I'm never good enough
Well, that's what it seems
I always feel unwanted
And I'm full of shame

You say you love me
Your actions speak
Louder than your words
I still feel really weak

I'm tired of being the one trying
While you don't give a ****
I guess it's time to give up
At least until you start trying again

Or it could be that I'm annoying
Just for caring a lot
And wanting to be with you

I guess that's not good enough, huh?
I'm trying my damnedest to make this work
But I need your moral support

I can't do this alone

Trust me, I love making you happy
But I want some happiness in return

Falling
            down
                     into
                            the
                                  dark
                                          abyss
Where my soul has been laid to rest
I don't belong in a place called heaven
For I have sinned too many times before

Down
         down
                  down
                           farther
I will just keep falling

Darkness has overwhelmed me
And swallowed me up whole

I'll never make it out to see light ever again
I get crushed as I f
                                 a
                                   l
                                    l
down and down farther
Knowing that today is the day I would die
I said goodbye

Roses are red, violets are blue
Sugar is sweet and perhaps so are you
But the roses have wilted, the violets are dead
The sugar bowl's empty, and your wrists stained red
The sun isn't shining, the sky isn't clear
There's no silver lining cause you're no longer here
Rain keeps on pouring, there's no end in sight
You're laying there frozen, so far from the light
Your beauty's unreal, your smile the sun
But time can't be turned, nor your actions undone
The words that you wrote that I only read
"I love you so much, please don't cry when I'm dead"
The bond that we shared; a love that ran deep
The pain that we shared; a friend I could keep
I wanted to hold you to wipe the tears from your eyes
Been there the moment you said your goodbye
I want to forget but most times I don't
I want to let you go but I know that I won't
Tears on my face, memories burned in my head
The roses are wilted and the violets are dead.

We all have a friend
Who's silver and shines
It pierces our skin
And draws the red lines

It leaves several scars
Over the years
But it let's out our screams
As well as our fears

It gives us relief
We need the sensation
But we keep it a secret
We hate the attention

Those perfect red lines
They become such a burden
But we do it anyway
Because we're tired of hurting

Some call us ******
But we know they're all wrong
They all know what to be
We don't know where we belong

We hide the scars
Behind jackets and sleeves
Our loved ones don't know
The cuts stay unseen

We try to act fine
So no one will know
But sometimes we slip
And the cracks begin to show..

By waiting for you, I gave you the key to my heart.
By waiting for you, I let you tear me apart.
By waiting for you, I thought you were the one.
By waiting for you, I've come undone.
None of this was what I planned.
You broke through the places I had banned.
With one look into your green eyes.
I saw myself, one hundred tries.
By waiting for you, I cut myself
By waiting for you, my heart died on the shelf
By waiting for you, your touch me suffocated me.
By waiting for you, your smile rejuvenated me.
None of this is what I planned.
You took my love in your hand.
Crushed it up and made it small.
Until I was made into nothing it all.
By waiting for you I gave you power.
The aftertaste of your love is sour.
But I will not wait for you any longer.
The love for myself is so much stronger
Why wait for love when I can have it now.
I won't wait for you to show me how.
I'll love myself in all my forms.
Even though your love was warm.
I took back the keys to my heart.
And now I can start.
To love myself, pure and true.
Without waiting for you.