Here comes she who once left,
So close and near but with no presence felt!
Is it a ghost?Oh dear no!She's just a memory
If you believe me so.

So cold that it burns my skin!
So painful, so harsh and it really stings!
It cuts and it pierces but it's not a sword!
Your mouth and your words so full of thorns!

We hate to love of what we hate
It's written down all over our face
Do you truly feel good when you get away with feat
But remember you're just a liar and a cheat!

Here's something new you should try it too!
Do we always follow a strong current but of a waterfall
Or a gentle current that's just slowly and eternally flow
Some are just mere puppet like an arrow from a bow!

This is a riddle in a poetry,
With words of truth and controversy
It may not be that strong but you will surely know
Life is just a game for some just a show!

Life itself is a one sweet lie
When death becomes a bitter truth the moment you die;
The mystery behind the endless masquerade
Unveils with the incision of bodies lined up for a parade;
Of souls waltzing and wailing at the melody of gaea
Bidding goodbyes for a holy departure in a new world euthopia;
A new beginning to write and live a tragedy inked with sins
The world never was a wonderland for the broken,trapped in misery with suffering and pain in every scene

I saw the tears fell down from Danah's eyes
And it hurts so bad that I am about to die;
To see you fall and break as you were left behind
All the memories you shared turns to black and white.

And I never wanted to leave
I'm the only one that makes you breathe;
When you're suffocated by the lies he brought you
But you shut your eyes not to see the truth;
Cheated by the games he played with you
When he says "I love you"
But here I am never had the chance to say that so I do..That so I do

I tried to catch the tears as they fall down
But it came down fast that it crush the ground;
I can feel the pain inside, deep inside your heart
And it reminds you of the scars of the past.

And I never wanted to leave
I am the only one that makes you sleep tonight..
Don't get tired of loving, don't lose your hope never back down
There's always a way to make the same the way you felt before...

Here I lie facing up the ceiling,
Time has passed me by and still ticking;
I remembered telling myself that it's all over,
That the pain is all gone back when I was sober.

Picking up the pieces of this broken glass.
That I punched that evening where our goodbye's seems the last;
You never had a good reason, but it's all different that night...
Wished you could have told me sooner, we could have avoided the fight.

Where did I go wrong? I kept asking all these years.
Of course there is always something that causing the steers
If I could just turn back time and listened to all your fears
Then there is no need for us to keep holding off our tears.

I never cried literally... But inside I'm flooded with regrets
It's something that a man can do while trying to forget.
Drinking the cheapest bottle of wine just to get his day over;
Breeze through the pain, just to realize tomorrow is another cower.

Hearts, glass, memories and all the things that shatters...
How can one patch up the pain? To completely feel better.
Just like a thousand little stars across the open desert,
All the pieces that are waiting to be whole to be revert.

Questions are asked and it takes two to answer,
Maybe it's time for me to say a little prayer;
Once again here I lie trying to make it all better
Handling with care, all the things that shatters...

I open my umbrella when I am indoor;
As I break mirrors
I spill salt on sore;
While walking under ladders..
I let black cats pass me by
I write 3 for a tragedy;
As 666 spokes the life out of me..
I go out on fridays when the date strikes 13
I have been having bad luck ever since I was 15...

Join me in death, come now and follow
Only then we can finally walk the path of the hallow
Honoring the life, of what we've left behind
Never before forgotten, the memories painted in our minds

At last we came to finally understand,
Like footsteps we'll remain printed in the sand
Vanishing by waves when it hits the shore
Intended to be, washing up who we were before
Now what are your beliefs? have you ever tasted deceit?

Ask yourself now...
Rather than to follow...
Rethink to remember that you,
Unwillingly surrendered
Everything that you lived for
Just to escape how you've lost your faith
Only to know it's too far gone, It's far too late...

