I will not show my disappointment
I will not express my sadness
I will sit quietly and I will wait
I have always done my best
To be calm
But I have failed many times
I will always be a failure
But I will fail silently

GRAVE STONES
You mount the stones on my grave as if I was already dead. You ignore the words to my songs and lip-sync my tunes, as you put me to sleep. You forgotten the time we walked together on the beach when you put your footstep into mine. Soon enough you will follow me.
My life was like living in the shadow of someone else’s reality. I failed to demand my own. So why do I demand it now. I am dead to you. You see right through me, that’s why my skin is softer then ice. I will never remember the warmth of your touch or the sting of your kisses.
Sweet farewells are lies we tell ourselves, when we want to just let go. That is why I let go for you. I could not bare to see you cry. Teardrops stain the pages of your bible, with words that mean nothing to you, words that will never stain your lips again. You never loved me.
2013BB

Everyone needs a hiding place
To pour their thoughts,
To not get judged,
And this place must be kept safe.

Well, I've found a hiding place,
To pour my thoughts,
And not get judged,
But how do I just keep it safe?

Here on Earth,
It's safe nowhere
I feel danger
Everywhere.

While I hide
In my hiding place,
I'll seek for refuge
I'll seek for strength.

But first,
I'll look into my heart.
There'll be another hiding place,
That won't ever be taken from me.

I want to spend my night
locked away in your dreams
and you weaved into mine
and we'll see each other
in our unconscious paradise
and we'll tell each other
''I'm sorry''
we'll hug like we used to do
and I'll stay still in your arms
unable to move
because I'm scared of leaving you
all over again
then I hear the alarm from my phone
                 your favourite song of course
and it's morning
and I can hear the birds
singing to me
and the wind whispering your name
and I know I have to leave you
again
and I try to scream out
to take me back
but no sound will escape my mouth
and I miss you, dear

To keep at bay a heart that aches
A few simple things is all it takes
To have armor of your own make

It's all about just having fun
But be aware when it's close to done
You must always be the first to run

Pick and choose and be amused
Just don't ever get too attached to
Someone whom you're sure to lose

Pluck your heart from your sleeve
Don't let it stray beneath the sheets
Unless you want to taste defeat

Hold on to all your sweet allure
Mystery can oft ensure
That he's always left, wanting more

Sometimes you're better to be fake
To protect your heart so it won't break
Put on a mask, for your own sake

I always say; In love, be true
But bashed-in hearts are good for few
Why suffer if no love's in view?

I recommend, don't stay like this
It's just a temporary fix
For a weary heart that's long been sick

It's no hard thing to be a tease
Men give in with such great ease
Made simpler with rules like these

So here is how and what to do
Ladies, this one's just for you
Use it well and follow through
And your heart will never split in two