One day, you wake up just another day
Going to school,
Studying and learning
Christmas is almost here you know
And a man, a crazy man who apparently did not have any proper teachings, who was crazy enough to pull out a gun and point twenty children until they were dead
What kind of man was that
What kind of creature
Because that was not a man
A man has a heart and feelings
That was not a man
That was monster who destroyed an opportunity to 20 kids 20 hopes 20 miracles
20 new lives...
God, take them with you
Make them your young angels
And show them a better life
In your city of peace and joy
The were ripped away but we know they are with you, they have you...

Some people leave your heart, but when they come back,,,
What do you do?
Do you welcome them back
Maybe interview them see why the're back
Do you turn on them like they did on you
Do you run towards or away from them?
Are they worth more time?
What should I do,
Wait and expect another heart broken or instead expect a better ending?
How do you deal with a person coming back to your life!

life takes away the most important things to you
"its to make you stronger"
Puts in your way the worst obstacles
"its to make you stronger"
separates you from loved one
"its to make you stronger"
And gives you the best people in the end
"Its the reward for patience

Blind people can't see,
Yet they notice the difference from real and fake
Other people can see
Yet they decide to ignore reality and keep fake
How ironic!

Deaf people can't speak
Yet they fight for their beliefs
People that can speak
Decide to stay shut and wait

Paralyzed people can't walk
Yet they get up and run to their dreams
Some people can walk
Yet they decide to stay and forget their dreams

Is it just me or is this wrong
Both types of people should
See
Speak
And run...

I want to survive
I wont give up
I'll keep trying
But the question is FOR WHAT?

For the crumbs
For the waist
For an impossibility
For something that doesn't exist

I don't want what's left of it
I want it all
Yea it is true:
I won't be easy
But you bet I'll try
An if I don't make I'll keep trying
And if I never make then
I wasn't meant to be.

But
I don't want to waste my time
How do I know when it's time
To leave and not turn back
How do I know if I'm doing the right things
How can I know

I'm trying to forget
Forget that I fell for you
Forget your sweet smile
Forget that tender light in your eyes
Forget your glorious voice

Im trying to forget that
You are there
And not here
I'm trying to forget that
Everything I do
Has nothing to do with you

I'm sorry for feeling thus way
I never asked for Your love
I asked for friendship and understanding
I tried to give you
Many things hoping you could love me

But you never did
Now I'm trying to forget
That you exist
Because I'm tired of fighting
To try to keep you

I'm trying to forget that I actually love you.

A silly dream is one
Where you love me
Where we are together
Where there is happiness
Where everything is in our favor

A silly dream is us together
Because I love you but
You don't love me back
Loves needs of two not one

They fall form the skies to my feet
They glow in the dark and they lead me through a maze
Ribbons of all colors that  play with my emotions
The blue one makes me feel satisfied
Yellow is my peace
Red is what makes me love with passion
Purple are days when it rains and i love the rain
Black is my hope, because the darkest moments,
are my bravest situations

Ribbons
Something that reunites me with something far from home.
Something deep down in my heart.
It is waiting to come out but those ribbons
bring it all out for everyone to see.

What do the mean
What do they represent
Each color has their uniqueness
each shape gives them truthful senses

The blue one can call
It can tell you to relaxit can light up and
Start dancing on and off
That means its happy to see you.

The green one tries to make you
See beyond
It has at least one hundred sparkles around it
It come with the entire family

But the stay still and together
The rather have the warmth of their
Family always in one direction

I'm outside
waiting
my nose is colder than an ice cube
My feet are getting numb
But I'm still waiting.

When will you get here
hopefully soon
Because in getting a runny nose
my body is terembling
My bones can feel the cold

My fingers have that warmth feeling
I keep them inside my pockets
But as I take them out to call you
the wind tries to push them back
I'm guessing the winds wants me not to call you
the parts of my body that are warm has to be my heart.

Its the only thing not harmed by the wind
But when will you get here
Can you hurry up
My heart is becoming cold
I'm getting more cold every minute

When will you get here?
I'm guessing never!

I messed up really big
I realize my mistake wasn't
making the error,
My mistake was:
That I loved you

I gave you my heart
You promised to take care of it
With your life

You lied
I tried to forgive
But you broke me
And you killed me
Now thanks to you I am:
Stronger and cant trust anyone
with the heart you broke
And even now some crumbs
Are missing!

