I didn’t know how much I would need you
I didn’t know how much I would miss you
I didn’t know how much anything would ever make sense again
But here I sit, alone, at a table with tears rolling down my face
Remembering…. Remembering everything
Remembering the days we spent together
Remembering the nights I’d sit up alone
To wake up every single day, and these memories go to the unknown
I can feel you all around me, no matter the weather
I remember you, I remember us, I remember everything
I didn’t know that I would grow up and still need you
I didn’t know that I would grow up and still miss you
I didn’t know that I would grow up and still nothing would make sense
You gave me life, you gave me memories, you gave me your warm embrace
I hope when you left you found peace and you found grace
As I sit here and write this poem, if you’d call it that
The tears flow silently down my face.. The face that you once held in your hands
The face that you once gave strict demands
The face that longs for you every day since you’ve been gone
I’m still sitting here, remembering, remembering everything
Remembering the days we spent together
Remembering the nights we’d talk together
Remembering the childhood you helped make pure
Remembering the woman who you wanted me to be
I think it’s time, that I tell myself it’s okay, to set you free
This is NOT goodbye, but until we see each other again.
I love you, forever and always, gone, but never forgotten.


Stephanie Davis
10/23/20

Sometimes what we want isn’t what we need
And sometimes, what we need isn’t what we want
Sometimes, when we fail, we truly succeed
And sometimes, when we succeed, we are truly failing
Life is all or nothing but a mystery
And sometimes, living, doesn’t come freely
Sometimes, there are problems
And sometimes, there are solutions
But there is never a day
That can go without either….
For life has its ups and downs
And it's up to us, to fix our crowns
Sometimes, life isn’t what we want to do
And sometimes, life is all we have to get through
Sometimes, the world can be cruel
But sometimes, the world can be unglued
For life itself, needs help along the way
And because sometimes, it’s never a good time to walk away
So just remember, sometimes what we want, isn’t what we need
And sometimes what we need, isn't want we want

Stephanie Davis
10/23/20

You slapped me in the face
All because I was there at the wrong time
I was there, at the wrong place
You kicked me while I was down
All because I was younger and naive
You told me lies, only because you know I’d believe
Everything and anything you’d ever say to me
You pushed me while I wasn’t looking
All because you couldn’t stand to see me cry
You’re the reason I wanted to die
But things have changed and now I’m grown
I can handle things on my own
Being without you or around you
Has made me open my eyes
To a world full of love, and no more lies
No more hurt, no more pain
You can no longer throw shade at my name
You never cared, you never shared
You just wanted another piece to your abusive game
I don’t stand for bullying, or abuse
So let these words help you, become a better you
If you don’t try to change, then what’s the use
You’ll forever be a bully,
and I'll forever be a survivor.


Stephanie Davis
10/17/20

I’d be lost without you in my life
I’d be lost without you as my wife
I’d be lost without you in my world
I’d be lost without my forever girl
I’d be lost without your shining smile
I’d be lost with myself for a little while
I’d be lost without you here with me
I’d be lost without you loving me freely
I’d be lost without you endlessly
So please, don’t ever leave me
Because without you, I am not me
Without you, I am nothing
But with you, I am something
For you and I are one in the same
Someday soon we will have the same last name
We are two hearts beating as one
With a love, that can never be undone

Stephanie Davis
10/17/20

Being a diabetic
Comes with less treats and more tricks
Being a diabetic
Comes with many highs, and many lows
Being a diabetic
Comes with little catches, and so many blows
Being a diabetic
Has its ups and downs
Being a diabetic
Comes with problems from all around
Being a diabetic
Comes with lots of disabilities
Being a diabetic
Comes with the lack of your abilities
Being a diabetic
Comes with lots of responsibilities
Being a diabetic
Messes with your heart
Being a diabetic
May literally tear you apart
Being a diabetic
Comes with many hopes
Being a diabetic
Comes with a lot of false hope
There is no cure
There is no fixing
But those who are a diabetic
Can conquer the way of living
We can survive by fighting
We can live long lives
As soon as we find the silver lining
As long as the sun is shining
Our smiles can keep on flying

I am a type 1 diabetic and I know the struggle. If anyone reads this and needs a friend to talk to, I’m here.


Stephanie Davis
10/15/20

We’re fighting right beside you
You are never alone
No matter how near, no matter how far
We are always going to be there
In your heart, in your mind, in your soul
Fighting this with you is our forever goal

We can’t find the words to say
Because we never imagined the day
Where we would have to express our self
Express our self in terms of acceptance
Express our self in terms of fearfulness
But for you, our mother, we strongly say, God bless

You’re going through a rough time and we want to make it clear
You are worth it, We are worth it, and surviving is worth it
You are never alone, although you may feel like it
You are never lonely, although you may think it
You are important, loved, and we need you here

We’re fighting right beside you
You are never alone
No matter how near, no matter how far
We are always going to be there
In your heart, in your mind, in your soul
Fighting this with you is our forever goal

You may feel like giving up,
You may question if it's worth it, but it is
Trust us, you gave us life
We give you hope, we give you strength
Please don’t give up, you are our mother
And we will never get another
We love you with all our hearts
And if you give up, our worlds will be torn apart

I hate what it is you do to me
You got some kind of grip on me
Every time i try to leave
I turn around and walk right back
Something tugs, something pulls me back to you
My heart breaks, then it heals just to rebreak
If i leave is that the right choice
What do i do? What do i say?
You got the power over me and i’m so in love
In love with you, physically, emotionally, mentally, soulfully
So in love with you i hope nothing breaks us apart
So in love with you i hope nothing tears us apart
I hope this and i hope that
But baby you’re the only one who can keep us safe
So don’t push me away baby,
i need you just as much as you need me
This life we’ve created has memories
It has bad times, good times, in between times,
And I wouldn’t trade it for anything
My pain, my laughter, my tears, my smiles,
Is everything you manage to bring
I loved you then, i love you now,
I’ll love you until the end of time
I love you with all my heart,
To the moon and back
Infinity and beyond
Forever and always
I hate what it is you do to me
You got some kind of grip on me
Every time i try to leave
I turn around and walk right back
Something tugs, something pulls me back to you
Something tugs….. And something pulls me back to you