Katrina Zechman

Katrina Zechman Apr 2017

I'm sitting here mystified, numbed with pain
To lose someone so close, yet so far away.
Some say you can't lose something you never had.
If that is true, then how can I feel this sad?
I felt more close to you
More than i have to anyone else around me
Because I felt you so deep within me.
So small, and innocent no eyes to see
Yet so full of golden life was felt already.
Disbelief and uncertainty consume my brain
As the tears fall like rain.
my Heart pounding hard, feeling like thunder.
The sorrows and guild down under just can't be explained
"Does he know how much I love him?"
"Dose he know how sorry i am to never hold him?"
I already miss him, I'd do anything to kiss him,
To hold him and embrace the presence of him
to one day touch his skin in the solft clouds above
I can only hope for one of these days
ill be with him again and hold my angle

only some will understand what this is about this happend to me a couple of years ago

#22614 #myangel #lost

Katrina Zechman Apr 2017

The Undoing

My undoing is you.
My unbecoming is certain.
I had my hopes up. But you undid them too.
My undoing is yours.
You strip me till I'm plain and cold, filled of nothingness.
The meaning is differed
the undoing of history
the undoing of life.
My soul is filled of gold. It's getting chipped but the undoing of your cold hands.
Your my undoing.
My my unbecoming

#pain #unbecoming

Katrina Zechman Jan 2017

dark intensity

I drowned my soul in Coke and ***
Just ‘cause I cant stand what the hell I’ve Done.
Ya see mother ******* like me are just plain Crazy,
Kinda like a German **** or Japanese Kamikaze.
***** dudes don’t understand what kinda **** im On,
But by the time they find out I havem’ hung in a tree at the crack of Dawn.
Then the next night I pullem’ down,
Choppem’ up from there neck to the ground,
Then I feast on there body like a Cannibal,
And I release the power of Mr. Hannibal.
It feels so good to let this Out,
Never forget to live life to the fullest and never leave any Dought.
‘Cause once a ******* calls you Out,
Grab them by the neck and snap it in two,
Before you turn around and he does it to you..
And I’m not lien…
I’ll burry you 6feet deep and alive
But slowly Dien, with your whole family Cryin’..
I’m gonna slow it down right here,
‘Cause I know ya ears can barely stand to hear,
What I’m Sayin.
But by the time I hit the end of this verse,
You’ll think my **** name is Satan!
And don’t test me boy ‘Cause you already know I’m not Playin'

Katrina Zechman Dec 2016

Wildflower

Barely seconds into something, already hooked.
Why question anything if you know your stuff?
You know best that it’s easy to be overlooked,
Especially when you’re a diamond in the rough.

Undiscovered diamonds are beautiful no less,
Though nobody looks, for it seems a time waste,
It didn’t catch the eye, the moment won’t press,
Still there sits a wonderful creation, ever chaste.

Seemingly distant, yet inside shines with allure,
If not an established masterpiece it is known,
The unfamiliar treasure has naught to reassure,
The hallucination of becoming a precious stone.

All the treasured pieces and items universally,
Either tell a great tale, or will fetch a fine price.
The Wildflower diamond untold commercially,
And without a story, could be mistaken for ice.

Katrina Zechman Dec 2016

Daddy

Open your eyes young soul,
to envision your past lives
to learn from your mistakes,
which over time, one has come to hate

To embrace the light you once have shown,
only to find my faith has grown.
to strengthen your mind only to prove,
that you are the one
whom is truly blind.

Lift your head to speak to the world,
buried behind your cowardess
you feel but only a little girl.
DADDY

Wake up from this awful dream;
you and I , we're on the
same team.

Turn to face the facts, the sky's the limit
and daughter's in love,
this is but one, your horizon lacks.
Look into my face

for my happiness you should embrace.
For you to turn away,
I wait to hear from you
day after day.
DADDY

Don't shut out your only little girl,
for she is a Diamond, No, more
precious than a Pearl.

Don't turn away in her time of need,
What will that show?
Nothing but greed.

Blocking the truth from reaching your heart,
this was bound to happen,
you knew before you ever hit start.
DADDY

*I wish you to be happy
and I know you wish me too,
but with out love one truly can't be.

I grant
yourself has always shunned.
Now, I believe it true,
whether or not you do.

I say this last
in hopes it may pass.
No given to me
from one of God's many soldiers

This may hurt you so, but in this truth
you broke your daughters heart
there is always room to fix.

Katrina Zechman Dec 2016

Crying out for daddy

I need you,
To be there for me

Where have you been?
Why must you avoid it?
Do you not love me?
What did I do so wrong
To make you turn away?

You didn't walk,
You ran away,
Far, far away

You made me think,
You didn't love me

You were gone,
My whole life,
And now you're back

Yet you want nothing,
To do with me

Can you not see the little girl
Deep inside the young woman,
Crying out for her daddy

Craving for your acceptance,
Waiting for the day
To hear you say,
I love you,
And mean it.

You ran away,
Far, far away

You made me think,
You didn't love me

You were gone,
My whole life,
And now you're back

Yet you want nothing,
To do with me

Can you not see the little girl
Deep inside the young woman,
Crying out for her daddy

Katrina Zechman Dec 2016

Father, a hard man, With gentle eyes,

Skin leathered by the sun
penetrated with motor oil
covers his short stocky body
like canvas over boulders.
He sweats gasoline and morning dew.
My father peals his mind for me...
Discarding seeds,
bearing the fruits of his wisdom
in calloused hands;
a reminder of freedom sacrificed
for my freedom,
my future.
My father is a hard man...
With gentle eyes,
thick framed glasses never hide immortality
dancing in them on my reflection.
In them I am perfect
and if not,
they are forgiving.