Too young and touching
Too old turn lusting

Too much for physical
Our brain has taught to function

Too much to see
What seems to be right it sees

But not the encourager
For too young and old
This is not the cycle

You've open your mind
When you spoken those words

I've come to notice them
little nature of yours

It was some insight
from focusing those flickering lights

It has only been days
And it still stays the same
As my intuitive always says
"It is not a place where I should go
Not any deeper than this. As there is no light at the end of the room, where I peek thru the gaps on the cracked wall. It is not a safe place to go on, not many have been, not many survived, not many have stayed and been alive. It is not a place for anyone to be, for no one has ever been inside."

So I walked out and saw another open mind...

I feel not what others feel
I, in myself, am no longer real.

Die, I wish
..but won't.

So away I'll fly...
worry not mother and sister...
I shall return....
just not today.

today my heart
felt empty inside
i felt so miserable
i miss you
do you know it?
you probably do
and just don't care
you're in love with her
it is obvious
other students can tell
you don't like
me anymore
i sat at my desk
tears blurred my vision
and spilled onto
my school papers
i felt like running away
or disappearing
because you are there
i can't get you
out of my sight
or out of my head
you're always there
smiling across the room
at her
you were my only
true friend
now i have
lost you
because you
ignore me
and now
i haven't any friends
and that is why
you see me
huddled in the corner
of my bedroom
alone

I take a marble path to where we met
Underneath the ebony pressure and blowing mini lives
And think of every single thing
That ever chanced to grace your lips
And I walk and I walk and we walk to the bench
Where we aimed at those deaths
How they laughed at our kiss
Trilled down the fragrant spools
Of blurb stained cotton
You and me forever being
Good at bad ideas
Dark stories flying through the pane
Teasing me and never to be seen again
So take take take me to where we met
And where a single moment was greater than this
And even brighter than this
Swirled veins of redundant horrific prayers
Get me out of myself
to infinite
Yes darker than the 'byss
Please believe me
I never wanted this
And never could again
And here I am ready to jump
Into the magnificent song of yours
The gates creak for want of you.

Laying down on the cool, wet grass,
Watching the colors of the sky fade to black,
And reaching out to grab the moon with my small hands.
Listening to the purple waves, crashing into shore,
And waiting for the stars to come out.
Reflected in our eyes are the shapes of disappearing clouds,
And our bare feet are painted with white sand and sprinkled mud.
I return to you each year to respire.

There can be so many stories behind a smile,
But I'll never let you see the fragile damage you've caused,
It should be non existent and yet my heart yearns for more,
Of the delusional heartache my brain has made.

Have you always been like this sweetheart?
Who hurt you?
Who broke you?
Adulthood is something we can never avoid,
But with that look in your eyes I can tell so much more.

Battle scars and warrior marks,
Bittersweet moments.
Love and affection doesn't come your way-
Oh but it does in multitude.

See this is only for you.
I cannot stop.
This isn't something a shrink can help with,
My beautiful addiction,
Let me help save you.

(...) It's in the insanity of darkness that I become sane.