All of your transparent lies become visible.
Crystal clear,
We are scattered on the ground.
And suddenly I'm not blind anymore.

Feeling self destructive
How does one feel so?
I wouldn't know how
But I know how it goes

I'll get ******* at everyone
Turn of the telly and cut the tube
I'll say to myself, "I'm ******* done."
And I'll not sleep, like normal

Music won't do its good deeds
I'll smoke half a cigarette,
But put it out & do some speed
I'm just kidding, I don't do speed

I'll grind my teeth a little
Feel my eyes tighten into suspicion
Play the world's smallest fiddle
For my own sorry ***

And their happiness makes me sad.
I don't want to be 'that one girl who won't just let it go.'
But I can't let it go.

There's words on the tip of my tongue
I'm trying to spit them out
The taste of stale chewing gum
Wandering about.

Flossing through my teeth
The whisper of frustration
The loudest of heartbeats
A head ache from nauseation.

What was I saying?

It's been forty three days since I have been in a haze
Yet I walk around in a daze
Not sure what to do with my time
Could sleep for hours but the nightmares won’t escape