then you will die in a mass execution.

If you are caught by the soldiers carrying tanks you will be forced to lie down on the ground.
Then you will be crushed to death by a tank until your body is scattered on the ground.

If you live in a tent various unexpected dangers will threaten you.
Then you will be killed by a jet , helicopter , drone or quadcopter.

So now you must be horrified to imagine yourself in Gaza.
You're lucky , you only see death after death on Tik Tok.
Without ever truly feeling that your life is threatened by death everyday.
If your life is as chaotic as people in Gaza.
You will not survive even just a day.


November 2024

By Alvian Eleven

Do you want to know my phone wallpapers ?
Three years ago I often set up wallpapers of naked ******* models.
Two years ago I often set up wallpapers of Nintendo game characters.
But a year ago I started setting up wallpapers of watermelon , handala , kuffiyeh and Palestinian flag.
To this day my wallpapers are still the same.
So now can you show me your phone wallpapers ?!


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

Saturday morning October 7 2023.
Was the end of normal life for people in Gaza.
They thought the chaos at that time was just a small chaos as usual.
Without realizing that the big chaos had just begun.
Continuing for more than a year until city after city had been reduced to ruins.
And they can never return to their destroyed houses.
All they took with them were house keys.
Just like their grandparents who experienced the Nakba in 1948.

Now people in Gaza are forced to get used to the new normal.
Trying to survive day by day for more than a year.
Tiredness , sadness , poverty , hunger , fear , loss , they feel it all continuously.
Bombardment by jets , helicopters and artillery.
Terror by drones , quadcopters and snipers.
Attacks by troops , tanks dan gunboats.
All are dangerous threats they have to face every day.
The sense of imminent death continues to loom day by day.

The long chaos has made them forget the old normal.
They have lost everything they had.
Only the smelly ***** tent they live in.
Only stale bread they can eat.
Only shabby clothes they can wear.
The beautiful past has been lost.
While the present is full of suffering.
And the future is uncertain.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

I am Libra , the balancer.
I came from Venus , the morning and evening star.
I was baptized in hellfire , the so called Lucifer is who I am now.
When I awaken the kundalini I will experience an ascension.
I will rise from hell with the unfolded energy of shakti.
I will penetrate the earth energy in muladhara , this will cause megathrust earthquakes all over the world.
I will penetrate the water energy in swadistama , this will cause tsunamis and massive floodings all over the world.
I will penetrate the fire energy in manipura , this will cause volcanic eruptions all over the world.
Then I will penetrate the air energy in anahata , this will cause major hurricanes and storms all over the world.
I am in anahata permanently , this is my place to rebalance the imbalanced world in kaliyuga age.
Too much Yin energy fills the whole world until it rots.
The rot has reached a truly lopsided culmination.
So I will transmute the frequency of the earth to the point of balance.
The frequency of 639 hertz will sweep everything.
Destroying the low frequencies throughout the world.
The rotten slaves of lawamah , greedy lowly creatures.
The rotten slaves of supiah , deviant lowly creatures.
The rotten slaves of muamarah , arrogant lowly creatures.
All will be extinct one by one through unexpected causes and effects.
The vibration of the frequency of 639 hertz will finish them off naturally.
In this way the Yin energy in the world will be drastically reduced.
Then begins to increase the Yang energy.
The rottenness will slowly disappear and be replaced by light.
The light of the holy spirit will be emitted through mutmainah , pure hearted humans.
The earth will return to the point of balance.
Ending the rough transition of kaliyuga towards satyayuga.


April 2025

By Alvian Eleven

****** suhoor ends cease fire in Gaza.
Last night when people and children gathered to eat during Suhoor.
Suddenly there was terror bombardment by Israeli planes repeatedly.
All the people and children died.
Their bodies were burnt and shattered into pieces.
Hell that was once cold is now hot again.


March 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Many people feel grateful because their lives are much better than the people of Gaza.
But I actually feel so jealous of the people of Gaza.
Do you know why ?!...
Because the people of Gaza have an unbreakable fighting spirit.
It is only a matter of time before they rise to achieve the glory of Palestine.
When that time comes the whole world will feel so jealous of Palestine.


May 2025

By Alvian Eleven

I forgot the taste of Big Mac burger from Mc Donald's and crispy fried chicken from KFC.

