It was all tunnel vision
The world was spinning
But there you stand
You were my beacon
I couldn't defend
I didn't have an ace in my hand

You left me with nothing but a empty hand

It hurt when I fell
But I got back up
And did it again
Only to fall over and over
Some of us maybe not the best of us
But some of us
We always make the same mistakes

Relationships are strange
You can be arguing but flirting
You can be laughing but at who
You can act happy but be miserable

Can't the world stand still
Just give me a minute to stop running
To take a breath and stand still
All I need is a second
To see the beauty of life again

I just want to yell
I want to scream
I want to punch a hole in the wall
And yet I have to accommodate
Everyone else

Trying to break these
Padlocked lungs
Trying to just yell help
But yet I still can't speak

I'm trying to be strong;
To help you through.
And you mean the world to me.
But sometimes I cant take more.
It only takes a little sound,
To start a avalanche.

In the time
In-between his breaths
I saw the mist of lies
His soul has whispered to mine

I saw the most beautiful
Most exotic antique
But as I reached out
It shattered...
Into crystallised shards
Not only does touch break
Just being near me
Is enough
To break everything

She's lost
I don't know where
I can't find her
She won't answer me
Is she gone

Sometimes I'm sick
Emptying my feelings
Into the pipes they go
Just to resurface later
To haunt me again

There has always been
The thought
It lingers
It spreads
It clings like a parasite
Why run
There's no escape
Just pain and suffering
But maybe that's okay

Sometimes it's hard
To pretend
To put on make-up
And play a game

If a door opens
You don't have to enter
It's human nature
To be weary

Theirs a difference between
Radio silence
And a comfortable quiet

Having a heart
Can sometimes
be...
A anchor
And you just can't escape

Without the joy of
Depression.
You can't find
Happiness.

A thought can be like
Being burned
At the stake

Sometimes I dream
But sometimes it's dark
Either colours
Or sensory deprevation
Those are my nights

See you in my dreams tonight
for the stars only align in the dark

When I said I was alive
It didn't mean I was fine
It didn't mean I wasn't hurting
It just meant I've left my shell intact

Even if the moon shall stop
and the waves shatter in their lonely dance
I will be there at the tide
Waiting for the salt in the air to stand still over the desert sand
to tell me stories of lost lands

Thinking about the past
Seems unreal
Like a dream
I've seen it and done it
But I'm just not sure it happend

I've been missing sleep
Talking when I should be in bed
Loving while my eyes burn
They say sleep heals
But nothing has healed me more
Than you

They say love is till death
That can't be right
How could I feel more dead
Than when I'm without you

I hate love stories
Not because I hate love
But because I don't want it to end

It's in our hearts we find peace
With family, friends, and lovers
And the heart heals and breaks
What more is there to say
We break we crumble
We heal we hope

Whenever I hear you cry
I feel something
It's not something words can say
I've searched
I hurt more than I show
And it feels like
Something is broken
When I hear you cry
I can't help but
Try to hold myself together
Because you are the reason I'm still here

When I said those 3 words
I meant them
I've told them to you everyday
Do you know the truth they hold
I love you

I'm worried
Not about me and you
But about everything

Yesterday I lit a cigarette
And I realised I hesitated
I pictured your face
And for a second I couldn't
I just couldn't have it
But addiction won
And now the cycle continues

Is it wrong
To want
Is it wrong
To talk
Is it wrong
To hurt
Is it wrong
To want to ****

I've always thought
Love was meant to be fire
Like a burning on my skin
Not a seed
Slowly seeking my heart
It's not like fire and out of control
It's slow demanding, sensual in a way
Love is something that blooms

You taught me to look
To open my eyes
You taught me to hope
To cope with the past
You taught me to be happy
To believe in myself
You taught me to love
To love myself, to love others
You showed me love
And love showed me, you

Me and I
We don't always agree
But there's one thing
We collectively know
We are lucky
To have met you ❤️

Why can't
I just get it right for once
Why do I always hurt them

I'm always worrying  
About when you'll move on
Find someone better
I'm not hard to replace
You've got men lining up
I'm worried
And scared
That'll you find someone else

I might never tell you
But you mean the world
I can't explain
How could I
I could I explain all these
Feelings and emotions
How could I let you know
That theres no one else
That even holds a spark
Next to a bonfire

I know your hurting
So am I
I would take your pain
But then I might break

What could be better
Than Coffee
A kiss
And laying in bed
With your special person

They all say
The night sky
Is beautiful
But I wouldn't know
I have eyes only for you

When we talk
I can help but think
How did I get this lucky

It hurts to love
It hurts to live
Time for another drink

When the poet talks
I hear their story
But when they write
I listen to their demons

We all have regrets
We all stray from our goals
But...
We also have hope
We all find our own paths

Why are you looking at me
Why do you look sad but happy
Why are you crying but smiling
Why does it look just like me

It’s been a while
Since I last thought of you
And honestly it’s been great
Not having to worry
Or struggle to cope
But sometimes
I let it bring me back
The pain is not always a burden
To keep under lock and key
Sometimes it’s good to remember
You can’t have love without the pain

Daydreaming
Of things unfathomable
Unable to sleep
Why is it us
Why are we here
Blood and war
Sometimes
It’s unclear
What we’re doing here

I’ve been wondering.
Why do I, always get…
The burden of all your ****.

Why can’t I speak
Ain’t I worth it

Why can’t it for once be me
Why can’t you stand me

I can’t do this anymore
The burden is falling down
And with it I’ll drown

So help me out
I’m just trying to live…
With myself

I follow
Not because I have no leader.
I follow because
If the world had to end,
I would want you beside me.
My eternal flame in this wasteland,
We call home.