Resuscitate our dead memories only just to die again;
Waking from a deep slumber, Staring out the window pane;
Counting hours, how long can I endure the need to restrain?;
Nothing have changed I should just get back to sleep again.

The sun rises slowly as it burns my pale tainted skin;
It just felt so good just to feel pain! For so long I've been so keen;
I grew weak in my dreams when I'm asleep, the thoughts of you makes me sick!
It's not that you vexes me, It's because of what I did to you that worries me;

Never before I have felt so sensitive within this lifeless body...
Lived only by drinking blood! To be confined in this coffin just to feel lonely!
And then you came... The one I thought who restrained the beast in me;
The one who gave warmth not burning me, calmed my soulless fury.

But we must all know that the nature has its way of breaking;
Something that is beautiful, Something profound! A new beginning...
And so it came to that point where I fed on her! left her dying!
Perhaps it was all meant to be for a while just to forget the craving...

I'm a killer, a monster! An abomination to this world!
But I can't take my life...Believe me I tried!
I bathed under the sun turn to ashes and died!
Only to know that when darkness falls I'll be revived...

I must make a choice... It fancies me just having this thoughts right now;
What could I possibly do?If the beast within is the one who contains me and how?
It seems like a personal attraction just to add some satisfaction as I reach for the ****;
A little drama, show some masked humanity, make them live a little just to quench the thrill!

I have glared, I have grinned, I have laughed and I have seduced...
As I get closer for my teeth to sink in, let loose, let the hunger reduced;
But after the feed do I feel remorse? For hours I thought I did...
It's been like that through all the years... Feels redundant indeed.

So how far will this story goes? For centuries I have pondered in circles.
I have been there the evolution, the changes, the life as it cycles.
And again...Here and now as I stand where once I become capable staring at the sun;
I will forget the unforgettable, sail away! Far away from this land...

Remember my story as it will never end;
I'm finding a way now to break free from this curse;
To be one with my prey walk free no more blood to quench thirst;
So long and goodbye from me Dracula...
Serenity is what I seek...A redemption of what they speak.

Eid reven nac taht eno... Latrommi ma I
Thgil eht gniruoved... Ssenkrad eht ma I
Edisni lived eht, sraef ruoy... Eramthgin ruoy ma I
Thgin yreve peels ot og uoy nehw, luos ruoy gnilaetS

Mrah yna morf uoy stcetorp taht eno... Ruoivas eht ma I
Nus lanrete eht ekil gninrub... Tghil eht ma I
Dnal esimorp eht ot egdirb a... Ediug ruoy ma I
Dnah efas ni er'uoy erus gnikam, Peels ouy sa ouy gnidrauG

Erif lanrefni eht em ni eveileb... Lived eht ma I
Erised uoy lla gnitnarg ni em etivni, eman ym maercS
Thgif ew lived eht rof htaif yb deneprahs thgil fo drows a...Legna na ma I
Thgink gninihs a, rotcetorp ruoy em otnu llac ythgimla eht fo rewop eht htiW

One may contemplate, doubting their faith,
For some reason with a little suffering they started to hate;
Easily clouded their minds with deception and lies!
That's what devils do before plotting your demise...

One may keep holding on, no matter what is thrown;
For they believe in the almighty, and the coming salvation;
A walk through hell, a test of their own will and faith
For never a moment the devil tried blinding their sight

We are our own angels and devils
With free will we live a life with choices
A path through darkness where the devil lies
A stairway to heaven where the almighty shines

You need a mirror to talk to your self
Ask something that you will not regret
What kind of person soon you'll become
A soldier of God or an army of satan...

Into the sunlight burning my pale tainted skin I fall;
Out from the darkness I lived where I walk before I crawl
I'm a being no man can describe yet I am marked as a horror;
I meant no harm but this is how I live a cycle causing' terror

Understanding my nature is like a puzzle picture a piece is always missing;
Dig deeper and you will find the answers right before your neck, blood will start gashing
Never will I myself will ever understand why am I brought to this world and for what purpose?;
For the balance perhaps? That we all must accept that light and darkness never coexist and that what truth has exposed...

Sacrifice what a noble suffering one can offer for love and devotion;
What I do now, will it set the order for safety and to create a new world in motion?
I doubt one can even notice or even give credit to my self righteous suicide;
I'm a fool to even care so much that I am ready to give my life for violence to subside...

Maybe I am just tired living in the shadows creeping in the night to feed;
I envy men for their freedom that I even often ask what's the difference they also live in greed
Why must I care so much for their safety?I am living the life I am offered so are they;
But why am I feared the most for their violence is worst yet I am the only one known as a monster...

Too late to ponder more, I made my choice so long and goodbye I bid farewell;
It is a good day to die funny it's the first time I see the sunlight and touched my skin burning them well;
Blood is boiling like acid tearing my bones melting as I feel pain as I scream;
Freedom it is this the end of me to the earth I return as ashes filling an urn to the brim.

So weak I couldn't stand on my feet
So I crawled hastily to escape my defeat
But remember I will stand back up to redeem honour
For my heart's filled with passion and undying valour

I layed down my weapons for a moment not to retreat or surrender
But to focus and breathe that winning and to live is life's only reminder
That once cut down by your enemies and your head as their trophy
You won't get to walk another chance in this arena..My friend believe me

And so with mind set to war, a man to man duel to the death
A battle of one man, one fight, one right to determine the fate
No hesitation no holds barred win the crowd for the victor takes it all
This is the warrior's way in a fight the path of a gladiator

If this is heaven... Please send me back to hell;
What I've done here to no one I will never tell
The goodness I've become is impossible after the deadly seven;
I was worst than the devil himself ever since I reached the age of eleven.