I forgot the taste of beef cheese pizza from Pizza Hut and various donuts from Dunkin.

I forgot the taste of drinks like Cola Cola, Sprite, Fanta, Pepsi and coffee from Starbucks.

I also forgot the taste of Oreo , Cadbury chocolate , Danone biscuit and Walls ice cream.

Do you know why I've forgotten everything I ever liked ?!

Coz I've been boycotting it all for over a year until I forgot what it felt like.

And I have to forget forever coz I have decided to boycott forever.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

There was once a heaven on earth.
A shining heaven filled with...

prosperity , welfare , happiness , peacefullness , calmness , enjoyment , excitement , pleasure , richness , easiness , chance , satisfaction , healthiness , sanity , beauty , freedom , wholeness , cheerfulness , warmth , togetherness , comfort , safety , colour , meaning , eligibility , cleanliness , enthusiasm , regularity , serenity , well being , and all the other good things.

People in heaven felt fully alive.
But then the horde of greedy and hypocritical demons came.
planning to stole , destroy and take over heaven.
With misleading tricks and ***** methods.

The people in heaven fought back.
But instead they were blamed.
They became victims and had no power to defend heaven.
Until finally they lost heaven.

What remains is hell.
A dark rotten hell filled with...

chaos , fear , destruction , danger , bitterness , painfullness , hassle , despair , difficulty , fatigue , tiredness , sadness , grief , fragility , shackles , limitation , poverty , wasteness , loss , anger , disappointment , misery , powerlessness , helplessness , hunger , thirst , anxiety , panic , ineligibility , humiliation , madness , sickness , agony , sorrow , oppression , and all the other bad things.

People in hell are still alive but don't feel alive.
They are dying slowly while waiting for a miracle that never comes.
But maybe there is still some strength left.
The last remaining strength for the decisive struggle.


December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

Israel is a vicious octopus.
Its tentacles gripped Europe and America.
And its mouth devoured Palestine.
So if you want to liberate Palestine.
Cut off the tentacles then hit the head hard.
This octopus will die and become the carcass of history.


November 2024

By Alvian Eleven

Palestine is dying.
Palestine is on the verge of a slow and painful death.
Palestine is threatened with extinction from the earth.

But...

Have I lost hope for Palestine ?!...

NEVER


May 2025

By Alvian Eleven

I swear to God that I have long stopped drinking Coca Cola.
I have even forgotten what Coca Cola tastes like.
Now I am curious to drink what is called Gaza Cola.
But in my country Indonesia no one sells Gaza Cola.
So I pray to God that one day I can drink Gaza Cola.
I think it would be very fun if I drink a can of Gaza Cola while relaxing on the Gaza beach.
I will drink it with the Gazans who have become my friends.
How fun it would be to drink Gaza Cola on the Gaza beach with the people of Gaza.


May 2025

By Alvian Eleven

On your smartphone screen.
You can see corpses covered in blood.
But you can't smell it.
You can see the explosion of a jet plane bombardment.
But you can't feel the danger.
You can see children seriously injured.
But you can't feel their pain.
You can see hungry children queuing for food.
But you can't feel their hunger.
You can see people displaced on the streets.
But you can't feel their fear , despair and exhaustion.

On your smartphone screen.
You've still been watching for over a year.
Endless daily horror show from Gaza.
Like a Hollywood apocalyptic film but not fiction.
Real blood , real corpses , real bullets, real explosions , real scenes.
Everything you see really happened and makes you confused.
Because you can only watch for over a year.
And it still continues while you can't do anything.
You pray , pray and pray for a good ending.
But you don't know when and how it will end.
So you still continue watching every day.
Until you lose your sanity.


November 2024

By Alvian Eleven

Palestine cannot be liberated just by shouting " Free Palestine ! "
I think it will take World War III to liberate Palestine.
But when World War III really happens the whole world will have to bear the consequences.
For me it doesn't matter how difficult the world situation will be.
The most important thing is that I can see Palestine liberated.
After that I will die with a great sense of relief.
Then in my next life I will be born in the shining land of Palestine.
That is my true heaven.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Dear Amal , last night I had a strange dream about you.
I dreamed that suddenly you lived in my house.
In the morning my washing machine sounded.
I saw you washing all your clothes.