When you are not around, I'll look for you
And when you are found I'll snuggle close to you
I'll peck your pouting lips
I'll hold you tight like this
I'll carry you around my back
When your feet's hurting bad
When you are feeling sick, I will tend to you
And when you're feeling cold, I'll be the blanket just for you
I'll bring you water to obey your thirst
I'll be the best among the rest
I'll be the fill when you're feeling lack
Turn your frown around when you're feeling sad

Silence has been so long
No words to say that wasn't wrong
I only wanted express my self
But the gravity wasn't doing much help

I clinched my fist way too many times
Gritting teeth, I breathe and calm my mind
Then I loosen up and move along
My self control has became so strong

I lost my temper, cursing with my vile tongue
All them cruelty have been said and so my rage could be gone
But deep inside even when words have said and done
This war between us have only just begun

Piercing eyes I'm mesmerized!
Petrified now I'm cold as Ice!
Cursed for life turning to a stone!
Medusa's gaze prepare to meet your doom!

Alluring the beauty she betrays my mind!
I'm shaking I'm hopeless facing the end of my time!
No way of escape! And it's all too late!
This is the end I'm pouring out my faith!!!

She coiled in like a serpent!She smells like death!!
Devouring my will till' I run out of breath!
Here now I stand here where I fall!!!
This statue is my grave my coffin and my tomb!!!

Glare and stare!Smirk and sneer!x8

Love is like an oil painting when it gets old it dries and the memories preserved in the craquelure.

In a place where love begun;
Where time has finally gave birth to the sun
The fire that illuminates the darkest night;
Reflected by the moon..A glowing light

In a place where the stars seats and rest;
A wonderful scene at night wishing for the best
In an empty bucket, we drink and drown;
With the pain of knowing we can never be found

Fall forward to a million light-years away;
Where your consciousness drifts while your body stay
Imagining the vast universe within your palm's reach;
A dream-scape for the weary minds when a soul weakens slowly being leeched

Give some and take some a balance for the loathsome;
That will never happen in the case of the lonesome
When one feels living means just to slowly die;
Evaporates like water, a sorrowful rain as they cry

I give no answers I ask no questions;
I seek for the truth with my own explorations
I bleed out hope I breathe in faith;
To survive a life of a never ending hate

A glass has been offered to you half empty half full;
You drowned yourself with fame in order to be whole
But with greed you were lost in the depths of the abyss;
A self inflicted misery with no control, your former self will be missed.

You sang a song you wrote based on life and new beginnings;
From what we heard you did lived life like there are no endings
Suddenly you lose your will to move on chosen apathy as a death wish;
You were given opportunities, good life handed down on a dish.

What made you think to just let life float fast away?;
have you got tired of what you're doing and not wanting to stay?
In the eyes of the many you were idolized, loved all your lies;
While you burn all your fortune in order to roll a dice.

Too little time to understand what's in your mind;
You are here to be known not to be undermined
Slice me up some of your skin let me feel your pain;
I promise you I will try my best to keep you sane.

Perhaps we are exactly the same...I mean you and I;
So what's the point of this meeting right? Why ask why?
You wear a mask while you're in the crowd selling lies;
I seat here talk, wearing a mask just to understand what's behind your eyes.

Meteors are soaring down!Devastating those on the ground;
Creating craters of tragedy burying mankind's history;
The world we know will soon decay along with the thoughts we have today;
But why worry?Why be sad?Everything's going to be okay...

I admit it was all too much! The end of days and all those kinds of crap!
Like ***** are flying,heads are rolling,sky's falling where time just stop!
The dead are rising, The horsemen are coming, People are dying!
But why worry?Why be sad?Everything's going to be okay...

So friends what are your points of view?Please would you kindly share?;
The strongest typhoon stroked Philippines, how many of you shown their care?
Was it just the beginning of the coming end?Or to make us once again unite;
So why worry?Aren't you glad?Everything's going to be alright...

How can we tell if it's all over?What is a new beginning?What is a new world order?
Would you rather prefer to just blindly walk?Ask no further questions restrain yourself to talk.
A revelation will soon be unfold!The end is nigh!The judgement of our days;
So why worry?Keep the faith!Everything's going to be okay...

I am tripping on a corner watching the whole world spin;
As I wrap myself with smoke, the suicidal taste of nicotine
When boredom strikes casting me my final moment of doom;
Eventually I realize things are redundant as I lock myself in this room

What a beautiful way to live life only to feel you're dying;
So shut the hell up my friend!Stop preaching we both know you're lying
Bearing the cross, carrying the weight of the world on my shoulder;
Holy mother of christ it gets worst as I get older...