Why must I wish to be back where evilness only what I know to do?
Perhaps it's because I am someone when I was me and I belong only to the few
But I must also know that there's a time in my life where I prayed to a sleeping God;
I never knew my parents name in an orphanage I grew up and loneliness was the best company I had...

Now that I am old waiting for my final hours writing down all my sins keeping a note of goodness;
Although that note is empty perhaps it's because I doubted if what I've done are purity and sweetness...
I am now on my knees confessing, for the last 70 years of madness and angered soul;
Where I were hoping each day that God let out a lightning to strike me and have it all.

I remembered ******, clear as the tears now that falls down my cheeks;
That crashes down while my heart wails for forgiveness my lips don't move but my mind speaks
All of the crimes I've committed in cold blood, freezing my heart to feel no guilt as I smirk and grin;
I even dared the almighty to save that man's life while I gently squeeze the trigger,bullet pierces his chin...

I cannot recall more of those memories it makes me weep and finally feel the guilt;
I am still breathing yet I know I am already burning in hell my soul can feel the heat
All I ever do now,I'll say it again is waiting for my coming end while never a moment pass I've prayed;
And hope this diary will be read by God just in case, I fall to my death and in hell my soul decay...

I live in a land of three stars and a sun
The pearl of the orient, surrounded with sands
A country for years have been independent
Back from the invasions, where history's ancient

With a government tainted with corruption and greed
The beauty has been stripped off leaving our country to bleed
Suffering from apathy, puberty and dread
The people's revolting for their cries never heard

Looking at the Brightside, it is the people that is ugly
Staining the pride of the country with deeds that are unpretty
Beyond that, the pearl still shines with all its glory
That someday will be known for its natural beauty

I am a man who live in a land of three stars and a sun
Red, white, blue and yellow designed the flag of my clan
I'll wave it with valor, the courage for the right I've done
With love and honor here I am born and die where I stand

From the depths of hell
Where I slowly fell
A deal made with the devil
As I started tossing pennies in a well

But the angels came and broke my fall
Saved me from sinking, down this hellhole
The life I sold is more precious than gold
That my friend is what I saw,life is now more clearer and bold

But after all upon throwing them all
Before the saving and breaking of my fall
I drowned in fame,money and ***
for 7 years I ruled the world as it rise to an apex

But then downfall and recollection came tormenting my soul
Hellhounds came gnarling,scratching and waiting at my bedroom door
Regrets starts falling alone with my tears as I prayed for salvation
Never thought God listened, As the angels descent ended my damnation

The devil is a salesman and you're a valued costumer
Starts thinking 7 times before you go and starts to barter
For your soul is more precious than what you think you'll be having
God gave me a second chance never thought my soul is worth saving

I scream and sing while I do my thing
With my guitar I let the shredding begin
To go with the rhythm I bang my head
With the noise I make, I'll be waking the dead. Yeaahh!

Swirling like the leave that falls
My music's sweet its rock n roll
With my lyrics, I'm getting in your head
Oh baby tonight meet me on your bed. Whoah!

I'll make your world, jumps up and down
Until we both go deeper underground
Exchanging body heat with our melody
Oh baby tonight don't you feel so pretty? Ahhhh!!

I'm a rockstar baby come and sing along
I'm a drifter yeah! I'm a rolling stone
We sing a song, we come and go
We soar so high and then we go down low...oooohhh!

Decapitate, disembowel, tear and mutilate!
Schizophrenic!Psychedelic twisted mind!
Expedite, liberate, Alienate then recreate
Masonic!Prolific piece of mind!

Sabotage, besiege, flank to infiltrate!
Victorious!Strategic tyrannic mind!
Crucify, liquify, impale bleed them dry!
Torturous!Barbaric, sadistic mind!

Derange, insane, crazy and mental!
Hallucinating!Polysyllabic demented mind!
Disturbed, diabolic, vile and fatal!
Parasitic!Infected infested mind!

Welcome to my nightmare of monstrosity,
A view, deep within a person's atrocity.
We live in a world where evil dethrones,
All what is left where light once shone.

From the depths, once we dreamed...
Now we crawl hiding from the beast within,
Through the infernal flames, we walked
Out from the darkness, once we thought.

It's endless and so it seems!
The suffering won't just die from within,
It rages through like blazing fire,
Devouring all of you and your desires.

What makes a nightmare? What makes it real?
Perhaps you're not dreaming? Maybe it's how it seems?
Waking up hoping for a difference,
Then forcing oneself to sleep
Just to pretend, to try escaping it!

With the absence of illusion one may suffer, not  knowing the truth!
Does it matter now? When you're consumed and left nothing to lose.
Just go on live your life! Or just end it! Enough design your demise!
Hiding, Cowering in the dark! Just to know you're all alone...

A living nightmare worst than when you're asleep,
No point of escaping either way you will face defeat.
For it is you who won't let go! Addicted with the affliction!
For you feed your demons with fears and desolation!

We strike when it's dark,
And we will rip your neck.
We sneak in the shadow,
We will strangle you to death.

We are one, too much to handle,
We will mutilate you, armed with a blade and a sickle.
We are the wind that blows silently,
We are ninjas that kills stealthily.