Im writing a story about you
Im trying to see what is real
And what is not
Im trying to find
A new pathway
That leads me to you
It might be hard
But I admit, That i will try
And go ahead
I demand A little respect
For the ones that are already there
It is hard
TO see me suceed
But I know Someday
Ill be there too
I will give it all a chance
TO never stop and never let go
I wont loose this race again
Because this time, You are on the other side
Other side
Other side
And I know I cant replace
The memories and the cries
But I can make new themes to add a smile
to the feast
Here today gone tomorrow
I will make it just for you
Here today Gone tomorrow
And I will make to be with you.

I don't care if the rain
never stops
I don't care if the storm
Gets harder
I don't care if it's dark
for ever
I don't care if the world
Is against me

All i care about is that i am standing up
You can bruise up my face
You can cut of my arms
You can take away my house,
My car
My money
You can leave me blind
Or leave me Mute

But you will never take away my faith
Is that all you got
I can take more
I can handle with more stuff
Because I have my god

Try to trip me again
Ill be ready
Let it come
Throw me the best you've got
I am here and by my side
Is my God,
So keep throwing more and More...

I hate you
I love you

I met you, I saw you ask a dangerous virus
I didn't believe were you even real
I thought you were some type of bad joke
I thought you were some kind of sad mistake
I met you, and i saw you *** less

I met you, i was disgusted, until i got to know you
I left this life for you
I loved you
I couldn't believe how much you meant to me
I couldn't believe that all that time you were there,
You were actually the only person who loved me.

I hated you, then I love you
A thin line separated us
A thin line got us together.

You know,
My dad is a mystery
My mom is a wonder
My Oldest brother is a surprise
My second Oldest brother is a changed man
My third oldest brother is a lazy head

That's my family
I was born far from here
I came here with them
They have been a great example
Each has their weakness and each have their strengths

They all make mistakes,
But who doesn't
Sometimes I cry because of them
Or cry for them
Sometimes i smile because of them
or laugh for them

But they are my family.
Some have left me,
but they came back
Some have hurt me
But they have apologized
Maybe they never said "I'm sorry"
But they have said i Love you
Maybe i didn't heart them say it
But i can feel it every time they say
"take care"
Because they worry
"See you soon"
Because they can't wait to see you
"Stay in touch"
Because they don't want to loose you!
"I love you"
Because they need you
"Ill think about you"
Because they cant afford to let you go!

They love me, because I love them
Positive plus Positive equals Positive,

I left and went missing
I ran into the woods and got lost
But now I found my way
I walked and ran and flew
And I got all the way here
It was hard to do this and it made it,
An unforgettable journey too

I did not know that part of the road was
The laughs and the cries
The roses and the vines
The peace and the noise
Both good and bad had made this journey
A hard one but sure to win

I heard you wanted to give up
I heard you were tired of fighting.
I heard that you were going to stop trying
Just throw away all the effort.

OK
Why should I care, I doesn't matter
It is your decision
But...

Years ago did you know that
Gandhi gave up too.
Yeap, he did and now his home is still being colonized by the British
And Martin Luther king As well as Mandela
They gave up after a bunch of policemen came after them
And now in their own homes they are servants
They use different restrooms
They enter through different doors
They are treated like aliens from outer space.

If the wouldn't have given up their homes
would be a peaceful place for them
They would have proven justice.
Now think of what you can accomplish
How are your friends going to see you,
when you tell them Don't give up
But you were the first to give up
Just say you were weak,
Well what if they are weak too.
Maybe even weaker than you ever were

Tell me what change is there for someone who doesn't keep trying
Tell me what will you do later on?
Regret it, feeling bad for not keeping a fight
The haters, the neighbors, the enemies
want you to turn weak in a fight
But it is your decision to fall
Or show them that your weak moments
make you even stronger

If you need a wing-man here I am
I am here to help you
But don't give up
Follow Gandhi, Martin, And Mandela
They never gave up for what they believed in
They were threatened to death
but the still stood up high
for the desendents and their follows

There are things I have done
There are things I have provoked
There are things I have said
There are things I have thought