My dreams turns to a living nightmare everyday I hang my ambition to this gallows;
I sentence me to death!Taking away my existence so the rest will follow
Never before I contemplate what's with the issues I'm having I gladly surrender;
In the cold embrace of death in the name of thy father, the son and the holy spirit may I shall be remembered

With your every touch left me paralyzed
Oh baby I wish could see the world through your eyes;If loving you is a gamble rolling a pair of dice then I'll raise the stakes till' my luck runs out and dies;But knowing the fact that for a moment I had you is something that I always woke up to like deja vu;I'll start all over again roam the world to get to you coz' your an addiction a habit that I will never break through

There's gotta be a price to pay for the fame I'm drowning in my head
There's gotta be a better place for me to rest dragging this coffin as my bed
Well death's knocking on my door I'm begging him for more just a little more
And he's slowly takes my soul before I have it all before I take my fall

There's gotta be a better way to escape my fate I'm running out of time
There's gotta be a better place for my soul to rest I'm paying all my crimes
Well hell is taking now my soul I'm losing my control as I weakly crawl
The fire's burning well my skin tortures me within I am just an empty hole

God save me!I'm sorry!Forgive me!
What have become of me?It's too late to be free!
God save me!I'm sorry!Forgive me!
I'm far away from heaven!Hell is where I meant to be!

I used to walk the broad daylight
Without the hunger I suffice every night
This addiction to **** for a moment to live
Has become my curse without a remorse to give

I didn't ask for this, something called as an abomination
Never thought I would become something out of a imagination
Life to me where once so simple now all's bizarre and uncanny
I circle and walk the night causing terror and horror as my reality

You may all be wondering how a man turns to a creature of the fallen
When did I became something that I am not?How did it happen?
It started 400 years ago when I fell in love with a beautiful countess
Her name's still haunts me Elizabeth Bathory the midnight huntress

Even the most radiant rose in appearance in the end shows their true color when they wither
She is dark merciless and vile when dusk falls she saps life like plants in need of water
One night as I walk along the shore of castle cachtice unaware of her being
I saw her standing there like wine in a glass being offered to quench a man's thirst and craving

I came to her like a hungry wolf, only to realize I am the sheep under a butcher's hook
I stare just to witness what fear looks like, as death bites a way in my vision blurred and blood was took
I woke up the next day only to be reminded that it wasn't just a nightmare
I soon then stop the struggle and feed my first **** and became a heir

I couldn't speak the tale of all the endless slaughter till' the day she was immured
I am being kept secret in the dark not knowing of my existence for centuries the curse I endured
An ending to a nightmare has finally came to pass with the death of the queen of the ******
But a new story of terror has began the hunting the feeding the killing where I myself couldn't stand

And so here I am all dressed in black
A false assumption of bringing Gothic back
Along with a band of angst-ridden youth
Marching down the aisle of a never ending dispute
Among the rivalry of heroes rise a villain who held the root
That life is a one big lie and death is a very painful truth
So with our souls entwine along with love and hatred
Will the bond break between us?And who's blood to bleed?
You wore the crown far too long enough to be dethrone
Let me be the next king after I'm done with you picking bones
One has to suffer and clearly my time is done, I'm blowing the horns
So hail to your kingdom ruling over wearing the crown of thorns

Living each day like you're already dead;
Is like always waking up on the wrong side of the bed
Perhaps it is how it feels to others, to some;
But unlike me I've been waking up empty, next to none.

Breathe in, Breathe out is what I always tell myself;
Trying to conquer death is like living without a shell
Any moment your vulnerability will be invaded by emptiness;
Too busy to find something to do with too much nothingness.

How empty a soul can be without the will to move forward?
Always holding unto memories you can't go back..Things you can't have
Come to think of it..Is it really not possible to just die and relive existent?
Like we can just opt out and respawn if we feel that the pain is consistent.

So shallow I know to think like that when out of your mind;
Hey! You can't blame a person to ponder when life left them behind
One can think of many things when in sorrow, all that is farfetch;
Yet..It still true that trying is better rather than succumb yourself to death.