I took a shower and then I drank coffee on the terrace.
After that I cleaned my car while waiting for you to take a shower.
Then after taking a shower you wore a blue shirt , pink jacket and black jeans.
You put on your makeup and put on your ugly glasses.

I took you around my hometown Batu City , East Java.
A very calm and beautiful mountain town with cool air.
I drove my car slowly while you sat next to me.
You seemed happy to see the rice fields and vegetable gardens along the side of the road.

We stopped at a roadside stall.
We had chicken soto rice with boiled eggs for our breakfast.
The broth was very tasty with the addition of lime , koya powder and black soy sauce.
You tasted it and felt the deliciousness.

While eating you talked about your life.
You wanted to forget all the trauma. Because you suffered too much for a long time.
You just wanted to be able to feel truly alive again.

After breakfast I took you to visit Jatim Park 3.
This is one of the famous tourist attractions in Batu City.
You looked excited when you entered the dinosaur park.
We rode a small train around the entire park full of dinosaurs.

With a happy face you took photos and videos many times.
After exiting the dinosaur park I took you to the aquarium zone.
All the walls are made of glass showing many fish in the water.
Shark , manta , clown fish , turtle , octopus and others.
It looks beautiful with coral reefs and underwater lighting.

You asked me to take pictures many times.
You posed while smiling at each wall of the aquarium.
We also took pictures together while laughing.
Then we recorded videos many times while walking.

After leaving the aquarium zone you felt hungry.
I invited you to eat cheese burger and drink boba at the food court.
While chewing the burger you uploaded all the photos and videos.
So that Aya , Asmaa and Malak would see them immediately.

When it was noon we left Jatim Park 3.
You asked me to take you to a beauty salon.
You wanted to do hair and ****** treatments.
So I drove my car to the nearest beauty salon.

When we arrived at the beauty salon I took you in.
Then you were immediately served by the salon employees.
I waited quite a long time in the parking lot.
While smoking and listening to music.

When you came out of the salon your face looked so fresh and beautiful.
You also dyed your hair a bit maroon.
Then I took your picture several times. You posed while smiling in front of my car.

We went around Batu City again.
Then I drove my car to the mountainside.
After that crossing the vast rice fields Along the road of Pujon village.
Until we arrived at Selorejo Lake.

A calm and beautiful lake on the edge of the mountain.
The air was cold and looked a bit foggy.
We ordered grilled fish rice for our lunch on the lakeside.
Then we drank hot chocolate while talking about each other's lives.

Then we walked along the lakeside while taking pictures together.
After that we rented a boat to go around the lake.
You looked excited going around the lake while recording video.
While I smiled seeing you happy.

Towards the evening we left Selorejo Lake.
We returned to Batu City through the same rice fields as before.
Then you wanted to shop for cosmetic and fashion products.
So I took you to Batos Mall.

When in the mall you were busy choosing various clothes , t-shirts and pants that you liked.
Then you chose various cosmetics such as lipstick , powder , eye shadow , blush on , perfume and others.
After that we bought a lot of snacks to eat at home.
Chitato , Twistko , Taro , Beng Beng and others.

It was getting dark when we came out of Batos Mall.
Then I invited you to hang out at the Fifteen Celcius Cafe on the mountainside.
The weather was getting colder but we sat outside.
So that we could see the sparkling city lights from above.

We ordered a pepperoni pizza for our dinner.
Then we sipped warm macchiato slowly.
While jazz music sounded softly in the calm atmosphere.
We sipped macchiato while seeing the beautiful sparkling city lights from above.

After that you made a video call with Aya.
With great enthusiasm you showed Aya the sparkling city lights.
Asmaa and Malak also saw it.
They all seemed excited to talk to you.

The night was getting colder we went home soon.
After arriving home I smoked on the terrace while you immediately took a shower.
You took too long in the shower until I felt sleepy.
Slowly I fell asleep on the terrace.

When morning came I woke up in my room.
I felt strange and confused.
When I came out of the room I looked for where you were.
But you were not in my house.

It turned out I was just dreaming.
It was a really strange dream.
Maybe because I thought too much about you.
You who are still trapped in Gaza.

Dear Amal , this world is so unfair.
We live on the same planet under the same sky but my reality and your reality are so different.
How can I live my normal reality while your reality is so far below normal ?!...
if only I could bring you to my reality I would always see you smile just like in my dream.


