I've been left alone.
No one to call my friend.
No one cares.
My worst fears have come true.
And I don't know how much more I can take.

I'm afraid to fall again,
But its too late.
You have made me fall.

I'm afraid to be hurt again,
But you tell me you won't.
You have made me trust you.

I'm afraid you will leave me
When someone better comes along.
You could leave me in an instance.

Here I fall,
Waiting for you.
I will wait forever.
Even though as I wait,
I can't breathe.
I can't speak.
But as I fall,
I know that you will soon appear.
I'm free falling
And I don't know where you are.
I'm trusting you to be there to catch me.
So here I am waiting with the only words I am to speak:
"And here I fall, yet again."

I'm an angel with a shotgun
Fighting for my life.
Sometimes, you have to sin to win.

I'm an angel with a shotgun
Fighting to survive.
Sometimes, you just have to believe.

Love me.
Hate me.
I don't care anymore.

Worship me.
Try to **** me.
I don't care.

We're partners in crime.
We're birds of a feather.
Together until the end.

I would die for you,
And you would die for me
Because we can't survive without each other.

I'm one half,
And your one half.
Together we make a whole.

We will always be together,
No matter how far apart we are
Because we are best friends.

How could you betray me like this?
Give away all my secrets
Like giving away a piece of gum.

Why would you betray me?
I have always been nice to you.
You were my friend!

I wish you didn't betray me.
Then we could still be friends.
Now we can't be friends because of what you did.

The bittersweet memories haunt me
Because every time we speak,
I want to be yours again.

The house was burning.
Not literally of course,
But every word spoken was a spark that never quite faded out.
Every action taken just added more charcoal
Until the smoke filled my lungs
And I couldn't breathe.

The house was burning.
There was no safe place for me.
Every emotion was used as lighter fluid
As each day the fire became brighter, louder
I can still taste the ashes, dry as the desert sand

The house was burning.
And I was the one with the water
I was always the one to make sure it never burned for long
I drowned in the water as I tried to put the fires out
So lay me to rest alongside this burning house,
Lay me in the ashes and smoke that now feel like home

Pink,
Magenta,
Red,
All the same,
Just different hues.
Just like me and you.

The beat of the music
Leads to a few simple moves,
But then those few moves
Lead to a whole dance
As my pain and sorrow are pushed away.
At least for a few minutes.
Where the music
And my steps
And leaps
And twirls
All come together to soothe me.

Darling, why did you have to leave?
Darling, why did you tell me at you loved me?
Darling, why?
Darling, why do I miss you still?
Darling, why do I want you back?
Darling, please tell me why?

Don't say goodbye
Because I don't want ot hear those words tonight.

Don't say goodbye
Because we have the rest of our lives together.

Don't say goodbye
Becuase I don't know what I would do without you.

Don't say goodbye
Because we  still have each other.

Do you remember when we sat on my roof and watched the stars?
I wish that I didn't remember that.

Do you remember the time you told me you loved me?
I was an idiot for trusting you.

Do you remember the time you left me?
I remember it all too clearly.

I'm falling from the sky.
My wings are shattered.

I'm falling for you.
As my heart shatters.

I'm falling.
And its my own fault.

****** up
Insecure
Nervous
Emptiness.

A child.
Just a small child.
Left to hide from the world.
The small bits of hope she carried,
Where all but smashed
By the cruel hand that raised her.

A 14 year old girl.
Just 14 years old.
Yet she carried so much on her shoulders.
Left to hide away from the ones who she thought would
Care for her
And protect her from evil.

A 16 year old girl
Just 16 years old.
She cries to herself.
She never lets anyone see how she is broken,
Just becuase of the cruelness of life
That left her shattered in tiny pieces.

Gone
Gone
Gone
That's what I'll be.

Gone
Gone
Gone
I'm ******* done with it all.

Gone
Gone
Gone
Goodbye.

It's time to say goodbye.
My life has finished its course.
My string of life about to be cut.

The only thing to do it say goodbye.
The only problem is that no one cares about me.
No on to care that I will soon be gone,
So what is the point of saying goodbye.