I lost myself when you broke my heart
This ******* is like a poison right from the start
Yet I drink in the fountain of your lies and deception
Just to quench the thirst, to set our love in motion?
Insanity maybe, Perhaps it's how it is.
If I could stay happy I choose ignorance as my bliss
Just to shut my eyes from seeing you falling away
You wanted another man, and left no other reason to stay
I made this letter for myself, To remind me of you
That there's no one else made me feel the way you do
So long and goodbye I hope you die
and along with you buried a lie

Imagine a life not grey, not black
Imagine the sun sharing it's rays.
Imagine the ocean, not flipping it's waves.
Imagine the times we'd be astray.
Imagine the way,I'd make you stay.
Imagine a night, we are together
Imagine a love, we’ll share forever
Imagine me, and you making believe it’s true
Imagine a light, that guides us through
Imagine a path, that leads me back to you

Why choose sadness while you cower in the dark?
Where you can walk your life with happiness and stand in the light?
Why choose sorrow while you cry shattering your heart?
Where you can smile with joy and face a brand new start?

Why close the door while locking your self inside?
Where you can open your heart and invite someone in?
Why shut your eyes while life leaves you blind?
Where you can open your mind while love keeps you kind?

Why keep asking why? while you can ask how?
How can you change your ways and be better now.
Remember that tomorrow never ends and so is the sorrow;
When you keep holding onto it, keep in mind that happiness cannot just be borrow.

So start thinking of how and what can you do to make you feel better;
Not to keep drowning yourself with misery and pain just to feel sicker.
For one never will feel satisfy themselves with self inflicted tragedy;
It only makes you worst! Loving the doom you cast upon yourself for eternity...

I thought about dreaming while
I'm awake;To separate the truth from what is fake;I turned emptiness from pond to lake;I said I'll stop the hurt for heaven's sake!
If this is my hell?My reality is a one big lie;
Circling for 24 hours a day, trying to sleep with just one eye;
Saving myself from freefalling up an empty sky;Just to find a meaning for life before I die!
I am a poet!I believe my words will echo in silence;Like dropping bombs to the ears of the deft with extreme violence!!
I am not in rage I simply trying to wake up;from being trapped in a nightmare every midnight when it's pass three and a half!!My muse is overwhelmed by my demons while weighing on my shoulder;Where I stood up lifeless in the middle of my room, hoping the next day will be better..
And so here I share my thoughts of self inflicted tragedy;Inked with every sorrowful bliss,pain and misery

There is something in your eyes
That makes it hard to say goodbye
But I can’t stay and breathe your lies
You used to always speak the truth
When apologies has been misused
Now our love have been denied

It’s time for us to say goodbye
So many times we failed to try
This love can never be revive
It’s finally time to close our doors
We can’t feel us anymore
A part of me just died

Love long gone x 4

Heavy heart's weighing us down
breathing in misery pain and in tragedy
crash and burn we both fell down
up from the sky and into the ground

The 11th of December 2013 that date is today,
Something about the sequence made me ponder away;
What could be the meaning of the numerical order?
So I seek answer read threads and find answers through google.

So it is the final sequential event for another 90 years...
So lets celebrate maybe get married and burst out with happy tears;
It's just numbers now really, in sequence every 90 years, what's the big deal?
It's just another event a human mind creates to talk and believe to offer life a thrill.

So whatever this day means we just live our life like we used to and forget all worries,
For hope never a day fades with faith and will like a fortress, life is a one big numerical series,
Every day is like a test, a survival, a wonder that everyone walks through since the day we born
That each day is crypted with trials ready to overcome and decode, a gift to be unwrap and to be torn...

"We may cower in the dark"
"But in the light we stand"
"In the end, it's just all about the balance"
"That we all must accept and understand"

I think I'm in love with your poetry...
I can feel me all shaky as I breathe heavily!
My heart is pumping thrice than it should normally;
Hey I'm not on drugs! I wish I were so I don't have to worry...

Hurting myself again, like if it's already a thousand times!
It's exaggerated I know! But it's how my feelings define.
Let me slow down a bit, and think it all through;
Is there even a definition to what I'm feeling?Could it be true?

It's funny that this feeling never gets old! Repeatedly told!
Perhaps it's us being human with so much faith to hold...
There's nothing better than the sweet warm embrace of love.
The only thing, the best I've ever had.