You can run as far as you can,
We will shred you to pieces with our  shurikens.
Don't breathe too hard we can hear your heart beats,
Our katana will pierce through your heart till' it no longer beats.

We have the heart of an assassin,
We live shredding blood of those who are unworthy.
We cleanse the world of the cunning corruptionist,
**** one, save a thousand! We are sworn to **** as cold as can be.

Are we lost? Or are we just fine?
Hold me close tell me where to find
You when I feel like falling out of reach
In a dream maybe where you are standing by the beach
Covered in sand this castle of ours
I dream of you always and it goes on for hours
I don't wanna wake up if it means losing you
I will gladly make that, just tell me and I'll do
Your eyes are blue with a kaleidoscope of colours in different hue
I am so not gonna move from here cause I am enjoying the view
A reflection of me and you and a world we created on our own
There's no place like home in your arms where I belong

"Sun and moon unites
          Offering a brand new light"
                          World in black and white"

"He dodges the blade"
      "Tis' but a scratch, he murmured
                  "Kneels down, Blood pours out"

Oh what a happy life! And it can all end with a cut from this knife;
Slice up a skin decorated with tattoos of halos,stars and stripes.
Only to know that tonight will be the last, and we are fading fast;
To our final resting place we will be, to our grave returning to dust.

Oh what a demented mind! Trying to feel your pain like it was mine;
Carrying the weight of the world on my shoulder which gets heavier overtime.
Just to pass and breeze through the day I swallowed the bitter pills of sorrow;
Then again live just to see the light of day fade my routine wasn't that hard to follow.

Tonight I must make a difference, put an end to this madness that I created;
Pray to a god who is deaf and blind too many times already that I felt rejected.
But does it really make any difference? If I let myself fall to this life ending decision;
With this blade so sharp and shiny, I will be glad to commence a perfect incision.

Layer by layer, flesh to bones! It cuts deep right through with no pain at all;
Just the sound of silence and dripping blood counting minutes before I fall.
Too late to save myself now I'm almost there! I can feel that cold embrace as death touches me;
So empty yet so free the feeling I have in this dark place of desolation, with nothing else to see.

No doors to open, no more air to breathe! Yet I am still me no changes just alone am I happy?;
What is this feeling of contentment that finally I found my place...No more holes finally..
That self righteous suicide that ends me to become me saved me yet somehow I felt unworthy;
Now in this place I must stay in the dark, alone and empty and not to suffer more for eternity.

Freefalling in the depths of dreams
Searching for the love you'll bring
When I find you, I will never let go
And when I wake up it's something I will stow

With your sparkling eyes, I see stars
Through you, I Finally learned to soar the skies
Never before that I have felt this way
A feeling! More than words can say

You were a swan, when I first saw you
On a lake called dragon's mouth I found you
And together we flew and sang the sweetest
Most restful music heard upon this earth

Somehow I know we belong together even before birth
I finally found love, a reason, a way to escape the hurt
We are fated to be here, tangled tight in this world
With an embrace so warm, so vivid and so bold

It's time to wake up! Snap back to reality
Only to know that in my world I am sad and lonely
Never a moment I wished I could sleep and dream for eternity
If that means being with you even if the odds are highly unlikely

I know it was all in my mind the way I longed for love
I've never been there before, I was always been so sad
Not till' I found you in my dreams, Caer Ibormeith my Goddess
At least even in my sleep, for a moment I can escape my sadness

So here I am again, waiting for the fall of darkness
Longing for the touch, the embrace of my Goddess
Closing my eyes now, preparing to sleep
Hoping this time it will last longer, as I slumber deep

The stars in the sky;
Falls along with the tears in your eyes
Catching colors in black and white;
Remembering the love we had that night...

The faults and regrets;
They kept on shaking all the thoughts in our heads
Flashing memories we tried to forget;
Waking up with you alone in this bed

Tell me where did we go wrong?
Tell me why you've leave me alone?
I'm waiting here for you to come home
The only place our hearts belong

Tell me how'd it come to be?
Tell me that you're missing me?
I can't believe it has to end
We thought our love can never end

Love is like a falling star;
Shining with false hopes and promises are bound
A wish came true with a mark of scars;
Never again to fall once it meets the ground

And so here I am again sharing my journey;
I am now living among men in this sleepless city
267 years since I sailed away and ventured land to land;
Living deep within the woods among the wolves I made a bond...

Draining the blood of an animal to quench my thirst while the wolves feast after;
I got used to living feeding only on livestocks so no more men may suffer
The wrath of my beastly instinct that feared by many for centuries;
I am the creeping darkness,heartless,cold and vile it's all written in their stories...

I remained calm and humble satisfied with loneliness in exchange of their safety;
As I contemplate my chosen fate, breaking this madness for a ****! Am I even worthy?
A question I never wanted to ask myself again...Never before I felt blessed neither cursed;
All I know is that I have chosen to be someone not something carrying a coffin in a hearse.

The date, 24th of December 2013... It is winter here now, where I finally found a place to belong;
Never before I felt accepted, loved and it feels warm inside that I can truly say I found a home
They are even inviting me into their so called Christmas where Jesus were born sacrificing himself to save us;
Hearing his deed made me realized and even were strived to pursue changes from what I once was...

This is where my journey brought me so far in seek of redemption...
So long for now my dear friend, a diary of my new so called reflection,
Sometimes hiding behind a mask is what we all need to blend in reality;
While the darkest side of you restrained inside forever remains a mystery...

