Cupcake

Cupcake May 2020

Somewhere along the way I missed the lesson of loving my life.
Maybe in the midst of crossing different roads the wind between
Ruin, devastation and triumph were destroyed,
Before circling back around to start again,
I often missed the views,
And forgot to take the notes.
May-be the bridges I burnt never burnt at all and they still stand,
Half burnt yet cross-able.
It feels as though I've never gone anywhere at all,
But only moved in circles,
Always meeting myself where it all started,
Before I knew a way out existed.
I know it still exists,
But I keep on losing the way to the view
I was supposed to see by now..
And time is running out.
What if this is all?
What if there is nothing more?
What if this view is the last view for me to see?
What if this is my life?
All the chances came and went,
And I sit here watching the view of chances I did not take,
Replaying the wishes bent into the circle of me
I can never straighten.

Did you too?!

#harzh #reality #life

Cupcake May 2020

Home!

I open my eyes in the morning
Wondering, 'How to pass through the day without constant yells and blames.'
I stretch my hands out
Hoping, 'People don't notice my scars'.
I make my way towards my siblings,
Greeting them 'Hi!'
Hoping, 'they don't see through my false facade'.
I munch on some snacks and tell mom that I'm full
Hoping, 'She doesn't see straight through my lie'.
I use gadgets 12/7 and my parents say I'm texting,
But....., 'I'm trying to run away from the reality'.
I sit and stare at books, but don't study..
And my parents say, 'You are just distracted because of that guy',
'Try to concentrate', 'This scores are *******'.
Little do they know,
Family problems, Shifting, Losing people, New environment
'Have distracted my mind'.
I try to concentrate,
'But my doesn't cope up with me'.
I joke around, paint on a smile, play and laugh along with my siblings..
Trying to believe, 'I belong here'.
But deep down, 'I don't feel home when I'm at home'.

What is Home?

#home #fakeness #lonely

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