So lets go back from what I'm feeling for you;
Help me a bit, tell me what to do? Well... That's something new!
It's not that I can't or won't be able to do a thing...
Just say a little assurance that this will not all end up for nothing.

Oh!Wait!But of course risk is involve!
It's not like your on display and waiting to be sold.
I must make myself worthy, make you feel the same thing that I do
A cliche that all lover should go through.

Oh crap I ran out of words to say!!!
Maybe it's meant to be so I can just do it anyway!
So my love! Will you spare a little time?
Or tell me now are you willing to be mine?

Brothers and sisters! Have you known no remorse?!
For the sins we have done, don't you want to be atoned?
No fear of judgement and what's about to come;
The unworthiness of salvation where no man would have gone!

Don't be proud of your pride! To think that you're in control;
Of the wheels of your fate, that along the way you will pay no toll!
For every actions bear a consequence in this world, you thought you knew it all!
That kind of thinking, that you gave life that kind of meaning will empty your soul!

Perhaps I'm wrong! Judging most of you through your beliefs!
Who am I to advice?I've never been to heaven nor hell's grip!
So go on dig deeper and explore!Exploit life's meaning of what you bore!
The end justifies the means! You reap what you saw the fruit of your labor!

But when the sky darkens, no one knows what will happen;
It's not ordinary like we are used to, preparing for something;
Together great tragedy will be fall!
For some just another natural disaster, a course of nature...

It was all written! The four horsemen's descent!
Will come clearing the land with great laments!
Pestilence, War, Famine and Death will ride out together!
White, red, black and pale! Here they come! Behold! Beware!

The coming of the lord along with the descent!
A sign of salvation, judgement, and eliminates;
The vile evil that sits upon this earth that corrupts the beauty!
A battle between light and dark, determines the fate of humanity...

You sinked your teeth deep within my skin
You left me here dying, lying down bleeding
Our memories reminds me of my sins
Buried with regrets locked up in a coffin
You woke me up with a cold touch from your lips
The warmness is long gone, love grown cold and stiff
What have we become? a monster of our own?
Chasing ghosts devouring bliss as lies goes on
Between us is a broken mirror with so many reflections
Where none of it are real, a keleidoscope of lies and deceptions
Proving our feelings as plastic fake, a masquerade
With betrayal as our companion marching our parade
Our last waltz as we dance in this treacherous symphony
The melody goes on till' then end, and for eternity

Why so lame and Phony?Dull and Lonely?
Maybe this is what it does when love hurts me
Why so depressed and weary?Stressed and lazy?
Maybe this is what it does when love betrays me
Why so sad and gloomy?Lost and empty?
So this is what it does when love leaves me

Why does the sun have to be so bright? for the moon to look so pale
Why does the sky have to be so high? As you lay down on the grass and stare
At the faces and shapes it makes as it revolves around our heads
Someday we'll be so tall enough to get us anywhere

Raise it up raise it up throw your hands up in the air
Feel the air beneath your arms let the wind blows to take you there
Let your heart let your heart make believe that you'll get there someday
Like a dandelion heading to where your dreams belong

Why does the earth seems to revolve so fast? I got me riding on a carousel
Why does my mind seems off today? Girl you got me daydreaming again
The times I get to see you, hold you like your mine is an answered prayer
Someday we'll be together and that will go on forever

Look above look above lets watch the fireworks up in the air
Feel my arms across your shoulder let this moment take us there
Close your eyes close your eyes let this kiss mean a thousand words
It's our closest to forever so lets just stay like this together

Hide hide little child hide,
The sky is dark yet it's still five.
Hurry now!Rain is about to pour!
Followed by thunder with it's beastly roar.

Flashing lights are about to blind your eyes,
you know what may happen when the lightning strikes!
So hurry now and find a safe place,
as your fear makes your heart beat raise!

Soon my child it will all be over,
you will no longer need to shiver.
Hold your hands and calm your mind,
tell yourself that you'll be fine.

The sky is clear you can now breathe freely,
cast out your fears and all  that makes you worry!
Just remember that when the lightning strikes!
find yourself a place to hide...

