It seems to me that whenever I need you,
You're not here,
and whenever I'm with you,
I'm overridden in fear,
I tell myself that I shouldn't stay,
And hope to god that you'll leave someday,
But we both know that I can't sneak away,
So with you.. I'll never see the light of day.

I sit here,
Starring into a lit screen,
The colours of you,
are all I see,
as I gaze into your eyes,
and to your lovely smile,
I trace your lips,
just for a little while.

I go and search for where you're hiding,
I see that you're wearing a big brown coat,
Are you trying to hide your body?
Has someone destroyed your hearts hope?
I'd love to help you in this situation,
But I keep my distance from you,
If you just talked to me,
Maybe I could show you, that I'm your antidote.

I watch you laugh,
through the window from a far,
Who is this guy you're with?
Is funny? Is he smart?
Would he ever take your coat?
When will you ever notice,
That I am your antidote.

All I want to do is have fun,
but all you tell me is that I ****,
practice makes perfect? wasn't that your words?
why can't you just let me learn?
You don't like it when I talk back,
but still you proceed to make me feel bad,
if what I'm doing is not funny,
I'm sorry but I'm not trying to entertain you, honey.

I've lost my rotten heart,
My smile is just a illusion,
I am but a ghost,
lost in a void of confusion,
attention is what I seek,
so could somebody please, find me?

The day I saw you,
my heart knew,
you were the girl I wanted to be with,
no matter what happened,
I would always love you,
and it seems to me,
that happened for you too.

I hear the banging on my door,
I hear the screaming in my head,
I see the awful pictures in my head,
and the awful videos on repeat,
and it makes me wish that I was dead.

I love the idea of letting all my problems and feelings go,
but I am afraid to die,
I feel like I am lost in a void and am numb, and I wish I didn't,
but then again, I am afraid of feeling things, and if I feel more than I do now...
people will wish I didn't.

Why can't I just be happy with one?
Why couldn't I have just fallen in love?

I wish I could say,
let's start over,
but truly I will never forget,
the time that you were my lover,
the time were we used to laugh together,
run around, send memes and make jokes together.

I cannot forget the risks we took,
and honestly,
I don't want to look,
at any other guy, girl, or human,
because what we had,
made me feel superhuman.

I remember the rough road we went down,
but we always always figured our problems out,
we were always together, never apart,
until the day,
our conversation had no laugh.

You had your reason to end us,
and it was a good reason,
I just wish you knew how to focus in class,
because we could still be together,
and the relationship could last.

The shadows follow me,
everywhere I go,
into every void of unknown,
and through all the battles,
they'll follow.

The flower flows in the wind,
it is a pretty flower,
a beautiful daisy,
the bees are buzzing,
it's a nice sunny day.

But then a little girl,
tries to take that away,
she picks up the flower,
rips it right out of the ground.

This flower starts to slowly die,
just because of girl's interaction,
and all the flower can do,
is loose its attraction.

She was special,
she said she loved me but she had to go,
she said she loved me and I should know,
but if she loved me...
why'd she let me go?...

I feel the butterflies kicking in,
the giggles beginning,
and I am hoping,
that there is something new beginning

The little boy starts to cry,
because his dad isn't very nice,
his dad grabs a hammer today,
and the little boy cries his breath away.

This feeling is unbearable,
these feelings are stupid,
these feelings are wrong.

But they won't stop.
They don't stop.
They never stop.
It only numbs until you find someone you like more.
And that *****.

Is it weird,
that this stranger,
is catching my eye?

Is it weird that this stranger,
is way older,
then my time?

Is it weird,
that we only know each other online?

Is it weird,
that I teach him things,
all of his desire?

And is it weird,
that I taught him,
how to play with fire?

One day I'm this,
one day I'm that,
all alone,
in my own trap,
feeling so cold,
questioning all,
walking around,
feeling so small

I'm biting my lips,
looking at the sky,
thinking about you,
all the time,
It won't stop,
these feelings inside,
failing my tests,
getting nothing right.

What am I supposed to do,
when I can't have you,
this night is too long,
I can't see you now,
I've got to stay strong,
Stronger than you,
It could make me blue,
but it is worth a try,
because you were naughty,
whilst I was nice.

I stare at him,
and see the moon,
I look at her,
and see the truth.

And I do not know what to do,
because they're beautiful,
but...
they have no clue.

I feel strong,
stronger than ever,
because he was my best lover,
and I don't care anymore, that we're over.

You are so kind,
and you are hilarious,
I'm so happy I can call you mine,
and I'm so happy when it's the two of us,
you are my world,
my moon and sun,
my whole universe,
and your so much fun,
I really enjoy spending time with you,
you make so nervous,
I really hope we last,
you're so precious.

I am all yours.
It *****.
Because I never asked.
To be in love.

I followed you through the rain,
I followed you through the sun,
I followed you through the moon,
I followed you through the sea,
I followed you through the bad times,
and the good times,
and I'll follow you through the end,
because I want to, baby.

I sit there and cry,
as I think that I want to die,
like the only right thing to do,
is commit suicide.

You promised me,
you promised me you loved me,
and that you would forever and ever,
forever...

I guess your proposal meant nothing, hey?
I guess you told a different girl you loved them every day?
I guess I was just too broken, hey?
And now I cry every day.

This *****,
I love you,
I hate you,
I just want to **** you,
But then again,
I just want to kiss you,

Even the voices in my head are confused,
and to want you back,
I have no excuse,
and I promised you I'd get rid of the noose...
and I don't want to break a promise,
but it may break very soon.

I listen to our song,
I listen and cry,
read old messages,
you told me you loved me,
but you lied.

