I was gone in a day
I was gone in a way
I was gone in my mind
I was gone in my life
she was gone in a second
my heart was gone in a second
I was gone in a day
the pain will never go away

speaking without thought
losing my mind like I was taught
I was the teacher and I blocked it out
I was the student I lived in doubt
I rambled over and over with no prevail
evil will never fall with rambled thoughts
they own us all

a lowlife rascal
with nothing but swords
living off ***** words
hearing women whisper in my ears
feeling clothes fall off
and lust be strong
feeling adrenaline in my veins
and yet I will never be fulfilled
the person was gone years ago
and I still feel tears
they are gone a hole is in place
for all this hurt to fall into place
so let it be and let me fall
I will fall into deaths jaws

I take a breath and taste the air
I take a look I see your hair
I look down and see you bare
I think and I inhale a breath
time has slowed and my breath is shallow
I take a shaky breath and plunge
to a deal of love from within

Hazy thoughts embrace my brain
leaving me raddled and drained
all thoughts and power leaked down a drain
I can't think and I like it that way
all these thoughts of death go away
I don't care about life anymore
I just like the crystal water at the shore
the palms swinging in wind
and branches pulling and tugging
I think I'll go to the water and be in peace
maybe ecstasy was in my mind
shuddering of thoughts that I left behind
water is calm and kind
take me and leave this world behind

why do people only see a male
my body is not my ID
my body is not a stamp
I press my mind across
and I see a transformation
a female I see
through thick haze comes vision
a thought is not me
I'm not a gender ID

even through the wings of life and evil grows
even in life it will bide and it's power will grow
so grab my hand and squeeze it tight
don't let it go hold it with all your might
it won't be coming back anytime soon
Ill hold you and sing in lights tune
darkness is a shadow to light
with this power of lights might
let's stand and embrace and win the fight