There's a way back home to bring myself to you
There's a way I know to finally be with you
There's a place I'll be when I failed to come to see
There's a face I'll see cause you're always here with me

There's a note I wrote of how I am missing you;

And I know, it is hard to find a way back in your arms
When you know that you're already with someone
And I am not the one x2

Hello, Goodbye To you x4

Would you be my lil angel when I die
to guide me and show me the world once lied
to me when I said that I wanted to live a normal life
Would you be my lil cutthroat kiss
To let me know that I'm still having this
nightmare of living alone what a waste of life

I think that everybody knows, what I've said but never what I did
But God knows that I'm holding on stayed standing on my feet
So stop pretending you cared when you just stood there and stared
I think that everybody shows, a flickering light a false sense of hope
But I know that it won't work I've been that road so many times I think
So stop pretending you heard, me called your name well I never did

I'm going 150 miles I'm ******* drunk I'm unstable
My vision blurred can't see a ****! and and I'm unable
To control my breathing heavy feet on the gas
Horns wailing headlights flashing I think I'm going to crash
God?He doesn't have the time to listen to me now
So I'll just have to recite my own eulogy as a vow
That when I get straight to hell I'll make sure to be bad
Cause this life you gave me is the worst I've ever had

I never thought that I would be
Someone that you wanted to see
Under the cherry blossom tree
Together alone just you and me

I know you were always the one
With a warmth that burns like the sun
Turns cold when you were gone
I regret everything that I've done

Now with this moment we took
Back the feelings we've  overlooked
Just like one of those story in a book
Our love are again tangled in a hook

With another chance for us to share
I will love you with so much care
From now on I will always be there
With a broken promises to repair

The symphony of the night... Can you hear it?
Come dear lets waltz with the rhythm as your heart beats...
Face to face we dance round and round,
Eye to eye we stare and silence became a sound...

I can feel it... The pounding on your chest;
As you breathe slowly enjoying this moment...
Perhaps it's your last, no one will ever know,
What's behind this mask, just a bit more I will show...

(Palpitate!Yes let your blood rush through your veins!)
I promise your warm blood will not be in vain!
I can't restrain myself! Shall I rip her throat now?!
Let the gashing begin breaking the vow!

The music is at its intense part,
The notes it rise and fall like the beat of your heart,
Matching the moment as it come to an end!
I apologize dear for in my hands you must suffer hell...

Sorry love for you must quench my thirst!
No point in screaming! And please wipe off your tears!
It turns out our love to be a ****** romance.
It all ends with a bite, halting our last dance...

In this city where night kills the day;
Everyone's out there and parties all the way;
With boozes and music that is so loud;
Carries the soul and passion of all that is in the crowd.

In this city where night kills the day;
The dawn never breaks the city where I lay;
It's like a world that revolves in reverse;
Only the difference is no one takes it as a curse.

In this city where night kills the day;
People work's late and sleep all day;
There is really no explanation, to what is going on anyway;
It comes so natural that people get used to day by day;

In this city where night kills the day;
My inspiration precedes all the things to say;
Never a dull moment for me as my poetry overwhelms;
All the feelings I set aside, watching the day pass through the seams..

In this city where night kills the day;
All your worries will simply go away;
Getting used to stress is a way to survive;
Oh what a great way this city does just to make people feel alive.

You took the air from off my lungs
Gasping and heaving, blood stops to run
Veins tightening, fainting fade to black
Waking from the otherside, struggling to go back
With just one lie, it ended just like that
Why'd I believe in you? Surrendering my heart
You ripped it from the inside, like a newborn child
Coming out the womb, with hatred so wild
What I'd ever done to deserve me like this
We can start all over just hug me with a kiss
You took the world from off my eyes
And now I'm not afraid in exchanging goodbyes
With all regrets,mistakes and lies
Taking them all to the grave when the moment dies

"there is no purity in light or dark but we can make a difference which to weigh most.."

A sweet sound touches my ears
Deep in my heart, out from my skin
An echo that reverberates in my head
Out from my mouth, inking this pen
An empty paper filled with words
Nothing is said just a "Dear" and your name
An envelope to hold my letter and carry this
To you where you are, sealed with a kiss..