The memory,
the pain,
all the kisses,
smoke,
screaming,
broken mirrors,

but everything changed tonight,
she's gone,
no more kisses,
pain,
smoke,
screaming,
and broken mirrors.

All my bottled up feelings,
all these lost emotions,
falling,
turning to tears,

they say that the eyes are the windows to the soul,
and if that's true...
what does it mean if...
my eyes were blue,
but they are now just white,
and all I wanna do all night...
is just cry.

It all kicks in,
the love I just lost,
so now love to me is a sin,
like people say,
its a drug people take every day,
the pain,
the loss,
all the tears,
all from non- proscribed peers.

He did it,
he left me,
I understand why,
but I cannot stop the memories from flashing by,
all I can do for now,
is just cry,
because he was something special,
and that's not a lie.

The fire burns my mouth,
twas a kiss of evil,
stinging, ripping, tearing,
I thought he was faithful...

nauseous...
I hear a voice screaming,
open the tent...
and there is my best friend screaming...
"help help," she says,
but I could not care less,
for she was being held by a,
big harmless,
shadow...
maybe it was furry,
had claws sharp open,
but for that night,
my tent stayed open...

I wake up the next morning,
for there she is,
not dead,
cooking us,
marshmallows instead...

I watch the fire burn,
releasing calmness,
to fly through the room,
for this candle,
is worshipped too,
and I am highly grateful,
for my ability to manipulate,
the fire,
to make it lean,
to make it grow,
for I worship this power,
and hope that it will never go.

The roses fall,
from her arms,
as she watches,
her boyfriend from a far,
crying, weeping, falling down,
for she'd break his tender body down.

We haven't been in touch,
and suddenly you reach out,
telling me you care?
what is this about?

I do not understand,
how people can be happy,
for all the little things,
really bother me,

I do not understand,
how it feels,
to live with yourself,
and feel you are a big deal.

As I sit here,
alone in the dark,
I see these all these creatures,
holding my fears,
whispering "alone you are,
alone you shall be"

I sit and think,
what if it's true,
what if I am alone,
for all of eternity...
and for no one to ever be there for me...
just there...
crying in the dark...
alone in the woods...
I need to find something sharp.

Terrified she was,
staring at her coven,
for the high priest was,
swallowing poison,

In front of the Dark Lord,
in front of the sisters,
brothers, and warlocks,
and of course witches.

It whispers into my ear,
"You shall be the one,
to be sacrificed to the devil once you're done"
For I worship him,
for I do,

So why are you,
threatening me with a noose?
For years ago,
witches were hung,
so why now are you going back?
"For the ceremony has begun"...

I like to think,
that there is a tomorrow,
that yesterday,
we weren't hollow...

For us to be,
the nice ones,
for us, to of never fired that shotgun...

To know that you are safe under the law,
for you to know,
that there is always more...

More to do,
with life than breeding,
even though,
that it is our only meaning.

The mist flew up past the mountain,
down past the stream,
down to the river,
where all the animals be,

birds chirping,
deer skipping,
ants running,
and snakes slithering,

It was a carefree day,
evening,
and night,
for there,
the animals didn't fight.

When you look at this girl,
she seems happy,
all you see her do is laugh.

But one day,
you'll hear the news...
that she ended her life in the bath.

Do you ever just sit there,
and think about life?
How we all are just here,
to stop the humans' demise?

Our purpose is to breed,
to have no greed,
but some people...
can't follow that,

and that's okay,
no one is perfect,
for everyone is flawed,
and we all think we're worthless,
and nothing matters anymore,
we're all helpless,
blind to the light,
for Jesus and God,
to lift us up into the afterlife.

The little girl just stood there,
staring at the woman,
they were laughing,
they were talking about the little girl.

Her big sister was making fun of her,
the little girl felt betrayed,
she went to her room crying,
for her big sister was her role model,
her big sister was popular, pretty, smart and talented.

The big sister noticed,
she followed her little sister back into her bedroom,
she apologised,
"for that's what people talk about,
you aren't annoying, you're amazing".

The little girl fell asleep happily,
whilst her big sister and her friends were snorting...candy,
one of the girls grabbed a knife and went to the little girl,
their hand couldn't move closer to the girl.

The friend turned around to see the sister behind her,
asking what she was doing,
the little girl awoke,
she was crying,
the knife flew out of the friend's hand and slowly went to the sister.

The friend left as the big sister went to the little girl,
"I'm so sorry" she pleaded,
the little girl whispered "It's okay, you protected me"
the big sister nodded as she arose the knife...
the next thing you know,
there was a four-year-old with a dagger through the back of her head.

The boy awoke,
knowing he messed up,
messaging his girl,
that they're done.

He called up crying,
slowly dying...
For she had died that night.
And he was the reason why.

He ran to her house,
her mother answered the door,
there were cops and ambulance,
covering the floor.

Her mother passed him a note,
what it said wasn't good,
for she had slit her throat,
because of no one in her neighbourhood,
understood...

The words read as,
"I am done with this life,
I am done,
I love you with all my heart,
can't you see?
I will love you for all eternity,
I hope that you will think of me"...
Tears start to tremble down the boy's face,

He runs back home,
tears filling his eyes,
drowning him in his lies,
and for he was alone,

He grabbed a piece of paper,
and wrote
"I love her too much. I cannot see my life without her. I will love her for all of eternity.  She was my everything. And now we're both nothing.". He grabbed a knife and cut vigorously at his neck...

A week later,
his ex-girlfriend,
arrived back home,
from her aunt's house,
to find out that not only her twin had committed suicide,
so did her boyfriend.
And they both were the reason why.