Things I have done

I have been selfish
I have been mad
I have done mistakes
I have done new things

I have done bad
I have done good
I have been wrong
I have been right

Things I have said

I have said lies
I have said truth
I have said hope
I have said no

I have said hello
I have said goodbie
I have said litsen
I have said do not listen

I have said life
I have said death
I have spoken
I have said what I had to say

You probably don't know who i am
You know my name, and know somethings about me
But the fact that you don't know
And that matter the most is
That I love you

Since the day i met you, I have seen so much
I have learned about the word sacrifice
I have know what it is to love someone so hard
Sometimes tears come out.  
Thanks to you I cant sleep at night without,
checking my messages to see if you send me something

Your eyes have taught me that they can pull up a smile,
At any moment and in any occasion
I know that your eyes can't see my love,
But mine can find comfort in yours

It is not a lot, but I am happy
Just knowing that you are there makes me happy
Because no matter what happens I know that I can go to you

I love you
You might not know it yet, but I love you
more than anything else i have ever loved
I write this to you because i wanted you to know
That out there somewhere there is a girl who loves you
And thinks about you day and night, and dreams with you every day.

Some people are born to be loved
Some people are born to love
Some people are meant to love life
I was born for all these.
I did not know this until i met some friends.

I am young next to them.
They are mature and self aware
They give me the security i need to feel loved
I loved them, because they have given me something far,
from what is and what could be

They have taught me that i can do many things
They have helped me be a better person
I have learned to be strong
I have seen what life is thanks to them

I owe them my smiles of every morning
Those are true friends and a true inspiration
for everything

La vida es un viaje. Nunca me esperaba una caída en el amor conmigo, y yo con usted. Fue tan inesperado y tan salvaje, pero estábamos amor. Fuimos luz, fuimos a través, pero estábamos juntos. Una parte pero nunca sperated. Éramos jóvenes, infantil, absurdo. Hemos sobrevivido unos a otros, se puede sobrevivir a cualquier cosa y cualquier persona. Nos conocimos a cabo coinciden, y lo puso juntos. La vida es un viaje. Para el fuego sigue ardiendo brillante, y se ilumina los caminos seprate que están destinados a viajar. Pero ese fuego, que quema, que el calor .... siempre voluntad y un día, quemadura por nuestro amor. Al igual que el sol. Este es mi viaje. ¿Cuál es el tuyo?

~ Estrella Luciano and Natalia Torres (my spanish family)

Just woke up to the thought of love
Do I love the one
Who ignores me
Who knowsy love yet,
Turns around so he can't se me
The one who is waiting for an opportunity
The one who gets better everyday
The one whom I have to fake with

But in that love I love him
But then again
What is that word?
What does it mean?
Am I too young for it

Or do I love the one who
Laughs with not at me
the one who walks withe after school
The one who I know takes care of me
The one who seeks opportunities and doesn't just wait for one to come.
The one who make my heart beat fast with the thought

What is love?
Who is my love
How can I know difference?
Should I know the difference?

You carried me
You fed me
You were always there
You sacredness time, fun, freedom and a life time
For me

I know there is no one out there,
who would do what you have done for me
No one else would correct me the way you did
No on else would help me up every time i fall

There is no one else who would work,
24 hours a day for me
No one out there would know how to say no,
to what is not best from me.
I love you because you have done it possible for me to,
Actually be happy and be safe.

Thank you mom, for being my mom

I don't want a perfect guy
Because i am not perfect
I don't need  the hottest guy
Because i am not the hottest girl
I don't need the smartest guy
Because i am not the smartest girl

But i do need a guy who,
Loves me for my reality
not my fakes, nor my looks
Who respects and understand my decisions
Someone who listens to me
Someone who really cares about me

I don't care about what other boys are doing
I want him to be real
If i wanted fake I would go to the store,
and buy a teddy bear
I want him to see in my a true girl
And a true inspiration

I want him to know what he does
I want him to make mistakes,
because that way he is learning
I want him to be ambitious about the right things
Like work, love, and success
Not money, cars, or power

I want him to know that I am here,
For him
For his love
For his heart
For his thoughts
For the way he thinks
For him

I want a guy who can read this poem
And say That's me.

Do you ever feel left out?
Do you ever feel you have lost the point of life?
Have you ever loved someone so bad,
you could die for them?
Did you ever say that you would give anything,
so that they could love you back?
Have you ever felt that need to see that someone,
in a situation where you had a problem.