As she sit on a chair, wondering why the moon looks so pale
As it sits in the sky, with a glowing light to share;
She thought about a thousand stars doing the same
While her feelings of sadness drips down with the rain
Oh how could it be, she said "what am I to the world?"
"If a line is strong enough then I'll scream to be heard"
Her heartbeat's raising holding so much emotions
And her lips are shaking, a silent expressions
Trapped inside,a thousand words waiting to let go
Breaking the silence was harder than she knows

You left no more sorrows
The shadow of the day will be suffered tomorrow

You bleed it out,Given up as you are powerless
With hands held high leave out all the rest

The Tinfoil burning In the skies as you burn it down the castle of glass

One step closer in breaking the habit,the final masquerade
Meteora the catalyst Iridescent the heavy pain cause nobody is listening

From the inside lost in the echo wating for the end to come
The little things give you away easier to run

In pieces until It's gone no roads left
Blackbird the messenger mark the graves

We are guilty all the same crawling till we faint hit the floor
Run away in the forgotten wastelands a line in the sand

With keys to the kingdom with a good goodbye
Sharp edges papercut halfway right as he say sorry for now in the end

https://soundcloud.com/john-les-phoenix/never-fade-away

https://soundcloud.com/john-les-phoenix/loves-resentment

I used to be a man with a pride and a gun;
I used to be that person who is always having fun;
I used to be a star!An actor! A very famous one;
Now everything have changed...Everything's gone.

I used to be happy with a wife and a son;
I used to be that person who is always feel grand;
I used to feel limitless like the whole world's mine;
Now I felt so empty like life just left me behind.

Here I am counting my sins! Confessing my crimes;
I never thought I can say a prayer, that I can change overtime;
So what's the point?when things have said and done?
Now that I am broken, so lost, with no clue where to stand.

I am trying to realize something in life while facing the sun;
When did I become so cold?While once again trying to feel warm;
All the answers are there from the very beginning yet undermined;
Now that I'm played by my self-righteous pride, now I have regrets inside my mind.

Empty,Broken and played is what I am today and may still be the next day;
But who's to blame but myself!Now even flies and rats wouldn't want to stay;
Once again I want to try to get back what once mine, but now as a better soul and a better man!
Lessons learned in life! Time to walk a new one! I really just wanna spent my whole life with my wife and my son.

I am a hollow and cast no shadow;
And loneliness became my only tomorrow
With no happiness and time to borrow;
Empty as can be overflowing with sorrow...

My soul is bound to suffer;
Trapped in the dark only to cower
No intervention just constant desolation;
I have my own world in complete isolation...

Screams can no longer be heard by my ears;
As whispers echo in my head a cycle that steers
I can no longer define the meaning of life, why am I here?
Do I even exist and for what cause' or purpose? What do I fear?

I question answers to ask myself as I've been told the truth;
What can I possibly gain? Which kind of torment can bare a fruit?
There's gotta be more than this?What of my existence breathing in void?;
This could be a living damnation one that cannot be questioned...Is this God's choice?...

When will I ever see the light? Am I even trying? While I stay up all night;
Thinking and pondering how I get this far? What have I done to suffer blight?
Questions I asked myself in an endless cycle, a redundant process I walked through lines of blasphemy daily;
There's no complexity in this...A living Nightmare and misery..

You broke me down again and again and again
But I won't back down...
Like I'll never get used from being abused
It's okay I'll never look down
So where's the sound you made when you are around around my head
I can't sleep at night without you on my bed..
Time goes back down to one and I am missing you
Another sleepness night without the me and you
Another cold coffee and the lights are dimming low
So hit me one more time with a bolt of blue
And maybe this time around, I'll see you in a different view

I am falling up while you're breaking down
I am tearing down what we've both built
I am sheltering us from your storm
We both failed to grasp, A new hate is born

In this hands is a broken home of shattered glass
Tattered memories, a recollection of the past
No hope of recreating what is already destroyed
But I kept holding on, my palms bleed out what are stored
Remember the beauty in what now is ugly
A horrible mess from once that is pretty
Put a little faith on those profound beliefs
That there is a way to patch, a heart to keep
Stop hanging by a thread, stitch them back up with your daily bread
Let it shine out from the darkest night
Be your own star, a sun with the brightest light
A warm embrace may be as simple as it look
If you love each other you know you read her/him like a book
So here I hold, so here I keep the broken glass
A reflection of mistakes this shattered past