Please wake up! You're falling asleep
With eyes wide open, listen to me as I speak
Can you understand? The rhythm of my heartbeat
I'm always here for you, even if it means I will no longer breathe

Dying in your arms is a beautiful scene
Even if it ends tragic or may appear obscene
My love for you will go on forever
Until all the lights that surrounds me go dim

Please hold on don't let go for I feel cold
Can no longer feel my lips, fingers and my toes
Is this really how it ends? Now that I have you?
For a moment at least I'm happy, I think I can let go...

I'm counting hours, minutes to seconds as I breathe
How long will I last? With this bullets piercing my bones
I swear to myself that I will always be there to save you
Even it means sending myself to heaven... Funny saying this now to you...

There is one thing my love, that I would like to know
Will you feel the same? Do the same? Will you ever show?
Not like this kind of confession... Where my love lies bleeding
Any moment now I'll go dry with no hope of living...

So please whisper it to my ears... Let me know... Give me one last kiss
Or let me just die here right now in your arms a sanctuary I long seek
I can feel me facing my end! It such a shame can't even move my lips
Perhaps in another life I'll just watch over you... (Heart slowly stops to beat)

I see myself lying being held in her arms with tears being shed
I can't hear her cry... I'm trying to read her lips as she speaks
Faint voices slowly echoes as she whisper to my lifeless ears
"I love you even before you did" she said... bursting tears

Ambulance are singing! Cops are gathering in my death scene
I can hear a faint heart beat as I see myself fading...
From a moment of darkness I see lights through my eye lids
I see her face, her smile while our hands tightly held...

What if I died tomorrow
Will you cry for me?Endlessly
What if I've burnt this pictures
Will you remember me? Promise me
That you will carry me in your memory
Till the end of the world just you and me
In this tragedy in misery we will keep holding on
for eternity...
The pain it meant so much for us
made us grow aware of things that betrayed us
An intervention that rained down from above
that found us here together tangled in love
So hold me and don't let go
We can fade away tonight and no one will know
Falling up in space
our souls have finally found a place to rest
No one can disturb us here
No one can find us there
In our sweet embrace we call our home
Let us turn off the lights and finally be alone

Forgive me if I say that you can't take my pride!
You can burn me in hell!Make my soul be fried!
But in the end I know I am better without a doubt!
A narcissistic vanity is where I base my growth!

I envy you in every way!
Why can't I have what you have today!
It's so simple yet so frail!
This feeling I have will always be pale!

Haha!It's all mine!Oh!Gluttony you say?!
Do you wanna have some?Are you willing to pay?!
I'm not obsessed in having or to possess them all!
It's just that I can so **** you all!

Ahhh!My blood is rushing all over my body!
The heat you are sharing makes my hands all shaky!
My stomach is rumbling I'm so ready for you!
The lust I am having won't last till' both you and I get through!

I will crush your skull for not obeying me!
I will rip you apart for humiliating me!
My anger will smite you to pieces, feel the wrath of my fury!
We all are familiar with this feeling, the beast within you and me!

For the people I will serve my country!
This is the mask I wear in front of humanity!
As my greed pilfer and slowly steal all their money!
I became rich and famous!I will claim the throne gladly!

So busy thinking while laying my body on this bed!
Oh there is so much things to do maybe later I'll just rest my head!
I'm suffering apathy sloth as they say that gets into me!
I will change really tomorrow when I wake up believe me!

We are young and so wrong
But we are done and moving along
The order, we suffer
They took as in for ******
We are lost and broken
But it made us strong, awoken
Our father, we suffer
You left us sleeping in the gutter
We are old and the lonely
But we are holding so much memory
The gallows, we suffer
Choking hanging ropes getting tighter
Now we are just dust and ashes
Scattered through the wind in masses
The freedom, no more to suffer
Forever we'll journey on as a drifter

I don't wanna die unfulfilled and empty;
I should live my life now or I will never be
Someone destined to make a change;
We are just a spec in time etching a name on a henge

Life is not a waiting room just so you know;
We must learn to hold onto something and learn to let go
A story involving you and me in a one big show;
God is the witness as we all walk life and learn to grow

Forever and ever a scar one way or another will always remain;
A reminder that we took a wound we cause ourselves just to stay sane
So we know that we are still alive by the methods of feeling pain;
God help us for insanity sometimes is what we only have to maintain...

Contemplations and thousand questions why seek answers we don't want to hear;
What's the truth we are looking for is already here breathing, closer than a tear
The one that falls from our eyes every night we feel troubled and praying for guidance;
But then every day we walk the lines of blasphemy and complete defiance...

So what do we want?We want heaven but we live like hell?;
So what do we need?We neglect to stand sometimes but easily grasp the ground where we fell?
Staying as low as we can and cowering deep, instead of looking up and reach for a climb;
So my friend start making up your mind cause' all life offers one thing and it's called "time"...

Through out the years, humans evolve to something better,
Someone among us will eventually tap even further...
Beyond all that is normal to a human body will change,
Look deeper and from beneath one's able to reach something out of range...

The sense of sight where we see the physical world and all its beauty,
Sometimes became a curse for all their lives, they only seen all that is ugly
We make use of our eyes to see things with appreciation before judging clearly,
That in our minds will be etched, painted picture of the meaning of all things we see...

The sense of hearing where we listen to the world and all that surrounds us,
That is sometimes dreadful where only what one hears are all other's lies
For the world whispers the truth more often than the lies being constantly yelled,
Schemes and plots are the same, only gets worst when being told not asked from what is being said...