Yes, i know how you feel.
I have been there
Done that
It is something impossible to control
It is something that we can't explain

While your friends try to make you forget that someone
But you simply can't
When you try to ignore his smiles,
but somehow when you try to ignore it,
you notice them even more.

I know that feeling
Especially if he doesn't do the same with you
It is horrible
He catches you staring at him
And you make up an excuse,
Or simply look away faster than him

Does he stand out,
In a huge crowd, even more than your friends
Who can you talk to?
Who can relate to this?
Am I the only one?

I don't know why
But he is who I love
And no human power can change that!!!

I know that feeling
And i know more than one out there
Knows that feeling as good or even better than me.

Good Morning
It is a new day
It is time to begin on a new road
It is time to let the world see
That i might be one in one million
But i am one that can change the world

Good morning
It is a new beginning
A new opportunity to change mistakes
I love new days
because they offer you a new time
To help you mature
And help you grow up
Like the young awesome people we each are.

We all sin
with oour tongue
We say things we used
Against or towards someone else
I have said things
You have said thing
We all sin.

We say so many things
We hurt others
We all judge other people
We disagree with what we disagree

We might not be able to hold it in
We defend our love
We defend our beliefs
But that is a sin

We sometime think it is nothing
But somewhere and somehow it is.

There are road that lead us
Roads that take us
Paths that change us
And everything goes around
Know that I am here

You are special
You are strong
You are someone beyond everything
I have seen you heart
And I know it is pure

You have done mistakes,
But who hasn't
You are someone I would never forget
You are a great person that can change the world.

I am here you are there
We are apart
But I am here
When you need me

I will be the rock you need to sit on
I will be the bed you need to sleep on
I will be the home you need to stay in
I will be the light you need to guide you

I will be here
Day and night
Light or dark
Always waiting to hear your voice
For help of to help
When ever where ever just call me and I will always be here

It is hard to know what it means to be free
It is hard to find freedom
It is hard to find someone
Who loves you for you

But when you do, it is hard to change
Is it worth it
Are you willing to change for them
Until what point would you go to
for them

Would you set them free if they were meant to be free
Would you be strong enough to take that
What would you do
How would you control it
Why is it so hard to do something like that for you?

Maybe its not hard to do it
Just to handle it
Especially if you are alone
Who would hold you up when you fall
Would someone be there for you
Why are they there
Do they want something from you?
Are they there for the friendship,
Or for something else?

There is no time to answer these questions
Make all those mistakes but
learn to live with them
You have a million more things you can do.
Don't answer any of these questions
Because there is no more time
Don't live with YOLO

YOLO is telling you to die young
by doing everything when you are young
There is no time for doubts
there is time for  mistakes though.

I am here
I gave my apologies
I tried to be better
I tried to forgive
Maybe i never got a chance
I am sorry again for being that way

But it had been too long
I wasn't getting any younger
I wasn't expecting a present for
Christmas or my birthday
Just a card or a memory to have and keep

I am sorry that i had no way of knowing if you
were still there or if you left
I am sorry for not being patient enough
To say 5 more years just for you

But someone else came
He hugged me, like you never did
He took me and protected me
Like you never did
He saw in me something you
Never saw
He was there waiting for me
And i took my chance and found in him
That i do not have to wait for someone
That someone has to wait for me
And it is up to me to not take long

I am sorry but he was more than you ever were.

I waited
I really did
I did not move
I did not leave
I stayed there
For so long, Maybe too long

Everyday was the same
Just waiting and waiting
It never changed
It was too hard for me to do so but I still did
Now you decide to come back
After fifteen years
and now you come
It is hard to live this way
Knowing you might have forgotten
Or just thinking that you did not care

Maybe you did the right thing
But now it is to late
I am tired of waiting
I am tired of hurting my self for you
Thinking it was my fault
Thinking I was the reason for your departure
But now Just now It is to late
Too late because now I know
I don't have to keep waiting anymore

I am here
Sitting down
Waiting
Just me
Here,
All alone
Will you ever come
Whats going on

I have been waiting
seconds to minutes
hours to days
weeks to months
and to years.

