What if I don't feel the happiness I read in books
What if I don't get a glimpse of my own happy ever after
What if I don't really exist for a purpose I'm just a cruel joke
What if I end up not making people around me happy
What if my fears and anxiety never leave me alone
What if my nightmares become my reality
What if I stop being able to express myself

What if there isn't a soulmate out there for me
What if all my Nos were meant to be my Yes
What if all the truth I told never did anybody good
What if I never get to feel the glory of Heaven
What if I came into this world with an alignment
What if I never amount to anything
But what if you end up achieving your dreams
What if you felt happiness like never before
What if you overcome all your worries
Just what if?

Dear 2030 Me,
How's the world over there,did the world get calm?
Am I even sure you made it there
I just hope you are there making us proud
Sorry to disturb you I know you must be busy with work
I hope you don't see it as work more like something you love
I hope you feel accomplished in every way
I hope we've gotten closer to God and his words
I hope we've gotten over your fears and embraced our flaws

Hey I hope you found love!
How is she?
Is she what we imagined or more?
How's the feeling of waking up to her everynight?
Did you find people who saw more than our fake smiles?
Did you overcome your demons and anxiety?

I hope I won't do something to drag our plans back
I'm barely making it right now with making the right decisions
But if it's all I imagined I guess I made the right decisions
I definitely know you've made mum and dad proud
I hope you are still friends with our old friends
Don't worry I want to know the rest when I get there
So stay safe and keep your head held up high

Nowadays I feel way too down for my age
Nowadays I feel deserted like I was left in a cage
I feel emotionless like I'm drowning in my past
I feel nothing regardless of my mental state
I'm used to eminent loneliness and hate
I don't mean to feel all these
I just really want know that bliss
Not a disney oriented love story that ends with a kiss
I'm just looking for somebody to rekindle the sparks
I'm just waiting for somebody to give me clarity
A love that's golden and sweet like it's charity
I want to find comfort in somebody's arms
I know love comes looking divine but set up for harms
I'm just a poet looking for hope in the hopeless cycl

I need nothing more
(for you are everything I seek, darling)

I fear no fate
(for you are my fate,my love)

whatever the world has installed
(you'll be mine, I will be yours)

whatever lies people author
(I'd trust you with my heart and nothing less)

trust your secrets and heartaches with me
(I'd still love you with every atom of my being)

trust I'll be there when you don't ask
(for isn't that the love we signed up for)

fear not about my love
(for I'd love you in numberless forms and numberless times)

fear not about commitments
(for I'd love you with my words and actions)

this my love and my feelings
(I carry in my heart where you reside)