The sense of smell and taste where we scent and savour the world's natural resources
The smell of the polluted air that's killing the environment that ends the life of withering trees and roses.
The taste of the food we eat everyday, so satisfying keeps us alive keeps us going,
Only that everyday is a slaughter, and the belly became a graveyard just in order to survive to end the craving...

The sense of touch where we feel the world with our flesh and bones to communicate,
The lust that the body craves is the strongest feeling that makes us grow and replicate,
Where the saddest form is pain which one feels from all the torments and torture,
A reminder that the world is unfair full of tyranny causing' all kinds of terror!!!

The sixth sense where we see the beyond of what this world have left behind...
We see things we don't understand yet some see them clearly the ghost where they stand,
The ability to communicate with the dead... An astral projection,
ones who have crossed the realm of the other world...A misconception ,
that it change faith and beliefs that changes life how it cycles and revolves...

The seventh sense... It is said that one who are able to tap and awakens it, can see the world's future,
The ability that one can bend time and space, a walk through time that changes the course of nature...
Flashing forward centuries and back again, To witness and prevent changes of things that might happen
Playing God became a taboo even before the beginning, so what's the message? For all this ability one is having?

Is God speaking to ask providing us potentials, a chance to see the world through his eyes?
How are we going to make use of the free will he bestowed unto us to see no more lies!
Only the truth that disrupts the balance mankind has made! Like rules a government planned
Or it will remain a mystery that only God knows and understand... The questions that are in our minds...

Soaring high up in the sky with its fiery wings;
Traces of crimson ashes falls as it glades forming rings.
With a shrieking cry that calls upon the land;
The ground will tremble, illuminating the darkness beyond.

An immortal cycle this mighty bird journeys on,
A burning passion, a virtue that only among the brave belongs.
How can one maintain such pain? Burning endlessly through eternity,
Was it a gift or a curse? Or perhaps an order that only knows by the almighty.

Legend has it that this bird lives on forever that it can never die,
From the ashes it may for a moment belong, then soon rise, revived by fire.
Scorching, burning like the eternal sun as it soars once again.
Offering warmth with it's infernal embrace, while the blazing remains.

This is what I know of the mythical phoenix.
As precious and old like those ancient relics,
A myth that symbolizes now bravery and hope
That one must stand back up against any fall.

Some friends are friends who pleasures themselves seeing you inferior to them;Some friends are friends measures their success by comparing your life to theirs;Some friends are friends who is worst than your foes you will never know what lies behind their grins;Some friends are friends of strangers who blindly judged who you are from what you do;Some friends are friends like drugs that gets you high and drags you down real low;Some friends are friends who won't let you suffer alone and like brothers or sisters they'll stay to see things through;Some friends are friends that are hard to find unlike those who are self proclaimed and undermined;Some friends are friends like cancer they grow but you will never die having them;Some friends are friends who ***** that you **** too having them around so tell me more what are friends to you?

I saw a cat runned over by a car call it a roadkill;
It seems that the driver enjoyed it came back a bit just to feel
The pain the poor cat is suffering,twitching as it gasp for air to breathe;
Even knowing that life will never come back still curious till' the cat's heart stop to beat.

So I came to think and ponder a bit while walking my way to work;
While still ****** and keep saying to myself that driver is a total ****!
He could have let the cat pass! Not pacing up for a merciless ****;
With a smirk to an evil grin while pretending he's sorry after quenching his thrill.

And so I told myself what if the devil was a lie and God do not exist?
So could this evilness that surrounds us is worst without judgment? Will it ever be cease?
With a mind worst than the so called devil himself sitting on a throne ruling the entire land;
Without a soul to be tormented waging wars giving orders! Fierce like a beast with an iron hand.

The world will never rest and keeps spinning as bloodshed and chaos revolves around;
If goodness is only meant to be for the weakest heart then what's the point of love being unbound?
I had enough of this thoughts so I'm just going to continue living for what it is there for me tomorrow;
I kept holding onto my faith that there is a God that keeps saving us and relieves our pain and sorrow.

Initializing Project Insomnia...
Gathering subject's data...
Synchronization complete...
Memory gauge ready to deplete....

Tracing last memory relapse...
Engaging before the time elapse...
Extracting remaining portion of the brain activity...
Eliminating for complete inability...

Subject 001 successfully terminated...
Preparing clone... preparation completed...
System malfunction... Rebooting system...
Mainframe breached... Multiple data hacked...

Re-Animating subject 001...
Life support activated...
Re-installing memory...
Reanimation complete...

Subject 001 is back online...
Bio organic weapon functional...
Preparing extermination...
Codename: Alpha initiated...

Out from the ashes and into the sun;
Back from the beginning where life has begun
Soaring high and mighty with flames scorching out;
From its wings the beauty flown away with into the south.

Rebirth is the cycle this bird only knows;
Each time it rises the flame within grows
Stronger,brighter colored red orange and yellow;
Circling around the skies forming rings and halos.

A cry will shake the sleeping land of humanity;
That hopes will again part along with eternity
Once again man will know that there's no point of giving in;
We will rise back up again from where we cower be free from the darkness within.

Life slowly fades like a burning candle;
From its wick shines a flame that is too hot to handle
We tend to compare the mystery of our existence to things;
How we die in the end, some decays even before their breathing begins.

What makes you tick when you are down, tired and weary?
How do you express your feelings when you are alone and empty?
As if you were cursed since birth that never a moment you feel lost;
You get used to overtime that sorrow became a company you treasured the most.