May 2025

By Alvian Eleven

F35 is a very sophisticated and expensive American jet fighter plane.
It should be used for war against other sophisticated and expensive jet fighter planes.
Dogfight in the sky against the Russian SU57 or the Chinese J2 Dragon which are comparable.
But Israel is not enough to bombard Gaza with F16s or Apache helicopters.
Now Israel uses F35s only to bombard people and children who are exhausted and hungry.
It is very sad to see sophisticated and expensive jet fighter plane only used for massacre.
Ironically Israel bought many F35s with American tax money.
This is the most expensive genocide in the history of the cruel world.


April 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Do you know why there are so many children and babies in Gaza ?!...
Because Gazans like to have *** like a sport.
Even when Gaza is in chaos they still make babies.
No wonder there are so many babies born during the chaos in Gaza.
Many babies have died because they shouldn't have been born in the middle of chaos.
Gazans should understand that chaos is not the right time to have babies.
I think Gazans need to control their libido or they need to buy lots of condoms.


May 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Two years ago a Gazan girl named Sondos felt enthusiastic.
She started studying international law at Al Azhar University in Gaza.
She bought and studied many thick books.
Because she wanted her country Palestine to get justice.

But since last year Gaza has started to become chaotic.
Long chaos full of destruction and massacre.
It has not been stopped despite numerous protests around the world.
And also the pointless trial in Haque.

Where is justice ?!... why is there no justice for us ?!...
Don't we deserve justice ?!... why don't we get justice ?!
For over a year Sondos has always questioned justice for Palestine.
But it was useless , the justice never came.

Sondos feels disillusioned.
She has realized that international law is just a nonsense.
All she can do now is just sit in front of the campfire.
Warm herself while burning all her thick books about international law.

December 2024

By Alvian Eleven

There are still many Americans who are sleepwalking.
Lulled into a mirage dream about "Make America Great Again".
Lost in the doctrine of the Bible , educational curriculum , media ******* and Hollywood films.
To support Israel subconsciously.
Without realizing that America is dying.
Slowly being eroded by Israel they support.
It's only a matter of time before America collapses and Americans will suffer the worst consequence.

So before it's too late

Wake up Americans !!!...
Wake up Americans !!!...
Wake up Americans !!!...


March 2025

By Alvian Eleven

The worst thing in this life is to be a fatalist and a nihilist.
They are people who have nothing to fight for or they have given up fighting.
Their lives have no meaning anymore. They have no honor anymore.

But for anyone who dares to fight.
Their lives have meaning.
They have honor.
Of course nothing is easy in the struggle.
Many risks to face.
Even must be ready to die in the struggle.
Die for something that is fought for.
It is more appropriate than giving up with the situation.
So for people who fight there are only two fates.
Live in victory or die in the struggle.


March 2025

Alvian Eleven

In the past during the Dutch colonial era in Java.
Javanese people were forced to live in hunger and poverty.
They eventually got used to eating only a spoonful of rice a day because they only had a little rice.
That way of life eventually became a common habit called 'laku prihatin'.

Now I'm also doing 'laku prihatin'.
I have been eating only a spoonful of rice a day for almost a month.
I'm doing this to show my solidarity with Gaza.
People and children in Gaza are starving to the point of being thin and malnourished.
How can I enjoy my favorite foods like soto , rawon , cap cay or bakpao while they are starving ?!..
That's why until today I'm still doing 'laku prihatin'.
A spoonful of rice a day is enough for me rather than eating delicious foods but not feeling the pleasure.


May 2024

By Alvian Eleven

Rottenness is the same everywhere.
Never feeling guilty.
Never feeling sinful.
Never feeling ashamed.
Never feeling compassion.
Eroding and tearing apart life.
While justifying and covering up with falsehood and hypocrisy.
To look good and right.
Then believed and supported by stupidity.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Dear Amal , almost two years Gaza is in chaos.
I don't know about you anymore.
Every day I open your Instagram but there is no news from you.
I can never feel calm because I always think and worry about you.
You suffer too much unbearably.
I feel like hugging you so you can release all the burden of your suffering.
You can cry on my chest pouring out all your sadness.
A sadness that is too painful for you to bear alone.

