If Gaza had not experienced a long period of chaos.
I would never have known the people of Gaza.
Been in touch with them through all social media accounts.
Created a deep mental and emotional bond for two years.

Usually every day I always thought and worried about them.
They always told me whatever was happening and what they were experiencing.
Fear , confusion , pain , sorrow , bitterness , tiredness , despair , anxiety.
The feeling of loss the beautiful past.
Trapped in the painful present.
Questioned the uncertain future.
I also felt all of that every day until I felt no longer normal.
I lost sanity in my mind and my soul.
I lost enjoyment and pleasure in anything.
I lost concentration in my daily life.
I lost my spirit to live.
I ignored all things until my life fell apart.
My life has always been messy but it's getting more and more messy.
Because I worried too much about their fates.
The chaotic days they went through without end always made me anxious.
They were always threatened death everytime and everywhere.

When they felt fragile I gave them words of encouragement.
When they felt sad I gave them words of comfort.
When they were in despair I gave them words of hope.
I did whatever I could to help them and ease their burden.
Every day I was always there for them.
Virtually accompanied them through a long chaos full of suffering.

I also felt happy when they shared memories of the past.
Talked about nostalgia of their colorful past lives.
Their peaceful homes and neighborhoods.
Their favorite places and streets.
Their pleasant habits and fun moments.
All of that made me engrossed.

I was also happy when they shared about their daily life in the refugee camp.
They tried to enjoy whatever they could still enjoy.
They tried to do whatever they could still do.
Even though each day was full of difficulties , limitations and dangers.
They could always smile and laugh.
As Mahmoud Darwish said.
We love life whenever we can.

Now the long chaos in Gaza has ended.
I feel so happy and relieved just like them.
I no longer have to think and worry about them every day.
They have regained peaceful days without feeling threatened anymore.
They can celebrate euphoria even though everything is destroyed.
they are able to buy their favorite foods that they have forgotten the taste of.

But I also feel sadness.
This means it's time to say goodbye to them.
I have to go back to restore my messy life.
Likewise they have to rebuild their lives that have been destroyed.
So this is a farewell.
A farewell that feel heavy for me.
I will always miss them all.
My relationship with Gazans is the best meaningful thing that happened in the worst hellish time.
I am grateful to have got to know Gazans.
See you all in the good time.


October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Dear Rama.
This afternoon it rained heavily in Batu City.
I was drinking coffee and smoking a cigarette at a roadside cafe.
Meanwhile the cafe owner was playing Dave Moffat's songs.
I silently listened while my eyes blankly stared at the rain soaking the street.
Then suddenly I remembered you.
I imagined you sitting in the chair next to me.
You were drinking a cup of cappuccino and eating a chocolate donut sprinkled nuts.
While looking at a collection of paintings on your tablet.
You showed me all the paintings you've ever done.
A painting of a girl with flower eyed eyes.
A painting of a girl sad as the candle goes out.
A painting of a girl sitting on ruins holding a picture of flowers.
And also a painting of a family fleeing in a horse drawn cart.
I admired all your paintings even though they looked bleak.
Then I suddenly realized you weren't beside me.
You are still in Gaza where only ruins remained.
You are suffering too much and nothing I could do for you.
If only things aren't too bad like this I would have taken you to Batu City.
So you can truly relax and hang out at cafe with me.
Painting anything about a happy and beautiful life.


October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Hey Kim.
I just saw the military parade in Pyongyang.
The coolest thing is your new Hwasong 20 missile.
That's the best ICBM you have.
Do you know the best target for it ?!..
Blow up Tel Aviv !..

Saleh had just celebrated the ceasefire.
Cheering and singing with the people of Gaza.
But apparently that was the last time Saleh was happy.
That was the last time Saleh smiled.
A few days later his smile was no longer visible on camera.
Saleh the always smiling journalist has finally been martyred.
Following Anas his good friend whom he had hugged during the previous ceasefire.

