I’d be lost without you in my life
I’d be lost without you as my wife
I’d be lost without you in my world
I’d be lost without my forever girl
I’d be lost without your shining smile
I’d be lost with myself for a little while
I’d be lost without you here with me
I’d be lost without you loving me freely
I’d be lost without you endlessly
So please, don’t ever leave me
Because without you, I am not me
Without you, I am nothing
But with you, I am something
For you and I are one in the same
Someday soon we will have the same last name
We are two hearts beating as one
With a love, that can never be undone

Stephanie Davis
10/17/20

Being a diabetic
Comes with less treats and more tricks
Being a diabetic
Comes with many highs, and many lows
Being a diabetic
Comes with little catches, and so many blows
Being a diabetic
Has its ups and downs
Being a diabetic
Comes with problems from all around
Being a diabetic
Comes with lots of disabilities
Being a diabetic
Comes with the lack of your abilities
Being a diabetic
Comes with lots of responsibilities
Being a diabetic
Messes with your heart
Being a diabetic
May literally tear you apart
Being a diabetic
Comes with many hopes
Being a diabetic
Comes with a lot of false hope
There is no cure
There is no fixing
But those who are a diabetic
Can conquer the way of living
We can survive by fighting
We can live long lives
As soon as we find the silver lining
As long as the sun is shining
Our smiles can keep on flying

I am a type 1 diabetic and I know the struggle. If anyone reads this and needs a friend to talk to, I’m here.


Stephanie Davis
10/15/20

We’re fighting right beside you
You are never alone
No matter how near, no matter how far
We are always going to be there
In your heart, in your mind, in your soul
Fighting this with you is our forever goal

We can’t find the words to say
Because we never imagined the day
Where we would have to express our self
Express our self in terms of acceptance
Express our self in terms of fearfulness
But for you, our mother, we strongly say, God bless

You’re going through a rough time and we want to make it clear
You are worth it, We are worth it, and surviving is worth it
You are never alone, although you may feel like it
You are never lonely, although you may think it
You are important, loved, and we need you here

We’re fighting right beside you
You are never alone
No matter how near, no matter how far
We are always going to be there
In your heart, in your mind, in your soul
Fighting this with you is our forever goal

You may feel like giving up,
You may question if it's worth it, but it is
Trust us, you gave us life
We give you hope, we give you strength
Please don’t give up, you are our mother
And we will never get another
We love you with all our hearts
And if you give up, our worlds will be torn apart

I hate what it is you do to me
You got some kind of grip on me
Every time i try to leave
I turn around and walk right back
Something tugs, something pulls me back to you
My heart breaks, then it heals just to rebreak
If i leave is that the right choice
What do i do? What do i say?
You got the power over me and i’m so in love
In love with you, physically, emotionally, mentally, soulfully
So in love with you i hope nothing breaks us apart
So in love with you i hope nothing tears us apart
I hope this and i hope that
But baby you’re the only one who can keep us safe
So don’t push me away baby,
i need you just as much as you need me
This life we’ve created has memories
It has bad times, good times, in between times,
And I wouldn’t trade it for anything
My pain, my laughter, my tears, my smiles,
Is everything you manage to bring
I loved you then, i love you now,
I’ll love you until the end of time
I love you with all my heart,
To the moon and back
Infinity and beyond
Forever and always
I hate what it is you do to me
You got some kind of grip on me
Every time i try to leave
I turn around and walk right back
Something tugs, something pulls me back to you
Something tugs….. And something pulls me back to you

My pain is my pain
You can’t take away my pain
My pain is a pain that shouldn’t be shared
It’s a pain that’ll leave you scarred
Lonely, alone, and scared
Doors locked, windows barred
4 walls closing in, 4 walls fading out
This pain is a pain I can’t handle
Starting from one thing to another
It’s always a consistent all around or just about
This pain is pain that goes to your head
If you’re not careful, the demons, the voices
They will leave you silently dead
Its my life, its my pain, but it's not my choices
I was born this way, no one can fix me
No one can help me, this pain is my pain
It will never go away
No matter what the doctors do or say
The tears suddenly stop because I’m slowly fading away
Is there time? Is there faith? Is there anything to take away this pain
Probably not, so i’ll remind you one last time
My pain is my pain
You can’t take away my pain
Don’t you try to take away my pain
You don’t understand
But that’s what i’m trying to do
Is get you to understand
That you can’t take away my pain
My pain is my pain

I’m sick and tired of being told to stay positive
I’m sick and tired of being told to think positive
When the outcome is so very obvious
My body is rejecting me, my body is fighting me
My body is my temple, yet its abusing me
No body can see what i feel
No body can feel what i see
My body is supposed to be my body
But my body has become a stranger to me
Because of my body i cant live freely
Because of my body I cant sleep peacefully
Because of my body, i might end up as a photo gallery
Because of my body will anyone remember me

Will anyone remember all the times i’ve cried
Will anyone remember how hard i tried
To be the strong person, to be the positive one
When everything is said and done
Will anyone remember me, or what my body has become
Will anyone remember me, or the person i tried to become?
Will anyone remember all the pain i kept inside
Or remember how alone and dead i felt along the ride
Will anyone be there to pray for me,
As one day i hope this battle is one i can win
My time on earth hasn’t been so fair,
I’m still young, I want a chance to repair
To Repair my broken heart,
To Repair my broken mind
To Repair my broken family
To Repair everything that’s ever gotten in my way
To repair my body so i dont get thrown away
Because of my body will anyone remember me

I’m sick and tired of being told to stay positive
I’m sick and tired of being told to think positive
When the outcome is so very obvious
My body is rejecting me, my body is fighting me
My body is my temple, yet its abusing me
No body can see what i feel
No body can feel what i see
My body is supposed to be my body
But my body has become a stranger to me
Because of my body i cant live freely
Because of my body I cant sleep peacefully
Because of my body, i might end up as a photo gallery
Because of my body will anyone remember me

Will anyone remember all the times i lied
When being asked if i'm okay and i’d say yeah i’m fine
Ive become good at hiding my emotions
Because my body is no longer mine
I’m torn between many explosions
Would i be strong enough to fight
Or would i need an enhancer
Because of my body hating me
I’m afraid one day i’ll die lonely
Not because i’m not surrounded by people i love
Or by people who love me
But because my body is my temple
And right now, it’s abusing me

God takes those he needs
But what about us and our needs?
What about us who are left behind
Trusting that time will heal our hearts and minds
What about us, who are left to survive
What about us who has lost all motivation to thrive
What about us, the ones who are still alive
But the ones who feel nothing at all but death
The ones who are silently suffering
Slowly withering, our lives on hold like we’re buffering
God gives just so he can take
But what about us? Don’t we deserve a break
A year full of trauma, drama, and death
A year full of lies, trouble, and shortened breaths
What about us? What about the other ones he created
How can he keep us here feeling so defeated
Feeling so… lost, confused and belittled
When do we get to go home?
When do we get to stop hurting
So what about us?
The ones who want to live, but can’t
The ones who deserve a better life but it seems so distant
The ones that become drug addicts, or obliterated to the world
The ones he created, but never offered his hand
The ones he leaves here on earth
But I’ve always been told, God takes those he needs
But what about us and our needs?