There are times our minds are preoccupied and overrunned;
By thoughts of negativity suffering torture that drags us down.
Why is it so easy to think something that weighs so heavy that we sink;
And drown to our own demise trapping ourselves and in our own drop of blood we drink.

This has been told a thousand times,suffered by many a million times;
But it never gets old redundantly, we feel and lingers inside our minds
That we accept that the world is cruel enough to some, why permit them to live;
Without God in their hearts and prayers unanswered in darkness they only believe.

I'm lighting up a cigarette inhaling the suicidal taste of nicotine;
It helps me calm my mind while damaging me from within.
Thinking what to write today while keeping myself sane;
It's hard to escape madness knowing it is driving me insane.

So I took this pen inked with eternal damnation;
Which words to suffice the needs for desolation.
My thoughts run wild just by thinking of her;
It triggers something that makes my words clever.

And so from tragedy I'm writing about love and unity;
Blessed by the heavens and strengthen by the holy trinity.
That someday every one will realize that no darkness remains free;
For there is a moment that in the shadow comes a light that shines brightly.

This clothes doesn't fit me anymore,
It's time to throw them along with the shoes that I wore
I'm sick and tired of all their complaints,
No more sharing please it's all the same.

How come I never felt sheltered?
Where I'm all open and ready to listen?
Those problems that other shared
Feels like the world is on their shoulder

But after all the whining stops
And it's my turn to whimper
All I get is a cold gaze,
A fake smile to get over

It's hard acting like a hero
When you're in need your probability is zero
Don't expect equal return to what you gave
For it doesn't work that way, just wait to be save

My compassion with others ends here and now
I didn't mean it to be this way, it's hard to explain how
It's just that the wind suddenly gone dry
Maybe it needs time to get another try

Miss erie she ******* loves me
I hear her calls, her face is all I see
Miss erie she ******* loves me
She's my wonderwall when happiness betrays me
miss erie she ******* loves me
my colorful heaven in hell for eternity
miss erie she ******* loves me
In her arms I call home my sanctuary
Like a butterfly she came to take my soul, like a candle beneath my thread waiting for my fall,
Her smile's like a cancer devouring my all,yet she is the only one around when ever I make the call

Coiling like a serpent of time this suffering;
Holding,binding everything that are wailing.
A never ending curse that holds no contract to end;
The grieving of all souls that is tormented for hell it's a godsend.

Marked by a tattoo numbered 666 just to survive;
The modern age turned to chips implanted in to their minds.
Contemplating and confused whether they are dead or alive;
Never before seen the light of day again, blinded surrounded with mines.

So the devil breathes among men conquering earth;
In shape of a man sitting on a throne of deception
The rapture is about to begin, so the end is about to be birth;
The beginning of the worst, a total chaos and annihilation

All hell breaks loose and the gate is open;
Eternal damnation is not being offered but given.
Where all the wicked souls hails to the king of the wretched;
Minions of dark infernal fire rises unleashing hell on earth.

We give thanks,love,hate and contemplate things we feel and receive;
We act accordingly to the emotions life is offering, as we journey and continues to live
While aging to some is sorrowful, that life is slowly taken coming to an end;
But with a positive insights and faith, knowledge as we grow old is truly a godsend.

We don't have to ask questions where we neglect to accept the answers;
What are we hearing is just the plain truth, yet lies comforts us best at times of despair
It doesn't have to always look that way...With an open mind, and a soul that learned to accept;
The eagerness to live more to understand, fortifies the will stronger and can see through any depth.

We measure life according to our ground...
How it feels like, to feel lost and be found
Where some halted their will and closed their mind;
Waiting on a crossroad, while they feel life has left them behind...

This journey that we all walk are the same, a way to serenity and salvation;
No matter where you go just keep holding on to your faith and choose a direction
Eventually you'll find that the fall you're suffering is just another God's call;
Believe and follow the signs, never to question...Just accept that this is how life rolls.

So never feel confined locking your thoughts in a room;
Never feel lost, no matter what stop casting your own doom
Life is a map to travel and we are all just a drifter;
One day we will find our place to stop, lay rest and settle.

Tie a knot in between
Tear the flesh off my skin
Rip my heart to let you in
A parade of lust in a bloodstream
Kiss the fears off of my eyes
**** the venom of a thousand lies
Rid me off of this wretched demise
Say a prayer as the candle dies
Call me home like a church bell ringing
Prepare a swansong that is worth singing
In every verse and line souls are wailing
Listen closely as they whisper"They're Waiting"

I don't know what to write today.
It feels so empty without anything to say;
Yet here I am pushing buttons and random letters!
Edited a bit just to make it look better...

Hey guys!What's up?How's your winter?
It's so **** cold I can see myself breathe while I shiver;
Lighting now my cigarette...**** where's my lighter?!
Eheh...Can you torch me up?I'll make it up to you later.

Ahhh...Feels good, the suicidal taste of nicotine!
I feel a bit better now, killing myself a little.
No wonder why so easily I wear thin.
Gotta stop smoking right?!Of course what's the big deal?

Okay back to boredom and this empty room!
If these boring walls could talk I am surely be doomed.
I played with my guitar a dozen of times already!
Well it doesn't hurt to keep myself busy while I rock steady!

So what's next from feeling empty?
Watch **** and do something *****?
For ****'s sake!Hey that is not funny!
It was just a random thought...Just call me crazy!