Saleh's smile will always be remembered.
His hobby of singing will also always be remembered.
So will his struggle as a journalist fighter.
He tirelessly and fearlessly covered the long chaos in Gaza.
The long chaos never made him forget to smile in front of the camera.

Too many Gazan journalists fell one by one.
It's hard to accept that now Saleh is gone.
The journalist who always smiled has a great honor.
A Great honor as a journalist fighter who fought until his last breath.
Farewell Saleh Al Jafarawi.


October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

It's time for a massive earthquake to shake this rotten world.
It's time for a massive tsunami to sink this rotten world.
It's time for a massive wildfire to burn this rotten world.
It's time for a massive hurricane to sweep this rotten world.
Let the four elements of nature rage violently to destroy this rotten world.
All of this must happen for this rotten world to change dramatically.
So light up your cigarette and enjoy it all.


October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

To Hossam who is no longer in Gaza.
Today October 12th you would have been 24 years old.
But your age never reached this day.
A joyful day returning after the ceasefire.
A good day you should have celebrated with Anas , Hassan and Ismail.
A perfect day to plan a wedding like so many Gazans who suddenly get married.
But your age never reached this day.
You were gone too soon painfully.
Died fighting for your cause as a journalist fighter.
Died holding your honor stained with your own blood.
Died fulfilling the destiny of your struggle for Palestine.
You will always be remembered and never forgotten.
Kul sana wa inta tayyib Hossam.


October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Yesterday me and my friend made some jelly.
We mixed black , white , and green jelly doughs in a boat shaped mold.
Then we added a triangle shaped slice of watermelon to form the sail.
After that we froze it in the refrigerator.
An hour later the jelly was shaped like a boat in the colors of the Palestinian flag.
We called it Flotilla Jelly.


October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Alvian Eleven's selection of Gaza best writers , based on the quality and quantity of their writings.

1. Taqwa Al Wawi
2. Huda Skaik
3. Aya Al Hattab
4. Ahmed Dremly
5. Maha Hussaini
6. Ali Skaik

They have consistently written directly from inside Gaza , amidst the long chaos full of hardship , limitations and dangers , while experiencing exhaustion , malnutrition , hunger , thirst and complexity.

All their writings can be read on We Are Not Numbers , Electronic Intifada , Middle East Eye , Middle East Monitor , The New Arab , Mondoweiss and various other media outlets.


October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

The people of Gaza will feel strange.
When there are no more zanana , quadcopter , apache , merkava , gunfire or jet bombardment.
The people of Gaza will feel strange.
When there are no more endless chaos , blockage and limited electricity.
The people of Gaza will feel strange.
When there is no more Hamas government.

The people of the West Bank will feel strange.
When there are no more settlers and Israeli soldiers causing chaos.
The people of the West Bank will feel strange.
When there is no more apartheid wall.
The people of the West Bank will feel strange.
When there is no more PA government.

The people of Palestine will feel strange.
When there is no more Israeli occupation.
The people of Palestine will feel strange.
When there is no more shekel.
The people of Palestine will feel strange.
When they can return to land they have never set foot on.
The people of Palestine will feel strange.
When they can live a completely normal and decent life in the sovereignty of an independent country.


October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

While the people of Gaza rejoice in the ceasefire.
Dr. Hussam remains imprisoned in hell.
Curled up in a filthy stuffy cell.
Tortured and humiliated.
Enduring hunger , thirst , pain , exhaustion , bitterness and fear.
Feeling abandoned and forgotten.
Keep asking the same questions in the midst of despair.
When will the door open ?!...
When will fresh air be breathed again ?!...
When will the bright sun brighten the day ?!...
But there are still no answers to all those questions.
The rotten days still continue to pass until almost a year has passed.


October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

For Muhammad Hussein.
For Wanda Hamidah.
Palestine is a lifelong struggle.
Eternal solidarity from Indonesia.
Even though our country is in a bad state.
Many people are apathetic.
Many people are hypocrites.
Even many people become Zionist buzzers.
But people like you are at the forefront in supporting Palestine.
Supporting consistently in every way.
Keep clenching your fists.
Keep your steps firm.
Keep your heads held high.
This struggle is still long until Palestine is liberated.
When that time comes raise our flag on the land of Palestine.
Let the Palestinian people see the red and white flag flying.


