My bones are broken
My eyes are raw
I’m not the same girl
As I was before
I’m battered and broken
Weary and old
Not in body but spirit
Or so I am told
Nothing matters now
But I still care too much
I want to be free now
But all that I touch
Shrivels and blackens
It all turns to coal
Everything has been tainted
By the dark in my soul
I’m being punished
I’m serving my time
I try to get through this
Keep saying ‘I’m fine’
But that’s just lies
The stuff that I say
To keep myself going
As my life slips away

How many people I’ve lost
All the friends passing through
But I can’t get too close
So what do I do?
When everyone I care about
Everyone I need
Just leaves me here broken
What a sad life indeed
I rely on these people
I trust them with my heart
I cry with them
And talk to them
And smile when we’re apart
About happy conversations
And all the jokes and laughs
But I can’t stop to hold on
Or catch them as they pass
You’ve still got me he says
But now he must go
I promise I won’t leave you
How could they know
How many people I’ve trusted
That all have gone past
One day if I’m lucky
One of them will last

I see you round corners
In the reflections of windows
Sometimes I feel you there
When I look in the shadows
I feel you are waiting
And I know you are close
But no one else can see you
Yet wherever I go
I can see you are watching
Waiting for me to loose my grip
Because I have to hold tightly
Or else I will slip
I’ve been so close
And I feel you with every breath
But that’s what happens
When you’re dancing with death

I needed you
I was dying
Too quickly
Falling in to the darkness
And I couldn’t get a grip
You were my handhold
My lifeline
You saved me
My love for you
Was keeping me alive

But the line is round my neck now
It’s tightening
My hands are bleeding
From holding
I need to let go
But I can’t
So what do I do
I can’t escape my love for you

Cut me open
Look inside
Beneath broken bones
I am alive
And everything I’ve lost
Has left a scar
So continue your search
But don’t go too far
Into the corners
And the dark despair
If you really look closely
You’ll see everywhere
The pain of love
Of loving you so
And how the cracks would deepen
Every time you chose to go
Because I loved you so much
But it tore me apart
I know you can see this
As you hold my beating heart

What do you want?
Who do you want me to be?
What can I do
When you say I can’t be me
These are tears of frustration
And I can’t help but cry
I feel so much hatred
But it’s directed inside
You tell me to change
But worry when I do
So how can I cope now
I’ll change to please you