Spilled little things

Spilled little things 3d

Doubts

Can you hear them?
They whisper,
you don’t deserve it, run, you’ll never deserve it

Or are they just in my head?
you’re going to f••• this up, run now, don’t let him catch you

You must hear them too.
Please.
Please tell me you hear them.
he only wants you because he doesn’t know you, run, before it’s too late

Or are they just in my head?
push him away, build the barricade, run, run faster than ever before, he doesn’t want you, he could never want you.

Spilled little things 6d

Dissociation

unintended act
separating me from it
try to save myself

Spilled little things Apr 30

Stranger no longer

One new day.
That’s all it takes.

One glance,
one single sentence
can lead to conversations
lasting hours.

Stranger
no longer.

A fleeting moment captured,
transforms into a routine.

One day.
That’s all it takes.

Apr 29

Thomas P Owens Sr

the saddest part

the saddest part of dying
is what you forgot to do
the ideas born in lucid dreams
that vanished in the hue
the mountains never seen
the oceans never crossed
the poems written on scraps of paper
a lover's smile now lost
the tears you held inside
the chances never taken
the landscape of your life
an oasis now forsaken

#old #older #reflections #undone

Spilled little things Apr 21

Like the bad habit you are (Quitting you, cold turkey)

I’m going to quit you,
like the bad habit you are.

You’re a vice,
both constrictive
and a weakness.
You’ve already wasted so much of my time.

So I’m quitting you,
like the bad habit you are.
Cold turkey.

And I don’t believe I’ll regret it.

No more writing about you, wasting time thinking about you.

Spilled little things Apr 17

Day 102 (How do you know when you’re ready?)

Is there a moment where it clicks?
Maybe you feel your pieces fall into place and just know.

Is there a moment of clarity where you realize you’re whole (enough) once again, and ready to brave the world?
Your precious, fractured heart is mended to the point of giving it again.

Or is it something where you realize you just have to jump?
If you don’t do it now,
maybe you never will.

Day 102/182