My body aches from the physically abuse I put myself through, The pain is only temporary from that point. I go through more... jumping through hoops, battling through the emotions I know that are real. But I get kicked down and pin to the ground. Then, the memories play before me... I see my friends and I laughing, I see me running and training, I see my fiance hugging me and kissing me...

I fight to keep her safe, she makes everything worth it. She held me when I was down, gave me meaning, she even forgave me when I hurt her...

I can't stop now. All I care about is being able to see her again, hug her close, kiss her, and marry her. She IS my other half. So, don't ever say farewell to her. Don't ever say good-bye, that means you are ready to let go... Instead, say "talk to you later" or "see you soon". That way, you assured yourself that you will be able to see and speak with her...

So, until we meet again

-W. Andrade

I wanted you to be the last thing on my mind
I wanted you to be the reason I close my eyes
But I can't sleep

And oh god I wanted to be your high
But everything I said it went unheard
And everything you saw with eyes straight blurred
Became our downfall

Cos you say I drink and I smoke and I talk too much
But I know you lied when you said that you just gotta go and save yourself

So hear me out
You know everybody talks girl
And it means nothing till you let it
But if you keep second guessing then theres only gonna be one end

But you can leave if you really want to
And you can run if you feel you have to
And I'll be fine if you ever ask me
I know its hard, but no one said its easy
Fallings easy
But theres only one way up

So I been thinking that I think too much
And I can't sleep but I can dream of us
And I've been seeing **** like horror cuts
Its burning down, I gotta drown this out
And you said you need me to let this go
Buts its who I am or am I just losing it
Cos you said jump and I went first but fallings always been my downfall

And you say I drink and I smoke and I talk too much
But I know you lied when you said that you just had enough and save yourself
So hear me out
You know everybody talks girl
And it means nothing till you let it
And if you keep second guessing then theres only gonna be one end

But you can leave if you really want to
And you can run if you feel you have to
And I can drink if I feel I have to
I know its hard, but I can't feel like I used to
Like I used to
Cos I used to defy gravity
Defy gravity
Goodbyes keep dragging me
Down
And I'm fighting gravity
Defying gravity
I tried but I keep falling
Cos fallings easy
But it only brings you down

(looking blanking into the reflection, lost in thought)
[in thoughts]
?-Why?

?-Why'd you do it?

Me-You made me, you drowned me, killed me.

Me-I don't even get to see myself until I look in the mirror from your eyes

?-You got weak, I helped you get stronger since you asked

Me-I didn't ask, you took over. You burned off my wings, desecrated my armor that I wore honorably.

?-Because you asked for my power, and now you will parish

Me-LIKE HELL I WILL


(looks into the mirror, and punishes it)

[Grabs a piece of glass and crushes it, grabs a bigger edge]

?-So you think you're stronger than me?

Me-If you are a part of me, then you will know that I will crush you

[Fights the temptation to cut myself]

Me- I will win, I have to. I need to tell her, not you.

?-how? HOW ARE YOU SO STRONG!?

Me-Because, she is a part of me. She has my other half, and I won't let you make me destroy myself anymore.

[crushes the edge with the other hand]

Casey... I will make this up... It is my duty to fix this...
I will make this right...
My nightmares are over, the orders are done.
I will not fail...

Athena would want me to get this right, everyone of my friends who I saw get buried would want me to.

I'm sorry...

Am I the son in or out of law
How many chances do I get before my head explodes

What's going on
What's going on
When I look into the mirror there's another gun

When I tell you I'll be fine
I still want you by my side
Please just try to read between the lines
Where's my comfort in the undefined
Please just try to read between the lines

If I'm your son do you hear my call
Even if everything I touch will slowly turn to stone

What's going on
What's going on
When I look into the mirror there's another gun

When I tell you I'll be fine
I still want you by my side
Please just try to read between the lines
Where's my comfort in the undefined
Please just try to read between the lines

What is the poison inside of me
The sickness in my head
Put me to sleep while I find a cure for the sickness in my head

We are the sons
We are the daughters
The generation of disorder

What is the poison inside of me
The sickness in my head

When I tell you I'll be fine
I still want you by my side
Please just try to read between the lines
Where's my comfort in the undefined
Please just try to read between the lines

Don't you hold your breath
Cause I'm not coming down
The battlefields have left me only scars
And floating in the dark
I'm swimming in the sound
Of voices that should never been apart

[Chorus:]
Darker than the blood
Higher than the sun
This is not the end
You are not the only one

With venom on their tongues
They paint it on the walls
Where justice doesn't have the strength to hold
The higher that they climb
The harder they will fall
And we will break their bones until they fall

[Chorus:]
Darker than the blood
Higher than the sun
This is not the end
You are not the only one

Ah, oh
[x8]

Darker than the blood (Darker than the blood)
Higher than the sun (Higher than the sun)
This is not the end (This is not the end)
You are not the only one (You are not the only one)

This is not the end
(You are not the only one)
You are not the only one
(Higher than the sun)
(This is not the end)
This is not the end
(You are not the only one)
You are not the only one

To be lost of something you had so close to you,
To be looking for what will fill the void, that.. emptiness....
You truly don't know what you got til it's gone.
You keep looking, only finding breed crumbs and trickery.
Then, you see her. The most beautiful creation you'll ever see.
Her wonderful golden blonde hair, beautiful ocean blue eyes, and her gorgeous personality...
Then... she disappears...
You just can't wait any longer, and you gear up
The search... has began.