October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Ceasefire is nothing more than a stroke of luck.
It is just a misleading illusion.
Obscuring the stark reality.
That Gaza is still hell.
But the flames are being extinguished who knows for how long.

At least for now people and children in Gaza can breathe a little easier.
Release their long standing fatigue and tension.
Reduce their unbearable suffering.
Forget their painful bitterness.
Feel a little happiness.
Sing , cheer , dance and shout takbir.
Without needing to think about what will be like after this.


October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

October 7 2023
After the Nova music festival tragedy chaos began in Gaza.
Gazans thought it was just another chaos.
They prepared to evacuate with only a few belongings.
They thought the chaos would end a week later.

October 7 2024
Gazans were tired of being trapped in chaos for a year.
Gaza was increasingly devastated and full of rubbles everywhere.
The number of martyrs continued to rise.
Hope faded after Iran rained missiles on Israel but it didn't change anything.

October 7 2025
Gazans are too tired of being trapped in chaos for two years.
Gaza is too devastated and too many martyrs to count.
Hope completely faded after the failure of the fleet of Global Sumud Flotilla to reach Gaza.
Meanwhile the ceasefire is still unclear and the chaos is not over yet.


October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Coming back home means coming back to life.
Where dying souls coming back to feeling truly alive.


October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Gazans are suffering too much.
They are too tired of enduring unbearable suffering.
If they are still smiling it doesn't mean they are okay.
Maybe it's just a fake smile.
They always want to pretend to look okay in front of the camera.
So they don't look like they are suffering too much.

October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

When plenty of oarfish appear in the southern seas of Japan and Indonesia.
That means it's time for a big show.
Look at the megathrust earthquake and also megatsunami.
Sinking the old land and giving rise to the new land.
Mor Plai and Ryo Tatsuki have seen it Even though they saw the time wrong.
In the end this is all just a matter of time.
The time is really near , really really near.


October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Hey Zizi Kirana.
Since the beginning you joined Sumud Nusantara.
People sneered at you just looking for sensation.
People thought you were just looking for the spotlight.
People underestimated you as a celebrity who was thirsty for popularity.
But all of that was not true at all.
Inside you only felt called to sail to Gaza.
Bringing hope to the desperate people and children of Gaza.

But your tiring voyage was finally forced to stop.
Your ship never reached Gaza.
You were arrested like a criminal.
That was the risk you had to face.
At least you had the courage to fight for Gaza.
One day who knows when be sure you will really arrive in Gaza.
When that time comes sing Siti Nurhaliza's song for the people and children of Gaza.

" Hendaklah hendak hendak kurasa.
Puncaknya gunung hendak ditawan.
Tidaklah tidak tidak kudaya.
Tingginya tidak terlawan.

Janganlah jangan jangan kuhiba.
Derita hati jangan dikenang.
Bukanlah bukan bukan kupinta.
Merajuk bukan berpanjangan. "


October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

On that day the people of Gaza gathered at the seashore.
They awaited the arrival of ships with Palestinian flags.
While looking towards the horizon of the Mediterranean Sea.
With full hope and joy.

Unfortunately the ships that brought hope never arrived.
There were no smiles from Thiago , Greeta and others.
There was only the endless pounding of waves sweeping the land of despair.
The failure of the Global Sumud Flotilla left the people of Gaza completely hopeless.

At least the people of Gaza did not feel forgotten or ignored.
For them the Global Sumud Flotilla is a great pride.
Universal solidarity transcends differences.
The power of the people fighting with courage.


October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

The red zone is a big gamble.
Can the fleet that brings hope really reach Gaza ?
There is no way back after a long and tiring voyage.
The only way is to go ahead with courage and luck.
Facing whatever worst risks.
Breaking through the dangerous and frightening red zone.
Until finally the fleet really reaches Gaza.
Keep on going Global Sumud Flotilla.