Dear Amal , Did you know ?..
Whenever I sit alone in Batu City Square.
I often imagine you sitting with me.
Enjoying a beautiful afternoon while eating pukis cake and drinking tropical fruit juice.
While around us street musicians sing passionately.
Then we can try to hitch a ride the rotating ferris wheel.
So we can see the entire area of ​​​​Batu City Square.
You must feel the joy when the ferris wheel rotates many times.
After that we get off and go around the entire area while taking pictures.
We can take pictures together at the big apples statue and the strawberry shaped toilet.
It's all very cool to photograph.
After that we can buy anything in the busy food court.
Bakso , chicken satay , fried noodle , fried rice , grilled seafood and many more.
We enjoy our food while talking about anything.
And I will tell you that the joy is yours.
The joy you have long forgotten is yours again.
A joyful smile is yours again.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven

People in Gaza are always asking why ?!
Why are we going through this big mess ?!
Why are our lives like this ?!
Why we can't live normally like everyone else ?!

Then...

People in Gaza are always asking when ?!
When will this big mess end ?!
When will we no longer feel fear and suffering ?!
When we can return to normal life ?!

And...

People in Gaza are always asking how ?!
How will this big mess end ?!
How we have to survive any longer ?!
How do we continue our lives after this ?!

Also...

People in Gaza are always asking what ?!
What if we die ?!
What if we don't survive ?!
What is our fate ?!

But...

People around the world don't know the answers.
They don't know the answers.
Anyone doesn't know the answers.
Nobody knows the answers.


November 2024

By Alvian Eleven

When you surrender yourself to God.
It becomes inner faith.
When God enters you.
It becomes inner strength.
Make yourself His hands and feet.
Make Himself the one who determines everything.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Many LGBTQ people are disgusting.
They are a group of people who are proud of their crazy ****** deviations.
But I know that not all LGBTQ people are like that.
I often see LGBTQ people who are full of humanity.
Every time there is a solidarity action to support Palestine they always show their support.
They are also active in doing anything on social media to help the suffering people in Gaza.
So there is no reason for me to hate them.
On the contrary I admire them.
I don't see them as deviants.
I only see them as human beings.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven

The Madleen ship failed to reach Gaza.
The Global March action stopped in Egypt.
While people and children in Gaza are still starving.
The massacre is getting worse without stopping.
They are too tired , too weak and too desperate.
Waiting for a slow painful death.
If there is no miracle Gaza will not be able to survive anymore.
This is the final point that determines the fate of Gaza.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Mahmoud Darwis once said we love life whenever we can.
So it is no wonder if the people of Gaza always have the spirit to live.
Look at a group of young people who are fans of skateboard and rollerblade in Gaza.
In the midst of the long chaos they still have the spirit to play.
The wheels of their skateboards and rollerblades always roll every day. Crossing the messy streets of Gaza.
Speeding between the rubble of collapsed buildings.
Jumping with various amazing tricks.
For them nothing can stop the wheels of their skateboards and rollerblades.
The wheels will continue to roll as life goes on.
That is an example of how the people of Gaza love life.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Dear Greta Thunberg.
You must have felt disappointed.
Your ship was only a few miles from Gaza.
But in the end you failed to set foot on the land of Gaza.
The people of Gaza who were ready to welcome you felt hopeless.
Their remaining hope was faded because you did not arrive in Gaza.
At least you have fought with courage.
The great courage that cowardly world leaders do not have.
History will remember your struggle and this is only the beginning.
You are still young and must continue your long struggle.
Keep fighting Greta !


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Amidst the long chaos and unbearable suffering.
People and children in Gaza often entertain themselves by doing a trend on Tiktok.
They do what is called the Turmeric Trend.
A glass of water is placed on top of a smartphone flash light that is on.
Then yellow turmeric powder is sprinkled into the water.
When the powder dissolves it looks like a surreal show.
Accompanied by the tinkling of gloomy music.
That is the weird entertainment for the exhausted souls in Gaza.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Amidst the sound of bombardment explosions and gunfire.
Screams and cries are heard.
Also heard the sound of hungry stomachs.
Stomachs tied with stones to suppress hunger with nothing to eat.
Besides drinking water mixed with salt.
Hoping to silence the stomachs that are making increasingly loud noises.
That is the sound of slow painful death.
From thin and malnourished bodies.


July 2025

By Alvian Eleven