Alright this is pointless...No! I mean it really!
You should stop reading from here on believe me.
Hearing me whine with my words of insanity,
Will surely ruin your day like mine completely.

But here's a little something...Would you care if I share?
Love always comes with pain and a cross to bear.
Hold unto it savor and cherish so it may last forever.
Of course we all knew that forever is next to never.

But everything grows stronger, just put a little faith.
Open up your mind a bit and forget all about hate,
Expand your consciousness to a different level,
Be something essential! And be told in a fable.

All of those things that revolves around us
Is something that involves the future and our past,
It's a universal code that linked us together;
A genetic design...We see clearer as we gets older.

Life is a wonder like a one big story!
Yesterday's a history, tomorrow's a mystery,
And today is a gift that's why they call it present;
Admit it that quote is cool and quite decent \m/

Not far from the dream is a reality of you and me
An Inertia of love a constant motion that goes on for eternity
Together we are forever lost in time, a ecstatic euphoria
We built a sanctuary with our body united as one, our own utopia
Never alone and lonely, fears and doubts has been casts away
A beautiful lie that we can't deny while the truth glimmers through the eye
Love is our domain, our territory...Our own kingdom to rule the ground where we stand
Something profound, essential like life itself where only two lovers would understand
That this very embrace in each others arms a home where we belong
We will never falter our love will go on, A love so strong will never go wrong

One must learn to listen so both will start hearing, what's the cause of all fights and all their swearing;
Not with just your ears but with an open heart and mind synching with their feelings;
Look straight through their eyes set aside your  thoughts of their demise;
For they will do the same, settling things in a peaceful way would be very wise.

Was it that really simple when lives are already took?
Will you understand the demands written in each others book;
Now with a tightly clinched fists and fingers on the trigger of their own weapons;
Gritting teeth waiting for their leader's call!Like a game of chess they are just pawns.

So the siren wails and fires were shot!Lives are taken!Bloods were dropped;
Bombs explode splattering guts!Countless deaths and souls were trapped!
After all the dust had settle, who will be victorious and which cause are stronger?!
Funny one will still claim an answer where it only fuels more anger.

So when you're asked to fight a battle over nothing which side will you take?
If they can talk things over then why need ask questions to make?
A fight may be won and battles can be conquered signatures a sin
Always remember that the war still rages within!

Rise never fall to the ashes! Never fade with the dust! Never burn out the fire!
I will never gonna give up! Never gonna give in! Never to die again!
Death will never conquer my heart! Filled with burning flames! See it through my eyes!
Live soar up back to the skies! Burn the open land! Corrupted with greed!

I am the eternal fire!!!!
Burning with hopes and dreams!!!
Phoenix's rebirth a never ending curse
Turning pain into a gift

Fall Decay Rise Again X8

Hail to all those who are brave and strong!
That fears no evil and commits no wrong!
For their hearts are pure!
Even through hell they can survive and endure!

All the darkness will perish with the power of light!
Literally speaking! You should have seen them fight!
With their strength and power bestowed by the Gods,
No villains shall reign they should just lay down their guns!

So much faith was given to those brave warriors of time!
Reading comics had given me ideas that words can't define!
Do they really exist?
Or it was just all inside our minds?

It's time to face reality that heroes live within you in me;
We may not possess superiority like superhuman ability;
But with compassion and the heart to sacrifice, for once be selfless!
The world will be a safe place from all that is heartless!

Well we all know that the world needs balance
That everything we thought we knew is a one big trance!
Through the storm we unite ourselves as one!
But there is always war to exchange bullets with our guns!

Like an anthem to live in harmony;
Only accompanied by disenchanted melody!
Like light and dark worlds apart!
Good and evil a purgatory where you can't depart!

In the end it's always every man for himself;
Where one's action will determine their fate!
How pure are their intentions, will they make it to heaven's gate?
There are no more heroes so might as well hold on to your faith...

It's the 1st of December and today's Sunday,
What a wonderful week to start as we pray,
Giving thanks to our lord savior for that day,
Where he sacrifice himself for our sins to be washed away.

All we ever wanted is peace, love and serenity;
As we keep our faith for the almighty's love and glory;
For through out this years we were never forgotten,
Even if we sometimes falter, faith makes our sins molten.

Merry Christmas to us all and let our hearts carol,
The songs of Christmas where makes our love stroll
Down to everyone's heart with warmth and compassion.
We must always believe! we must keep holding on!

The greatest gift is there from the beginning,
The free will and the cleansing of all our sins,
For we now have given the choice which to follow,
With Christmas it guides us to the path of the hallow.

So rejoice forget all about your worries,
Sing along and seat under the Christmas trees,
Exchanging carols and opening gifts,
Warm hugs and kisses, say prayers then feast.

So marry Christmas and an advance happy new year!
Don't be ashamed to cry and let out joyful tears,
For it will remain in your heart and in your memory
The poetry of Christmas and all its glory.

Today's Tuesday and it's the 31st of December 2013;
A year's end just to open a path for a new beginning.
A eternal cycle of hope given to those with shattered dreams;
A resolution, a choice to be someone new with a passion that gleams.

With the thoughts of the past were we must left behind for history to write;
Now it's the time to alter your fate just do your best to make things right.
For never a moment God forget to look after us, guide us, give us signs to follow;
It's us that sometimes think we are all alone in the dark with only misery and a bitter pills to swallow.