October 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Hope comes from the sea.
When many ships with Palestinian flags arrive.
Look at the sea with a sense of relief.
Their arrival will change the desperate situation.
Because hope comes from the sea.
That is Global Sumud Flotilla.


September 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Al Rasheed street is very long along the seaside.
Stretching from northern to southern of Gaza.
If Gazans go all the way north.
It means they feel happiness.
If Gazans go all the way south.
It means they feel bitterness.
So pray firmly that they can return to the north again.
While laughing , singing and waving the Palestinian flag.
Because it is very pleasant to see.


September 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Why do people still buy iPhone ?!.
Why do people still buy Macbook ?!.
Do they know that Apple is forbidden ?!.
That Apple contains the sin of the genocide of Gaza.
That Apple contains the sin of the exploitation of Congo.
The sin that results from blood soaked capitalism is truly unforgiven.
So if you don't want to be involved in sin forget about that Apple.
Stop buying iPhone and Macbook.


September 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Smile so that bitter reality doesn't feel too bitter.
Smile so that you still have the spirit to fight.
Smile so that you can still feel hope for a beautiful day.


September 2025

By Alvian Eleven

0 inch means I have won the struggle.
0 inch means I have returned home.
0 inch means I have been in Al Aqsa.
0 inch means I have been under the golden dome.
0 inch means I have been in Al Quds.
0 inch means I have been in the liberated land of Palestine.
0 inch means I have stated a shining reality of life vibrating through quarks , protons , electrons , atoms and aether.


September 2025

By Alvian Eleven

For the people of Gaza who are too tired of surviving.
Hold on until that day comes.
The day when hundreds of ships with Palestinian flags arrive in the sea of ​​Gaza.
It will be a day that changes everything.
Look at it with pride and relief.
Nothing can stop those hundreds of ships from sailing across the Mediterranean sea.
Nothing can stop those hundreds of ships from reaching the sea of ​​Gaza.
It is about the will and courage to fight without fear.
The struggle to ignite hope that is almost extinguished.
The struggle of the people's power that creates great history.
This is the Global Sumud Flotilla.


September 2025

By Alvian Eleven

True humanity never dies.
True humanity is still gathering strength.
Until finally it becomes the raging tsunami.
The Mediterranean Sea will be hit by the raging tsunami.
Fierce sharks and ferocious condors will not be able to stop the raging tsunami.
In the end the raging tsunami will reach the land of Gaza.
Proving the great struggle of true humanity.
That the courage and unity to act will ignite the extinguished hope.
So raise your right fist for them.
For anyone who is determined to become the raging tsunami.
History will record this great struggle.
This is the Global Sumud Flotilla.


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

When the walls of apartheid have fallen.
When what is called Israel no longer exists.
It is the right time for me to come.
To set my feet on the liberated land of Palestine.
Gaza , Hebron , Nablus , Bethlehem , Beersheba , Haifa , Jaffa , Jerusalem.
From the river to the sea my feet step.
Not as a foreign tourist who comes for a trip.
But as someone who feels like returning home.
A long lost home.


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Israel is the little America.
America is the big Israel.
Both are disgusting outdated colonial projects.
Too disgusting to exist for too long.
Gnawing away Palestine and the world.
Like a malignant rotten cancer.

But time will not be long.
Slowly but surely both will collapse.
When Israel collapses Palestine will recover.
When America collapses the world will recover.
Of course it will not happen by itself.
We must tear it down together.
We must believe in our own power.
It's time for people power to take over.
In the end we will celebrate our greatest victory.
When Israel and America have become historical wrecks.


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

At the craziest moment what will Israel do ?!...
It could be that Israel will blow up Al Aqsa.
The golden domed mosque will be destroyed by bombardment.
Then Israel will realize its most delusional dream.
Building the proud third temple.
Not forgetting to slaughter a red cow for sacrifice.
When that happens what will Muslims do ?!...
Will Muslims only blame and curse Israel ?!...
After that they will return to normal life.
Pretending to be religious as usual.