But i am still here
Waiting hoping dreaming
Will you arrive
Should I keep waiting
What if when I leave
You arrive
I wont miss out
Or will you even dare to come

OK I'll wait 5 more minutes
Or days, or weeks or years
Just five more
No harm can be done with just 5 more
Right?

I am still here after five more years
It was not worth it
You will never come
My hopes are down
Where were you
During those fifteen years

Where were you
During my birthdays
During my graduations
During my celebrations
During my success
During my tears
I waited fifteen years.
And it is to late for me to keep waiting for you
Someone else already took you place...
To be continued...

I cant seem to understand
Is it me
Is it you
I cant really see the reality
Am I flying
Or is it just the wind
I don't know what is real
Is it that I am walking
Or just moving
Probably its my imagination

Is it possible that i am going crazy
Crazy for what?
For what could be
Could be that i am changing
Changing my future
Future mess i wont clean up.

Could it be that is not love
or just an illusion.
I have gone mad

Maybe I should try it
Maybe I should not
It's a risk I can take
It's an opportunity that came to me

Two sides insidE my head
One saying I should
I should tell him I like him
I should run out there and sing
I should audition for the school play

But the other,
Ohh the other side.
telling me I could fail
I could get rejected
Or hit a bad note
Of do a horrible job while on stage

Who or what should I do
Who should I listen too
They both make a point
I don't want to fail
I could take a rejection
I couldn't handle the embarrassment

But I know one thing
I cant loose if I don't bet
But I won't win either
And if I loose, I will know what love is
I will practice more with high notes
I would be a better actor

What's the worst that can happen
Rejection
Laughs
Disappointment
But that's life
I won't ever know

In the future I will regret it
Like I regret now
Not taking my chances in the ropes coarse
Not going up the caves
Not auditioning for the right plays

Besides it's now,
Later I will be better
And more prepared
And if I fall again  
I will know how to get up easier
The harder my first fall is
The easier it will be o get up on the next fall

I can do it
I will do it
I did it

Sometimes I feel stuck,
I feel like I have to fall
But that is not an option
Becaus I know that falling
Won't make me better

I know that falling is not a key
I won't open any doors at all
I know that the steps I take,
Are worth something
Maybe not now
Maybe not here
But somewhere and at some time
Those steps will tell my story

I am tired of stopping
I am tired of falling
For love
For friendship
For fakes
I won't fall again

I am strong enough now
I know the difference between true
And fake
I know my reality now
I know where I am headed too
I am heading to victory

Falling
Giving up
And looking back
Are not on my list
I won't step back and I will make it
BEcause in the end it will be worth it...

I am lost
I began to walk on the road
I kept walking
I was just looking down
I did not notice the path I took
And now I am lost.

I can't find the light
God please help me
I know you are there
You always are
I know you will find me
I know how pure you love is
I know you will lead me

I am lost,
I can see any more of the light
But far or close in distance
I know you are walking looking at me
Helping me
and guiding me to a better place.

No reason
No way to explain
Simply words
said by one in all
I am here
Writing for you
This poem
In free verse form

Thinking of what could be
Knowing no other way
Just sitting here writhing this free verse for you
just because it came to me
No reason
No rhythm
No rhyme
There is not Similes
No metaphors
Just a poem I wrote for you

To tell you I think about you.

One love

No words can describe what I am feeling today, right now. I see him after a long time, his eyes are still bright. His smile is still heart breaking. I still see the part of him that kills me. I am dying with the feeling that he doesn't feel the same love for me. There is something in his way of doing things, that makes me fall deep for him. The way he talks the way he laughs the way he can move mountains with one smile. I can't stop my heart from racing every-time he walks in the room. He is the light I need in my dam dark moments. Somehow I find a way to be better with him rather than without him. The way he talks and the way I can tell him everything with no pauses. He is everything I want in a prince. The simple feeling and the sensation of thinking of him makes me smile and feel a light hitting my heart.

Somewhere far from here I feel your hands over me getting closer. I can't see you but I can feel you just like the wind. I can't prove you are here, but I don't need proof of your love. I know your love exists and I know that love is real. The most pure love I know. There is much to loose but there is also much to win. I won't loose this opportunity to follow your path and follow you. God, I am here awaiting your presence and your love.