So stand proud and tall never let the weights of negativity drags you down;
Crawl if you must first, to walk then run serve failure as your training ground.
Build a fortress with your bag of hammers, don't let it consume you and start being a whiner;
With a will to change no matter what cards you are dealt with, for once make yourself a winner.

Scream out your name to the night with fireworks roaring;
Held your fists up high like you are holding something burning.
That is the passion, looking forward a brand new year;
A new dawn that for once you will never shed again painful tears.

And here I bid you a happy new year by all means have fun and enjoy;
Seize the day!Have a blast make some noise raise your morale let your passion boil.
Feast and bond with your families and friends just let the good times roll;
For this coming year changes will surely be there, so start making a way to make yourselves whole.

I miss your kiss
The touch of your lips
While I hold your hips
Exchanging body heat

We make love like fire melting ice
The coldest night turns warm as I look deep in your eyes
Your sweet embrace have shown me the light
To a new beginning, will start tonight

Like moth to flames we willingly burn
All our fears,from this moment we yearn
To not let go craving for love and lust
While we both wish this will never last

We slip into each other with legs tangled tight
The feeling of bliss made this love burning bright
We moans and whispers surrendering ourselves
We reached our peek, both went deeper we delves

We both know that this feeling can go on forever
Even to some it means next to never
But how can we express this new found sanctuary
Where our heart and soul rest now for serenity

Tell me your darkest secrets;
I promise that I will keep
Whisper me all your unspoken words;
Let me break the silence where your heart silently weep

Surrender me a smile just to know that you're okay;
Even if it means the last time of faking, I am here to stay
Let me into your world, painting colors to your void memories;
And never again feel misery, lets turn your mind into a sanctuary

Deeply breathing together we held hands purifying our soul;
A prayer, we meditate disposing negativity.. A bad aura to let go
A moment of silence, shaking the person once we was;
Let them all troubles crumble, pulverizing sorrow to dust

Expanded consciousness makes us grow stronger and push further;
The path to serenity, a peace of mind where all the letdowns will never be remembered
Yet...Yes it's a scar that always remain, a part of growth and a sign of divine intervention;
We may take wounds but will never fall...Between rise and fall there is always a contradiction

So fall forward to a better man;
Don't give up as much as you can
The least you worries, the least you grow;
What I mean was do something about instead it just undermine the sorrow...

"We are all sinners and time will come for metanoia
That pulls us back once again into the land of pleroma
A region of light where we continue to achieve gnosis
The possibility of transcendence in a spiritual phasis"

Let the thunder roars, and the lightning strikes!!!
For it will clear the doubts we fight, For every trials and obstacles we face!
There will always be a way to push forward straight!!!
Obliterate your worries and fears be smite!So you will have your peace tonight

For every breathe and burden we take!
Will come with ease and a pain we hate!
But worry not just trust your fate!
With your virtues nothing's at stake!

What's with the risk we take and make?
What makes us right?What makes you a saint?
Be a martyr one that's vulnerable and weak!
But remember that earth will soon be inherit by the meek!

What's the day today it's good you ask!
It's Thor's day now lads and lass!
With your bag of hammers don't let them weigh you down
But build a fortress right through the ground!

It's time to make some final words!
Weak can be strong as being strong can be weak
For some don't have the heart and compassion of what we speak!
Have a nice day enjoy it's Thursday everybody holds
Their own hammer with lightning and thunder!

Buried my head and got stucked under the sand
I see the world the other way, when I turn around
Not to see you fool me
And let you sneak out behind
I am hating myself completely
All the lil things I've done is wrong
And if I'm gone would you still carry on?
Our heart it speaks a thousand lies to know
That we both don't belong
So if you are lonely
In your heart come visit me
And you'll see our memories
Of happiness turning to tragedy
And if you are in misery
In your mind come visit me
And you'll see our memories of
loneliness
oh so sad to be
I'm over and done I'm moving along
I'm leaving my heart tattered and torn
This is a mistake we both done wrong
If we are't meant to be then let hate goes on

" Breathing Heavily,
           Shivering in the darkness
                       No presence of light"
                                                             "Hands are all shaky
                                                                   Suffering paranoia    
                                                                        Crawling in the dark"
                                                                                                              "Suffocating room
                                                                                                                      Her eyes dilated with fear
                                                                                                                                    Hopelessly Screaming"

Scrawling down my memories before I forget,
That will soon reminds me the things to regret;
Only now I feel worry, what of my existence?
My misfortune never ends and it appears consistent...

Crossing my mind, those other's problems;
While setting aside mine, to understand them...
And later I say, I must not falter! I must stay strong;
It wasn't that bad that, soon I will not suffer long...

What of the words, that I used to share?
A piece of advice to let them know I care;
For I myself needed some help, For I cannot bear!
The feeling that sometimes life itself isn't fair...

Yes I'm aware! That the world needs balance to weigh;
The equality where some of us tends to eventually fray...
Right at the edge of their sanity to understand their fate;
A living hell they say filled with misery and hate...

With a rope tied tight, I tried to contemplate...
What is on the other side? Should I stay here while I optate;
Where do I belong? As my fate is unclear, which path to take?
So I tell to myself, I maybe just losing my faith....

I stepped down from this stall where I stand;
Now it's all clear to me, I know now and understand...
That not everything in life is handed on a plate...
That sometimes one must play the cards their being dealt

One must not easily fold, lay down and cower
Stand firm and strong even if the whole world's on your shoulder!
Be positive! Ignite the thoughts of negativity
For from here on you only seek serenity...