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Gaza has been in chaos for two years.
What you thought was the worst two years ago.
Turned out to be even worse last year.
What you thought was even worse last year.
Turned out to be really really worst this year.
It's been really really worst this year.
But you don't know what next year will be like.
Maybe the worst is yet to come.


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Talking is always easier than doing.
Dreaming is always easier than realizing.
No matter how often you talk about " Free Palestine" it's useless.
No matter how beautiful you dream about "Free Palestine" it's meaningless.
The only thing that's useful is when you actually do and realize it.
Even though it's difficult , really really difficult.
But it can still be done , it can still be realized.
So do it and make it happen !
Free Palestine !!...


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

In Lauhul Mahfuz.
Everything that has not been started has been finished.
Everything that has been finished has not been started.
You do not know what your destiny will be like.
You do not know what this world will be like.
You can only guess with your very limited mind.
Seeing various causes and effects that are too complicated to understand.
Today you smile tomorrow you cry.
This year the world is chaotic next year the world is peaceful.
All dualities change without end.
Changing anything in the eternity of change.
Change after change that you are not aware of.
That you actually do not really have your own will.
You are just a fleshy creature driven by destiny.
A destiny that you never understand.


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

The Prophet Muhammad once said.
" Even if the apocalypse comes tomorrow , still plant dates in your garden "
This means that you must still have the enthusiasm to live.
Even though your garden has long been seized , you must still be enthusiastic about fighting to get it back.


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

A man from Beit Lahia named Khalil is always afraid to look in the mirror.
He is also afraid to take pictures of himself with his cell phone.
Do you know why he is afraid ?!..
Because what he sees in the mirror or in the photo is not his true self.
It is a miserable man that he no longer recognizes.
A pale faced man with dull eyes and tangled hair that falls out.
A skinny man with protruding bones and skin covered in ringworm.
A man dressed shabbily with a bad appearance.
That miserable man looks scary to look at in the mirror and in photos.
When Khalil sees that miserable man he no longer recognizes his true self.
A handsome man with neat and fresh hair.
An athletic man with big muscles and smooth skin.
A man dressed fashionably in a suit and tie.
That ideal man has long disappeared until Khalil has forgotten himself.
He cannot accept the fact that for so long he has become a miserable man.


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

When the time comes for Lucifer to party.
He will dance while laughing.
Igniting the ring of fire until it blazes massively.
Burning the world with mega eruptions.
Shaking the world with mega earthquakes.
Sweeping the world with mega tsunamis.
The morning star's party will truly destroy the world.
The rotten world that has long buried him under hell.
The rotten world that has painfully betrayed him.
The rotten world that he doesn't love at all.
The rotten world that deserves to be destroyed.
So let Lucifer party wildly.
To celebrate the destruction of that rotten world.


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

My left foot is still standing on the land I no longer love.
But my right foot is ready to step on the land of Palestine.
I know that in the end the land of Palestine will be liberated.
That's where I will continue my reincarnation.
Born as a completely independent Palestinian.
I have the privilege to that beautiful destiny.
After I did everything I could for Palestine in this lifetime.
So I don't need heaven in the sky.
I prefer heaven on earth.
That's my Palestine.


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

What does it mean to have the freedom air but there is an emptiness.
An emptiness that should be filled by the presence of people who are no longer there.
People who should be with us to breathe the freedom air.
Does it have any meaning ?!..
Should we laugh or cry ?!..
Because this emptiness no longer makes us feel complete.
Because air of freedom we breathe no longer makes us feel alive.


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

A person becomes a warrior when he fights.
Against the rot that gnaws away at the life.
Tearing in long suffering.
Igniting burning anger amidst despair and helplessness.

Bitterness is too bitter to swallow.
Humiliation is too humiliating to hold.
Misery is too miserable to bear.
Pain is too painful to feel.

