Internal negotiations
Go on and on in my subconscious
Feeling cautious
Dipping my toes
In all of the unknown
This is the year I left all my comfort zones
Although this does not make me feel alone
I create what I decide to call home
The gates of negativity closed without a plea
I am full of positivity
In every vein
Leading all the way up to my brain
I feel it’s time I let go of all my pain
Unsure of its coming
Could it be maturity?
Or maybe just better at seeing the world I see?
Either way I have learned leading up to this day
There is no reason to keep positive energy at bay
Negative energy is what fuels the dark society
That is not somewhere I would like to be
Head up high, dripping my hair in the clouds
I do nothing but smile and make the best of the most
Now living by the coast
I feel the ocean is my host
Everyday feeding my brain
To just sit on its sand and let the waves wash away the pain
Growing is about learning your pain
Then letting it go straight out of your brain
We seed our own manifestation
So with a little happiness
Everyday
We can all be at bliss
Be kind to all strangers
Especially those that look anxious
They are the ones the need it the most
No loved ones to keep them afloat
Tell them something to get them to smile
Then walk away your job is done
They will be happy for awhile
Life is about the little things
But not the ones most of us thinks
It’s about spreading the love
To whoever you may reach
Because one day we all will be in
Solemn  Peace
Hand in hand
Hearts in another
Everyone you see has a mother
With them or not
We all were born to do something great
And not be forgot
Let go of shame
Let go of pain
Let life take you for a ride
Just go where it wants you to fly
That’s where you will feel the most alive
Never able to feel the need to hide
Be the person you want on the inside
It’s up to you to be your own guide
Hold onto the dream you had as a child
Even Something as silly as
I wanted to do something wild
We are the creators of our on nature

Sitting on the board
anticipation gripping me
staring at the tiny waves before me
taking them easily
closing my eyes
I breathe
fingertips soaking beneathe
I breathe in the big wave
Opening my eyes to my surprise there she was
she was beautiful
gracefully slicing through the water to greet me
I kiss the wave with the nose of my board
she takes me up
I am having the ride of my life
the wave starts to curl and I dip down and rip under
splashing the water on both sides of me
the hole looks way too small to surf out
dipping lower I grip my toes
The wave closing in on me
Maybe she was too big for me
she quickly engulfs me
swallowing me whole
sending me crashing into the koral
pain searing through my body I reach the surface
the tiny waves now taking me back tumbling down
each blow sends me spiraling down
reaching the surface I take a huge breath of air
choking out water
reaching the sharp shore
crawling through the shells
grabbing the remains of my destroyed board