For a few days, I will be mourned for,
But then brushed aside as the girl who killed herself.
The whole world forgetting about me.
Forgetting that I used to exist.

So now it is only me and this blade,
And the blood dripping from my arm.
A fresh wave of pain and blood comes with each cut.

Soon I will rise this knife to my neck and slit my throat.
Soon, but not now.
I still have to say goodbye.

Open my eyes and tell me I'm alive.
The ghost of you still haunts me.
Shattering my soul, my heart, my world.
So, open my eyes and tell me I'm alive.
Take my shattered soul and lay it to rest with you.
On the haunted hill that we used to share.
While I stay here, with my eyes open, my heart beating.
Still alive.
But without you.
So, for the final time, open my eyes and tell me I'm alive.
My darling, we will soon meet yet again
On the haunted hill that we used to share.

Do you really think that I'm that heartless
I would let my friend get hurt because of me?
I have tried and I have tried.
There just is no stopping her.
I know,
Morgan is hurting.
I know that.
But I can't stop it.
Andrea won't stop.
I can't stop her.

But what hurts me the most about this is that...
You think I'm
HEARTLESS

Help.
I'm drowning in a river of tears.
Help.
Can you please save me from this horrible end?
Help.
Do you even care?

Hey, Brother.
Are you proud of me?
I bet I'm everything you thought I wouldn't become.

Hey, Brother.
Do you still love me?
I know it will be a miracle if you do.

Hey Brother,
Can you remember me the way I was when I was little?
It would make me so happy.

Hey, Friend.
I'm back in Louisiana.
I thought that you would be here like you always were.
I guess that I was wrong.
All because I didn't save you.

Hey, Friend.
I'm back at the park we were at when we first met.
I can remember our shrieks of laughter like it was yesterday.
But now, I will never again hear your laughter again.
All because I didn't save you.

Hey, Friend.
I'm back at your house.
I'm here remembering all the great times we had together.
I know that we had it all, but I guess that it didn't matter.
All because I didn't save you.

Hey, Friend.
I'm back at your grave
With a rose in my hand,
Wondering why you are now gone, although I know it was
All because I didn't save you.

Hi, I'm Worthless.
Well, that's what you tell me,
Worthless, ugly,not good enough.
Tell me, what is your definition of worthy, pretty, good enough.
You might be a person, but you have no right to make others feel like ****.

Hi, I'm Worthless.
Why do you call me worthless?
Because people like you have gotten into my mind and others minds?
Because people like you have damaged others so severely?
Because others starve themselves just to try to be skinny and pretty just like you want them to?
Because others harm themselves as a result of people like you?

Hi, I'm Worthless.
But here's the thing:
I'm not worthless.
No one in this entire world is worthless, ugly, or not good enough.
You just can't see that because you are so busy bringing others down.
No one needs to fit in your definition of worthy, pretty, or good enough.

Hi, I'm Worthless.
Wait, no I'm not, and neither is anyone else.
You can call us names and hurt us, but what you say is wrong.
Everyone is worthy, pretty, and good enough in their own way.
Everyone's world is different from yours.
So hi, I'm Not Worthless.

I try to protect you,
I try to help you,
And yet you still call me a horrible friend?

I've stopped you from committing suicide,
I've always been there for you,
And yet I'm a horrible friend to you?

Thanks.
I guess I just needed to realise how ****** up
I am.

How many times do I have to be
Afraid?
How many times do I have to
Bleed out because of you?

How many times do I have to feel
My heart break?
How many times do I have to
Love and lose you?

How many times do I have to watch
You flaunt your new girl?
How many times do I have to
Cry over you?

You should just walk away,
I don't want you to get hurt.

I want you to go away,
So you won't get hurt.

You are my only concern,
So please, just don't mess with me.

I don't wish to harm you,
But if you don't go, I will hurt you.

I am the yin in yin and yang.
I am the shadows that appear in the day.
I am the night to the day.
I am the death to precious life.

I don't care if you **** me.
I was already dead.

I don't care that you don't love me.
I can't be loved anyways.

I forgot what it was like
To be ok.

I forgot what its like
To no t be hunted.