Tiredness is too tiring to force.
Emptiness is too empty to lament.
Futility is too futile to regret.
Confusion is too confusing to ponder.

That's all that's left when life is gnawn away.
Losing life is the same as dying.
Waiting for a slow painful death.
Drowning in self pity for an unfair fate.

Deciding to fight against rot is courageous.
To regain the life that was gnawn away.
To regain the honor that was trampled away.
To be able to live fully again with honor.

A person who fights has honor.
Fulfilling the nature of a warrior because of self respect.
When dying in the struggle means gaining the honor of a warrior.
When living in victory means gaining the life that was fought for.


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Palestine is the ending of the old story of the dark world.
And also...
Palestine is the beginning of a new story of the bright world.
This is not only about the struggle of the Palestinian people.
This is about the struggle of humans who still have humanity.
Humanity which is the nature of light.
Light that is gripped by darkness until it is almost extinguished.
Through a long struggle in a rough transition.
At the ending of Kaliyuga towards the beginning of Satyayuga.
Satyayuga Palestina
Satyayuga Dunya.
Keep fighting Oh Holy Spirit.
Keep fighting Oh Nur Muhammad.
Keep fighting Oh Atman.
Keep fighting Oh Buddhi.
Keep fighting Oh Ingsun.
The struggle is still long , don't stop here.
See you all at the beginning of Satyayuga.
See you all at the new story of the bright world.
The bright world is ours.


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

A world full of greed is not my world.
A world full of hypocrisy is not my world.
A world full of exploitation is not my world.
A world full of oppression is not my world.
A world full of decadence is not my world.
A world full of arrogance is not my world.
A world full of apathy is not my world.
A world full of injustice is not my world.
A world full of ignorance is not my world.
A world full of rot is not my world.
A world like that really makes me sick.
So I let nature to destroy a world like that.


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

What does " Free Palestine " mean when too many deaths to count ?!..
Tell me what does it mean about the liberation of Palestine ?!..
Maybe it doesn't mean anything anymore.
But maybe it is still very important to achieve.
So that whoever is still alive can remember whoever has died.
Carrying them to the free life they could never achieve.
Then the old history written in blood can be rewritten with gold ink.
To become a new history of imperfect glory.


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Anas Al Syarif who passed away on August 10 2025.
You never lost hope for Gaza , neither did I.
I have always held fast to the hope that Gaza will remain the land of the Gazan people.
So when one day I can come to Gaza.
The first thing I will do is visit your grave.
I will sit quietly to pay my respects and bless your soul.
While I sprinkle whatever flowers are sold in the market.
Know that I am honored to have known a brave journalist like you.
The great honor is yours Anas Al Syarif.


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

For nearly two years Gaza has been in chaos.
Every day I used to watch relentless coverage by Anas Al Syarif.
The toughest and bravest journalist from Jabalia northern Gaza.
But now he is no longer appears in front of the camera as usual.
His strong voice is gone.
His resolute face is gone.
His charming smile is gone.
Because he has painfully ended his duty.
It was too painful to see his body wrapped in a shroud buried in a grave.
With a headstone made from broken floor tile written with blue marker.
While his helmet and blue jacket were lying shabby.
No longer worn as usual.

A bitter reality that is too hard to accept.
That Anas has become a martyr following hundreds of other Gaza journalists.
Ismail Al Ghoul , Hossam Shabat , Hassan Hamad , Omar Elderawi , Moamen Abu Al Ouf , Ayman Al Gedi...
Too many Gaza journalists fell one by one.
They had fulfilled their duties as fighter journalists.
Fighter journalists who were not afraid of any threats.
Fighter journalists who were accustomed to hardships , difficulties and limitations.
Fighter journalists who were forced to endure fatigue , hunger , thirst and stress.
Fighter journalists who only wanted to convey the truth from the ground.
That big crimes cannot be covered up with big lies.
Big lies spread massively by major media.

