A grown man's heart are much more stronger than a young woman's heart.

Hey
Tonight, I almost got a beating.
Tonight, I got threatened for my unborn baby to get murdered.
The ******* father doesn’t believe me.
I know for sure I have not cheated on him.
I know for sure this unborn is his.
Sometimes I wonder what it’ll be like if I just left.
I really would hate to leave my children in the hands of untrustworthy, filthy people!
I am thinking if I should cut myself off.
Off on having anymore little ones.

All the shades of blue
The saddest one is you
Lower than the ocean
And the sky
When you never been so down
So lost
And so unfound
You've used up all the tears left in your eyes
And its So sad
It's so sad
Yeah it's saddest day you've ever had
When life leaves you by the road
Abandon and alone
And you never ever been so freezing cold
When standing your on the bridge just praying for someone just to pick you and to take you all the way back home
So sad
Yeah it's so sad
It's the saddest day you've ever had
Oh and it hurts so bad
Yeah it hurts so bad
Yeah it's sad.

Reading All My Stuff On Hellopoetry Makes Me Happy
Man I Miss This H.P
Having Time To Myself Reading.
Smiling At My Crazy Self From The Past.
Of How Crazy I Was Over Him
Gabriel
Fukk I Miss That Guy.
I Got Now Two Crazy Lil Men Now I Love Them Lots.

Lay your hands on me baby
Make my body cool
Just when it may ends
under my skin
like a silver
Oh baby
Why don't you hold me all night
Cause I know tomorrow you'll say goodbye
When I kissed you my baby
Did you feel anything
Cause when you kissed me my darling
I swore I can hear angels singing
Oh baby
Why don't you hold me all night
Cause baby I know tomorrow you'll say goodbye.
Time passes slowly as we lay here in the dark
Babe I can always sleep to the sound of your beating heart
Oh baby
Why don't you hold me all night
Cause I know tomorrow you say goodbye.

I'm Crazy.*
Slightly near the edge.

Half Of Love Is Just Low
Which Is How I Feel
My Spirit Is Breaking.

If only suicidal was that easy to get done..
They only care when your gone...

I Love Your Wicked Mind!

What is said is said.
I can always disappear.
I brought it upon myself!

Do I drive you mad.?  
You're my enemy I hate to love.
Feels like the day is ending.
You got me looking for another day.
I was already headed for hell; I might as well enjoy the ride.

Swallow your pride just to keep your family proud.

Lastnight Wasn't As Worse As Few Years Ago.
When My Mother Was Drunk Nearly Everyday,
She Didn't Care About My Brother And Me.
Now I'm A Little Bit Older And Much More Protective
Over My Brother And Myself.
At Nights When My Mother Was Drunk Out Of Her ******* Mind.
Use To Hear Her Yelling And Going Crazy.
Taking Her Anger Out On Us Like We Were Her Punching Bag.
I Had No Choice To Live With Her And Put Up With Her.
My Biological Father Was Gone,
He Lived Far From Us.
Only People I had To Depend On Was My Sister's Or Granny And Uncle.
During Some Cold, Blizzard Winter Nights I Walked Off.
I Walk To Somewhere Safe.
I'm Sorry I Couldn't Take My Brother With Me
It Was Too Dangerous And Risky.
Putting My Life On The Line
Daring Jumping Out Of A Window And Landing On Snow Or Either Grass.
My Brother Was Always In A Safe Place With My Uncle's Somewhere.
My Mother Kept Me Home, Didn't Let Me Go Anywhere
Or I Had Nowhere To Go.
Glad I Didn't End My Life
Had All Those Chances To
But I Don't Know What Stopped Me.
To This Day I Still Don't Know Where I'm Trying To Go.
I Have Everything, Just Got To Try Figure Where Or What Am I Going To Do.
Happy I got My Granny And Uncle's House To Help Me.
My Mother Is Sometimes A Drunk But Not Worse.
Yeah! She Still Calls Me Down And All That.
I'm Use To Words And Fighting Back.
I Walk Away Cause Its Useless Arguing With A Drunk.
I don't Hide As Much Anymore.
My Attitude Changed After I Realised There Were Worser People In My Community.
I'm Still Happy That's If I Got A Dog Beside's Me Always.

Why won't you come back for me and to me. I'm so lonesome. Depressed without you. Do you ever think about me? Do you even miss me?
I think about you everyday, I miss you everyday. Somehow I wished I can go back and relive that life we were living together.

Yes I know you made those two years ******* yourself, with me always being there near you. I'm sorry we got attached to eachother, we got to close and I want to be that close to you again.

You made me pretty.
You made me feel pretty.
You are my prettiness.

Which i should be ****** thankful to have you or to atleast onced your near.

You and I, we were deadly together.

So much poems made a day. I'm so amazed that the system could handle all that.

I loved you once
You left
I don't  think I can love you again
You left a couple of furtures behind
Decided on leaving long ago
I didn't  realize it will be this hard
Now that you're gone
I'm lost
With my own
To look forward to
We will have to try and get somewhere in life.
Just to see happiness again
God, help me.
Creator is my God
Forgive me and guide me once again
I had it all
Alcohol ruined this plan we had
Didn't even get to see this little guy.
Couple more weeks and I will be happy.
In which there is no father for my unborn child
I'm not afraid, or scared
I know I got this.

Now honey, don't be stingie with your love!

Almost every night, I cry myself to sleep. I got told to go see the doctor today, he'll give you anti-depression meds. I told her I'll get through this myself. My uncle John came by today, he came to see if I'm alright, guess he knew. Uncle John was the second person I rejected about talking. I've been forced into a closet till I was 18, now its hard to talk about my feelings and all that. But look on the brightside I'm shutting them out. I stay up late at night thinking, its hard to go to sleep when I'm sober, or a bit burnt out. Everyday is a new day I have that written down on a note to remind myself why I'm still alive.

I miss me!

I am always scared. I'm always stuck at tha same house. "You know I want to go home too. Right.?" I got addicted to drugs, always hanging around the drugdealers. Getting high, that feeling everytime. Its a bad feeling, but it feels good.

When I go home, sometimes late at night. I am depressed, always have all that time to think. All I Care about is getting high.

I will quit in an nother day.
               *wrote this while i'm high.

Peices of me went missing.

Oh you know just smokin dat dope. Lol. Who's all from Saskatchewan CA?

Every night I'm here in this place. This house makes me feel scared, alone, afraid. What am I afraid of? Why do I feel alone? Who am I scared of? Questioned myself all of these questions that appear in my thoughts, sometimes I think someone else can hear my thoughts. I can feel someone in my thoughts, and I can feel their thoughts. We can hear eachother thoughts in this strange way. I will be OK. Someone told me that I'm OK and that I will be OK. Am I OK? I am in this room. I'm trapped, walked myself right into it and I didn't know it till now. Its just something I see. Complicating writing, or talking about whatever, haven't really spoken to anyone.