I want to forget
I want To let you go,
But the fact is that my heart
Is to attached to you
I have fallen love
I have died in your arms
I have not seen the light
Ever since I saw your eyes
I can't look back
Without wondering were you are
I can't breath without feeling you close
I can't try any longer
And more
I can't walk without knowing your at my side.
I can't see the distance I walked
Because I see you instead...

I am free from enslavement
I am free for chains
I can do anything I want
I am not alone
I do not need you
I an free
to be who ever I want to be

No man is worth me.
If he does not see me
If he does not know
or cant tell my love
He doesn't deserve me and now
I will forget that love.
Because I am Still young and
I still have a lot to do
before I die
So good Luck trying to find
Someone who loves you more than me!

I thought dying
was feeling alive
Now i know that all I need to feel alive
Is being in your arms

We are here to fight
For our future
We are here to work
For the better
We are here to try
Be being better people

We came here to follow hope
Day after day
Night after night
Sunshine to
Sunset
Seeing the sun
wanting to fly so high
Then the moon
dreaming of being that beautiful

We have so much to loose
And still we sacrifice
Our lives
Our dignity
Our future
All for the American Dream

One Dream
Hundreds of options
Thousands of possibilities
Millions in competition

All for one Dream
To be someone
And be worth something
All the dream

What I was yesterday
What I will be tomorrow
What I am today

Yesterday I was new
Tomorrow is not for me to say
Today is a surprise

I am sorry. For things I have said,
For the things I have done,
For loosing your trust.
I am sorry that a man took away my innocence.

I am sorry that I could not tell you before
I was just a girl
I sorry that I lost my virginity
because of a ****
I am sorry that you do not believe
I am sorry i did not know
what he was doing at the moment

I am sorry that there are cruel people out there
I am sorry that my father left us
I am sorry he never helped me
I am sorry that You did it all alone

I could not do anything at all
I am sorry that I was not the best daughter
I apologize for not knowing what you felt
I am sorry You grew up working
I am sorry you did not go to school
I am sorry I did not understand
that you worked all day and all night

I am sorry That I did not become the perfect daughter, I am sorry that a man made me worth less, I am sorry I tried to get revenge for the eight years of betrayal

I ran away just to follow you
I tried to keep on going
But you were too fast
I tried to keep up
I tried to not look back

I did not make it
I did not get to you
I tried to follow you
Hoping you fell in love with me
Hoping that you could see me
Thinking that someday you could run after me
Imagining that I could make you love me
Make you need me as much as I need you
Make you hold me tight and never let me go

But they are just dreams
There is nothing else between us
Nothing I can do to make you love me
You see her, not me
You play around with her, far away from me

This heart is dying
And it will not take anything more
This heart is too weak to suffer any more
That is why I keep quiet
You can hurt my heart
If you do not know it is there for you
I just wish you could know how much i Love you

I probably don't deserve you
And that is why God keeps us away form each other

I need hope
I need a reason to not fall
I need something to hold me
I need you
I need to have you here
I need you to notice me
I need for you not to leave
I need to see you here

Without you
I am lost
There is not path ahead
I can see clear
Nothing makes sense
Without you
I can find a reason to stand up

You give me courage
There is something about you that
Makes me stand up
Run to you
Follow you
It makes me want to be with you
I have to know that you are here

You are the reason why I wake up everyday
The reason why I never give up
Why I never let go
Why I keep trying
You are the reason why I am still here
I cant handle loosing you

You are the part of me that makes me feel alive
You are what makes me shine
You are the light inside all this darkness
You are what makes me fly
Even though you do not see me
I am here
Always
Forever

I loved you Once
I love you still
I always will

First day of school
I see you
Sitting down
Looking at me
My heart racing
My mind shut down
All my sences gone
Your eyes touching mine

One word
Hello
Two syllabes
Five letters
A million ways to fall in love

The first second
Even before
Of course
We were meant to be
I saw you in a dream before that day
Your eyes where as lovely
As sweet
As nice
And *** unique

I tried to hide it
Keep it to my self
I tried
And it worked
A love that hurts
By the knowledge that you felt nothing

Thinking that every second
I could loose you
I try day by day for you to love me
You flurt with others
But I am still here
Why? Dont ask me!

It is your fault
I fell for you the first day
With every word
Every laugh
Every smile
Every time I saw your eyes

Qnd even though this is killing me
I am still here
With this hidden love in my heart
Hoping you love me
Like I love you