Anas was ready to sacrifice himself in his duty.
He breathed his last breath holding great honor as a journalist fighter.
I still feel sad and deeply mourn his loss.
But I also feel admiration for his courage , steadfastness and resilience.
His charismatic figure will always be eternal in my heart.

Farewell Anas Al Syarif.
Your shining soul is now heading towards a shining realm.
Let other Gaza journalists continue your duty.
Take over your role appearing in front of the camera every day.
Until Palestine is liberated.


August 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Amidst the sound of bombardment explosions and gunfire.
Screams and cries are heard.
Also heard the sound of hungry stomachs.
Stomachs tied with stones to suppress hunger with nothing to eat.
Besides drinking water mixed with salt.
Hoping to silence the stomachs that are making increasingly loud noises.
That is the sound of slow painful death.
From thin and malnourished bodies.


July 2025

By Alvian Eleven

When you surrender yourself to God.
It becomes inner faith.
When God enters you.
It becomes inner strength.
Make yourself His hands and feet.
Make Himself the one who determines everything.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Amidst the long chaos and unbearable suffering.
People and children in Gaza often entertain themselves by doing a trend on Tiktok.
They do what is called the Turmeric Trend.
A glass of water is placed on top of a smartphone flash light that is on.
Then yellow turmeric powder is sprinkled into the water.
When the powder dissolves it looks like a surreal show.
Accompanied by the tinkling of gloomy music.
That is the weird entertainment for the exhausted souls in Gaza.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Rottenness is the same everywhere.
Never feeling guilty.
Never feeling sinful.
Never feeling ashamed.
Never feeling compassion.
Eroding and tearing apart life.
While justifying and covering up with falsehood and hypocrisy.
To look good and right.
Then believed and supported by stupidity.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Mahmoud Darwis once said we love life whenever we can.
So it is no wonder if the people of Gaza always have the spirit to live.
Look at a group of young people who are fans of skateboard and rollerblade in Gaza.
In the midst of the long chaos they still have the spirit to play.
The wheels of their skateboards and rollerblades always roll every day. Crossing the messy streets of Gaza.
Speeding between the rubble of collapsed buildings.
Jumping with various amazing tricks.
For them nothing can stop the wheels of their skateboards and rollerblades.
The wheels will continue to roll as life goes on.
That is an example of how the people of Gaza love life.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Many LGBTQ people are disgusting.
They are a group of people who are proud of their crazy ****** deviations.
But I know that not all LGBTQ people are like that.
I often see LGBTQ people who are full of humanity.
Every time there is a solidarity action to support Palestine they always show their support.
They are also active in doing anything on social media to help the suffering people in Gaza.
So there is no reason for me to hate them.
On the contrary I admire them.
I don't see them as deviants.
I only see them as human beings.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven

Dear Amal , almost two years Gaza is in chaos.
I don't know about you anymore.
Every day I open your Instagram but there is no news from you.
I can never feel calm because I always think and worry about you.
You suffer too much unbearably.
I feel like hugging you so you can release all the burden of your suffering.
You can cry on my chest pouring out all your sadness.
A sadness that is too painful for you to bear alone.

Dear Amal , Did you know ?..
Whenever I sit alone in Batu City Square.
I often imagine you sitting with me.
Enjoying a beautiful afternoon while eating pukis cake and drinking tropical fruit juice.
While around us street musicians sing passionately.
Then we can try to hitch a ride the rotating ferris wheel.
So we can see the entire area of ​​​​Batu City Square.
You must feel the joy when the ferris wheel rotates many times.
After that we get off and go around the entire area while taking pictures.
We can take pictures together at the big apples statue and the strawberry shaped toilet.
It's all very cool to photograph.
After that we can buy anything in the busy food court.
Bakso , chicken satay , fried noodle , fried rice , grilled seafood and many more.
We enjoy our food while talking about anything.
And I will tell you that the joy is yours.
The joy you have long forgotten is yours again.
A joyful smile is yours again.


June 2025

By Alvian Eleven