I forgot what its like
To be happy.

I forgot what its like
To not be in pain.

I forgot what its like
When it did not rain.

I forgot a time when
I did not cry.

I forgot the time before
Darkness.

If you want to laugh,
I will be your smile.
I will be anything that you need.

If you want to fly,
I will be your sky.
Anything you need, that's what I will be.

If you want to cry,
I will be your sholder.
Everything you want, that's what I will be.

If you want to love,
I will be your heart.
I will always be what you Neded.

If you try to love me,
I will wind up hurting you.
Not on purpose,
But on accident.

If you could love me,
I would drive you crazy
Because I am crazy myself
And madness is contagious.

I'm fine, fine, fine.
I'm lying, lying, lying.

I'm fine, fine, fine.
I'm drowning, drowning, drowning.

I'm fine, fine, fine.
I'm hoping someone sees through my lies, lies, lies.

I'm fine, fine, fine.
I'm hoping someone saves me, saves me, saves me.

I miss you.
It was my fault that I lost you though.
Just likes its my fault that I still love you.

I miss you so much.
I never wanted to leave you,
But sometimes you have to do something you don't want to.

I miss you.
I did what I had to do
In order to keep you safe.

I miss you so much.
I will always love you.
Just like I will always blame myself for what happened.

I'm losing everything.
I'm losing the love of my life.
I'm losing my friend.
I'm losing my heart.
I'm losing.

I'm sorry,
It's all my fault.
I know that you blame yourself,
But it wasn't you.
It was me.

I'm sorry.
You would be better off without me
And what I put you through.
Please stop caring about me
Because everything is my fault.

I'm sorry...

I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for the scars on my wrist.
I'm sorry for my thoughts.
I'm sorry about my life.
I'm sorry that I can't be the girl you want me to be.
I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry, baby.
I'm sorry for listening to others.
I'm sorry that I listened to my own mind.
My mind did not know all the facts that
My heart knew.

Darling, I'm sorry.
I should have been there for you.
I'm so sorry.
Darling, I wish you were still here.
I should have helped you more.
It's my fault your gone.

I'm that girl
You see standing alone,
Outcasted by her 'friends'.

I'm that girl
With scars on her arms and
Covered in black.

I'm that girl
That suffers in silence,
Hush, girl, you can't speak.

I'm the girl that walks alone
With her wrists covered so your don't see what she has done.

I'm the girl that gets pushed down at school
With her hair covering her face so you don't see the tears in her eyes.

I'm the girl that sits in a corner
With her head lowered so you don't see the tears rolling down her face.

I'm the girl that sits unnoticed
With noone to care so you don't know she feels so horrible.

I'm the girl that is constantly told that she is worthless
With her wrists bleeding red and covered so you don't know how much she wants to die.

I remember life before
You came.

Far away dreams
And locked doors.

I remember life before
Everything changed.

A shattered heart
And helplessness.

I try to hold back tears
As I think of you.
I try to forget about you,
But I see you almost everyday.
I try and try,
But each day I am mesmerized by your lovely blue eyes.

I used to burn as brightly as the sun,
Until that light got extinguished.

I used to love,
Until my heart got shattered.

I used to be happy,
Until I saw your true colors.

I used to wish on a star,
Until I realised that it would not make a difference.

I used to be a writer,
Until you told me what I really was.

I wasn't trying to melt this heart of iron.
But boy, you made me.

I wasn't looking for love.
But boy, you made me fall.

I wasn't wanting to fall again.
But boy, if you promise to catch me its okay.

I was thinking about you
And me.
Then I woke up and found out that it was just a
Dream.

Breath.
Just breath.
Maybe it will all go away.

Just continue on with your life.
Just ignore all the harm you face.
And hope that it will all just go away.

Hide the bruises.
Hide the pain.
And wish that it will all go away.

Hide the tears.
Hide the whimpers.
Please make it all go away.

Shy away from the swinging fist.
Flinch away from every touch.
Why won't it all just go away?

Hush, girl,
Just bat your eyes.

Hush, boy,
Throw on your jersey.

Hush, dear child,
Play my little game.